The whole world thinks I want to die

Cheng Ning froze on the spot for a moment, a little afraid to accept that this person who was still with him for a second and could spend more than half a month's salary to buy sugar for him just lay in the ground like this.

The most sad thing at this time is Meng Shulang, seeing how he is now, you can't stimulate him.

Cheng Ning didn't know what to say, since he was not the one who died his lover, so he sighed and left.

When I came back, the sanatorium had changed. When Cheng Ning ran out, it was still sunny, but now it has become gloomy, and only the sky above the sanatorium is dark.

There was clearly still the sun in the sky, but the air over the nursing home was inexplicably dark, and blood was even spilling out along the ground.

Cheng Ning felt a stabbing pain in his head, and when he recovered, he had returned to normal.

Seeing the suddenly elongated arms, Cheng Ning was still not used to it, he blinked his eyes and got used to it for a few seconds.

Then, without hesitation, he raised his foot and walked into the nursing home.

When I entered, I found that the entire nursing home had changed. The ground was covered with a thick layer of blood, and there were yellow marks on the outer wall pasted with white tiles. In the only building of the nursing home, countless arms protruded from the windows. .

It was only when Cheng Ning walked to the hall that he realized that the entire sanatorium could not be overstated by a mountain of corpses and a sea of ​​blood.

There were stumps and severed arms everywhere in the hall. These seemed to have just been cut from the person, and the blood on the ground was still bright red, slowly flowing under his feet.

This kind of scene is not scary, but there must be nausea, Cheng Ning pursed his lips, hesitated a little and stepped in.

pat...

pat...

The feeling of walking on bloodstains is definitely not good, as if thousands of worms are crawling on the soles of your feet, and Cheng Ning has goose bumps all over his body when he walks.

Enduring the nausea all the way to the seventh floor, seeing so many corpses on the way, Cheng Ning was completely at peace with the maggot-covered body facing him right now.

I don't know why he came here, but Cheng Ning always felt as if something was leading him here.

Back in his ward, the door was locked, Cheng Ning stretched out his hand and pulled it tentatively, the lock cylinder was already very rusted, so he yanked it hard, as expected, the door unlocked.

It was obviously a rusted iron door, but when it was pushed, it made a creaking sound like a wooden door, Cheng Ning didn't care much, and walked in.

The room was unexpectedly clean, the blood outside the door did not get in at all, the room was still tidy as if it was inhabited, the sheets and quilts were all brand new, and there was even a glass of juice on the table, as if for a gift. He prepared it specially.

"I love you……"

A scene appeared in what should have been an empty space. The man in black clothes lowered his head slightly, looking at the slightly shorter young man in front of him, with gentle and tender eyes.

The young master in Biluo's clothes was embarrassed to look at him, his ears turned red, and he gave a soft "hmm".

As if encouraged by something, the man grinned, hugged the man in front of him, and kissed softly from his forehead all the way to the corner of his mouth.

The scene changed, and there were still the same two people. The man in black half-kneeled in front of the young master, took him into his arms, and used his back to resist the arrows that kept coming.

The son was dazzled by crying, and refused to hide himself, but was suppressed by men time and time again.

After the wave of arrow rain passed, the man lowered his head, but his arms were still wrapped around his waist, tightly clenched, even though his body was stiff, he did not dare to let go.

The young master seemed to have shed all his tears, his eyes were dull and dull, and he seemed to be chanting the man's name.

After a long time, he broke free from the man's arm and struggled to reach for an exquisite dagger that fell not far away.

The dagger was too far away from him, so he put himself on the ground and crawled on the ground with his elbows. The sand and stones had worn away the skin of his elbows, leaving a winding bloodstain.

It was only then that Cheng Ning could see that the son's legs were bent at an inconceivable angle, and he twitched from time to time, which turned out to be useless.

The young master struggled to get the dagger, and crawled back in the usual way, retracting himself into the man's arms, and took the dagger without hesitation.

wiped his own neck.

Cheng Ning vaguely heard him say: "No intention... said that he would accompany me for the rest of my life..."

His tone was soft, and his voice was extremely weak. The north wind outside the Great Wall blew past, and the unfinished words were scattered.

Cheng Ning blinked, then frowned suddenly, suppressing the raging power in his body.

That is malice that loses the meaning of life.

The strangeness of this force, Cheng Ning could only guess that it had something to do with the scene he saw just now, he couldn't hold on no matter what, fell back unsteadily, and sat on the edge of the bed.

He just slowed down a bit, and another scene was constructed in the air...

This time it is the period of the Republic of China.

The eldest young master returned from overseas, bossing around in his shop, suddenly caught a glimpse of a figure walking by on the side of the street, stared blankly for a few seconds, and did not come back to his senses until the steward beside him called out.

