love like wind

Yang Jiayou breathed lightly and lowered his head lonely.

Xu Li had never seen this kind of expression on Yang Jiayou's face, he only knew that Yang Jiayou was always bright, high-spirited, arrogant and unruly.Just at this moment, Xu Li actually wanted to say: I will accompany you wherever you go.

But thinking of the reality, his sister has been missing for many years, and studying abroad is a lot of money, so he can no longer use Uncle Yang's money.

Xu Li couldn't open his mouth.

On the way back, the two didn't say anything.

We have been together since we were young, and we only remember the splendid memories, but we forgot that we will part ways one day.

When Yang Jiayu entered school in September, the family went to see her off.

While parents were helping Yang Jiayu make up the beds in the dormitory, Yang Jiayou and Xu Li were standing downstairs in the girls' dormitory.

After a while, Yang Jiayu took her parents' arms and went downstairs with a bright smile. When she saw Xu Li and Yang Jiayou, she jumped like a white dove flying out of the attic, with a mysterious tone: "When I went upstairs, several girls asked Me, who are you two?"

Yang Jiayou smiled and asked, "Is everything packed?"

Yang Jiayu nodded, "It's done."

Xu Li stood silently by the side with a gentle smile.

At noon, the family ate in the cafeteria. Seeing the children gradually getting on the right track, Yang Zhenhua and his wife finally felt relieved.

Although Yang Jiayu's school is a secondary school, it has a good reputation in the local area, and the campus is quiet and open.The dormitory is a four-person room, and after a brief exchange of greetings, Yang Jiayu found out that Zhou Xiaozhi is from Hunan, and Le Han and Meng Ruyun are both locals.

When they came back from the cafeteria, they happened to run into roommates they had just met, and the girls cast envious glances at Yang Jiayu.

After seeing off my parents and brothers, my roommates gathered around, "Yang Jiayu, you are so happy."

Yang Jiayu sat at the desk, packed her clothes, and blinked, "What's wrong?"

Zhou Xiaozhi smiled and said, "My parents came to send me off in person, and there are two such handsome brothers, Yang Jiayu, what kind of blessings did you accumulate in your previous life?"

Le Han leaned forward and said with a smile: "Don't let the fat water flow to outsiders, hurry up and give me your brother's WeChat ID."

Yang Jiayu giggled, "Then why are you rewarding me?"

Le Han then asked: "The two of them have also gone to college, right? Which school are they in?"

"Nanjing University."

"Wow——" the girls made a fuss, and the dormitory was filled with laughter like silver bells. Zhou Xiaozhi said, "You are so good, okay, I invite you to dinner tonight, and quickly send me the WeChat ID."

Yang Jiayu has now discovered a new skill, 'selling' brother can be exchanged for food, so happy!

Although the talent is weaker than ordinary people, Yang Jiayu has been cared for by her parents since she was a child, and she is always concerned about her studies. She has achieved the limit she can achieve. For her, college life seems to have opened a new door, fresh and free.

All three children have gone to college, and Xu Ying has started a full-time translation job. Due to her persistence all the year round, her professional ability has not deteriorated.The family is developing in a better and better direction.

After the brief conversation last time, Yang Jiayou knew that Xu Li was hesitant about going abroad and that he had many choices in life. No matter what, he should respect Xu Li's thoughts.There are many classes in the third year, and there will be a lot of internships in the next semester. This stage has basically reached a watershed.Everyone is preparing for their future whether they are going abroad, studying for insurance, taking postgraduate entrance examinations, or getting a job.

Throughout their junior year, both Yang Jiayou and Xu Li were busy with their studies.

There is a tacit understanding between them that doesn't need to be said much. Occasionally, they will eat together and go out for a stroll when they have time. It is a very gentle company.This kind of relationship seems to be between friendship and love, maintaining a delicate balance, which makes people feel very comfortable.

Yang Jiayou's inner balance was broken during the summer vacation of his junior year.

Xu Li found an internship. He is usually busy, and he has to study some things by himself when he comes back at night. Considering that people often play games in the dormitory, it affects the quality of sleep.Xu Li saved some money from a part-time job before, and took the time to look at the house and wanted to rent a single room.

