love like wind

Yang Jiayou wanted to say that he had a great time this afternoon, and ordered his favorite purple rice cake for dinner, if only you were here.But with all the emotions stuck in his throat, he couldn't say a word.

After a while, Xu Li said softly: "I should go to Beijing later. I haven't officially told Uncle Yang about this. You are my best friend. I will tell you now."

Only then did Yang Jiayou realize that what Xu Li wrote on the card was true, he was a little sad, "Why do you have to go to Beijing?" He thought for a while, "What if I can't get into Tsinghua University? You know, apart from strength, Sometimes luck matters."

Xu Li's voice was nasal, as if he was still a little stuffy, "There are many other universities in Beijing."

Yang Jiayou's eyes were wet, "Is it to hide from me?"

"Not all." Xu Li's tone was very light, without any emotion.

Yang Jiayou said in a muffled voice, "That's not to avoid me."

Xu Li turned around, his eyes were very honest, "Jiayou, seeing you, I can't be the same as before." He closed his eyes, "Maybe I can still do it if I stay away from you."

Yang Jiayou felt that Xu Li was talking angry, angry at the sentence he said yesterday that he didn't like it, that sentence should be very shocking, but Yang Jiayou was so confused that he wanted to burn the ball of thoughts in his heart.

Xu Li said: "Don't cry, crying too much is bad for your eyes."

"What about you? Why were you crying yesterday? Don't you know that I'm worried about you?!" Yang Jiayou sat with his legs apart, panting.

Xu Li smiled, his eyes were clear, "I promise, I will never cry in front of you again, and I won't make you worry."

Yang Jiayou held back his tears, feeling that Xu Li was bullying others. Yesterday he cried so sadly, but now he didn't have a single tear, but he was out of his mind for a whole day. When he was sitting in the taxi, he was still thinking, if Xu Li continued to cry, what would happen to him? At once……

Yang Jiayou didn't dare to continue thinking about it.

Xu Li explained: "I drank alcohol yesterday and lost control of my emotions." He looked at Yang Jiayou, "I'm not drunk now, look, I'm normal."

Yang Jiayou sniffed and touched his forehead with the back of his hand, "Has the fever subsided?"

Xu Li didn't react as violently as yesterday, and nodded slightly, "Back."

The Xu Li that Yang Jiayou was familiar with seemed to be back, and everything last night was like a dream.

But Yang Jiayou remembered very clearly that he didn't drink alcohol last night, and the person who drank was Xu Li!

The two of them faced each other in silence, and the atmosphere seemed a little depressing.

Many years later, Yang Jiayou was thinking, if he could understand his own intentions that year, he would not have missed so much time with Xu Li.But life is long, comprehension will never be one second earlier or one second later, it will only come when it should come.

"You go to rest too, I want to sleep." Xu Li said calmly.

Yang Jiayou felt like he had a lump in his throat, so he could only say: "Okay."

There are still a few days before the score is released. Even if Xu Li wants to go to Beijing, Yang Jiayou will still treat Xu Li like before. No matter which city Xu Li goes to or what major he studies, he should respect Xu Li's wish.Now that the traffic is so developed, if you want to find him, you still have a chance.

Yang Jiayou comforted himself so much.

Although some thoughts flashed in my mind, for example, I couldn't help holding Xu Li's hand in the past; seeing his lips, I would think of strawberries; only by smelling the smell of Xu Li's T-shirt could I reach climax.Yang Jiayou never told Xu Li these things. He thought that even if these things had not been said, they should not be harmful to Xu Li.

So far, due to growing up together, friendship accounts for at least 98% of Yang Jiayou's feelings for Xu Li, and the remaining 2%. Yang Jiayou thinks it is the restlessness of adolescence. Xu Li has red lips and white teeth. Can't help but treat him a little more kindly.What does this have to do with 'love'?Yang Jiayou couldn't convince himself.

But why did I hear Xu Li ask 'do you like me? ', saying "I don't like it", Yang Jiayou felt so uncomfortable. For a moment, he really hated Xu Li, and hated himself even more. Why was he so obsessed with who Xu Li liked?If I hadn't been forced to ask, wouldn't I have known the result?

The balance of friendship is broken, and something is sweeping Yang Jiayou's world again.

In the first 18 years of life experience, Yang Jiayou didn't even have the concept of homosexuality at all. He vaguely heard about "Brokeback Mountain" from his classmates. He only knew that two big men loved each other to death. , to help him fulfill his wish.

Yang Jiayou couldn't understand, how could a man like a man?Isn't this inexplicable?

After careful consideration, Yang Jiayou couldn't find any girl who could make his heart flutter.

When he was a child, he was troubled by family affairs, thinking every day how to quarrel with his sister and how to fight for justice.After entering adolescence, he focused all his attention on basketball and studies. As for the girls next door and left talking about him, he didn't feel at all, he only felt that they were noisy and keen on gossip.Sometimes, Yang Jiayou would blame Yang Jiayu for his natural prejudice against girls.

It's all because Yang Jiayu has been crying since he was a child, which made the family very troubled. He looked at the girl and wished he could hide away.

