little transparent love

Saying goodbye to Rong Kai, Zhang Ran was exhausted and rushed home. On the way, he thought about a lot of things, but he couldn't figure out how things came to this point. It was clearly planned...but there was such an accident occur.

When they got home, Zhang's parents were sitting on the sofa, looking at their son at the door, the expressions on their faces were indescribable.Zhang Ran saw Mama Zhang's red eyes from crying, which were still swollen, which showed how much his liking for men had hit them, and Papa Zhang's face was not good.

"Put your luggage in the room first." Father Zhang said.

Usually, Zhang's mother is the one who decides, but when there is a big event, Zhang's father is still called.

Zhang Ran put away his luggage in silence, and obediently sat on the sofa.

After being silent for a long time, Zhang Ran knew that his parents were looking at him. Maybe they felt that their son, who had been raised for decades, was not familiar with him for the first time.

"Xiao Ran." Mother Zhang wiped her tears, "Is your sexuality natural or..."

"Natural." Zhang Ran replied.

"How could this be, your father and I are neither..." Mother Zhang said sadly.

"Mom, Dad, I'm sorry, I don't want to, but this kind of thing can't be changed." Zhang Ran clenched his hands, "I have never dared to tell you, just because I was afraid that you would not be able to bear it."

"But the matter is still exposed." Father Zhang said with a sullen face, "Do you still want to hide it from us for the rest of your life?"

"Of course not." Zhang Ran said, "I wanted to tell you guys after the year, because..."

"Because you got married with a man, right?" Dad Zhang suddenly said loudly, "Everyone in the family has called!"

Zhang Ran's heart tightened. Was it really Lu Jingyan's family who said it?How did they find their home phone?

Zhang's father patted the table, furious, "You only want to have a showdown with your parents when you get on good terms with others! Have you ever thought about how other people's parents feel when you get on good terms with others? When two men fall in love, have you ever thought about other people? What do you think?!"

Zhang Ran took a deep breath, "Dad, we are not afraid of what others think, I..."

"Okay, you are not afraid, then just talk about the parents, can you not care about these?!" Father Zhang gasped, "I am only your son, don't you think that no matter what, as long as you persevere, I will be with you." Your mother will definitely compromise, just because we love you?"

Zhang Ran remained silent.

"Xiaoran." Zhang's mother held down Zhang's father's hand, "Your father and I are not unreasonable people. Before you came back, we also checked the information, but... But parents still can't accept it, really can't accept it, You said you are a good boy, why do you just like men."

Zhang Ran frowned, "Mom, I really don't know what to say except I'm sorry. Sexuality is innate. I just like men. I can't change it. What else can I do? Do you want me to cheat into marrying a woman?"

Mother Zhang wiped her tears. She has cried enough, her eyes are swollen, but she still feels sad. There was anger at the beginning, but now there is only sadness left. This kind of sadness is because she is unable to change, but she cannot accept it. At this time, in this family, there is nothing but silence.

After a long time, Zhang's father said, "The person who called us claimed to be you...his mother, she said her son is not gay...you fell in love with him first?"

"Yes."

"How did the other party know our phone number? You probably didn't give it to me."

Zhang Ran shook his head.

Zhang's father sighed, "I heard from his mother that their family is very prestigious and cannot accept that their son has a gay man. I hope you... hope you can break up with her son."

Zhang Ran looked at Father Zhang stubbornly, silently expressing his refusal.

"Xiaoran, you...you really can't accept women?" Father Zhang asked with difficulty.

"Dad, I'm sorry." Zhang Ran said.

There was another silence. "You should break up with others first." Father Zhang said.

"Dad!" Zhang Ran said anxiously, "Why?!"

"Your mother and I can't accept it, and neither can his family!" Father Zhang turned his head away from his son.

Zhang Ran's eyes were red, "Dad, why are you treating me so unfairly?"

"I'm doing it for your own good, son. Listen to Dad this time. He...he's not suitable for you. "

Zhang Ran shook his head, "Unless we stop loving each other, I will stick to it."

At the end of the day, Zhang Ran didn't understand the way Zhang's father and Zhang mother looked at him. He just felt that his love could not tolerate other people's intervention, just like many novels, as long as there is love, there is no obstacle that cannot be overcome. He firmly believes that , he and Brother Yan will definitely be able to survive.

In the next few days, Zhang Ran felt that the family fell into a vortex of silence. He woke up, ate and slept in silence, and no one in the family spoke. He was extremely haggard, but Zhang Ran was helpless. He desperately wanted to win the approval of his parents, but the eyes of his parents made him hesitate. He was like a disobedient child, hovering beside his parents, wanting to touch them. , but there is a layer of diaphragm in front of it.

