Before graduation, hold down the restless you

The "3 hours" of rest after the parent meeting was interrupted by Yan Yangdong, and then he had to go back to school for evening self-study.Parents who were worried about their children's grades all went back one after another.Occasionally, you can hear the noisy exclusive ringtone and the voice of a middle-aged man talking softly to the child.

Yan He was wandering aimlessly in the playground, and happened to meet Ming Li who was going downstairs to play basketball.The pent-up energy in my heart welled up secretly and I thought about it again.The words he said to Yan Yangdong rolled back to his ears in an instant.

He really didn't expect Mingli to look at him like this before, and when he thought of the encouragement and appreciation he said with a smile in the past, it all changed now.It’s impossible not to take those words to heart, but it’s just more and more ridiculous for me to think “ah, so I can consider Akari as a friend!”

It's not like he can't stand acrimonious criticism, no matter how ugly it is, it can't match his father's words of abuse. It's just that the students do one thing, and the parents do the other thing, isn't it too disgusting?It would be better to just point at his nose and curse.

Not wanting to be embarrassed by the meeting, Yan He turned and walked in another direction.

"Yan He, are you running here?" The seemingly casual strike up made Yan He's skin crawl.

Yan He turned around stiffly, and mechanically said, "Mr. Ming is good." After finishing speaking, he continued to turn and leave.

"Your father..." Yan He paused, and Mingli changed the subject quickly, "I care about you very much, you must study hard." With his back to him, it seems that he can be seen from his smiling tone smile on face.

Yan He was taken aback, and ran away without saying a word.

In fact, he couldn't blame Mingli, and the nonsense of suing him was not a classic case of hypocrisy worth mentioning on the stage.On the contrary, when Qian Ziang heard about this, he laughed at most and scolded him, "Aren't you grown up? Elementary school students are too lazy to go to BB to complain about such a big deal."

This is a normal person, and this is the normal attitude when they hear about this incident.

After all, Akari is just like many ordinary people.Instead of seeing the many quarrels, complaining, oppression, bondage and blame, they only see how he is loved and loved.

It's as if all suffering can become invincible if covered with a shell of love.

And those unforgettable pains are just the superficial.

After walking to a place where the playground could not be seen at all, Yan He pulled down the high collar of the sweater, revealing his face panting in the cold winter.

Akari wasn't the only one who said that to him.The younger sister who leads the family likes to come to his house since she was a child. Looking at her father who is caring for him, she envies: "It's great that you have such a father." Classmates don't think about themselves, but at least they have to think about their parents, as a child, filial piety is the first priority." His eyes glanced at him intentionally or unintentionally.

Sometimes when guests came to the house, Yan Yangdong never stopped talking, talking about all kinds of things he had done for him, from putting him in a key class through all kinds of hardships to how meticulous he was, giving gifts to teachers and making connections to find him excellent teachers for supplementary lessons , Counting them out one by one is like making a list of debts.At the end, the guests would also sigh with emotion: "It's hard to find such a father in generations. Old Yan, you have to think about yourself."

Upon hearing this, Yan Yangdong immediately blew his beard and stared: "Huh? With him as a brat, can I still enjoy myself? If he gets his grades right first, that's the greatest reward for me!"

All this made Yan He terrified.

On his way forward, his father seemed to be a row of invisible piles, forcing him to follow the rules he had prepared.If there is a mistake, Yan He will be hurt, and he will become shattered, and both sides will suffer, but no one will admit defeat.

He often has a sense of despair when he is cornered by Yan Yangdong's "good for you" monster.

At first, Yan He would frown to express his disgust: "Can you calm down, I don't care about the things you do for me. I don't want to go as you planned." But every time the words come to the mouth Looking at the figure of his father working hard in the kitchen cooking for him, he felt that he was too cruel.

He is never the only one who has worked hard.

Yan He returned to the classroom, packed his schoolbag, feeling very tired.Qian Ziang and Li Mu disappeared after the parents' meeting, and they didn't even know what happened to him.Of course he won't let them know.

After packing his schoolbag, he carried it downstairs and walked out of the school gate.

Gu Ze didn't know when to catch up, and frowned slightly: "Where are you going?"

Yan He was silent for a while: "I don't know."

Gu Ze stopped him, with a slightly angry tone: "I don't know what's going on?"

Yan He shook off his blocking hand impatiently: "Leave me alone."

After this, Gu Ze really didn't care about him anymore.Until the doorman's heart-rending roar of "If you don't come back, watch the surveillance and punish him" came from behind, he walked forward without looking back, and he felt a sense of vicissitudes like a hero on the run.

If this is a burning manga like "Hot Blooded High School", then there should be a bgm with high fighting spirit, and the picture is frozen on the sketched indifferent back of him leaving gracefully.

After much deliberation, Mr. Children's "Foot Sound~BeStrong" is more suitable.Yan He's thoughts wandered, and he hummed unconsciously.

"Wandering aimlessly to the next town

I don't want to walk a little way

It just occurred to me that I haven't done anything like this recently.

