deep in the sky

"Oppa, do Bigbang's brothers dislike me?" Han Yunzhen clutched the seat belt in front of her, turned her head sideways, looked at Li Seunghyun who was driving seriously, and asked softly.

Li Shengxuan shook his head, smiled and comforted: "Don't think too much, Yunzhen, the brothers are just slower, they are very nice."

"Oh..." Han Yunzhen lowered her eyes and stopped talking.

Although she is not very old and doesn't know much about the temperament of Seung Hyun's oppa's brothers, she can still vaguely feel the attitudes of those brothers.

Brother GD is hostile to her.

Brother Yongpei looked a little overwhelmed and a little anxious.

Brother TOP has an expression of staying out of the matter and watching the show.

Only Brother Lou, who has been smiling at her all the time, trying his best to show her the greatest kindness...

Han Yunzhen looked at Lee Seung Hyun's focused side face, feeling a little dazed for a moment.

Seunghyun is so good.

In the party just now, she clearly felt the countless jealous eyes from the women around her. She could only try her best to look like she was not stage fright, but... she was still uneasy all the time.

What does he like about her?

In his circle of life, there are many girls who are more beautiful than her, and she is just a student, and her family is not very rich, why would he choose her?

Han Yunzhen bit her lip, trying to restrain herself from thinking about those things, but her mind couldn't stop churning.

She had always felt that Lee Seung Hyun wasn't really in love with her—a thought she'd had a long time ago.

Occasionally he would lean against the wall and look at her while she was cooking, but she felt that he was looking at someone else through her.

Occasionally he would nestle on the sofa and read a book, but when he flipped through it, he would be dazed, showing a melancholy and nostalgic expression.

Occasionally he will...

Maybe he has feelings for her, but not as deep as he imagined, maybe he just needs a container to hold his feelings?

Most of the time, she could feel that there lived a deeply hidden person in his heart, maybe he was so powerful that he even deceived his heart.

It doesn't matter if it's a woman's intuition or something else, but Han Yunzhen just knows that the person hidden deep in his heart is not her.

He will treat her gently, he will pay attention to her preferences carefully, he will prepare various surprise events for her, but he will not rely on her.

Many times she felt that he hid himself very deeply, obviously they were the closest relationship, but she felt that she was always separated from him by a layer of fog, which she couldn't touch or understand.

After a while, Lee Seung Hyun drove Han Yunzhen to the hotel she had booked.

The time with him is always so short and flies so fast.

There was silence in the carriage.

Han Yunzhen buried her head on Lee Seung Hyun's chest, took a deep breath from his body, and prevented him from seeing her sad expression.

There is no other way, she has fallen in love with him, loves him very much, that's why she is so concerned about gains and losses.

Since he wasn't aware of his abnormality, she wouldn't point it out, maybe as time goes by, the person in his heart will gradually fade away, right?

After all - he should like her a little bit now, right?

Han Yunzhen tightly grasped the fabric of Lee Seung Hyun's waist, and gently closed her eyes.

She knew it might be mean.

But she had no choice.

……

August 2010, 8, Seoul, night.

"Crack."

Quan Zhilong lowered his head slightly, and brought the cigarette in his mouth close to the burning orange-red flame. A faint white smoke rose from the end of the cigarette, and it was burned out with blue smoke. The match stubs were thrown into the transparent ashtray full of cigarette butts.

He squinted his eyes and took a deep breath of the cigarette in his hand, feeling the strong smell of tobacco lingering in his lungs and filling his breath.

For him, things like tobacco and alcohol are not things that numb the nerves, on the contrary, they will make him more sober.

After falling in love with Victory, the number and frequency of his smoking have almost doubled. He needs to calm himself down, think about the relationship with Victory, and think about how much weight Victory holds in his heart.

As a result, his obsession with winning became apparent, like his ever-increasing addiction to cigarettes, unstoppable.

With his tail finger, he lightly brushed off the burnt tobacco on the end of the cigarette, and Quan Zhilong took another deep breath of the rich tobacco breath.

Quan Zhilong knows exactly what kind of person he is.

He knew that it would be easy for him to fall in love with something fanatically for a certain period of time, like a moth to a flame, wishing to burn himself and the other party together.

Maybe he is such a paranoid and fanatical person himself, he will give his all when he is really in love.

It could be called romantic, or it could be called crazy.

However, he knew very well that once he had ignited his enthusiasm and had a clear and thorough understanding of the other party, the other party would no longer be attractive to him.He loses interest quickly and looks for an opportunity to get away.

Over the years, he has accumulated a wealth of experience.

When he has a deep liking for something, he will let himself indulge in it and enjoy the good taste of love, because he understands that as long as he has experienced it, it is no big deal.

Even worse, in order to seek inspiration for writing songs, he deliberately took out the emotions that filled his body one by one, and used them as the soul of the song.

He is indulgent and indulging, but at the same time indifferent and willful.

But victory is different.

From indifference at the beginning, to interest later, to being attracted by the radiance of victory gradually, step by step, I fell into the net called victory, sinking into it, unable to extricate myself.

He loves victory to such an extent that his heart aches.

He wallowed in the love of victory.

Only this time, he no longer enjoyed himself as much as he used to fall in love. Gradually, he began to become hesitant, angry, unwilling, resentful, and worried about gains and losses...

He became more and more dissatisfied.

There is no way to satisfy.

In the turbulent tide of love for victory, he has been involved in the turbulent vortex, sinking deeper and deeper, unable to struggle, and does not want to struggle anymore.

but.

Why couldn't Victory treat him any better?

Why did Shengli become more and more indifferent to him?

Why did Shengli get mixed up with other women?

Quan Zhilong looked at Li Shengxuan, who was lying on the big hotel bed covered with white sheets, his eyes were closed, his long eyelashes were densely covered on his eyelids, his face was flushed, and there was occasionally a slight groan in his throat .

Gentleness is useless.

Scolding is useless.

It's useless to act like a baby.

It's no use showing weakness.

Grinding the cigarette butt in the transparent cigarette holder, Quan Zhilong got up from the soft sofa and walked towards the big white bed step by step.

There is always something useful to be found.

No one can take victory away from him.

It doesn't work if you win yourself.

……

Today is his Quan Zhilong, 22 years old birthday.

The birthday party at night was very lively, and all his friends from various circles came. They drank, sang, danced and chatted together...

Friends gave him numerous presents, carefully selected.

Where else do you need a gift?

The corners of Yanli's lips curled up slightly, the person in front of him was the best gift God gave him...

Quan Zhilong stretched out his hand and caressed Li Shengxuan's handsome face.

The soft black hair is his.

The handsome eyebrows belong to him.

The straight bridge of the nose is his.

The thick black eyelashes belonged to him.

The red lips are his.

Victory is his.

Victory is his.

Victory is his.

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