born to ashes

Wei Linze walked back with a bag of tofu, and bought two catties of cherries from the old man who sold cherries at a stall on the road.

When meeting Zhang Zhihe downstairs, Wei Linze greeted him from a distance, hesitated for a moment, and shook the cherry in his hand, "Doctor Zhang, do you want to eat cherries?"

Zhang Zhihe waved his hand, Wei Linze was about to leave, he called to stop Wei Linze.

"Linze, is it convenient for Fang to say a few words?"

Wei Linze nodded and followed him into the clinic.

Zhang Zhihe moved a chair for him to sit on, and said directly, "There is something about Josh."

Wei Linze nodded and asked him to continue.

"I had some trouble with Josh a few days ago, but he's not doing well recently..." Zhang Zhihe paused, not knowing whether he should speak out directly.

To say it was unpleasant would be an understatement. He estimated that Josh might not want to talk to him again in his life.

In fact, when he first contacted Josh, his purpose was not pure.He and Wei Wenqu had a little friendship in the early morning, and because of Josh's illness, he was specially called to Zhucheng by Wei Wenqu.At the beginning, he was all focused on stabilizing Josh's condition, but after getting in touch with him, he really regarded Josh as a friend, and he never revealed the fact that he knew Wei Wenqu.

Who knew that when he went out drinking all night that day, he ran into Wei Wenqu and said a few words about Josh's illness, and by coincidence, Josh overheard him.

Strictly speaking, it's not a big deal, Josh can't fail to feel whether he is sincerely a friend.But Josh, he knows too well, he doesn't like to deal with others very much, and he doesn't have many friends, so he pays special attention to him and is very strict.

On the spot, Josh turned his head and left without saying anything. Zhang Zhihe didn't go to explain to him, and there was really nothing to explain, because what he saw and heard was the truth.

"Do you know about delirium?" Zhang Zhihe gritted his teeth and said.

Wei Linze shook his head, thinking about which two words it was.

Zhang Zhihe typed two words on the phone, held it up to Wei Linze and gave him a look, "Delirious, strictly speaking, is a clinical syndrome, not considered a disease, it usually occurs in the elderly, but... ..."

Wei Linze suddenly glanced at him and stared at him.

"Yes...Josh has this disease." Zhang Zhihe raised his breath, "The mortality rate of delirium is very high, and patients generally have high nervousness, confusion, and hallucinations."

Wei Linze remembered Josh's scream that night, is this... is it delirium?

"Even if the patient dies, it is very painful. Do you know that it is the kind of death that is frightened to death by the deepest fear in the heart." Zhang Zhihe's voice trembled after he finished speaking. Unimaginably cruel.

Wei Linze was a little distracted, and there was no other expression on his face. After a while, he asked, "Is there any way to cure it?"

Zhang Zhihe shook his head, "No, there's no way to cure it, it can only be suppressed with medicine. If you want to cure it completely, you have to solve his psychological problems completely. But you see, after all these years, I There is no way to help Josh get over the hurdle in his heart."

After he finished speaking, he spread his hands and kept that posture for a long time before putting his hands down.

"That's why I asked you for help," Zhang Zhihe continued, "I'm afraid Josh won't talk to me right now, but if there is anything unusual about him, I have to help him."

Wei Linze stared at Zhang Zhihe and asked, "Why do you think I will help you?"

Zhang Zhihe was speechless, yes, why did he think that Wei Linze would help Josh, would help him?A normal person knows that his roommate has such a psychological disorder, and he will definitely stay away from him before it's too late. Why is he so sure that Wei Linze will help? Why does he trust Wei Linze for no reason?

"You..." Zhang Zhihe said, "You and Josh are friends... aren't you?"

Zhang Zhihe suddenly felt that he couldn't say anything anymore, even if he was a friend, a friend he just met, why should he help take care of such a person?

Who knew that Wei Linze smiled and said, "It's a friend."

He looked up at Zhang Zhihe, "If there is any situation, I will notify you as soon as possible."

Standing at the door, Zhang Zhihe looked at Wei Linze's back carrying the bag, thinking in his heart, it's strange, why did he think in his heart that Wei Linze would help Josh?

Wei Linze saved Zhang Zhihe's number in his phone, holding the bag in one hand and looking at the phone in the other.

delirium.

Also known as acute brain syndrome, it manifests as confusion of consciousness and disorderly behavior, and usually has an acute onset and obvious fluctuations in the condition.Patients have cognitive decline, altered arousal, and abnormal perception.

