go home with him

Ling Mao didn't get up until almost twelve o'clock, and walked down the stairs with the handrail, walking like an old woman: "Shall I have stewed fish soup for lunch today?"

Gu Kena lay on the sofa with his legs crossed like bones, and clicked his tongue when he saw him: "Will the stewed fish soup produce milk for you?"

Ling Mao ignored him. He walked to Su Qiming's sofa and leaned against him. Su Qiming said slowly, "Let's go out to eat. I'll take you to the county to take a bus after eating."

Gu Kena changed to a lying down position, tsk tsk: "I don't even have a car, I was poor to death in the last shift, and I had to run around."

Ling Mao didn't want to talk to him at first, but after he glanced at him, he couldn't hold back and said, "Are you going back with me?" He didn't want Su Qiming to stay with Gu Kena at all.

Gu Kena raised his eyes and stared at him: "Who will go back with you, you left Su Qiming here alone, I can't accompany him?"

Ling Mao took a sneak peek at Su Qiming. Su Qiming was watching TV like an outsider. He licked his lips and swallowed thirstily. Only then did Su Qiming, who had been staring at the TV, turn his gaze to his face: " What?" He smiled, and passed a cup of warm tea on the table to Ling Mao, "Look at what I'm doing, my face is blooming?"

Ling Mao reached out to pick up the tea, and drank the water there with lowered eyebrows, thinking about how he should let Gu Kena leave Su Qiming's side.

Su Qiming stood up from the sofa, he patted his clothes, and gently stroked Ling Mao's hair: "Are you hungry, let's eat." After speaking, he glanced at Gu Kena, "Let him stay Well, he can't stay in this place for a few days with his temper."

Ling Mao opened his mouth to speak, Su Qiming took a floral shirt from the coat rack and put it on over his clothes, opened the door and walked out.

Gu Kena lay down on the sofa: "Do you only have flowered shirts at home? When did my Uncle Qiming wear such flamboyant clothes?"

Ling Mao stood up from the armrest of the sofa and looked at Gu Kena for a long time: "He is much more flirtatious than you know." After speaking, he frowned, "You come with me."

Gu Kena sneered: "You still asked me to do it?"

Ling Mao paused for a moment, his face became very ugly in an instant, and then walked outside in silence amidst Su Qiming's shout at the door: "Well, here we come."

Because of his anger, Gu Kena kept a straight face all the way, when he was eating, and when he sent Ling Mao to the bus leading to the city, he also kept a straight face.

When Ling Mao left, he hesitated to look at him for several times, and finally smoked a cigarette at the door of the car. He stared at Su Qiming for a long time: "You..." He paused.

Su Qiming looked at him, and ordered the car to start: "Let's go."

Ling Mao took a deep breath on the cigarette, threw the cigarette butt on the ground and crushed it with his head down: "Are you waiting for me to go home?"

Su Qiming let out an "um" from his nasal cavity.

Ling Mao paused again, and finally took out a cigarette from his pocket as if he had no place to put his hand, and put it in his mouth. When he took out the lighter, he said vaguely: "You know, I really like it a little bit. you."

Su Qiming hummed again.

Ling Mao lit a cigarette for himself with his eyes down, and when he exhaled, he looked like he was sighing: "Although you are a bastard."

Su Qiming raised the corners of his mouth and smiled: "It's really not a good idea to like bastards."

Ling Mao had a lot to say and a lot to ask, but he didn't dare to say or ask. Gu Kena, who was in the way, stood not far away and said eccentrically: "The car is about to leave, you still go Don't go, are you bothered?"

Ling Mao put the lighter in his pocket, put his hand in the pocket for a while, and finally took it out again as if there was nowhere to put it. His little finger moved in the air. This finger was cut off before, and it is actually a bit dull to use. of.

After graduating in his 20s, he only wanted to enter the public security system. After ten years of hard work in the system, he was finally able to handcuff Li Ruohou with his own hands. He has never thought about anything during this journey, and he is determined to go his own way even if he dies on the street someday. That could also be called his home.

