go home with him

Gu Kena laughed, Tan Tianming's tongue slipped through the gap between his lips, and the hand covering his eyes also moved his long bangs back along his head, Gu Kena opened his eyes wide open. eyes on him.

Tan Tianming looked at him with lowered eyes, and said without expression: "The hair is too long."

Gu Kena stretched out his hand to stroke his hair, and lay on the bed with a big smile: "I want to keep it long enough for the shawl." He stretched out his hand and compared the position of his shoulder, "Here, does it look good?"

Tan Tianming frowned: "It's not pretty."

Gu Kena curled his lips and skipped the topic: "Father, is there anything to do?" Under normal circumstances, Tan Tianming should be so busy now that his feet are off the ground. Li Ruohou has been arrested, but Tan Tianming can still calm down It is strange to lie idle in bed and sleep the whole day.

Tan Tianming scratched his hair with his hands, but still had no expression: "I will trim my hair in a few days."

Gu Kena laughed again: "I'll go back to school in a few days."

Tan Tianming stood beside him and looked down at him: "What?"

No one knew what his "how" was asking. Gu Kena licked his lips, and he felt that there was still Tan Tianming's taste on them: "Anyway, I can't help you here, so I promised my friend." Going to see the Northern Lights."

After he finished speaking, he made a "hiss", and Tan Tianming's hand along his hair seemed to have accidentally pulled off his hair. After retracting, Tan Tianming touched his finger and said "oh".

Gu Kena stretched on the bed, Tan Tianming suddenly said in a deep voice: "If you don't want to cut it, forget it."

"Ah?" Gu Kena was puzzled for a while, and then realized that the person was talking about his hair, Gu Kena clicked his lips, and really didn't know when he would be able to talk to Tan Tianming on the same frequency.

It always feels like a chicken talking to a duck.

Gu Kena thought for a while and asked a question that Tan Tianming probably wanted to talk about: "Did you send someone to find Uncle Qiming?"

Tan Tianming frowned and seemed to be rubbing his fingers irritably: "Yes."

"Not found?" Gu Kena suffocated, "Why did he jump into the sea by himself?"

Tan Tianming lowered his eyes and looked at his rubbed red fingers with some doubts, and said, "There are many small fishing boats passing by fishing over there."

Gu Kena frowned, and asked again: "Why did he jump into the sea?"

Tan Tianming was a little annoyed, no one knew what he was annoyed about: "How would I know what he thinks?"

Gu Kena was annoyed by his impatient tone: "Why can't you talk to me properly?!"

Tan Tianming shifted his gaze to Gu Kena's face, and he paused for a while, trying to suppress his temper: "I'm just a little annoyed."

Gu Kena stared at him for a while, and suppressed his petty temper: "Uncle Qiming, let's not talk about it, how are you doing?"

Tan Tianming frowned: "It's nothing."

Gu Kena sat up from the bed, suppressed his temper and said: "Since there is nothing wrong, then I will book a ticket to go back to school tonight." He turned and got out of bed, looked back, and Tan Tianming was leaning on the head of the bed Look at him coldly.

Gu Kena was stared at by him for a moment.

Tan Tianming said in a cold voice: "Ku Kena, your wings are stiff now, aren't you?"

Gu Kena stared at him twice: "Yes, the wings are stiff, and they are about to fly, can you stop them?"

Tan Tianming looked at him with a cold face for a long while, and Gu Kena also looked at him with a straight face for a long while.

The two of them seem to be engaged in a contest that they themselves don't know what it is, and whoever breathes a sigh of relief first will be defeated like a mountain, and there will be no chance to resist.

Gu Kena didn't want to do this at all, but when facing Tan Tianming, he was always unable to control the emotions that he clearly could control well. Tan Tianming was like some kind of bait, he could always invisibly lure himself to shut himself up quietly in the The monster in the mountain forest came out of the mountain.

Gu Kena's hand moved unconsciously in the air, he took a long breath and blew up his bangs that blocked his momentum, and then took a step back: "I'm hungry."

Tan Tianming suppressed his gaze, and stood up from the bed, as if nothing had happened: "What do you want to eat tonight?" He walked outside while talking, his pajamas were hanging lazily on his body, Every step the clothes float in the air for a while.

Gu Kena stared at the hem of his clothes rippling with his steps, he thought that Tan Tianming kissed him on his own initiative, Tan Tianming missed him, maybe even couldn't do without him.

That's right, Gurkana thought.

It should be more difficult for Tan Tianming to know himself than for Sun Wukong, who is at the bottom of the mountain, to pry Wuzhishan up with his own strength, but he is trying to do so.

Gu Kena also unconsciously rubbed his fingers, and when Tan Tianming's clothes stopped at the door, he suddenly called out: "Tan Tianming."

Tan Tianming's feet didn't move, and the hem of his clothes moved with his body.

Gu Kena looked at Tan Tianming: "Do you feel lonely when you are alone at home? Sometimes when you go home at night, you are the only one in the whole room."

"I don't even have a lamp for you. When I'm tired, I lie on the bed and I don't have a finger to move. But when I'm thirsty, I can't get someone to hand you a glass of water."

"When you wake up at night, only the sound of your own breathing can be heard in the whole room. You have a lot of things you want to tell people, but there is no one around you."

"In the evening when you are free - if you have it, you sit in the car or walk on the road alone, those alleys are full of aunts dancing in the square, the family of three walks side by side on the road to digest food, someone leads you The dog was chatting with people around and everyone was noisy."

"You're the only one standing on the road. They all have homes, but you don't."

