The south of the mountain and the north of the water are the sun

When he was 27 years old, it happened to be the rising period of Xu Shannan's career.

There has been a lot of mishaps at home.

The mother, who has always been strong, was found to have terminal cancer and passed away after lying in the hospital for a month.

Xu Shannan was immersed in the dark and colorless world for a long time.

Originally, he wanted to live with his father, but in the second year after his mother died, his father remarried a woman.

The woman brought a son and a daughter, and in the name of love, blatantly entered the lives of Xu Shannan and his father.

Arbitrarily intervening in the lives of the father and son, and arbitrarily driving Xu Shannan out of the family.

This arrogance is not the use of any kind of force, nor is it a swearing.

But the family they reorganized only wanted to be happy, and Xu Shannan turned out to be an outsider in the family.

Father said that he would not treat Xu Shannan badly, but after all Xu Shannan is also a man who is almost thirty.

each have their own life,

To be close to father is to depend on each other emotionally.

From Xu Shannan's point of view, the fact that their family is happy now is a disservice to him.

So Xu Shannan didn't want to mess with them either.

Although he has no family, he also has his own house.

Let yourself be comfortable without looking at people, stay quietly if you want to stay quietly, lose your temper once if you want to lose your temper, for Xu Shannan, this place is his home.

Although in this house, when the lights are turned off, except for the darkness, it is him.

When the light was turned on, it was him except for the empty room.

But a cozy, alone place can also be a home.

On the way home from a meeting with a client, Xu Shannan passed by the old high school.

He stopped the car and waited quietly at the gate of the high school for a long time.

Not long after the bell rang for the end of get out of class, the students of the whole school were walking around laughing and pushing their carts.

Or buy some snacks at the school gate in small groups and share them together.

When I was still a student, I always felt that life in high school was really too stressful.

Now I feel that it was a lazy and idle time.

There is a kid who will stand on the bazooka of a classmate's mountain bike, and the two of them are talking and laughing, they are so close, and their smiles are so beautiful.

At the beginning, he went to school with Su Shuibei and went to his aunt's house like this.

After so many years, this kid still can't forget it.

Regarding Su Shuibei, he also admitted that he is not a smart person.

But this kid has his own stubborn thoughts in his heart.

The reason why he can't get along with his father now is because he feels that his father is too ruthless.

When my mother was there, my father and her were treated as equals, respecting each other as guests.

After a while, there are newcomers again.

Don't ask for ten years of life and death, don't think about it, never forget it.

At any rate, keeping it for three, three, five years can be regarded as the beginning and the end, and the loyalty to my relationship.

But his father happened to be like this, which made Xu Shannan hate him very much sometimes.

Although Xu Shannan sometimes thinks and wonders whether Su Shuibei has ever loved him.

Was the short time he spent with Su Shuibei an illusion?

He didn't know if Su Shuibei had ever loved him.

But he always believed that his love for Su Shuibei was sincere and blazing.

Break up, also blame myself, blame young and ignorant, really.

At that time, there were too many people who loved Xu Shannan, including his father, mother, Xu Xiaoxiao, buddies and friends, including Su Shuibei...

He thought that everyone's kindness to him and everyone's love for him were taken for granted.

So he doubted and verified it as if nothing had happened while surrounded by countless loves.

Then I feel that I should wait until it is clear that I am the ultimate beneficiary before enjoying it.

However, the four words of weighing pros and cons are really not suitable for young love.

When he just graduated, when he heard about Su Shuibei from his friends, Xu Shannan also wanted to completely forget about Su Shuibei.

But I always keep my fantasy, I always feel that there is hope in life.

As he grows older, he doesn't want to forget it.

Especially after his mother passed away, he felt that once he gave up that part of the past, he also gave up on himself in that part of the past.

Abandoning a past, the next is a new life.

And he likes Xu Shannan who has traces of Su Shuibei.

Remembering the sweet dreams of youth, he will be forever young.

So for so long Xu Shannan never talked about any love again.

That time I stayed at the school gate until very late.

Xu Shannan returned home and simply ate an apple, took a shower and lay down on the bed in a daze.

Lie down facing the window.

Moonlight leaked in through the gaps in the curtains, shining on the boy's white chest and thighs.

The pattern on the curtain is like a seal, engraved on the chest.

His eyes were cold, his chest heaved and his Adam's apple trembled from time to time.

sleepless nights.

He quit his rich and decent job, and spent half a year preparing for the exam with his savings.

He went to his own high school.

The male teacher had more or less an advantage during the interview. Although the ranking in the initial test was not very high, it happened to be the last one to be admitted in a comprehensive test.

He considers himself extremely lucky!

When he first started working, many teachers in the school saw that this kid was in good condition.

There is also a house, and it is formal, and he is tall and handsome, so everyone rushes to introduce him to someone.

Xu Shannan only treated him with indifference, acting like he was that kind of unreasonable guy.

Gradually, no one cares about him anymore.

After years of staying, Xu Shannan is still alone.

The students all said that there is a very strict teacher in the mathematics group, and asking him to substitute for the class is the kind of thing that you have to worry about!

The students all said that the mathematics group had a particularly strange teacher, and they were all in their 30s, and they didn't have a partner!

No, with such a weird temper, who would dare to marry him!

The students all said that there is a good-looking math teacher in the math group, but he is not very good-natured, and always disappears by himself!

If you meet him in the corridor, you will turn around and run away in fright!

The students all said that there was a very poor math teacher in the math group, who was dumb and completely emotionless.

Let him teach mathematics for a whole year, and I have never seen him smile.

These comments would occasionally reach Xu Shannan's ears, but he still went his own way, with a cold face and no smile.

In school, Xu Shannan only took care of his own classes, taught his own books, studied his own exercises, and wrote his own lesson plans.

The students talk, let them talk.

Because the teacher who lives in the discussion among the students is neither him nor him.

It's just taking his name, but in fact, that person doesn't get along with him at all, so what's wrong with him!

Who knows, these students only know that there is a pitiful math teacher in the math group who is ruthless and indifferent, with a cold face and no object, but they don't know that there is only one person hidden in those cold eyes.

I don't know that every brick they walked in these corridors, that magical math teacher also walked.

It was a joke among the boys, and the math teacher had it with a skinny little guy.

Those students only know that the mathematics group has an iceberg-like ruthless teacher.

All I know is that iceberg-like math teacher doesn't love anyone.

But he didn't know that Xu Shannan only loved Su Shuibei.

No one cares, who knows.