Who knew that there would be a Su Qiming in this world?

Ling Mao's hand paused in the air, and finally grabbed Su Qiming's sleeve uncontrollably. He lowered his eyes and took a breath: "You..." He said, "You really have to wait for me to come back. Home."

Su Qiming still gave a "hmm".

Ling Mao dropped the cigarette in his mouth on the ground, turned around and got on the bus.

He really had nothing to do, never had anything to do, even though he knew he was being played by that bastard.

Su Qiming pulled his hand when he climbed into the car, then touched his little finger, and after letting go, he waved to Ling Mao: "Let's go." He said, "See you next week."

When Gu Kena followed Su Qiming back home, he searched Ling Mao's house upstairs and downstairs, and then lay down on the sofa after going downstairs: "Isn't this his house? Why are there no traces of his parents?"

Sitting on the sofa, Su Qiming didn't know what he was feeling in the cracks of the sofa, and said, "This is his old house, and his parents moved to the county seat a long time ago."

Gu Kena lay on the armrest of the sofa and looked at Su Qiming, wanting to ask a hundred questions: "Why did you jump off the boat, what did you lie to him about, and why did you stay here for so long?" After thinking about it, "Tan Tianming also knows?"

Su Qiming glanced at him, and finally took out something from the sofa.

Gu Kena squinted his eyes and looked, only to realize that it was his mobile phone, which fell into the crack of the sofa at some unknown time, and he clicked his tongue.

Su Qiming answered the last question with a smile on his face: "He'll know right away." After turning on the phone, Gu Kena could hear a lot of messages popping up on his phone after a few seconds.

He smacked his mouth: "I didn't expect me to be so popular, and I haven't turned on my phone for more than a day."

Su Qiming lowered his eyes and dialed the phone. He put the phone next to his ear, and after a while the call came through: "It's me."

"..."

"Well, he's with me."

"..."

"Ah."

"..."

"it is good."

This conversation was very simple, and Su Qiming hung up the phone within 2 minutes.

Gu Kena crossed his legs on the sofa, looking very excited: "I have found the person he has been looking for for so long."

Su Qiming put his phone on the coffee table over his body, and replied casually: "Yes, Xiao Ke is the best."

Gu Ke Na repeatedly snorted twice, and finally asked: "Are you leaving?" After a while, he asked again, "What did you lie to him for?"

Su Qiming glanced at him and laughed: "It's fun."

Gu Kena frowned at him, and finally looked away: "Is it interesting that you always fool me like a child?" He was silent for a while, "What's the fun, if I don't find you, are you going to be in this country place?" Stay forever?"

Su Qiming was still laughing there: "How come?"

Gu Kena suddenly sat up from the sofa, and he sat cross-legged on the sofa: "He said that you were unhappy in the past, and you were happier staying with him in this rural place." Gu Kena suddenly felt a little sad, " If I had known earlier, I would not have come to look for you." After speaking, he looked at Su Qiming, "Uncle Qiming, would you be happier staying with him in this crappy place?"

Su Qiming still had a smile on his face: "Even to buy a condom in this place, you have to take a car to the city to buy it. How can I be happy?"

"..." Gu Kena poked the sofa with his fingers, and suddenly didn't want to talk to Su Qiming, and finally scratched his hair irritably, "Doesn't the people who come from your poor place know how to speak human language?"

He paused, and suddenly thought of something that he had always felt was a bit inconsistent: "Did Ling Mao also grow up on Heping Street?"

"..." Su Qiming paused, "You have to ask him yourself."

Gu Kena sat silently on the sofa. In fact, Heping Street has long since ceased to exist. The dilapidated and messy street had been re-planned more than ten years ago. At that time, a large area was demolished, and now it has become a commercial center. The tallest building belongs to Tan Tianming.

He stepped on the ground where he himself had struggled to survive.

For a long time, that place could almost be called an abandoned place. All kinds of people were there, and it was normal to meet a dead person just around the corner.

