Kaiyuan

"Mom, wouldn't it be better if I was a girl?"

Tao Yuan propped his chin, and said this sentence when Yuan's mother was anxious about his college entrance examination results.

"I like my son," Yuan's mother said with a look of hatred.

Tao Yuan shook his head, "If I were a girl, I would be in love."

Yuan's mother narrowed her eyes, hugged Satsuma, and looked at his son in puzzlement, "Why can girls fall in love? You can find a good-looking sister now."

Looking at the gloomy sky in Chongqing at the end of June, Tao Yuan shook his head, sighed, and thought, Su Kai, it's a man.

On the day when the results came out and the system crashed, Su Kai called Tao Yuan within 3 minutes to ask if he had entered the system. The result was not a little bit higher, Tao Yuan wagged his tail and reported to Su Kai.

Su Kai is happy, what could make him happier than Tao Yuan [-]% coming to Beijing?

"Tao Yuan, do you want to come to Hangzhou?" Yu Fei asked happily when he called.

Tao Yuan pouted, looking at his grades, "Brother Yu Fei, I don't have much ambition."

Yu Fei was puzzled, "Huh?"

"I want to stay with Su Kai"

Hearing this, Yu Fei was silent on the other end of the phone for a while, then sighed, "Xiaoyuan, if possible, I really hope that the four of us will stay in high school forever."

This was not the suggestion Tao Yuan wanted to hear, and Yu Fei neither agreed nor objected.

After Lin Feng learned that Tao Yuan had applied to the National People's Congress, he felt happy and complicated.

Why is it complicated?Only Lin Feng himself knew.

That's it, Lin Feng's addiction to cigarettes is getting bigger and bigger. In front of Su Kai who is so happy and disfigured, Lin Feng always squints his eyes, looking at Su Kai with a kind of envious and even a little jealous eyes, talking about Tao How much trouble will Yuan come over to cause him.

Su Kai's elated expression, like a glare of sunshine, hit his face, prompting him to dial Yu Fei's number after a long absence.

"Lin Feng"

Yu Fei's voice, after changing his voice, was extremely gentle, with an inexplicable penetrating power, coming from Jiangnan.

"Tao Yuan, report to the National People's Congress"

"Well, I know"

know?Lin Feng frowned, put his phone on the desk, and covered his face.

"What are you doing recently?" Lin Feng asked.

“I recently quit my part-time job and am studying”

"What are you studying?"

"Well, recently our school has an exchange program with Osaka University in Japan, and I passed it"

Lin Feng had asked himself many times why among the four of them, Yu Fei left alone. At first he blamed himself for the series of pressure and pain that Yu Fei brought to Yu Fei during the college entrance examination, and later he blamed Yu Fei He liked men, and abandoned them for men. Later, when Lin Feng held a cigarette between his fingers and looked at the endless flatness of Beijing, he asked Yu Fei.

"Yu Fei, can't you stay?"

Yu Fei was silent for a while, "I will be back, Lin Feng"

Lin Feng was smoking a cigarette, and the corner of his mouth suddenly smiled softly, "When are you leaving?"

"It's still early, and there are a lot of things to prepare, probably around November."

"it is good"

Lin Feng hung up the phone, put out the cigarette, and slumped in a chair in the park, watching the children in short-sleeved summer circle around the balloon.

'I'll be back' said Yu Fei. Yu Fei is a man of his word, and he will come back.

But Yu Fei will never return to his side. Lin Feng clearly realized that on the day he learned that Yu Fei liked men, that afternoon, when he turned and left, Yu Fei was no longer by his side Yu Fei is here, and speaking from his heart, he has long accepted the fact that Yu Fei likes men, but there seems to be something between the two of them, creating a distance between them.

The first time Lin Feng put Yu Fei in a more important position, it was Yu Fei who said in a very understatement that his mother cheated and then divorced, and he lived with his father.

That year, Yu Fei was only nine years old, with a thin body, drinking milk, tilting his head, looking at him.

Compassion is the first emotion. Later, Lin Feng realized that it was not sympathy, but a kind of distress, a kind of distress that he wants to take care of Yu Fei and give Yu Fei the best toys.

The friendship between men is far more naive and inexplicable than that between women.

"Lin Feng, smoke less, be careful that Li Han dumps you, I tell you, smoke all day, you'll be as thin as a monkey"

In August, Su Kai looked at Lin Feng in a T-shirt and couldn't help but speak.

Lin Feng gave Su Kai a supercilious look, "She couldn't bear to dump me"

"Heh" Su Kai snorted coldly, "You are so good, I still can't bear to dump you. What's so good about you is that you are smart, and you are also the number one in the college entrance examination."