Two days later, Zhang Ran suddenly received a call from Lu Jingyan.

"Brother Yan!" The moment he saw the caller ID, Zhang Ran couldn't wait to answer the phone.

"Ranzi."

Lu Jingyan's voice was no different from before, it was still as gentle when calling him.

Zhang Ran held back his sore eyes, "Brother Yan...I miss you so much."

"Me too."

"By the way, Brother Yan, your injury... Qi Yuling said you were injured, how are you doing now?" Zhang Ran asked urgently.

"It's okay, it's almost healed, don't worry." After Lu Jingyan finished speaking, he suddenly said sorry.

"Why... Brother Yan, why did you say sorry to me, do you want to break up with me?! Are you..."

"No, no...don't think about it." Lu Jingyan said, "I know my mother called your family, so I want to say sorry, and I have made you worry these days. I haven't been able to contact you, let you One is restless...I'm sorry, Ranzi."

Zhang Ran sniffed, "It's okay, I know you're fine."

"It's okay." Lu Jingyan said, "My parents...they decided to leave us alone."

Zhang Ran's eyes widened, "How is this possible?! Is this true? They...they accepted me?"

Lu Jingyan was silent for a while, and then said after a while, "No...don't worry, there will always be a day when you accept it."

"Hmm." Zhang Ran felt that the happiness came too suddenly, a little unreal, and asked again worriedly, "Brother Yan, do your parents really agree that we should be together?"

Lu Jingyan was silent again, and responded in a low voice.

Zhang Ran's heart was in a state of ecstasy, and he didn't notice the low tone in Lu Jingyan's tone at all.

After chatting for a few more words, Zhang Ran hung up the phone. With the courage Lu Jingyan gave him, he felt that he should convince his parents sooner that everything is going for the better, right?

That night, Zhang Ran talked with his parents for a long time, and also said that Lu Jingyan's parents did not object to them. Zhang's father looked surprised, "How is this possible?"

"Dad, their family is not ordinary. They are all reasonable. You may not accept it at first, but you will definitely understand Brother Yan and me later." Zhang Ran said anxiously, "Dad, Mom, since you know my sexual orientation, you can't help it." It's changed, why don't you try to accept my relationship with Brother Yan, even if there is no Brother Yan, there will be other things in the future..."

Mother Zhang sighed, "Xiaoran, your dad and I have thought a lot these days, but that person may not really be suitable for you. Now you are in love, but the gap in family status still exists. Do you really think their family is as simple as that?" Do you accept that you are together? Their family is not ordinary, and his parents are even less likely to accept us..."

"Mom!" Zhang Ran suddenly interrupted Zhang's mother, ignoring the uneasiness and confusion deep in his heart, he forced a smile and said, "But they have already accepted it, Brother Yan has already said, he will not lie to me of."

Zhang's mother wanted to say something more, but was stopped by Zhang's father, who said, "Since you have already made up your mind, your mother and I can't stop you. The road is your own to walk, and your life is your own to live. Your mother and I can't get involved in too many of your affairs. We don't care about you anymore. "

"Dad..." Zhang Ran was overjoyed, but what Zhang's father said next caused his emotions to turn around immediately.

"This year, don't stay at home." Father Zhang said.

Zhang Ran's throat choked up, his throat moved, but he couldn't say anything.

"You go back." Zhang's father refused to look at Zhang Ran, "Your mother and I want to be quiet, not because you dislike you, but you have to give us some time... You are here, we are all uncomfortable, and you don't Think about it."

Zhang Ran lowered his head in silence, tears kept streaming from his eyes, Zhang's mother also cried, he knew that he stayed here, this year, no one will have a good life, and it is impossible for parents to change their mentality all at once , An Ran accepted his sexual orientation, so Zhang Ran obeyed his father's arrangement and left home the next day.

On the way back again, although everything seemed to be going well, Zhang Ran felt even more at a loss.

On the way, he called Lu Jingyan, but only heard a busy tone, and there was no reply to the WeChat message he sent to Lu Jingyan. Zhang Ran put away his phone and looked outside the car window. There was a vast expanse of whiteness. Throughout the year, everyone went home with excitement and eagerness. Even the heavy snow could not stop their footsteps, but Zhang Ran's mood was as cold as the snowflakes outside, and there was no change because the relationship was not blocked. Even he himself didn't know where this feeling came from, and he always felt as if something was missing.