The mortality rate is higher, ranging from 22% to 76%.

Wei Linze took a few deep breaths before slowly calming down.

I kept thinking of the fear in my heart, confusion, and mistakenly thought that I had returned to the time when I was most afraid, and the constant fear made me scared to death.

The words became a mess in his mind.

Wei Linze sat on the edge of the flower bed downstairs for a long time, until a few laughing and fussing children ran in front of him, then he realized, rubbed his face, and walked upstairs.

Just as he was about to get the key to open the door, the door suddenly opened from the inside. Josh blocked the door and said, "I'm afraid your tofu is freshly ground."

Wei Linze held up the bag of cherries: "Didn't I also buy some cherries?"

"I went to the suburbs to pick a basket of cherries and should have come back." Josh took the tofu and walked to the kitchen. Wei Linze also changed his shoes and entered the house. Called out in due time.

Josh yelled in the kitchen: "Come here and eat some rice first, you are so hungry, you don't know what to do when you come back."

Wei Linze went into the kitchen to fill a small bowl of rice, biting his chopsticks and laughing.

Josh squinted at him and raised his voice: "Laughing fart!"

"Oh, by the way, a friend of yours came to see you just now."

Wei Linze nodded while holding the rice.

"Don't you ask who it is?" Josh cut the tofu and pulled it into the pot.

"Who could it be? It must be that idiot Han Huai." Wei Linze mumbled while chewing the rice, "Why is he here?"

"He asked you to call him." Josh put the lid on the pot, and stood in front of the stove with his hips akimbo, waiting for the pot to boil.

Wei Linze said "Oh", and went out with the rice to call Han Huai.

Josh looked at the cherries thrown aside by Wei Linze, and washed them up.

When he came out with a large basin of fish soup, Wei Linze was resting his elbows on the dining table, playing with his mobile phone with a serious expression on his face. Josh put down the fish soup, kicked the chair Wei Linze was sitting on, and said, "Go to the kitchen to help Go get your chopsticks."

Wei Linze put down his phone and ran to the kitchen, took the bowls, chopsticks and spoons and played the game again. Josh took a look at the two bowls of rice, and a big picture popped up on the page, which scared him one jump.

"What are you playing with?" Josh glanced at the big bloody picture again.

"Escape from the secret room." Wei Linze said while holding the phone.

"It's hard for you to still be able to eat."

Wei Linze is the only one who can still eat a big bowl of rice while playing a bloody escape room game.

Josh sat across from him and opened a carton of milk. Wei Linze played for a while before standing up and went to the refrigerator to get a bottle of beer. He asked Josh next to the refrigerator, "Do you want beer?"

Josh shook the Future Star in his hand, "No, I'll drink milk."

"What's the matter, are you afraid that you'll go to the wrong door when you're drunk?"

"This time I went to the wrong door and went to your bed by mistake." Josh picked a piece of meat and picked the thorn.

The fish soup looks pretty good, with shallots floating in the milky white soup. I have to say that Josh is a master at cooking. Wei Linze picked up the bottle, opened the bottle cap, and took a sip from the bottle.

"You blow directly into the bottle when you drink?" Josh asked.

"What else? Do you have to use a cup to drink beer?" Wei Linze put down the wine bottle, picked up a piece of tofu and ate it.

Josh looked at how he drank the soup and the wine, he had gained a lot of experience, and he could bear the stomach like this, it must be the indestructible stomach of King Kong, "Actually, I don't like drinking anymore, I think the wine is very bad .”

"Then you were still drinking so hard before." Wei Linze quickly stopped talking and didn't say any more.

Josh was stunned for a while, and asked, "When did you see me drinking?"

"You've lost your memory. Who is it that got drunk and went to the wrong door and stayed at my house?" After Wei Linze finished speaking, both of them heaved a sigh of relief. Josh himself didn't know why he was afraid that Wei Linze would know what he was doing, but he was afraid that he had seen him drinking in the prosperous age, and he was afraid that he would say in any tone, oh, so that's what you do.

Human fear always precedes reason.

Obviously just made a joke about him getting drunk, but the first thing he thought of was what he was most afraid of, not the most reasonable one.

Josh didn't speak anymore, Wei Linze ate a piece of tofu, and changed the subject while chewing, "Tomorrow is May Day, are you free?"

"I'm a homeless person, can I be free—what's the matter?" Josh tried to speak normally.