Gu Kena looked at Tan Tianming and said, "When you stay alone in a house with four walls, do you feel lonely?"

"Huh?" Tan Tianming didn't speak, he asked back from his nasal cavity, the expression on his face didn't change at all.

Gu Kena said: "I will."

He said: "When I was skiing with my friends in the Alps, I turned a few laps and fell a few times. When I got up, people around me were moving and laughing, and I felt very angry."

"When my roommate took me to see the night view of the city, I was also very angry when I saw Wanjia lights up there."

"They took me to snorkeling and surfing. When I entered the water, I felt like I was the only one left in the whole world. When I got out of the water, there were noises all around my ears, but I still felt that I was the only one standing there. There."

"I went to see the great migration of animals at the beginning of the year. I saw herds of bison running in one direction, giraffes grazing in the sunset, lions resting on the grass, and elephants walking forward with heavy steps. I just watched there, how strange, I didn’t think of any magnificent life and freedom under such a scene, I actually thought of you sitting alone on the sofa in the living room at home when I was more than ten years old.”

Gu Kena paused, and added in a general way: "I thought of you."

Gu Kena thought that he had been to so many places and met many people, but he still needed Tan Tianming.

Tan Tianming is very precisely and clearly needed.

Tan Tianming turned around at the door, he glanced at Gu Kena, saw Gu Kena standing there, he didn't know why he suddenly felt funny.

He did indeed lower his eyes and smile.

He grew up on the most dilapidated and dirtiest street in Qi City. When he was three years old, his father died at home due to a drug overdose. The police dragged his father's body from the road full of waste water like garbage. However, when he was five years old, his mother gave birth at home and died at home due to excessive blood loss. The child, who he didn't know whether his brother or sister, was suffocated to death in his stomach. He stayed with two corpses in a room of several square kilometers. For several days, until he was so hungry that he crawled out of the house to find something to fill his stomach.

The stench of the dead body was discovered by people on that street who were used to the smell of all kinds of stinky sewers.

Tan Tianming laughed: "If you want to ask me what is the difference between the rotten food and the food on the table, I can tell you about it."

What is loneliness, it should be a luxury that belongs to Gu Kona.

Gu Kena lowered his head and kicked the ground with the toe of his shoe, wanting to laugh and angry at the same time, but the expression on his face was expressionless in the end.

Tan Tianming gathered his clothes together by the door, the neckline was a little too wide, and the two collarbones were very obvious.

Tan Tianming raised his footsteps and walked towards Gu Kena slowly, and said as he walked: "If you ask me what is the difference between the leftovers that have been spat on and the leftovers that have not been spit on, I can tell you that there is actually no difference. difference."

"If you ask me what is the difference between stabbing someone else's body and stabbing your own body, I can tell you that the blood is hot, and it is as hot as it is sprinkled on the body."

"If you want to ask me what's the difference between when I'm about to die and when I'm alive." He walked up to Gu Kena, with a flat tone without any ups and downs, "I can also tell you about it."

Kouka looked up at him.

Tan Tianming said: "If you still want to know about my feelings, I can tell you about them."

Gu Kena was still looking at him.

Tan Tianming was also looking at him, his eyes so calm that he looked like a bystander.

Gu Kena seemed to feel the thin air suddenly, he took a deep breath eagerly wanting to inhale oxygen, then he nodded his head.

Tan Tianming blinked his eyes slowly. Many things in this world are the same to him. He opened his mouth and wanted to add something about all the encounters in his life that he could use to talk about.

Gu Kena interrupted him loudly: "Everything in this world is the same to you, right?" Gu Kena kicked the ground with his toes again, and he conveyed to the other party so frankly——I need you.

I've been to many places, met many people, and found that I still need you.

It’s not pathological dependence, it’s a man’s need for another man, it’s the need of a house with you in a house surrounded by walls, it’s the need of you in a galloping scene to show life’s magnificence , It is the need for your lamp to be on under the lights of thousands of houses, and it is the need for you to stand in front of the sea several meters deep in silence.

Now the person who is needed tells him—in fact, it’s not bad.

It was rare for Gu Kena to feel sad, but in the final analysis, he didn't know who he was sad for.

Gu Ke said: "Tan Tianming, so you don't need me, right?" He turned his head and looked at Tan Tianming after asking, his expression was very clean, and he was not overwhelmed by his sadness at the moment: "You Let me be your son, not because you need me, right?"

"I was kidnapped in my teens, and you went to rescue me alone and then lay in the hospital. It's not because you need me, right?"

"You slept with me on the night when I was 17 years old, it wasn't because you needed me, right?"

"You threw me to school, of course not because you need me."

"You let me come back and let me go, of course not because you need me."

"You told me that I might be in danger in Saki City, so it's not because you need me to leave me to go back to school, right?"

"Even when you kissed me in bed a few minutes ago, it wasn't because you needed me, was it?"

Gu Kena paused: "Then I'm leaving now, is that okay?"

Tan Tianming stretched out his hand, and when he raised it halfway, he put it down again.

Gu Kena brushed past him, Tan Tianming paused on the spot, he felt as if he had something to say, some very important words.

He couldn't remember anything.

For example, many things in this world do not make any difference to him, living or dead, a home with a father and a mother or a home without close relatives, eating delicacies or chaff today, drinking strong wine or clear tea.

He turned and walked back to the bed, frowning and sitting on the bed.

I think he must have forgotten to say something important.

For example, to speak frankly to Gu Kena.

Just one sentence.

do not go.