Lin Feng pouted, "You don't understand women at all."

"what?"

"Until she conquers me, she won't let go"

When Lin Feng said that, Su Kai rolled his eyes lazily, "Conquer a skinny monkey?"

Lin Feng smiled hehe, with a fearless look on his face, Su Kai couldn't help shaking his head, he knew that Lin Feng's behavior must be due to Yu Fei, but Yu Fei is living a good life now, but Lin Feng is still like this now , giving Su Kai a headache.

In September, the month with the largest number of students, Yuan's mother and Yuan's father sent Tao Yuan to Beijing.

Only then did Su Kai know that the young master Tao Yuan actually had a house in Beijing's third ring road.

Yuan Ma went through the entire freshman placement process with a very worried expression, during which she told Su Kai how many times to watch Tao Yuan carefully.

Tao Yuan was very happy, very excited, Su Kai accompanied him like a boyfriend to sign up with Yuan's parents, put things away, go to the dormitory, and go shopping, especially when he saw Su Kai's obedient and docile behavior in front of his parents. At that time, he was thinking, if he were a woman, what a perfect match he and Su Kai would be.

Su Kai has liked the little girl in anime since she was a child. She has big breasts, is cute, and has a harmless face. Unfortunately, not only is she breastless, but she is also a handlebar.

When Tao Yuan came, it was natural to have a gathering and hold a welcome banquet, but there was only one person absent.

On August [-]th, Lin Feng suddenly went to Hangzhou again.

Li Han sat in the corner, lost his mind, and said to Su Kai, "He won the prize."

Su Kai opened his eyes wide, "Challenge Cup?"

Li Han nodded, but there was no happy expression on his face. Su Kai happily told Tao Yuan that Tao Yuan didn't know about the Challenge Cup, so he just asked with a smile, "Is there any bonus?"

Su Kai laughed and shook his head, "Fool"

Tao Yuan was used to being told by Su Kai since he was a child, and he didn't refute. He looked at Lin Kexin who was always looking at him from the corner of his eye, and smiled softly at the corner of his mouth.

A table of people with different expressions.

That night, Li Han was drunk, and Lin Kexin couldn't persuade her. On the way back, Lin Kexin carried the 1.7-meter girl, feeling tired. To bother her, Lin Kexin wanted to kill.

Before arriving at school, Li Han started to cry, softly at first, then howled.

Lin Kexin almost threw Li Han on the side of the road, but finally had no choice but to take Li Han to his school. In the small garden of the Conservatory of Music, Li Han was sitting on the grass, crying, and Lin Kexin sat beside him, giving Li Han toilet paper.

"We've been dating for two fucking years, and I haven't slept with Lao Tzu!"

This was the first sentence Li Han said, and Lin Kexin, who was shocked, quickly looked around to see if there was anyone around. Fortunately, it was late at night and there were no people around.

"Sister, please lower your voice, you are dissatisfied with your desires, this is"

Li Han snorted coldly, drunk, suddenly raised his head, looked at Lin Kexin, and asked, "Tell me, is he curvy?"

"Ah?" Lin Kexin immediately wanted to refute, but suddenly remembered what Tao Yuan whispered in his ear, 'Su Kai, it's mine'

After thinking about it, "How do I know, you are his girlfriend?"

Li Han smiled, "Girlfriend? You can fucking count the number of kisses. Does my wife have no breasts or butt!"

Lin Kexin covered Li Han's mouth, "Sister, keep your voice down, it will be a joke for people to hear it later."

"Let them laugh! Isn't this ridiculous? Since you want to fall in love with me, talk about it. What's the point of carrying it like this!"

Lin Kexin curled her lips, "Then why don't you find another one?"

With a slap, Li Han rushed over and beat Lin Kexin, "Everyone is trying to persuade you to make peace and not to break up, I am not mean to you! What the hell do you mean?"

Lin Kexin, ""

After Li Han made a fuss, she lay down on the grass to sleep. Lin Kexin didn't feel sorry for whether her sister Li Han would catch a cold, so she lay down and looked at the biggest moon in the sky, curled her lips, and sounded aggrieved.

"Sister, I don't know if Lin Feng is crooked or not, but Su Kai probably is."

After finishing speaking, Lin Kexin turned her head, looked at Li Han's sleeping state, and sighed deeply, "Sister, tell me, is there something wrong with our sister's vision?"

At this moment, Lin Kexin's head is actually full of Tao Yuan's appearance, white and tender, with a pair of sparkling almond eyes, and Su Kai's height seems to be a good match, damn it!

Lin Kexin pouted, angrily, "I am going to lose to a little boy!"

