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The back of the neck seemed to be embedded with a steel nail, and the movements were sluggish and painful. Xu Ning sat up slowly. Only a wall lamp on the wall was on in the room, which was suddenly illuminated by his unsteady sight. Suddenly dark.

He is back again.

After standing still for two seconds, he got out of bed sideways as if thinking of something, and called softly: "Jelly?"

The man on the other side of the bed felt the movement and opened his eyes: "I didn't see me when I woke up, so I looked for the dog first?"

Xu Ning sat on the side of the bed and didn't move any more. His gesture of resistance seemed to be very alienated from the speaker.

Lin Pengfei propped himself up and pushed Xu Ning back on the bed: "It's midnight, go to bed first."

Xu Ning lay there on his back, letting Lin Pengfei cover him with a quilt: "Where's my dog?"

Lin Pengfei said impatiently, "Run away."

As soon as the dog ran away, Xu Ning grabbed the corner of the quilt and said nothing, then turned his back to the man behind him, he curled up like a boiled shrimp, thinking that the jelly might be brought back by force I feel bad when I run away.

It is agreed to take good care of it, and throw it away if one can't take care of it.

No matter how many times he left, he would come back. Even if he didn't want to, Lin Pengfei would always find a way to bring him back.

It's not that he didn't resist, it's not that he didn't escape, but the result was the same, everything he did was in vain.

Xu Ning sucked his hair-blocked nose, he was tired, his heart was tired, but he didn't know how to get out of this ever-increasing mental exhaustion.

Soon, the quilt was lifted, the bed shook slightly, and there was the sound of the door opening and closing after the sound of slippers being pulled.

Listening to the series of voices made by Lin Pengfei, Xu Ning knew that the man was leaving again.There were so many nights when they lay side by side on the bed without communicating, one of them was cold-hearted, the other was cold-faced, and then they broke up unhappy.

He has long been used to it.

From the initial heartache to the current numbness, he has come a long way.

Long ago, he would not beg that person not to go to others but to stay for him. In the end, he had no choice but to nod because he knew he couldn't beg.

Let's go, it's best to leave him alone.Xu Ning twisted his mind and thought.

But after a while, the string of voices came back.

It was a small creature thrown on the bed, Xu Ning sat up suddenly, and saw Jelly sticking out her tongue, staring at her watery eyes, and pushing her nose against the quilt.

When he hugged Jelly into his arms, Lin Pengfei had already lay back on the bed, with a bored expression on his face, he frowned and said, "Hurry up and go to sleep."

Xu Ning put a pillow at the head of the bed on the floor beside the bed, and after putting jelly on it, he retracted into the bed. In the quiet air, he could hear jelly's still breathing.

There was a hand around his waist, this kind of gentle movement was not common, he hesitated and leaned back against the man's chest.

Xu Ning also hated himself like this, no matter how many injuries Lin Pengfei gave him, as long as he made up for it a little, he would disarm and surrender, and magnify that little bit infinitely, to the point where he thought it was love for him.

This is cheap, he understands.

It's just that I understand it, but I haven't changed it.

Lin Pengfei could give him everything extravagant, but it seemed that he had cut back on love a long time ago.I would coax him and pamper him when I was in a good mood, but after all, I was suspected of copying and pasting.Xu Ning didn't expect too much, but if he could give it to him, he would keep it, even if it was the same as giving it to others, he didn't dislike it.

He knew that he still loved this man who was sometimes indifferent and sometimes gentle, so he couldn't just hug and sleep with each other.

This time, Xu Ning fell asleep last, but woke up first. He couldn't find Jelly when he probed, so he gently lifted his arms from the bed and got out of bed to look for it.After finding the dog in the bathroom, he made some oatmeal, softened it with milk and fed it.

Lin Pengfei seldom stayed in bed, if he hadn't been drunk the night before, he would have left by now.Xu Ning took all his actions lightly, he didn't want to wake up the man, he wanted him to stay here for a while.

It was the cell phone that woke Lin Pengfei up. Xu Ning, who was busy in the kitchen, listened carefully, and it should be either Xin Han or Shan Hong.

"Come and pick me up."

After Lin Pengfei finished the last sentence, he threw the phone on the bedside table, looked around and said, "Xu Ning!"

Xu Ning trotted to the door of the bedroom, wearing an apron and holding a spatula in his hand: "I made breakfast, let's get up and eat."

Lin Pengfei threw away the pillow and yawned: "Find me clothes, all in black."

Every time Xu Ning heard this order, he knew that Lin Pengfei was going to attend the funeral.He went back to the kitchen and turned off the fire, wiped his hands and walked into the cloakroom.

Lin Pengfei stayed here countless times, but the clothes hanging in the cloakroom accounted for most of them.He skillfully took out a black suit, arranged the matching tie and leather shoes by the way, and stood by the drawer to choose a tie clip and put it there.This tie clip was a gift from him when he just graduated. Although it was not expensive compared to others, it still cost him nearly a month's salary.

His last omelette was cooked, and Lin Pengfei finished washing.Seeing the man go straight to get dressed, he asked, "Don't you eat first?"

