deep in the sky

"Crack-knock-"

The quartz clock was moving tirelessly, sending out restrained, weak chimes one after another in the quiet room.

Quan Zhilong opened his eyes wide at 3:27 am in the dead of night.

Yesterday was the first broadcast of Strong Heart, and it has been a week since the recording of Strong Heart, and Victory has ignored him for a week.

For this result, Quan Zhilong was not at all surprised——

Deserve it.

No, no, he didn't mean that he deserved it, what he meant was that both he and Shengli deserved it.

Quan Zhilong originally didn't want to think about what happened in the past period of time, his heart resisted those memories that made it throbbing constantly, but in such a dark and silent night, he couldn't control himself like masochistic Those things that made him sad kept appearing in his mind, scene after scene, and those pictures were like slow motion one by one, constantly rolling and flashing in his mind.

Quan Zhilong fell in love with Li Shengxian, isn't it self-torture?

That day, he was originally in a very happy mood to go to the beach with Seventh Brother, Yong Pei, and some friends who usually play together.

He enjoyed surfing, beach volleyball, jet skiing... and a series of other entertainment items.

Although Seungri failed to come because of work, he was a little disappointed, but after all, his solo album was a big success, and the so-called 'plagiarism' scandal has also been clarified. After suppressing it for so long, it's time to go out and relax. .

Everything was going well, the atmosphere was good, and he was very happy. They even set up a grill by the sea and started grilling meat—until a friend of Brother Qi asked: This is G-Dragonxi from Bigbang, right? omo, not long ago I saw VIxi, the youngest member of your team, came here to play, and brought a large group of beautiful girls...

"When?" He knew that Shengli had been busy with V&I affairs in the past few days, so he probably didn't have time to come here to play, "Could it be that he admitted the wrong person?"

That friend shook his head: "I definitely didn't admit my mistake, it was the beginning of this month... By the way, I happened to see GDxi your first stage on the TV of the seaside shop that day, it was great."

"The first stage... that day? No way, Victory was busy that day..."

"It was that day, I clearly remember that many girls were around VIxi, hey, your popularity among the youngest members of Bigbang is no less than that of GDxi."

"..."

Quan Zhilong couldn't hear what the friend of Seventh Brother said later, and he couldn't remember how he left the beach and returned to the city center. , A man drove around the whole city aimlessly.

——He didn't want to go back to the dormitory for the time being, and didn't want to see that person.

Finally, he parked the car in a corner of a remote street, counted the banknotes on his body, got out of the car, walked to a slightly dilapidated convenience store, and finally brought out a can of beer in a plastic bag.

In the middle of the night, the street lamps on the street glowed a warm orange, and tiny flying insects flapped their wings and circled the lamps.

"Tat-tat." Quan Zhilong stopped, looking at those flying insects that were so crazy that they seemed to overdraw their lives and rushed towards the light. With broken wings, exhausted strength, and exhausted everything, they will never be able to enter the world of light.

"Ah."

Quan Zhilong sneered, and stopped looking at the little moths rushing towards the lamp without hesitation, walked into the lamp pole self-consciously, and then sat down slumped as if he had lost his strength.

What is so pitiful?

Isn't he just like those poor, foolish bugs?

"laugh--"

Quan Zhilong pulled the pull ring with one hand, and the air bubbles at the bottom of the beer tank rushed to the surface of the beer liquid, and a series of tiny air bubbles appeared.

He jerked his head up and gulped down a whole can. The cold wine slid down his esophagus into his stomach, and even his heart became icy cold.

What was the reason for not being able to come?

Is it really because I couldn't come to work, or because I couldn't bear to leave those women behind?

No, no, Shengli won't stop coming to his first stage because of those women with evil intentions. He has lived with Shengli for three years, how could he not compare to those women's status in Shengli's heart?

So, work is more important than him... right?

In the final analysis, Quan Zhilong is just a friend in Shengli's heart, just a brother in the team, it doesn't take too much weight, otherwise Shengli would not stop coming because of work.

However, for him, victory is so important.

On that day, the day he stood up again, the person he most wanted to share this joy with was Victory.

Shengli didn't dislike him when he was at his worst, but stayed by his side. It didn't make sense for him to leave when he stood up again and regained his glory.

Isn't he good enough for the win?Not hard enough?But why couldn't Victory treat him like he treated Victory?

All this is really unfair.