No, Lin Kexin sat up and slapped Li Han on the face, which shocked the sleeping Li Han into a shiver.

"Sister Han, we can't give up lightly, what's wrong with being crooked! Get hard, who's not straight anymore!"

Lin Feng has been doing psychological construction for himself on the road.

No matter what happens to that man and Yu Fei, he can't retreat from timidity, can't be embarrassed, he has to laugh, and have a good chat with Yu Fei with a smile.

Yu Fei never expected Lin Feng's sudden visit. The moment he received the call, he was about to walk into the library. The sun was shining hot on the stairs of the library where there were not many people during the summer vacation. Yu Fei turned around and ran away. .

The two saw each other on a garden path, and they separated only in February. The moment they saw each other, Lin Feng seemed like a lifetime away.

Lin Feng was carrying a large suitcase, his vest was soaked with sweat, his forehead was covered with sweat, and his hair was wet on his forehead. Yu Fei walked over and saw Lin Feng so hot, he suddenly smiled.

“It’s much hotter than Beijing”

Lin Feng nodded, "I thought I had returned to Chongqing."

"Hahahahahahaha" Yu Fei smiled, raised his hand, took out a tissue from his pocket, and wiped Lin Feng's sweat naturally. Lin Feng's eyes flickered, and he spoke softly, thinking of something.

"Don't be afraid of who will be jealous"

Yu Fei was stunned for a while, and suddenly laughed louder, "It's okay, he's back to his hometown."

Lin Feng raised his eyebrows, "So, a bold affair?"

Yu Fei gave Lin Feng a supercilious look, and flung a piece of toilet paper on Lin Feng's face, "You talkative!"

Like, nothing happened in the dialogue, the familiarity and intimacy seem to be in the blood, you reach out, I naturally hold the tacit understanding.

Lin Feng's sudden arrival disrupted Yu Fei's study plan, but the two academic masters would not mess up at all, isn't it just study, it would be nice to go to the library together.

Lin Feng sat in the library with Yu Fei, shaking his legs, like an old man. The library was sparsely populated during the summer vacation, and Yu Fei was too lazy to criticize Lin Feng's study style. Lin Feng has always been not good at languages. Looking at Yu Fei's pile of Japanese documents, with starry eyes, he just looked at Yu Fei, at the black-rimmed glasses on Yu Fei's nose, and then complained.

"Why are you still wearing such earthy glasses?"

Yu Fei adjusted his glasses, "I don't know how well my prescription is maintained, what kind of glasses should I change?"

Lin Feng pouted, "Oh"

That afternoon, Yu Fei led Lin Feng to the optical shop. Lin Feng smiled like a fool who won 500 million yuan. Yu Fei let him laugh and picked out several frames for Lin Feng to refer to. It’s still okay, I picked out the popular silver-rimmed round glasses, put them on, and Yu Fei looked like a cultural intellectual in the period of the Republic of China.

"This is good"

Okay, let’s buy it, Lin Feng rushed to pay, Yu Fei squinted, “What are you doing?”

Lin Feng nodded, "Isn't that, did you give me a stereo that year, and you never returned the gift?"

Yu Fei rolled his eyes, "Is this the only way to return the gift? Do you want to be ashamed?"

"I have such a handsome face, why not?" Lin Feng shrugged.

At night, Lin Feng slept on Yu Fei's roommate's bed, and after taking a shower, Yu Fei squinted his eyes with disbelief on his face.

"Lin Feng, you've become so skinny."

Lin Feng posed in a pose that highlighted his muscles, "This is called lean."

Yu Fei rolled his eyes, "Like a monkey"

What?Lin Feng couldn't believe that Yu Fei's taste was exactly the same as Su Kai's.

That night, Yu Fei went out and bought a bunch of tempting suppers for Lin Feng and came back, fried rice noodles, kebabs, fried potatoes

Lin Feng ate, curled his lips, "It doesn't taste like it"

Yu Fei took out the old godmother, "It's just a matter of getting fat."

The next day, when Lin Feng woke up, Yu Fei had already bought a hearty breakfast with lots of sweet treats. Lin Feng sat on the chair, brushed his teeth, and looked at Yu Fei.

"Do you keep lovers like this?"

Yu Fei threw a slipper over, but Lin Feng dodged it.

Lin Feng stayed in Hangzhou for a whole month without going anywhere, and accompanied Yu Fei to the library every day. He couldn’t borrow books during the summer vacation, so he only read magazines. Lin Feng read most of the magazines in the library. The two met each other every day. That's right, sitting down, reading a book seriously, like a long time ago, lowering your head, doing your own homework, tired, the two walked in the corridor of the library, chatted softly, and then sat down go back.