"Didn't you say you were going to climb a mountain on May [-]st, tomorrow?"

"Mountain climbing?" Josh thought for a while, when did he say that?

"We will go there later tomorrow and start climbing later in the afternoon. We can just climb to the top of the mountain to watch the sunrise." Wei Linze has a general itinerary in mind. This season, climbing at night is just right, neither cold nor hot. During the day when the sun rises, you can take a car down the mountain .

"Okay." Josh agreed immediately, the excitement in his heart couldn't be suppressed no matter what, his whole body exuded the signal of "I'm in a good mood", not only took the initiative to enter the kitchen to help Wei Linze wash the dishes after dinner, but also Almost humming.

His excited state didn't ease all night, and it tended to get worse as the night went on.

Ever since he was a child, he has never traveled, climbed mountains or played in water. As long as he thinks about going mountain climbing with Wei Wei tomorrow, he can't sleep.What are you going to wear tomorrow?What to bring to eat?Do you want to wear sunglasses?Do I need to bring a tent?Thinking over and over like this, I couldn't fall asleep.

Wei Linze was leaning on the bedside reading a book when there was a knock on the door. He looked at the door and said, "Come in, it's unlocked."

All I saw was Josh in pajamas, standing at the door with a quilt and pillow in his arms, and said pitifully, "Hey, I can't sleep anymore."

Wei Linze glanced at him.The neckline of the pajamas is large, and Josh's collarbone is exposed. The shape is very beautiful. There is a mole of a small size on the right side, but it feels to him that it is not as flamboyant as it was when he first saw it.In fact, if you think about it carefully, since a long time ago, Josh has lost the habit of showing his sharpness. At the beginning, the goblin who threw flying eyes at him seems to have completely merged into the world, becoming a person who walks in the world step by step. .

He moved slowly, let out half of the space, and patted, "Come to my bed and fall asleep?"

I'm afraid you won't be able to sleep even more.

Josh muttered: "Maybe it will."

He jumped onto the bed with the pillow and quilt in his arms, bounced it a few times, and obediently covered the quilt up to his chin, sinking half of his face into the pillow.

Wei Linze turned off the headlights, leaving only a small desk lamp on his side.

For a long time, all I could hear was the sound of him turning the pages of the book.

Listening to the sound of the pages turning, Josh inexplicably felt at ease.In fact, he has been here for a long time with his eyes open for more than half of the time at night. Patients with delirium are especially sensitive at night and are more prone to hallucinations.For a long time, he kept his eyes wide open, sat on the bed and looked at the white coats that appeared in front of him, staring at them motionlessly. He even consciously controlled himself not to make a sound, but he couldn't drive away the fear.

He opened his eyes and looked at Wei Linze.

He held the book and read it with a serious face. The warm light from the desk lamp next to him shone on his face, revealing the fine fluff.

The cover of the book says "onepiece". Josh smiles.oh!Fuck his serious face, why do you have to look serious when reading a comic book?

He kicked Wei Linze, "I still can't sleep."

Wei Linze supported the book with his hands, and looked down at him, "You can count sheep with your eyes closed, and you can fall asleep if you concentrate."

"Are you still reading comics?" Josh stretched out his hand and poked the cover of the comic.

"What's wrong."

"It's nothing, it doesn't suit your temperament."

Wei Linze smiled, "What kind of temperament do I have? Feelings are worth reading comics."

Josh didn't answer him, moved the pillow, and said, "You can tell me a story, or you can read comics."

"There's no such thing as reading manga." Wei Linze muttered.

Josh stopped talking, and concentrated on waiting for Wei Linze to read comics to him while nestling in the pillow.

"Let me tell you a story." Wei Linze closed the book, "Why are you like a child, you can't fall asleep without coaxing?"

Once upon a time, there was a mother swan.

When the mother swan was incubating her eggs, she found that one egg was very small, not like a goose egg, but more like a duck egg.

She doesn't want to hatch the duck's egg, but the problem is, it could be a swan's egg.

Only when the egg hatches can she be sure whether it is a goose egg or a duck egg.

However, didn't she want to know whether it was a duck egg or a goose egg just to decide whether to hatch the egg?

There is never a way to decide whether to hatch or not to hatch until it hatches.

This egg is Schrödinger's egg.

After Wei Linze finished telling the story, he turned his head to look at Josh. Half of his face was buried in the pillow, his breathing was light and shallow, and his eyelashes covered his eyes, casting a large shadow.

Josh does look good.