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When we arrived at Gu Sheng's house, it was completely dark.The city was brightly lit, and the night above was calm and still, clear but starless.

Gu Sheng opened the door, and what appeared in front of him was the living room, which was not specially decorated, and it was not at the same level as his home in Fengcheng.There are clothes hanging randomly on the sofa in the living room, some are clean, some are replaced.The windows were not closed, and the cold wind blew in, making people shrink their necks uncontrollably.The kitchen was empty, with no kitchen utensils.

There is a pot of white flowers on the balcony, the windows are not closed, and the night breeze brings in a faint fragrance of flowers, which has a conflicting and blending effect with the smell of new paint in the room.

Gu Sheng threw the key into the brown teacup on the table by the door, took off his shoes in a blink of an eye, and stepped barefoot on the smooth floor.He walked to the refrigerator, opened the refrigerator door, and asked, "Do you want something to drink? I have... juice."

Xia He followed his example and began to take off his shoes, walked over barefoot, leaned against him, stared at the refrigerator with the door open and emitting cold air, and there was very little food, so he could only say: "Let's go to juice. "

Gu Sheng turned to look at him, "Forget it, I'll take you out to eat roast duck."

"It seems that this is the only way..."

Xia He leaned his chin on his shoulder and smiled.

"But before we eat, we still have one thing to do."

"what's up?"

Gu Sheng suddenly stretched out his hand to touch his waist, then slowly moved down, pinched his buttocks, leaned closer, and said, "What do you think?"

Being teased like this, Xia He's eyelashes twitched, and this time he acted as the sender, and while the other party was still teasing, he gave priority to kissing the other party.

He tried to unbutton Gu Sheng's shirt, the action was a little rough, and a button was broken, but Gu Sheng didn't care.The tip of the tongue still feels the same, and the fingers touch the warm body of the other party softly and forcefully.

Gu Sheng didn't seem to like to be conquered, so he took advantage of his strong physique to suppress the opponent.

He took off Xia He's clothes and kissed him.In the past, Xia He held back and didn't make any sound, but this time he opened his mouth, breathing slowly, enjoying it properly.

The occasional panting made Gu Sheng's heart itch, like an ant crawling in his heart, wishing to bite his shoulder, so he bit down.

Xia He suddenly stopped panting, stared at him in a daze, and said nothing.

Gu Sheng realized it, and turned to ask a little aggrieved: "Did the bite hurt you?"

He shook his head: "It doesn't hurt..."

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Then the two continued to flirt.

Afterwards, Gu Sheng lay on Xia He's scorching back and kissed his shoulder. Seeing the red tooth marks that hadn't receded, which was very conspicuous on his pale skin, he couldn't help but touched it with his hands, and moved closer to Xia He's. Ear, said: "Sorry, I can't control it..."

Xia He looked at his face from the corner of his eye, and said softly, "It's okay!"

After resting for a while, Gu Sheng got up and wiped the sweat from his forehead, "Get up quickly, take a shower first, before it's too late, the roast duck restaurant will be closed."

After the sound, Xia He stood up.But Xia He felt a little tired, he couldn't help himself up, and then leaned on his shoulder, "You can carry me to the bathroom."

Immediately, Gu Sheng carried him up according to the words, and slowly moved to the bathroom step by step.Xia He sat on the small chair, waiting for the other party's next move.

Gu Sheng picked up the shower head, turned on warm water, gently sprinkled it on his body, poured it from his hair, wiped off the water droplets on his eyelashes, and then washed away the sweat, hickey marks, and other liquids on his neck.

Xia He opened his eyes, looking up at Gu Sheng through the water pattern.Immediately, Gu Sheng waved his hand and stuffed the shower head into his hand, and said, "It's your turn to wash it for me."

"..."

On a midsummer night in Beijing, the wind is warm, accompanied by the continuous sound of cars, rolling into Xiahe's ears one after another.

Gu Sheng was walking in front of him, talking on the phone, his tone sounded cheerful, and he occasionally swears.It can be heard that those are the friends he made in Beijing in the past few months.

Xia He followed his figure without speaking, watching his every move silently.I should feel satisfied in my heart, but I am also very lonely.

When he arrived in front of an upper-middle-level store, Gu Sheng turned his eyes to him while talking on the phone, pointed to the storefront, and signaled to go in.

Afterwards, Gu Sheng hung up the phone, took Xia He in, and chose a seat by the window.There is a constant flow of people outside the window, in twos and threes, or alone in a hurry.

After ordering, Gu Sheng walked back to his seat and smiled at Xia He.

For some reason, even though the two had a heated fight 10 minutes ago, once they were in the crowd, they felt a little uncomfortable with each other.

"Do you want anything else to drink?" Gu Sheng asked.

Xia He met his gaze and said, "Anything is fine."

"Let's add more after the food is served."

"Ok!"

Gu Sheng asked again: "How is your school food?"

Xia He didn't expect him to ask this question, he frowned and thought about it: "That's it, but there are a few canteens that are pretty good."

"Hey, no matter what, it's better than our school. I can't get enough to eat with vegetarian dishes and soup every day. I have to go out for extra meals. If I knew I wouldn't go to a police academy, it would be great to just take the money and learn to invest from others." .”