"Hey, this is really not good."

Lin Feng ate the sweet and unknown white cake, and couldn't help thinking about it.

Yu Fei nodded, "A lot of sugar is added, which helps to grow meat."

This month, Lin Feng was fed like a pig.

Lin Feng felt that the sugar he ate in the past 20 years was not as much as this month.

One night, Lin Feng was forced by Yu Fei to drink some fish sauce, and suddenly asked Yu Fei gossip, "Yu Fei, are you above or below?"

The other slipper was thrown over with precision, this time Lin Feng didn't dodge it, it hit his forehead, Lin Feng curled his lips in pain, and muttered softly, "You're so stingy"

There were only two people in the dormitory, Yu Fei slapped his face red when he heard it, "Why do you care about this?"

Lin Feng raised his head, his eyes were full of innocence, "I want to know whether you are the one who has a crush on you or the one who is a crush on you"

Yu Fei turned his back and didn't speak to Lin Feng for a long time. Lin Feng shut up knowingly, lying on the bed, shaking his legs, playing with his mobile phone.

Yu Fei turned off the lights and was about to go to bed when he suddenly heard Lin Feng say, "Yu Fei, you should wear a condom at all times, you know, I think many gays are unhealthy"

Standing up, Yu Fei threw a pillow over.

Lin Feng caught it, hugged it, and looked at the phone with a serious face, "There are also regular body checks and cleaning, have you taken resistance medicine?"

Yu Fei turned around, pointed his butt at Lin Feng, and closed his eyes.

Lin Feng sighed deeply, "I don't know what gay tastes like in Japan, you should pay more attention, and think carefully when you meet a good one, but you can't let anyone treat you well, just go with it."

Yu Fei gritted his teeth, staring at the white wall with twitching corners of his eyes.

Yu Fei really broke out, it was during the last week of Lin Feng's stay, when Lin Feng was eating supper to eliminate food, he suddenly looked at Yu Fei who was only wrapped in a bath towel and said.

"Yu Fei, I haven't slept with a man yet"

Yu Fei turned around, with a fucking sick expression on his face, "Huh?"

Lin Feng walked over, looked at Yu Fei's white, well-proportioned, thin waist, and continued to ask, "Shall we try?"

With a slap, Lin Feng was slapped, five finger prints, Yu Fei exerted force.

"Do you fucking think I'm gay, it's fun, it's funny?"

Yu Fei's face was pale, his eyes were fixed on Lin Feng, and his hand hit Lin Feng's face, but his palm was painful.

Lin Feng touched the left side of his face that had been beaten, and looked at Yu Fei's almost wet eyes, which became deep and powerful, as if something needed great courage.

"No," Lin Feng said heavily, "I just want to know what gay is."

Yu Fei sneered, "What is gay? It's a person, an ordinary person, a person who eats, drinks, and messes up."

Lin Feng nodded, "I want to know what you are"

Lin Feng said, staring at Yu Fei's eyes.

"What am I? I'm just a normal gay, a normal gay who sleeps with men"

Lin Feng nodded, "So let's go to bed."

"What?" Yu Fei was puzzled, and looked at Lin Feng anxiously, clenching his fists.

"Yu Fei, I want to know you, I want to go back to the days when we knew everything, now you are standing in front of me, but I don't know what you are thinking, what you will do, what you want, you see , you suddenly said that you are going to Japan, and I came here to see you off, but I have no idea why you are going to Japan, just like I have no idea why you are coming to Hangzhou, Yu Fei, if you like men Leave us, then I accept that you like men, I accept that you sleep with men, fall in love, accept whatever you like, as long as you tell me, I will accept it"

After a pause, Lin Feng suddenly choked up, "If you don't say anything, you don't want us all of a sudden, me"

Yu Fei opened his arms and hugged Lin Feng tightly.

This is a fragility and tenderness that the two of them have never experienced before.

Hold each other tightly, forgive, and be forgiven, forgive, and be forgiven.

At this moment, Yu Fei laughed and cried, holding Lin Feng in his arms, tears dripped down one by one, a kind of happiness that had never been seen erupted from the bottom of his heart.

The person he loves is really nice.

Lin Feng, why are you so nice?

Such a good Lin Feng, why can't you love yourself as a man.

But, enough is enough, Yu Fei closed his eyes, smiled, tears flowed gently, and hit Lin Feng's lapel.

enough.

One month, 30 days, 720 hours, but it is fleeting.

On the day Lin Feng went back, he opened the big box he brought, and told Yu Fei one by one that computers, mobile phones, and daily necessities were all things needed in Japan. Lin Feng frowned, afraid that he would mess something up. Forgot, and asked Yu Fei, "What else is there?"