A few days later, the young master was doing accounts in the shop, the street was decorated with lights and firecrackers, it was Chinese New Year.

It was the first time the scholar came in with a frosty suit, and asked with a smile if there was any jade piece. The young master sold a piece of suet jade at a loss-making price, and gave him a jade inkstone.

In the midsummer season, the young master fished out the flooded scholar with red eyes from the lake, couldn't control himself, and kissed the corner of his eyes.

The next year, they left the capital together and went to a remote hospital to work as doctors. They lived in the same dormitory and slept in the same bed.

The scholar has a gentle temperament, if there is no one around, no matter how shy he is, he will let the young master come, and greet his kiss with a trembling body, which often makes the young master soften his mind.

The scene changed suddenly again. The scholar was tied up in a prison. The thin long gown on his body couldn’t cover the scars. There were whip marks and knife marks across his body. Some of them had healed, some had just appeared, and the blood was as thick as water flow down.

When the young master found this place, what was left was nothing but a cold corpse.

The so-called relatives around him were all for his own good, the young master didn't listen to a word, he hugged the scholar's body in a daze, and walked back step by step to the remote dormitory far away from the mountains.

He buried the scholar with his own hands in the land where they had promised to lie together a hundred years later, carved a simple tombstone, and talked with the tombstone all day long.

Later, when his family found out, taking advantage of his inattention, they were stunned and quietly burned the scholar's body, thinking that the young master would not miss him any more.

The young master was finally driven crazy by them. He began to guard the broken tombstone all day long, refusing to eat or drink, and he became so skinny that only his bones remained.

Then Cheng Ning saw that after those people wanted to destroy even the tombstone, the young master picked up a knife, one...two...

He killed them all, and finally, he walked into the sea of ​​fire.

He said, "I'm sorry."

sorry……

I have failed you in this life.

sorry……

If you hadn't met me, you would have lived a brilliant life.

……

A series of emotions poured into his mind, lovers who were originally loving were forced to separate life and death, relatives whose blood was thicker than water were forced to turn against each other...

These malicious negative emotions kept drilling into his body, Cheng Ning couldn't hold it back, fell on the bed, shrunk himself into a small ball, sobbing softly.

Gu Xisen in the empty space cast aside his eyes, not daring to look at him, for fear that he could not help but hold him in his arms, but he couldn't restrain his worry, so he could only glance at him every once in a while.

Shang Sa on the side didn't want to look at his cowardly appearance, twitched the corners of his mouth, and patted his back: "If Ah Ning doesn't make it through once, he will die."

Gu Xisen nodded obscurely, and said, "I know..."

If you know it, you know it, seeing the baby he holds in his heart suffers like this but can't do anything, this feeling of powerlessness is what frustrates him.

Just like what Cheng Ning felt, the world has less and less goodwill. If he only relies on that rare emotion to live, he will dissipate sooner or later, so now Cheng Ning must understand a truth. , There is also kindness. In fact, these two emotions can coexist.

General and Duke

Even though the ending of the son is tragic, they are cuddling each other at the last moment of their lives. If they can live happily ever after, they will go to hell with their loved ones. At least for them, it is also a blessing to die together.

The final frustrating disappointment was mixed with too much love, and those strands of love were like morning glories entwined on the branches, weak and vulnerable to a single blow, yet tenacious to climb a hundred meters into the air.

Cheng Ning has never understood this truth, even if he is a god with light, he has never known what is human heart.

Human psychology is difficult to understand. One moment they may be chatting with you freely, and the next moment they will put on a straight face and make sarcasm.

So it's too difficult to think that there is only kindness in a person's heart forever, but Cheng Ning firmly accepted this truth. As a last resort, Gu Xisen could only use this method to let him understand that people's hearts are changeable, and there is no complete kindness. Nor is it all evil.

He couldn't help but look at the bed again.

Cheng Ning felt even worse right now, he didn't even have the strength to hum, and broke out in a cold sweat, soaking the sheet under his body forcibly, his face was pale, and he seemed to be dying in the next second. To lose breath.

But he was still alive, and he could feel a burst of light suddenly pouring into his body, which was clearly at the end of his life.

He heard the young master of Fengguang Jiyue say: "Even if it's death, it's my original intention to die with you."

He heard the gentle and jade-like scholar say: "What is human love? It's just you."

He also heard the mother-in-law who passed by once said: "People live to die. If this is the case, it is a beautiful thing to be able to die with the one you love."

Consciousness was up and down, Cheng Ning frowned, groaning like a kitten, although he didn't understand what they meant, but the kindness pouring in did make him feel a lot better.

The author has something to say: I knew that you would not talk to me because of the abuse now QAQ