Xia He smiled: "Didn't you want to be a policeman? It just happened."

Gu Sheng: "That was in the past. I don't think about it now. I feel that this industry is risky. I have to buy several insurances alone, and I don't necessarily get praise from the people. How can I have a sense of heroism? By the way, what are your plans after graduation? do what?"

Xia He said: "It's hard to say, I don't know yet."

"If I change careers and find a partner to start a company, if you don't like the job, how about you come to me as a manager?"

Gu Sheng spoke very sincerely, and it really touched Xia He's maverick heart.

However, he still perfunctorily said, "Let's talk about it after you start a company."

Gu Sheng twitched the corner of his mouth after hearing this. The answer was different from what he expected, and he was a little disappointed: "It's really boring..." Then he said: "I was joking with others before, and they are not as cold as you."

Xia He changed his mind and asked, "Am I the first person you make fun of?"

The expression on Gu Sheng's face froze for a moment, and then he snorted lightly: "Don't worry, Xia He, it's just a joke, if there is such a future, that position must belong to you."

At this time, the waiter came over to serve the food, and the two of them went back to the time when you and I didn't know each other well, looking at each other and looking out the window.

"Please enjoy!"

The waiter politely walked away with the tray, Xia He turned his eyes to look at the other party, and answered his previous words: "Thank you!"

"Xiahe, you are always being so polite to me, it makes me very uneasy..."

Although Gu Sheng pretended to be prudish, his heart began to fluctuate.

Xia He didn't know what to say, so he could only reply: "Except for you, no one else deserves my politeness."

Suddenly, a woman's voice came from the side: "Hey, Gu Sheng, do you want to take your classmates out for dinner?"

The two turned their faces towards the voice at the same time, and saw a slightly fat woman holding a child, who looked familiar to Gu Sheng.

Gu Sheng pointed to Xia He and introduced, "Well, my friend who just came to Beijing."

The woman turned around and looked at Xia He: "The young man is really good-looking, does he go to school here?"

Gu Sheng answered for Xia He: "That's right, I'm from Communication University."

"Yo, that school is amazing, you can be a star in the future."

Xia He smiled: "How can there be such a good thing..."

"Don't tell me, I have a sister's child, who also graduated from the media industry. People are broadcasting news on TV now. It's only the second set of the Central Committee. Maybe you have seen it."

Xia He said awkwardly: "I don't watch TV very much..."

This time the other party didn't know how to answer the conversation, so they had to change the subject: "These two, you are really president. I won't disturb your meal." After she finished speaking, she turned around and walked out of the store, probably just finished eating.

After a while, Xia He asked, "Who is she?"

Gu Sheng said: "My neighbor, when I first moved here, I went to her house for a few meals, and she was very enthusiastic."

"By the way, you bought that house?"

"No, it's rented, and I live here temporarily. I won't buy such a house."

Gu Sheng said: "The houses in Fengcheng are also being sold. Fortunately, I am an adult, otherwise these properties will be taken away by others in minutes."

"Didn't your father say anything before he died?"

Gu Sheng's eyes were dazed for a moment: "Say a fart, I can't even speak nonsense."

Seeing that something bad was mentioned, Xia He stopped talking, and started to feed his growling stomach.As for the unpleasant but ubiquitous topic before the woman appeared, Xia He didn't want to mention it again.That's where his inner demons lie, that's the only and also the biggest grievance between him and Gu Sheng.

For several days in a row, Xia He ran to Gu Sheng's house whenever he had no classes. The two of them visited the Forbidden City together, visited the police academy, and went to watch the national flag being raised before the parade.

Although both of them are restrained in front of people, they cover up, cover it up, and behave like everyone else.No matter how impatient you are, you should find a place where no one is around.It seems that everything is going with the flow and forming inertia, but the loneliness in Xia He's heart is getting stronger and stronger.That was something that having a lover couldn't fill. He still loved Gu Sheng deeply, but the fire in his heart was extinguished.

Maybe at the beginning, I want to get a kiss, an affectionate look, and then I want to get a hug, a hot and lingering night.But now, when he came back to his senses, he felt a little empty. He wanted to be recognized, and he wanted to have a romantic relationship with you and me, instead of finding a place where there was no one to vent his lust.Then back to friendship.

He was still young, and the throbbing and expectations in his heart were still at their peak, but the fire couldn't be ignited no matter what.

When returning to the school dormitory at night, I met Xiangfeng.

Holding the kettle in his hand, he passed by Xia He and touched his shoulder.Xia He glanced at him, and the other party asked, "Where did you go?"

After hesitating for a while, Xia He said, "Go see a friend."

"The guy from last time?"

What he said made Xia He feel a little bit panicked.

"It seems that you two have a good relationship, right?"

"No, high school classmate."

"Oh, no wonder." Xiang Feng took out two tickets from his trouser pocket and handed them to Xia He, saying, "By the way, I have two extra tickets for the theater. If you have time, bring the girl you like over here and see it for you. gone."

Xia He froze for a moment, reached out to take it, and before he could say thank you, the other party quickened his pace and ran upstairs.

He held the ticket into the palm of his hand, feeling a strong but indescribable feeling.