This day, Yang Jiayou came to Xu Li's dormitory as usual, and found that his bed was empty, only a few mattresses were placed in the closet. He asked Wang Yunfei, "Where is Xu Li?"

Wang Yunfei took off his headphones, "Oh, he moved out last week, didn't you know?"

Yang Jiayou's heart was pounding, and before he could react, he turned and walked out, and called Xu Li directly: "Where are you? Why did you move out?"

The beeping sound of the subway came from the other end of the phone, and Xu Li stood near the door: "Oh, I haven't packed my things yet, so I haven't had time to tell you."

Yang Jiayou said, "Send me the address."

"It's so late, let's go to another day." Xu Li looked up at the distribution route of the station, and there were still several stations before he arrived near the school, "I'll invite you after I pack it up."

Yang Jiayou was furious, "I told you to send it, so you will."

Before Xu Li could speak, Yang Jiayou hung up the phone directly.

Xu Li looked at the phone, a little depressed, so he had to send an address.

When I got home, it was almost 30 o'clock in the evening. This place is a few steps away from the school, but fortunately, I can take a bus directly to it.Surrounded by office workers, the single room is relatively easy to rent, more than [-] square meters, only the bedroom and bathroom, the desk is placed near the window, very quiet.

Not long after, Yang Jiayou knocked on the door. After looking around, his face was not very good, "I have to move out, the dormitory is not good?"

Xu Li poured him a glass of water, "It's quiet here, I'm a light sleeper, and sometimes I have to stay up late to write code, and my schedule is different from theirs. I saved some money before, so it's no problem to rent a single room."

"Do my parents know?"

Xu Li smiled, "You are such an adult, do you still need to report everything?"

"No matter how old you are, in front of them, you are still the same as when you were a child."

Xu Li's heart warmed, and he said softly, "I know."

Yang Jiayou found a place to sit down, palms up, "Give me a key."

Xu Li glanced at him, half-jokingly: "Why? You still want to check the post?"

"What if you have something urgent? It's not like I'm at school, I can come over at any time." Yang Jiayou was always worried about Xu Li, afraid that he would encounter problems that he couldn't solve.

Xu Li had no choice but to take out a spare key from the drawer, emphasizing again and again: "State in advance, tell me before you come."

Yang Jiayou snatched the key angrily, "I can come whenever I want, it depends on your mood, doesn't it?"

Xu Li laughed out loud, and could only follow him: "All right, all right."

When he went back, Yang Jiayou felt empty in his heart. When he went downstairs, he looked at the floor where Xu Li lived, and the lights were still on.He was thinking, now that Xu Li just moved out of school and graduated later, are the two of them getting farther and farther?

Thinking of this, Yang Jiayou was very sad.

He never had the word "separation" in his mind, and he was used to Xu Li's presence.If there is a new movie released, Yang Jiayou will ask Xu Li to watch it together. It's not a date, just watch a movie normally.

Occasionally, Yang Jiayu would be with them when she was free. She likes to eat popcorn. After the whole movie, her mouth is not empty.

Every time Yang Jiayou looked at his younger sister and Xu Li, a sour feeling surged in his heart. Did the time belonging to the three of them become less and less, and could they no longer be as close as they were when they were young?

Occasionally, I would have some unrealistic thoughts, wanting to indulge the real thoughts deep in my heart-get closer to Xu Li.But after thinking about it, how sad will it be for parents to know in the future?What's more, he couldn't get over the hurdle in his heart, he didn't accept the fact that he was gay.

But he couldn't see Xu Li, and he missed him so much, he didn't even know how to express it, clumsily like a big bear.

Yang Jiayou knew in his heart that when Xu Li confessed his confession at the beginning, he took a somewhat risk-free attitude and did not intend to search for any results.In the follow-up, Xu Li did not cross the line in any way, and even kept avoiding suspicion, trying to escape.He wouldn't blame Xu Li, this was a matter between them, and it was easy to talk about anything.

But ask yourself, before Xu Li confessed, did he have no idea about Xu Li?

Yes, possibly earlier.

Yang Jiayou may not be able to explain the specific moment. He has deep feelings for Xu Li. He loves Xu Li like a younger brother, has the appreciation and trust of a close friend, and smells his T-shirt to usher in the urge to climax.

