Before graduation, hold down the restless you

Dodging the inspection of the teacher on duty, Yan He took his mobile phone to the balcony and called his father.

"What's the matter, son?" Mahjong can be heard across the phone.

Yan He frowned slightly: "Are you playing mahjong again?"

As soon as he finished speaking, "I'm confused!" He heard his father swearing a few words, and when he spoke again, his voice was obviously impatient: "What's the matter? Did you take the exam recently?"

Yan He suppressed his temper: "There is no exam, I want to go to school."

"No exam?" Yan Yangdong's voice suddenly increased, "Don't lie, I just called."

Yan He snorted coldly, thinking that if you are really capable, don't even ask.Thinking this way in my heart, I still said good deeds: "This Sunday, I will take the three-model college entrance examination."

"Oh..." There was a pause on the other end of the phone, and Yan Yangdong asked: "What were you talking about just now? Do you want to go to school?... Hey! Old Ma, why are you going?! Keep going!"

Yan He said: "Let's talk about it next time." Without waiting for a response, he hung up the phone.

Mood instantly became irritable.

Since his mother left, his father's career has also gone downhill.Every time at the end of the year, his father would always be furious and go to the door to ask for debts, flying to the three cities of Beijing, Shanghai and Guangzhou in turn.

His father didn't say anything, but he saw everything.Every time he comes back from a business trip, he always asks "how was the exam?", with a tired look on his face, as if he put all his future on him.

It can only be pressed on him, and the market is getting worse and worse.His family has no status and no backer, so there is really no other way but to gamble all on the road of official career.

It is not a wealthy family, but an ordinary well-off family.I have some spare money to gamble... Yan He kicked the broom on the balcony to the ground, and squatted down along the corner of the wall weakly.

So I can only act like an old man in front of him and put on the emperor's posture.Yan He sneered.To put it nicely, for his future, his future is actually for himself.

While suffering from relatives, the balcony door suddenly creaked.Yan He was shocked, and immediately raised his head.

When he saw that it was Qian Ziang, Yan He breathed a sigh of relief.

Qian Ziang didn't seem to be in a good mood either, he got a few cans of beer from somewhere.The two drank a few bottles in silence.

Qian Ziang suddenly asked: "Principal Yan, why do you say that the provincial recruitment class looks down on the ordinary class?"

A year ago, he also thought about this question every day.Yan He looked up to the sky and took a few sips, licking his lips: "Who knows."

The two imitated the posture of getting drunk all night in TV dramas, finished drinking all the beer that would not get drunk, and then went back to bed to sleep.

The next day, Yan He went to find Gu Ze during the life class as scheduled.

Because of the minor incidents between Gu Ze and Qin Yuzhen, and some minor incidents at home, he was not in a good mood all day, and because of the lack of sleep, he couldn't do anything with interest.

Standing by Gu Ze's table without saying a word for a long time, it wasn't until Gu Ze raised his eyes to take a rest that he suddenly realized that there was still someone sticking around not far from him.

Gu Ze said, "What about standing up and becoming a fairy?"

Yan He moved a chair and sat down beside him.

Gu Ze saw that his head was lowered, his eyes were drooping, and he was no longer as active as usual, so he couldn't help reaching out his hand, trying to smooth his frowning eyebrows.

Stretching out in the air, he retracted his hand again, with a gentle tone: "What happened recently?"

"No." He scribbled a single word, which was regarded as a reply.

"Is it because the college entrance examination is approaching and the pressure is too great?"

"No."

For a moment, the atmosphere between the two was a little cold.

Gu Ze looked at him deeply: "Your winter vacation homework is not very satisfactory."

Yan He was not very surprised when he expected this. He bowed his head as if resigned, and mechanically admitted: "Well, I copied it."

Gu Ze said calmly, "Why copy?"

If you copy it, you copy it, why are there so many.Yan He "tsk" and said casually, "I don't want to write."

From the perspective of a teacher, Yan He is actually a very good student.Since the last chat on the playground, there have been basically no mistakes in studies. It is no problem to be the first in the class, even the grade is very high, and it can be ranked in the upper middle of the provincial recruitment class.

He is also very humble and down-to-earth, and he will concentrate on listening to even the simplest knowledge points in class.Even if you take a short errand occasionally and do something unrelated to class, you are still very measured. You know what you are doing and you can adjust back quickly.He gets along very well with the teachers of all subjects, and more than one teacher has praised Yan He.

Just sometimes, too casual and impulsive.Even an explanation is too much.

When he is angry, he will lose his temper like a child, and he will persevere to the end, acting like he doesn't care about everything.Even if you make a mistake, you will never look back. I don't know who you are angry with.