The more he thought about it, the more wronged he became. This time he really felt sad. He didn't drink well in the first place, and he drank so many cans of beer. Finally, those turbulent emotions overwhelmed him.

Tears gushed out of his red eyes, slid down his cheeks to his chin, and hit the dry ground drop by drop, leaving round marks one after another on the dusty ground .

He is so pathetic.

He knew that even if Shengli didn't want to come to his first stage, there was nothing he could do.

It was as if he knew that Shengli had never lost a woman by his side, so he could only comfort himself that Shengli was also a man, but it was just a play on the occasion, and he couldn't take it for real.

But emotionally, he has no way to restrain his jealousy, grievance and sadness.

At the beginning when he understood his intentions, it wasn't that he had forced himself to stay away from Victory, but it was useless at all, even he himself didn't know when, he had no way to leave Victory.

The attraction of victory to him is too strong, and it holds too much weight in his heart. Quan Zhilong has no way to leave victory.

——This is the conclusion he came to after several attempts to stay away from victory.

From the time when Shengli and Mizuhara Kiko broke out, Shengli had mentioned the scandal and he could put aside the nonsense that Shengli likes men. At that time, he knew that Shengli did not like men. He didn't even dare to think that if Shengli knew what was going on in his mind and what would happen then.

He once again thanked himself as the captain of Bigbang and as the brother of Seungri's teammate, allowing him to stay by Seungri's side day after day, so that he could be closer to Seungri - he knew very early on that Seungri is important to Bigbang He has deep feelings, and based on this alone, he has a reason to stay by Victory's side.

Originally, he thought that as long as he was more careful and concealed his thoughts, as long as Bigbang was around for a day, Quan Zhilong would be able to stay by Victory's side. This was something that no one could stop.

But he overestimated his ability to bear it. Just seeing Victory cast his interested eyes on those pretentious women would already make his chest feel stuffy enough to explode. He has been pestering and clamoring for victory, but victory will not focus on him at all.

But how can this work?

How could Shengli treat him like this?

Quan Zhilong cried a lot on such a cold night in a remote and deserted street. He didn't even dare to complain in front of Victory. He just buried his head in his knees, curled up into a ball and cried aggrievedly After a game, those emotions were vented out.

It's really useless.

Even Quan Zhilong despises such a disappointing self.

……

Quan Zhilong pulled his complicated thoughts out of his head. He felt a little thirsty, so he got up from the bed, put on his slippers, and walked quietly to the living room. Reflecting the moonlight outside the window, he turned his gaze to the coffee table five cups on top.

——That's what the five of them, Bigbang, usually use to drink water.

Quan Zhilong's eyes flashed, and his outstretched hand mysteriously bypassed the milky white porcelain cup he used to drink water on weekdays, and slowly picked up the transparent glass beside it.

"Whoa whoa-"

The pure water flowing from the water dispenser collided with the glass to make a slight sound of water, Quan Zhilong licked his dry and peeled lower lip a little restlessly, but his light-colored eyes became brighter, as if he was about to do something Like a child with bad things, both excited and uneasy.

"despair."

When the water level rose to two-thirds of the glass wall, Quan Zhilong let go of his hand, and he looked at the glass in his hand obsessively, it was transparent and pure.

Finally, he bit his lip, and although he was a little anxious, he still carefully imprinted his lips on the rim of the cup.

With the rolling of Adam's apple, Quan Zhilong drank the liquid in the glass in one gulp.

The chest on the left side was so loud that Quan Zhilong could even hear the sound of his heart beating rapidly. He licked his moist lower lip, and then turned his gaze to the closed door of Li Shengxian's bedroom.

Quan Zhilong slowly stroked the cold glass in his hand, his gaze was lingering, as if caressing his lover's face.

Then, he gasped for breath, obviously just drank half a cup of water, but now he was getting more and more thirsty.

It's okay, he's already asleep.

It's okay, no one will see it.

It's okay, Quan Zhilong.

The light-colored eyes closed slowly, the eyelashes drooped obediently on the eyelids, Quan Zhilong held the already empty glass in his hand, and gently licked along the edge of the glass with his soft tongue, sucking the remaining drops of water In the mouth, there is a circle of wet marks along the mouth of the glass.

After a while, he opened his bright eyes, blushed and took the glass to the kitchen to clean it, walked back to the living room, and put it back to its original place.

Finally, he tiptoed and gently returned to the bedroom.

After a while, some weak whimpers came out from the tightly covered quilt, mixed with heavy panting...

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