Yu Fei froze on the stool, looking at Lin Feng's side face, Lin Feng had finally put on some flesh this month, and looked a little like he remembered.

"not bad"

"Are you sure?"

"kindness"

"That's good"

"By the way, I heard that there are propaganda cults everywhere, you have to love the country, the party, and the people."

"kindness"

"It's better to call every month and chat for a while, don't just go and play quietly"

"kindness"

"You know that, you haven't said a word in the past two years since you came to Hangzhou."

"will contact you"

"That's good. By the way, although the capitalist society is good, don't just stay there after graduation! You promise to come back."

"kindness"

"Well, I remember that"

After finishing speaking, Lin Feng got up, looked at the box, and nodded, "Anyway, if you go there, you must buy a lot of things, so let me know if you need anything, and you can send an email here, ha!"

"it is good"

"Then be stunned, I'm leaving." Lin Feng turned around, picked up his backpack, and Yu Fei nodded.

"Fuck you, I'm leaving, you go out and send a Hasse"

Yu Fei stood up and walked side by side with Lin Feng. When he got to the bus stop, Lin Feng turned his head and stared at Yu Fei, "We will take care of your dad. Take good care of everyone, by the way, will you return to Chongqing before going abroad?"

"want"

"That's it, you'd better go back and say goodbye to your family, I guess you won't see each other for a long time"

"kindness"

"Well, that's it, you go back and read, and I'll give you a call when I arrive."

"it is good"

"Hey" Lin Feng looked at Yu Fei's thin body, and patted Yu Fei's head, "Don't put too much pressure on everyone, you know, tell us if you have anything."

"Well, I know"

"Okay." Lin Feng smiled, "Let's go."

The bus was on time, Lin Feng walked up, sat on the seat, waved to Yu Fei, and the bus took Lin Feng away.

Yu Fei stood where he was, looking at the place where the bus had long since disappeared, squinting his eyes. On September [-]th, the summer wind blew away at the corner of Yu Feiyi, like a freeze-frame shot of a youth movie, the protagonist is about to usher in a transformation. growing up.

Yu Fei turned around and walked back at a very slow pace. The school started in September, and the crowd became lively. Happy voices, excited voices, exclamations, and hurried voices flowed past my ears one by one.

Yu Fei walked back among the crowd. In the dormitory, just like leaving just now, only a big box was left behind. Yu Fei sat down and carefully looked at the things Lin Feng bought one by one.

I have everything I need, what I need to go to Japan, Lin Feng is not a careful person, but he is very careful about these things.

For no reason, Yu Fei suddenly covered his face, lowered his head, and began to cry softly.

Tears are such a wonderful thing.

When Mingming's mother left, she didn't shed a single tear.

Yu Fei looked at the tears on his palm and held it tightly.

Yu Fei returned to Chongqing in October, at the end of summer in Chongqing. He had already told Dad Yu about studying abroad on the phone, and said goodbye briefly when he came back. For a small family like Fei, it is necessary to save money. Before leaving, Yu's father gave Yu Fei a bank card.

"I sold the house in Shapingba, don't worry about the money, just study hard"

Yu Fei took the card and froze. He raised his head and looked at his father. Suddenly, there was a chill. The small two rooms and one living room were the only memories of the past.

In a daze, Yu Fei raised his head and looked at Dad Yu with tears in his eyes.

Su Kai and Tao Yuan knew that Yu Fei was leaving after Lin Feng returned to Beijing.

"Hey" Su Kai sighed, then turned his head and looked at Tao Yuan, suddenly his heart burst into joy.

This chuckle is not entirely joy.

Lin Feng came back, started to eat well, and quit smoking. Within two days, he entered a well-known laboratory.

"Is Brother Lin Feng so powerful?" Tao Yuan asked.

Su Kai nodded, "You thought the Challenge Cup was just for fun."

Tao Yuan didn't understand, he was still a freshman and was about to receive military training.

In September 2018, Su Kai was a junior and Tao Yuan was a freshman.

Su Kai, a junior, skipped four classes almost every week, and stayed in the studio when he had free time. Yang Hao opened a new series. Su Kai was lying on the hospital bed in the infirmary after working hard for a month, following Yang Hao discussed hiring an assistant.

Yang Hao nodded, and suddenly said, "Su Kai, do you want to be serious?"

Su Kai looked at Yang Hao, "Why are you serious?"

"Let's open a studio," Yang Hao said.

At this moment, Su Kai was thinking about what major Yang Hao studied. After thinking about it for a long time, he nodded, "OK!"