Yang Jiayou is like a gambler sitting in a casino. Fate tells him to hand over his family, friendship, and love. He turns the turntable quickly. When the dice are spinning rapidly, people are dazzled.

However, the hand of fate crashed down on the table, and the dice stopped rolling, beguiling him to hand over all his chips.

How should I bet?

No matter how you bet, you lose.

Yang Jiayou shook his head feebly, and put all the weights that belonged to him back into his pocket.Even if they become sharper and wear away his pocket, maybe the weight will roll to the ground in the next second due to the insufficient load of the pocket.

That's better than watching them all lose.

Yang Jiayou didn't want to think about it anymore, as long as Xu Li was still by his side, he should cherish it.

On weekends, Yang Jiayou came to look for Xu Li and knocked for a long time before Xu Li opened the door with disheveled hair.

"What time is it? Are you still sleeping?" Yang Jiayou closed the door, seeing that the computer on the desk was still on, and the development board flashed red light from time to time, "Did you stay up late yesterday?"

Xu Li went into the bathroom in a daze, and let out a 'hmm'.

"Had breakfast?"

Xu Li was brushing his teeth, his voice sounded indistinct, mixed with toothpaste foam, "Not yet."

The faucet turned on the water, Xu Li only heard the door 'bang', and when he came out again, he found that Yang Jiayou had disappeared.

Xu Li wiped his face with a towel, and sat in front of the computer wearing a T-shirt and big pants. Yesterday, a piece of code stuck for a long time, and he couldn't debug it.Yang Jiayou came just in time, he was originally a computer student, let him take a look later.

But Yang Jiayou was always in a hurry, he would come and go when he said it, and now he didn't know where he went.Xu Li took a sip of warm water, but decided to send him the electronic file later.

Not long after, the door was unlocked, and Xu Li turned around in surprise: "Didn't you leave?"

Yang Jiayou said angrily, "Who left? I went down to buy you breakfast." Then, he walked over with the rice balls he bought from a convenience store, "Who told you to wake up so late."

Xu Li took the bag in his hand and walked to the water dispenser: "Drink water?"

Yang Jiayou didn't speak, and followed Xu Li's footsteps to look over——

He felt that Xu Li was very strange. He seemed to press a certain button on Xu Li's body and let him see a completely different Xu Li.

For example, Xu Li is now dangling around the room in big underpants, with bare calves, white and thin ankles, stepping and stepping when walking, not so well-behaved, very lazy and relaxed, like slippers kissing the floor .

He remembered that Xu Li was not like this in the past, he could be described as 'eating without talking, sleeping without talking', everything was neatly arranged.But now, Xu Li's things are placed very casually. Yang Jiayou guessed that he might be sitting on the floor with a laptop on his lap, with short messy hair on his head, and focused on typing on the keyboard.Maybe he will put the water glass on the ground and pick it up when he is thirsty.

If Xu Li is a pine cone, from the earliest peel of the green onion, there is no gap on the whole body, and all the nutrients are accumulated to absorb sunlight and water; then the peel turns brown, and layers of gaps can be seen; The pine cones open like an umbrella, like a small pagoda, exuding the smell of pine wood from the inside out, which is very attractive.

Yang Jiayou gradually realized that Xu Li had been ripened by time uncontrollably, turning into a familiar yet unfamiliar appearance to him.He was robbed by time, and he didn't know who to ask for justice.But Xu Li was still standing in front of him, he didn't even know when the friendship fermented.

Xu Li's complexion is fair, his eyebrows and eyes are soothing and relaxed, and there is an indescribable wantonness and sloppyness.The light and shadow made Xu Li's facial features softer, and his lips were moist and plump, which made people's hearts tremble.

At this moment, looking at Xu Li, Yang Jiayou suddenly felt that rock and roll can conceive; fish can swim in the desert, and sharks should be renamed sharks; watermelon juice is hot; salted egg yolk is not salty, but sweet; orange soda is splashed in the air Every breath is like blowing bubble gum; roses should be planted on the moon, and love letters should be written to space.

All the contrasting things will appear on Xu Li at the same time in a harmonious way.

If I have to use one word to explain it, it should be called 'romantic'.

Oops, my heart is beating wildly.