There was a conflict with the Chinese teacher once, and I made a mess during class, turned the table and walked out the door.Until the Chinese teacher yelled out the threat of "expulsion" behind him, he said "pooh" to the ground without looking back.

When a puppy frizzes, he has to stroke his hair slowly.

Gu Ze changed the subject: "Are you still planning to go to school now?"

Yan He thought for a while: "Yeah." The college entrance examination is coming soon, so it's good to be able to work hard.

Gu Ze smiled and said: "Accordingly, every teacher in No. [-] Middle School has a teacher's apartment. When it was allocated to me, I rented it to Director Huang's niece. Now there should be teachers who can't live. Rent it, I will tell you again."

Even if you call him to talk, you are helping him for his own good.When he is impulsive and willful, he is like a hedgehog, wishful thinking and paranoid that the whole world is against him.It doesn't seem to be the case now.

Even as a teacher, Gu Ze didn't care too much about the mistakes he made in winter vacation homework.Not only chose tolerance, but also helped him find an apartment.

Yan He felt a little complicated in his heart, he nodded slowly: "Thank you."

Gu Ze looked at him: "Go and do your work."

Yan He said "hmm" and gently moved the chair back to its original place.Before leaving, Gu Ze called him suddenly: "I'm very happy that you were not assigned to the provincial recruitment class."

Yan He, who had almost reached the door of the office, felt his eyes turn red immediately.He gave another low "hmm" and walked out of the office without looking back.

In the life class, for the first time in history, I didn't go back to the dormitory to take a shower, nor did I go to the playground to play ball.Back in the classroom, I sat in my seat and looked out the window, feeling a little dazed.

He still remembers the feeling of shame and disdain when facing his classmates at the beginning of the first year of high school.It's like eating delicacies from mountains and seas in junior high school, and eating weed stewed bark every day in high school.

In fact, some students are not malicious, they are simple and kind.But he just couldn't accept it, no matter in terms of living habits or way of thinking, he couldn't bear to agree.

He is scared.Afraid of dancing with them every day, afraid of facing each other day and night, I was subconsciously living my life as I hated the most at first.He lives in resistance and fear all day long.In fact, he knows that his thinking is wrong, but he has no way to control himself, to tolerate, to change, to adapt.He can't do it at all.

At the most critical moment, Li Mu and Qian Ziang appeared, and their arrival finally gave him a little respite.

He couldn't wait to prove the difference between himself and those in the provincial recruitment class around him, eager to tear his life from their world severely.

So, he went in another direction.He drank, he fought, he played disco, he clubbed, and tried everything that the classmates dared not try, and suddenly developed a sense of superiority "above them".

It doesn't matter if the grades are not good, the world has never been based on grades.He wants to live his life freely and unrestrainedly to the end.

But it never occurred to him that this was wrong.

Nor can it be wrong.

This made him...how embarrassing!

In the evening, he called Yan Yangdong again and expressed his desire to go to school in a concise manner.

His father was also straightforward and said "yes" right away.For his son, there is no doubt about money.

But at the end, he still worriedly taunted: "There are quite a lot of tricks. If you have this idea, you might as well focus more on your studies."

Yan He frowned habitually, even though he wanted to refute, he didn't talk back this time.

Yan Yangdong continued: "Do you still have contact with your former classmates?"

Yan He raised his eyebrows: "Which former classmates?"

"In the first class of high school."

Yan He said "Oh": "No."

Yan Yangdong let out a loud snort, so angry that Yan He was worried that he would spit out his booger.Knowing that his father would not have any pleasant words to say next, Yan He pulled the phone away before the foul words ruined his mood.

Guessing that the scolding on the other end of the phone was almost over, he put it to his ear again, and said hastily: "Dad, I have class tomorrow, so I hung up."

The other end said "um", in a commanding tone: "Go and communicate with them more, do you hear me?"

Yan He said impatiently, "Understood", and then hung up the phone.He really didn't want to quarrel with his father again.

Lying on the bed, I couldn't fall asleep.He still remembers the first time his father really got angry with him. Since his fall in the first year of high school, the quarrel with Yan Yangdong seems to have become a common occurrence, and it was not eased until the second year of high school.

After his mother went abroad, she never contacted him again, and he never thought of calling his mother.Even if it is a mother, so what, if she makes a choice, she must be able to bear the consequences.

Just like he chose to run counter to those good students, he must have the courage to bear the consequences.

Yan He opened his eyes and stared at the ceiling.

If... he wasn't such a mess back then, and he was as good as ever, what would happen now?

He closed his eyes, but his heart was clear.

He always knew the answer to the question.

Just like when he made those absurd choices, black and white were always clear.

But, who can allow him to regret it?

The moment hypocritical tears welled out of his eyes, he thought of Gu Ze.