Today's life is just my own choice

Get up early to pave the road I want to give up

I suddenly had this idea today

The ideal future is not too far away

Step by step step by step to sound your footsteps

Even if there are times when the night comes and there is no light to be seen

There must be someone listening to the footsteps.”

After walking for a while at will, I realized that that person really didn't keep up.Although he had expected for a long time, how could such an idol drama happen in the world, but he still couldn't help but said "ah, okay" to himself, and waited expectantly for someone to come to him, Tell him that he should be studying at school now instead of wasting his time doing nothing.

There is a dessert shop across the street.Yan He walked through the underground passage, and after entering to order, the female clerk politely asked him if he wanted to eat in the store or take away.As night fell, couples sitting in such a warm place like a dessert shop seemed a bit shabby eating a big bowl of fruit by themselves.

"Let's pack it up."

He walked out of the store with his hands in his hands, but he didn't know where he was going, and he was carrying a silly bag on his back. He looked like a poor student, and he didn't know if the bar would let him in.

The sky turned dark blue.There are many unknown tall trees planted on the side of the road, with huge dark green leaves all year round, rustling, blocking the moonlight.

Yan He raised his head and looked at the sky for a while, then uttered something that he never wanted to recall after waking up: "It's time to leave here." When he said it, he felt very cool, probably exuding a kind of saying Just walk away, full of romantic and unrestrained vigor of a man.In fact, the passers-by who heard it only thought it was the muttering of a sophomore.

Although he was dragged into the dark history of life afterwards, his impulse at that time was real. He wanted to escape from this familiar place, no longer be bound by the embarrassing shackles of family affection, and live a comfortable life alone.

Thinking of this, I unconsciously walked to the subway station to take the subway.He didn't think much about it at the time, but later realized that if he took the subway in the same city, even if he took the subway through, he would still be in the same city.

It's off-duty time.When the subway made a turn, people swayed close to each other.

The swaying subway gave him the illusion of a small boat rippling in the blue waves, and he felt surprisingly at ease as he swayed with the flow of people.After shaking for a while, I felt a little sleepy.

Students have always been a family with strong adaptability.

Yan He yawned lazily.Although the subway car is crowded, it is also very warm.Nanjing's subway is just that good, warm in winter and cool in summer.

The eyelids drooped unconsciously, and then stuck together.The hand holding the pole loosened unconsciously, and he seemed to bump into someone when he leaned forward.There was a faint smell of tobacco, mixed with the smell of men's perfume, it was not a strange smell, but it smelled very comfortable.

Yan He rubbed his eyes and said "I'm sorry", then turned his back.

With a sound of "ding", the subway door opened.Still in a daze, Yan He got out of the car surrounded by the crowd of people pushing and shoving.The cold air rushed to his face suddenly, his nose immediately felt uncomfortable, and his head was instantly awake.

The people reflected in the subway window don't mention how stupid they are. They are carrying a heavy black schoolbag, and the fruit bag hanging in their hands has been overturned at some point, and the water is dripping.

When I turned around to look for the trash can, I seemed to see a familiar person.Yan He rubbed his nose that was already stuffed by surprise, walked a few steps, then fell back, staring straight at the direction where the subway door opened just now.

An hour ago, he said "Leave me alone" but he was looking forward to someone who could fall from the sky...

Gu Ze looked at him and walked over from afar.

Yan He smelled that familiar smell again.

Yan He's astonished expression seemed more horrified than seeing Gu Ze swallow two eggs raw, and he asked with a straight face, "Why are you smoking?"

Gu Ze stopped in front, his eyes under the shadows looked deep.He raised his eyebrows: "Otherwise I'll take (*) drugs?"

Yan He choked for a moment, thinking, Gu Ze can still smoke, even if he takes (*) drugs, he can't smoke.

This cannot be blamed on Yan He.The kindergarten teacher taught him not to smoke, drink, and gamble since he was a child. Since he came home and saw his father smoking, he felt that what the teacher said was right.

When he grew up, his understanding of smoking remained in the history books. A row of people squatted in the corner and sucked crow (*-) tablets to - desire (*-) immortal (*-) desire (*-) Die - on the photo.

Gu Ze pondered for a moment, hesitated and did not speak.

Yan He felt that the image of a male god in his heart had collapsed. He seemed to have found a candidate for that picture. He was so angry that he was worried for him and broke down: "Smoking is harmful to your health!"

"The teeth will turn black! The lungs will be damaged!"

"If you get serious, you will get laryngeal cancer and lung cancer!"

Gu Ze pursed his lips, as if holding back a smile: "I rarely smoke."

"And..." Yan He suddenly paused, and did not continue.

Capturing the subtlety of the brief blankness in the air, Gu Ze asked, "What else?"

Yan He showed hesitation, struggled for a while, and finally showed Ling Ran's expression of looking back at the benefactor, and gritted his teeth word by word: "Yes. Will. Impotence. Impotence."

Gu Ze was stunned for a moment, then laughed dumbly: "Don't worry."