The teacher's apartment next to the Normal University rented a three-bedroom, one living room, two offices, and a lounge. With the help of friends and friends, it was slightly renovated and tidied up.

On the opening day of the studio, a group of people had a party in it, and it lasted until three o'clock in the middle of the night. Su Kai lay drunk on the sofa, watching the group of people still making trouble, suddenly felt a sense of accomplishment, Tao Yuan was full Stomach, playing with the newly purchased painting tools in the studio, Su Kai walked over, sat next to Tao Yuan, and watched Tao Yuan draw something that he didn't know.

"Why are you drawing so ugly?" Su Kai couldn't help complaining.

Tao Yuan curled his lips and looked at Su Kai's flushed face, "What's wrong with being ugly? If I can paint, then I'm perfect."

"Hahaha, you don't want to be perfect?"

Tao Yuan shook his head, "I don't want to, if it's too perfect, I won't eat fireworks in the world, so why are you still playing friends with you mortals?"

Su Kai supported his head and put his hands on Tao Yuan's shoulders, "You want to play with me?"

Tao Yuan was stunned for a while, then nodded, "It's not that you can't play tricks."

Su Kai laughed, and suddenly approached Tao Yuan, "Then tell me, how do you play?"

Tao Yuan stared at Su Kai's good-looking, curved eyes, and suddenly laughed, "You're just kidding!"

"Hahahahahaha" Su Kai was amused, withdrew his hand, lay down on the table, squinted his eyes, and looked at Tao Yuan sleepily. Tao Yuan's face was very green and clean no matter which angle he looked at. Big, always revealing a childish.

"Su Kai, are you drunk?"

Su Kai nodded, confused, "It should be"

"Then let me tell you something"

"kindness"

"Su Kai" Tao Yuan looked at Su Kai's slowly closing eyes, leaned closer, as if talking to himself, and said, "Do you like me?"

Su Kai was drunk and fell asleep, Tao Yuan stared blankly at the sleeping Su Kai, Su Kai was too tired recently, his body was a little thin, and his fleshy face was a little sharp.

Tao Yuan stared at it for a long time, until he realized that he didn't have the confidence to say that just now, he got up and helped Su Kai into the lounge.

People will always usher in great disappointment after great expectations.

After Tao Yuan finished his military training, he could count on his fingers the number of times he met Su Kai during the more than a month of teaching in the journalism department.

This makes Tao Yuan have no real sense of coming to the city of Beijing.

Many times, when he went to find Su Kai, he could see Su Kai with his head down, working hard with the newly hired assistant, and he didn't even have time to pour him a glass of water. He was just sitting in the living room of the studio, playing with his mobile phone , Occasionally glance inside, and wait until the break and eat before barely saying a few words.

If a person likes another person, either burn the person to death, or freeze the person forever.

This is love in an extremely extreme article.

When Tao Yuan read it for the first time in the library, he resonated with fear. At that moment, he raised his head and looked at the sycamore tree outside the library window, extremely desperate.

First love is simply a hell of torment and pain.

Tao Yuan wrote in his notebook.

Jiang Feng came to Tao Yuan when Beijing started to enter the winter season. Jiang Feng appeared in front of Tao Yuan in an old jeep wearing very thin clothes.

"Hey, go somewhere with me"

Jiang Feng spoke standard Mandarin.

"where to?"

"boarding"

798, so famous that it was a bit unfinished. Jiang Feng took Tao Yuan's hand and entered an exhibition hall. The art exhibition was not yet open. Jiang Feng seemed to have not seen the Do Not Disturb sign at the door. This exhibition hall is not big, but the lights are bright. Very elegant, after entering, Jiang Feng stood in front of Tao Yuan and smiled slightly.

"Look, it's all drawn by me"

In Jiang Feng, Tao Yuan seldom felt the artistic temperament, more, it is more realistic and cold.

When watching Jiang Feng's works, Tao Yuan, a layman, not only admired the beauty, but also vaguely realized that these works were not superior works.

"How is it? Isn't it tacky, but not hot on the eyes?" Jiang Feng followed behind Tao Yuan and asked softly.

Tao Yuan turned around, "I don't know how to draw"

"kindness?"

"I only know what looks good and what doesn't look good"

"Then do you think it looks good?"

"My father said that there are only two types of paintings drawn by teenagers"

"Which two?"

"Ordinary and extraordinary"

"Then mine?"

"ordinary"

"Hahahahahahahaha" Jiang Feng lowered his head and laughed, "Tao Yuan, you are really funny."