Lin Pengfei focused on wearing his tie without looking back: "Don't eat."

"But I'm done."

"That's too late."

Xu Ning always dismissed him so hastily, and sighed silently: "Then at least have a glass of milk."

Lin Pengfei, who was wearing trousers, frowned: "I said I won't eat, are you annoying?"

Xu Ning didn't dare to ask any more questions, he was afraid that the jelly running over would make the man unhappy, so he strode over to stop him, but Lin Pengfei's legs were faster than his hands, and he kicked the dog away with one kick.

Jelly, who was kicked in pain, howled and hid under the chair. Lin Pengfei was even more annoyed by the sound.

"Why do you have to get a dog! Send it away."

Xu Ning, who was still half-bending and maintaining the posture of hugging the dog, stood up straight: "The house is so big, I only live upstairs and downstairs, you don't come here often, can't I have a dog to accompany me?"

Lin Pengfei put on his suit jacket and raised his hands: "I'm so busy that I don't have time to take care of your little emotions. You'd better be more sensible to me."

"I won't send the dog away."

Lin Pengfei picked up his phone, glanced at Xu Ning and walked towards the door: "Whether you like to send it or not, I'm too lazy to care about you."

The sound of the door slamming and the horn of the car outside sounded together. Xu Ning stood still and took a deep breath, then ran to the dining table and threw all the tableware on the ground. The plates fell to pieces together.

He stood by the table and looked at the mess. If the doorbell hadn't rang, he might have to throw something to vent his anger.

After knocking on the door, he asked the outsider: "Aren't you kicking the door this time?"

Shan Hong came here to pass on the message. Seeing that Xu Ning smelled of gunpowder, he quickly smiled: "Brother Ning, Brother Fei said to come here to eat at night."

Xu Ning snorted from his nose and was about to close the door, but Shan Hong blocked the door with his hand, his voice was smiling, but his tone was not confident: "Also, that... last night I'm just following orders, don't blame me."

Xu Ning closed the door with his hands, and muttered: "There is nothing good."

I don't know if Lin Pengfei was afraid that he would still choose to leave, so he said that he would eat here to comfort him at night.Xu Ning was very useful. After the whole day, he stayed at home except for driving and shopping.

He set up a comfortable kennel for Jelly, and the pile of toys he bought was all over the floor as soon as he brought them back.

With the tenacious psychology of post-disaster reconstruction, Xu Ning chose to turn over the unpleasantness that has happened and avoid it.

Lin Pengfei is also like this, never brings up old debts, and often slaps him with sweet dates, but this method works for Xu Ning.

They have come so far, and they can't say who is right and who is wrong. One is willing to fight and the other is willing to suffer. Sweetness deserves sweetness, and bitterness deserves it.

Lin Pengfei really came that night, he didn't lose his temper with Xu Ning, and he didn't find anything wrong with Jelly.

Xu Ning's cooking was extremely to Lin Pengfei's taste. He had grasped the man's stomach long ago, but let go of the heart that no longer only contained him.

At about seven o'clock, Lin Pengfei, who had just put down his chopsticks, answered the phone.

Xu Ning, who was cleaning up the dishes, heard a few ambiguous words when he passed by on the pretext of getting things. of.

Xu Ning's heart was in pain from being gouged out by a knife. Lin Pengfei hadn't laughed at him for a long time, but he was willing to give this inadvertence to others casually.

It's not that he doesn't know that Lin Pengfei has colorful flags fluttering outside, but he just doesn't know if he is also classified as a colorful flag now.Younger than him, prettier than him, everywhere.The more he thought about it, the more inferior he became. He didn't know when he would be completely isolated from Lin Pengfei's sight.

He just wants to live the life of an ordinary person, aside from money and fame, at least he wants to be the only one he loves.

It is such a simple request, but it cannot be possessed.

The heart has never died for a moment, it is always a little bit suffocated.

The blood never froze for a moment, it just clotted little by little.

In the face of this love, his enthusiasm and sincerity have long been dissipated in the repeated passive hurts and active forgiveness.

What is stubborn is that he doesn't want to admit it, and he naively wants to follow the eternity promised in his youth.

Hearing Lin Pengfei calling him, Xu Ning put down the water glass he was holding.

"I have something to deal with, so let's go first."

The knuckles of Xu Ning holding the water glass turned white, and when he went out to meet others, he said that he was out to meet others. Why dare he not speak up, what right does he have to be deceived by good intentions.

"We," Xu Ning slowly raised his head, "let's separate."

Lin Pengfei turned around: "Are you fucking moving out again?"

Xu Ning's Adam's apple twitched: "I mean, let's break up."

In the past seven years, he has said these two words in too many quarrels and temper tantrums, but he has never lost his mind. He just wants the man to be nervous and keep him.

But at this moment, in the blink of an eye, he made up his mind that he really wanted to end it.

He's had enough of being tied together, and he's had enough of suspicion, and he's had enough of deception.

Piling up resentment will definitely ruin the original appearance of love.

He wanted to stop greedily stopping here with the few good things left.

He doesn't want to be mean anymore.