Drug addicts and prostitutes, children who don't know who their father and mother are, teenagers who can stab others to death because of a candy.

Gu Kena saw that there were photos there in old newspapers, and the comparison pictures before and after the renovation occupied a large area of ​​a newspaper.

The headline on that newspaper roughly said, "The newly appointed mayor of Li signed the notice of the old city renovation, committed to building a better and more beautiful city."

Gu Kena's mind was full of that old newspaper, and he thought about Li Ruohou for a while in the old picture that was too blurry to see the face clearly, and also thought of Tan Tianming, thinking that Tan Tianming was only a child in his early ten years old at that time. My child, after working so hard to get a full stomach on that street, I still think of Su Qiming, and maybe this person named Ling Mao.

Finally, he thought of Gu Zonglin. When he was seven years old, the building had just been completed, and Li Ruohou went to cut the ribbon. Ten-year-old Tan Tianming was holding his hand and standing in a corner not far away.

Finally, I thought of the temperature of Tan Tianming's fingers.

Gu Kena turned his head to look at Su Qiming: "Did you all know this person named Ling Mao?"

Su Qiming really thought hard there: "Maybe, I robbed too many people's things and beat up too many people when I was young."

Gu Kena stared at him: "I used to think I understood you quite well, but now I don't understand at all."

He thought for a while, and then said, "Each of you seems to have a lot of secrets." He said, "But I don't. I'm the only one who doesn't have any secrets."

"You have never regarded me as your family from head to toe, not even a friend, right, Uncle Qiming?"

"..." It was rare for Su Qiming to fool him without making jokes.

Gu Kena looked at him: "I have been guessing what you and Tan Tianming are thinking since I was a child." He said, "I even felt that I understood you for a while."

Gu Kena thought for a while: "I thought I knew Tan Tianming well."

"Because I think I understand it, so I always give in. You see, I am forced by him to the point where I can't go home. I'm thinking that I can hold on, hold on a little longer, just a little bit. .”

"I thought he was walking towards me."

"I've been coming closer to you."

Gu Kena was really sad, his eyes were sour, and he covered his eyes with his hands. He felt that he was the most pitiful existence in this story. He gave his feelings and gave a lot of things that belonged to him.

In the end, no one was moved except myself.

He was such a failure, like a clown.

He reached out and wiped away the tears that seemed to be rolling out of his eyes uncontrollably. He didn't want to cry at all, and it would look like a failure. He should stand up from the sofa coldly and say hello to Su Qiming, Tan Tianming or Whoever wants to get back what belongs to him, let the two of them go to hell together.

And leave this goddamn disgusting city with the stuff.

He can go to Shi Jie. Last time, Shi Jie asked him to introduce a man, a good-looking man who was about the same age as him.

That person can at least feed back his feelings, whether he accepts or rejects, at least he will give himself a normal reaction.

That person should be a normal person.

He grew up with the love of his parents, maybe participated in small group grooming activities during his teenage years, but that's okay, he has grown into a complete and healthy adult.

You can receive love and you can give love.

Is a normal adult man.

They can experience love as well as parting healthily.

Whatever, he should have realized this earlier.

Neither Tan Tianming nor Su Qiming are worthy of him.

Two seconds later, Gu Kena heard Su Qiming calling him, "Xiao Ke."

Gu Na wiped away the tears that kept overflowing from the corners of his eyes, he tried hard to hold his breath, and said without raising his head: "You are not good enough for me." He said, "Whether it is you or Tan Tianming, you both Not good enough for me."

Then he heard Tan Tianming's voice coming from the mobile phone, distorted like an electric current.

He said, "Xiao Ke."

"I'm very sorry."

"Yes, no one is worthy of you."

Then he said that his voice was a little wheezy, Gu Kena had never heard him speak in such a tone.

Over the years, Tan Tianming had never spoken to him in such a tone.

He seemed to be pleading: "I'm in the car going to your place."

"I will look for you."

He said, "Don't go, I'll take you home."