Tao Yuan puffed his face and patted Jiang Feng's shoulder, "Don't be discouraged, few people are geniuses"

Jiang Feng shook his head, "I'm not discouraged"

This is Jiang Feng's first and last painting exhibition in his life, and there is only one visitor to the exhibition, and that is Tao Yuan.

Today was Tao Yuan's birthday, and no one remembered it.

Jiang Feng sent Tao Yuan a small but delicate painting. In the painting was a tree, green and full of spring.

Tao Yuan held it in his hand and smiled softly, "Thank you, this is the first birthday present I received this year."

"Your birthday?"

"yes"

"Ah, sorry, happy birthday"

"Hahahahaha"

"What are you laughing at?"

"Student Jiang Feng" Tao Yuan looked at the painting, "Thank you."

In November, the temperature in the north began to cool down rapidly. In order to commiserate with Jiang Feng's thin clothes, Tao Yuan took Jiang Feng to eat hot pot, Beijing hot pot.

Clean bottomless soup, scalded mutton, ordered sesame seed cakes, and while eating, Tao Yuan suddenly raised his head and asked Jiang Feng, "Are you younger than me?"

"kindness"

"Hey"

"What are you sighing for?"

"I envy you young people"

"What?"

"Our class ranks students by age"

"Huh? Are you ranked first?"

"Second, there is a student who has repeated his studies for three years and resisted."

"Hahaha"

"Stop laughing"

"Hahaha"

"Hey, laugh, I really want to laugh too."

Jiang Feng dragged his chin, looked at the faint displeasure between Tao Yuan's eyebrows, curious, "I remember, you were very sunny in high school"

Tao Yuan nodded, ate the cabbage, "I'm pretending"

"En?" Jiang Feng frowned incredulously, "Pretending?"

"Yeah, I'm actually quite dark," Tao Yuan said.

"Hahahahaha" Jiang Feng lowered his head and suppressed a smile.

Tao Yuan was upset, "You don't believe me?"

Jiang Feng nodded, "I believe"

Then he showed a look of disbelief.

Tao Yuan curled his lips, "Jiang Feng, you are so kind, you can still celebrate my birthday by chance."

Jiang Feng raised his head, "It's a coincidence, but I'm really a good person."

Tao Yuan smiled and grinned, Jiang Feng looked at him and nodded, "That's right, just smile, this is you."

Tao Yuan stopped laughing, "Actually, I don't like to laugh."

Jiang Feng, ""

On the way back, the wind was blowing. Tao Yuan asked Jiang Feng why he wore so little.

Jiang Feng sniffed, "I wear too much, I feel cumbersome"

"Ah? What kind of truth is this?"

Jiang Feng tilted his head, looked at Tao Yuan hugging his painting, and smiled, "This is the first truth of Jiang Feng—eat more and wear less."

Tao Yuan squinted and questioned.

At twelve o'clock in the evening, Tao Yuan looked at the empty phone screen, and laughed at himself in disbelief, "Tao Yuan, you really are narcissistic."

In 2018, Tao Yuan was nineteen and Su Kai was twenty, neither had a birthday.

On Su Kai's birthday, he went to Shanghai to discuss cooperation. On Tao Yuan's birthday, Su Kai is busy with drafting.

On Christmas Day 2018, some small things happened.

This Christmas, Utopia held a small concert, the protagonists were Li Han and Lin Kexin.

Almost all the friends I knew were there, Jiang Feng was invited by Tao Yuan, the bar was not small, it was full of people, and rock music was in my ear.

Two tall and thin girls, wearing punk-style black clothes, playing guitar, loudly roaring rock and roll, extremely dazzling.

Tao Yuan likes the piano very much, likes music, and has a beautiful voice, but he can't sing rock and roll. He looks at Lin Kexin sweating profusely and screaming at the confusion of life.

Su Kai liked Lin Kexin who sang like this. Tao Yuan turned his head and watched Su Kai staring at the stage intently.

At this moment, Lin Kexin suddenly sang loudly, 'Su Kai, I love you'

The crowd did not calm down because of this sentence. The stimulation of the music made people excited and danced.

And someone was quiet.

Lin Kexin kept staring at Su Kai, and Su Kai also kept looking at Lin Kexin. Tao Yuan, who stood just one step away from Su Kai, looked at Su Kai, raised his hand gently, but was held by Yang Hao.

Yang Hao was smiling, that kind of heart-wrenching smile, and then with a begging look, he pulled Tao Yuan out of the bar.

"I don't think Su Kai is crooked." Going out, Yang Hao looked at Tao Yuan and said softly.