It's not like this when I see Xu Li, Xu Li doesn't like to cry, he is very quiet, he can understand some things without repeating them.Xu Li is Yang Jiayou's study partner, teammate on the court, and best friend in life, who can confide in weaknesses and shed tears.

Is this feeling love?If you lose Xu Li because of love, fuck love.

Yang Jiayou wanted to stay with Xu Li for the rest of his life, not for any reason, because being together was very comfortable, very happy and at ease.

Seeing other people, Yang Jiayou would get impatient and pick and choose, like wearing a pair of extremely ill-fitting shoes.Xu Li is different. If he wants to be a king, Xu Li is his beloved sword, which is hidden in the scabbard and will not be shown easily.Of course, a good sword cannot be used for hacking. It must be cherished and poured into it constantly. Only in this way can a sword have a sword soul.

It is said that "a bamboo stick and straw sandals are lighter than a horse, and a cloud of mist and rain can make life easier", but Yang Jiayou feels that he can "hold a sword in his hand and let him live forever". He does not regard Xu Li as a simple object, but really thinks that he can rely on a sword go all over the world.

They were all gleaming young men, high-spirited and scolding Fang Qiu. What the hell does this have to do with love?What is love?Love can make people full of passion and fighting spirit, can it be "to be able to help the world while being poor"?

If you have to use a word to summarize the relationship between Yang Jiayou and Xu Li before, you have to use the word 'love'. Yang Jiayou feels that his feelings for Xu Li go beyond love, because with Xu Li, he can see the world and feel it. The power to open life.

These things are by no means what love can give.

So he was crying, he felt that the sword was about to be unsheathed, and he couldn't hold it anymore.

The feeling of tearing made him feel very painful. He was thinking, why should he endure the loss after pouring so much effort into the sword? !

Yang Jiayou felt that except for the moment of heart palpitations, he was unwilling to exchange the rest with love.

There are too few bargaining chips in love, why should Xu Li be taken away from him?

Xu Li must be obsessed with ghosts to say such nonsense. He knows what the words "I like you" mean?Not to mention the far away, what will the parents who are close by look at them?What would my sister think?Not to mention the people around.

Xu Li must have drunk too much, his mind was muddled, and he had a convulsion to say those words.

Yang Jiayou said to himself, my lord does not remember the mistakes of villains, so forgive you this time!

He sat on the single sofa in his room, looked at the carpet in front of the window, and remembered that they used to sit here and talk about their thoughts, caressing each other's wounds, like two beasts cuddling together for warmth.Xu Ligang's pale face appeared in his mind, lying quietly on the bed, Yang Jiayou remembered the unpacked purple rice cakes on the table, and felt very regretful.

Why can't you treat Xu Li better?

Even if he didn't want to exchange love for so many years of friendship, why didn't he speak more tactfully?Why did you just blurt out 'I don't like'?Did this sentence hurt Xu Li?

He couldn't even bear Xu Li's frown. Xu Li must have been very sad when he hid on the sofa yesterday and cried.

All of Xu Li's reactions yesterday could be explained. It was precisely because he liked Yang Jiayou that he felt uncomfortable facing his concern.

Yang Jiayou sniffed. In fact, he knew that Xu Li would be restrained in Yang's house, not as comfortable as in his own home, but there is no better place to go than here. Even if Xu Li has grievances, it is inevitable in life.

It must be that Xu Li felt too lonely in this world, and since he was always by his side, Xu Li was also afraid of losing, and even became attached.Yang Jiayou knew better than anyone else that he would never be indifferent to Xu Li.

Some people's feelings become weaker and weaker, but Yang Jiayou is not that kind of person. He will not give up easily on someone or something he likes, let alone change hands easily, because he is careful when choosing , how could it be destroyed by time?

Before Xu Li came, Yang Jiayou also had many friends, but none of them made people feel like Xu Li was close, determined, and down-to-earth. You don't have to think too much, he can always stand firmly behind you.

These are not only the kindness of his parents to him, what's more, his parents said that in order to relieve Xu Li's psychological pressure, if he wants to settle the money in the future, his mother will remember the money for him, not for him to pay it back, but for him to pay it back. It is to make him feel at ease in the future.

Tacit understanding, trust, mutual assistance, companionship, respect, appreciation, friendship, etc., so many things, do you want to exchange love for one?

Why? !Strong buying and strong selling?Yang Jiayou was so aggrieved, he didn't want to!

Yang Jiayou is not stupid, love breaks up as soon as it is said, and it will be even more difficult to find such a tacit understanding in the future. This is a huge loss in life. In Dad's words, the risk is too high and the gain outweighs the loss.

At that time, Yang Jiayou didn't know that all the hard thinking today had nothing to do with "like".

Because what he wants can be summed up in one word - 'love'.

'Love' is much more precious than 'like'.

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"Love Is Like the Wind" mainly talks about the love process between Yang Jiayou and Xu Li——Yang Jiayou was wary of Xu Li at the beginning, gradually became a close friend, and then fell in love with Xu Li without knowing it, and finally got together.Real growth requires overcoming difficulties, so they will take some detours. This article is not purely sweet, but there is no big knife, let alone a third party.I want to incorporate thinking, growth, and change into this story. I don’t know if the direction of this story meets everyone’s expectations, so I write this passage so as not to disappoint everyone, bow down.