the years you weren't around

If we meet again someday, what will I do to you?With tears, with silence.When Gu Mingwei recited these words silently in his heart, he felt that his breathing was lighter than usual. He opened his mouth and finally decided to choose the latter.So he stared at the familiar and unfamiliar man in front of him without blinking, without even saying "Long time no see".

Lin Chen, after ten years, I see you again, in a silent way.

And the man standing by the side of the road seems to have been shot with the pause button pressed, not even a forced smile when he left back then, and the two just stared at each other for a long time.It was at such an evening when the setting sun still had an aftertaste and shadows were elongated by ambiguity.

Later, a seven or eight-year-old girl slapped the ball at Gu Mingwei's feet, and said sweetly, "Uncle, I'm sorry." Boss Gu, who had become tactful and sophisticated, was startled by his lack of focus—but he had obviously missed it. Thinking of the best time to say something that I haven't seen for a long time, Gu Mingwei thought about taking the initiative to open his mouth to break the slightly strange and even ambiguous atmosphere, but blurted out: "When I first saw you back then, you also took a picture of the basketball at my feet. Almost hit me."

As soon as Boss Gu finished his words, he realized that he really should insist on the principle that silence is golden, and he should speak up from the past. How can the two of them, who were secretive about the past, deal with themselves?

When Gu Mingwei was annoyed that his IQ and EQ were so touching, Lin Chen opened his mouth, his voice was much lower than when he was a teenager, it was a man's voice, and he was not familiar with it at all, even the words were unfamiliar: "Yes, after that we will talk We often play together." After speaking, he smiled without hesitation.If it was Lin Chen back then, he would have raised his eyebrows and sneered, "What's the matter, the attempted smashing incident ten years ago is only remembered now?"

This kind of change can't be said to be good or bad, it's just that the people who bothered to create a harmonious atmosphere in order to continue the topic changed from one person to two, and Gu Mingwei was inevitably a little at a loss.

Time is clearly invisible, but he can always see the traces of the past ten years from the person opposite him. He doesn't know whether it is him or himself who lacks his years for so long that the changes are infinitely magnified.

Lin Chen smiled again, pointed to a restaurant not far to the west and said, "You haven't eaten yet, I invite you, the sweet and sour pork ribs in that restaurant are very good."

Gu Mingwei nodded in a daze, followed him forward, stared at the back of his head meticulously, and couldn't take it easy. After a while, he wondered why two people who should meet each other should go to eat and chat like ordinary old friends reunited.After a while, Lin Chen still remembers that he likes sugar ribs. This person can't even name a few dishes that he likes, but he never remembers what others like.

Gu Mingwei shook his stopped brain, caught up with Lin Chen, and chatted like an ordinary friend: "You have been working here all these years?" Didn't it mean that you would work in City B directly after finishing school?Gu Mingwei didn't say this, because he suddenly remembered that this was an agreement between two people, and since he shattered the agreement and went south to F University, he naturally had no right to ask where Lin Chen worked.

"Well, after graduation, I went to graduate school, and there happened to be an important person from the company here, and the salary was good, so I came back. But you, haven't been back for so many years, Xiangzi and the others are always talking about you, saying that you are prosperous now, I even forgot my brother."

Look how gentle his teasing has become.Gu Mingwei smiled bitterly, complexities flashed in his eyes, and he just said calmly: "I don't have any relatives here, so I dragged it down year after year." Besides, I was afraid of meeting someone who was sorry back then.

Lin Chen's originally calm face lost all color in an instant, and his ugly face made people unconsciously think of a cold dead person, "Where's grandma?"

Gu Mingwei glanced at him in surprise, "I left eight years ago, the old man accidentally fell and couldn't hold on anymore. It's not painful to leave, but I can't let you go... "

Lin Chen interrupted him hastily, his eyes were a little red, "Why, didn't you tell me?"

Gu Mingwei's expression changed, but it was only for a moment, and he said in a low voice, "You changed your number, and you sent an email without telling anyone here..."

Naturally, nothing came to light, because Lin Chen gave up all contact with this place, and left without any contact with his family during the six years of school. Up to now, Lin Chen's parents only pretended that they had never given birth to this son, so naturally they would not send Gu's family to him. tell him about it.Lin Chen was at a loss for a moment before saying, "I'm sorry."

Gu Mingwei shook his head. When grandma left, it was snowing heavily. The aunt who had traveled across the ocean showed a few times and almost aggravated the old lady's condition. She only appeared after the old lady left, so he was the only one to accompany her through the rest of the day. In those days, I watched the decent old lady who had been a lifetime thinner. In those days, the old man tossed and said a few words: "This kid Xiaochen refuses to come back. I know he is blaming me..."

He continued to comfort: "Grandma, from what you said, he must not know, or he will crawl back after crawling. I don't know him...Grandma, grandma..." The words said This, the taste has changed, Gu Mingwei's expression tightened, for fear that the old man would be unhappy again.

The eyes of the old man who had been sober all his life became moist: "Xiaowei, you still can't forget him." His tone was so sure that Gu Mingwei couldn't even argue, "But, two boys, what are you serious about? Even if you really hide it After a lifetime, you don't even have an upright person. Can you guarantee that the two of you won't complain? You can bear it, but Xiaochen's temper..."

Lin Chen has such a proud and stubborn personality, he must not be able to bear ambiguity, once the love is over, the life of the two can be seen almost at a glance.

Gu Mingwei understood too well.

They met too early, and neither of them was able to resist the public opinion of the world, nor could they give each other an explanation, so at that time he said to Lin Chen: "Lin Chen, let's separate, I'm afraid you will suffer..."

"Lin Chen, don't be stupid! We have no future!"

But Lin Chen didn't understand that the young man who had never suffered setbacks had a showdown with his family in a fit of anger, and then went south to go to school, and only set foot on the land of N City again when he was working.

The reunion meal was tasteless, and Lin Chen didn't even ask if it was good. I'm afraid even he himself didn't know what he ate.

Two well-dressed mature men sat facing each other, chatting in a mess. There were friends from the past, current jobs, and state affairs that were always unclear, but there was no relationship between each other and the ten years of absence from each other. Experience, it seems that if you don't mention it, there will be no ten years of separation.

But after all, it’s different. In the past, there were very few friends in common. Xiangzi, Monk, Lao Wu, Xiaoer, these are the only ones in the local area. Now, after explaining the work in a few words, there is no happiness, no worries, and dry Like a blank sheet of paper, there is no way to talk about major national affairs, one is south and the other is north. Apart from the smog and the South China Sea, what else is there to talk about?

Years are too cruel, some want to forget, like tarsus maggots; don't want to change, already beyond recognition.

When they left, they left each other's numbers, and the number eleven clearly reminded Gu Mingwei that he had contacted this person again. When Gu Mingwei left, he couldn't help but look back. Lin Chen stood at the door of the restaurant with his head down, his fingers flickering , The smoke was lingering around, he suddenly raised his head, but through the smoke, Gu Mingwei didn't see his expression clearly, but felt his eyes sore, and a handful of sand was rubbed into his heart.