Christmas, it's very cold, Tao Yuanha let out a mouthful of white air, looked at Yang Hao puzzled and continued, "I don't want Su Kai and Lin Kexin to be together"

"What?" Tao Yuan's eyes were confused, he didn't know what Yang Hao wanted to express.

"Unfortunately, Kexin doesn't like me, so I think Su Kai, as a man, is worthy of Lin Kexin's liking"

"What do you want to say?" Tao Yuan looked at Yang Hao with an indifferent expression.

"Everyone can see that you like Su Kai, but are you sure you want Su Kai to like you?"

In Tao Yuan's memory, Yang Hao had never talked to him so seriously, so Tao Yuan was a little stunned thinking about Yang Hao's sentence, 'everyone can see that you like Su Kai'.

Then Yang Hao sighed, and suddenly said softly, "I know it's not polite to say this to you, and I have no position, but"

"Knowing that there is no manners and position, it is a kind of rudeness to speak up." Tao Yuan suddenly interrupted Yang Hao with a cold voice.

"Pretending to be so magnanimous and selfless is nothing more than low self-esteem." Tao Yuan looked at Yang Hao's surprised expression and smiled coldly, "What do you really want?"

Yang Hao gritted his teeth, looked at Tao Yuan's suddenly cold and sharp eyes, and trembled all over.

"Su Kai and I are different from you and Lin Kexin. If you like it, don't treat yourself as an outsider."

After finishing speaking, Tao Yuan walked in, Yang Hao stood where he was, watched Tao Yuan's back disappear at the door, and closed his eyes.

This year, the central government began to control the celebration of Christmas, but in the end, everyone just wanted to make a noise. Who really celebrates Christmas?

For Su Kai, Lin Kexin's confession had a certain seductive impact.

Being liked by an excellent person is a pleasant thing in itself, but Su Kai doesn't like ambiguity, let alone procrastination.

After "I'll see you off", Su Kai said to Lin Kexin.

It is conceivable that the three words, many people present, are a kind of torture.

Even Lin Kexin nodded tremblingly and followed behind Su Kai.

On the way back, the two of them did not speak until they reached the gate of the Conservatory of Music. Su Kai stopped suddenly, looked at the school gate, and said softly.

"I've always been jealous of you, Kexin"

Lin Kexin looked up puzzled.

"Do you remember the time you bought me a hamburger?"

Lin Kexin thought for a while, then nodded, "Remember, we didn't spend much time together in high school, it was such a rare coincidence."

"That time, you said you started vocal lessons." Su Kai turned around and looked at Lin Kexin, "I started to envy you"

"Because you failed to learn to draw?"

Su Kai nodded.

Lin Kexin held the corner of her clothes, pursed her lips, clenched her teeth in anticipation and suddenly fear.

"Jealousy, not liking, Kexin" Su Kai said softly.

Hearing this, Lin Kexin suddenly relaxed. She raised her head and looked at Su Kai, "You just don't like me now, maybe in the future"

"someone in my heart"

After Su Kai's voice changed, he kept speaking in a low and gentle voice, softly, as if he was afraid of disturbing something.

Such light words fell into Lin Kexin's ears, but they were very heavy.

Lin Kexin looked at Su Kai, and asked in an unbelievable but sure tone, "Tao Yuan?"

Su Kai opened his eyes wide, looked at Lin Kexin in disbelief, frowned, remained silent for a long time, and finally nodded.

It was very cold, and the wind from the north gave people a headache. Lin Kexin lowered his head and walked into the school.

The emotion of falling out of love, no matter how much psychological construction has been done before, the result is tragic and cannot be ignored.

Lin Kexin cried for a long time in the bedroom upstairs, and Su Kai also walked for a long time in the cold wind.

Su Kai suddenly became even more jealous of Lin Kexin, a woman who dared to love and hate, she came to the Conservatory of Music if she liked to sing, and said I love you when she liked someone.

As for him, he draws commercial comics and loves people who dare not confess. After all, he is not worthy of Lin Kexin's liking.

This night, many people couldn't sleep. Tao Yuan didn't go back to the dormitory, but went back to the house in the third ring.

Tao Yuan wrapped himself in the quilt, breathed the somewhat humid air, and looked at the night scene of Beijing outside the window, not knowing what to think.

Then he covered his face, hugged himself tightly as if afraid, and said softly as if comforting himself.

"Don't be afraid, Tao Yuan, don't be afraid"

In the winter vacation of 2018, Su Kai didn't go home for the New Year. Tao Yuan returned home early at the end of January. Yuan's mother asked why he didn't come back together.

Tao Yuan thought for a while, looked at Yuan's mother, and smiled, "Mom, we are not conjoined twins."

Yuan's mother frowned and thought to herself, yo, did you quarrel?

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