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Two days before the start of school, Gu Sheng left.

When he left, he didn't ask Xia He to see him off, and joked, "If you won't come with me, then don't come."

Although there was a hint of a smile after he finished speaking, Xia He felt a little sad when he heard it.When the other party drove away, he stood there for a while, taking a deep breath of the still cold air.Then turned around, pretended to be disapproving, and walked back.

Throughout the second semester of the third year of high school, he did not indulge in any entertainment activities except for being immersed in the sea of ​​books and exercises day and night. He would only go out with Zhou Yu during the short weekends to see the streets that have been revised and changed, and the old and new ones replaced. gaming room.

Studying so hard may be to achieve the goal that Gu Sheng asked him to, or it may be because he wants to offset the time without the other party.

They talk on the phone several times a week, sometimes because they are busy with everything and they don't answer, Xia He will go back before going to bed, and the two will chat for a long time.Seeing the night outside the window getting darker, I hung up when I couldn't keep my eyes open, or fell asleep directly.

Gu Sheng is always the narrator, talking about his current situation in Beijing, saying that he will have to wait until the next semester to join the police academy, and there is nothing to do in the past six months, and he intends to clear up the things left by his father.

And Xiahe is always a listener, listening to him very carefully, and rarely talks about his own life.That dull, extremely boring, day-to-day life.

Later, he came into contact with the Internet and begged his father for a long time before he was willing to install a computer at home.So you can exchange photos, life photos, personal photos, and personal nude/photos with Gu Sheng.

But for a while, Gu Sheng didn't go online for a month, and he didn't return his calls, as if he disappeared without a trace.

Xia He could only stare at the gray head, frowned, then turned off the computer rudely, and found a book to relieve his worries.In addition to forbearance, there is still forbearance in my heart, densely packed, like a lonely forest, not even a bird's cry.

When Gu Sheng reappeared, it was at noon, and the sunlight cast the shadow of the tree on the window sill. Xia He suddenly received a call from him.

"Hello, Xia He?"

Xia He stood still in front of the window, holding the phone in his hand, "Yeah!"

"Sorry, I haven't heard from you for so long. I went to Tibet and forgot to tell you. There is no internet or signal in that place."

Xia He was still hesitating, not knowing what to say.When he received the call, he was flustered, and he didn't even dare to answer it, for fear that the other party would say suddenly, "I'm sorry, let's break up."

But this breakup was hidden very deeply, just like the phrase "together" didn't appear at the beginning, everything followed the rules, but it didn't make any sense.It seems that during these days of getting along, the two of them were sneaky, exciting at the beginning, and got tired of it after a long time.

In this relationship, even if one of the parties wants to leave suddenly one day, they will leave quietly. How can there be a breakup?

Fortunately, fortunately, Gu Sheng was not talking about this.

"You turn on the computer, and I sent you the photos. The Potala Palace is very beautiful. If there is a chance in the future, I really want to take you there again. You will definitely like it."

Xia He held back his emotions and smiled: "I hope I can wait until that day."

"Don't worry, I will do what I promised you."

Gu Sheng thought for a while and asked again: "By the way, when will you take the college entrance examination? I can't wait to see you."

Xia He said, "It's not far away, next month."

"Do you know anything about the university in Beijing?"

There was silence for a while, "Gu Sheng, I will try my best."

"I believe you can do it, Xia He, I really hope you can stay by my side."

Xia He raised his head, looked at the June sky outside the window, and the shadows of the trees shaken by the wind, and said lightly, "Well, I can do it."

The breeze blew in, blowing up a corner of the scattered drawing paper on the table in front of him.

In July, the summer wind is sultry and the cicadas are noisy.

The day before the college entrance examination, when Xiahe passed by the path beside the playground, he saw Gao Yalan sitting alone on a stone chair under a tree with a book in his hands.Hearing footsteps, Gao Yalan raised her head to look at him, smiled, and then said, "Can you come and sit with me?"

Xia He hesitated for a while, he bought water and wanted to take it to Zhou Yu, since this is the case, he had to wait.

So, Xia He stepped over and asked her when he walked up to her: "What's the matter?"

"It's nothing, I just haven't talked to you for a long time..."

Xia He sat down beside her, looking a little reluctant to let go.

Gao Yalan rarely smiled very familiarly, and looked a little reserved, but she tried to pretend to be calm.She asked, "What university did you apply for?"

Without thinking: "Communication University of China."

"Where is it"

"Beijing!"

Gao Yalan turned her gaze: "It's so far away."

"Yes." Xia He didn't have a straight face as usual, but became a little friendly. "And you"

"I...may not pass the exam."

Gao Yalan lowered her face and smiled helplessly.

"Your grades are not bad, why didn't you pass the exam?"

Go Aran said, "No, I probably won't read it anymore."

"Um"

Xia He was surprised.

"Xiahe, I really envy you." She raised her head and stared into his eyes. "There are always many people around you who are very kind to you. They are all sincere, and your father is so sensible. You are so lucky."

Xia He was stunned. Hearing what she said, Gu Sheng, Zhou Yu, Dad, and others immediately flashed across his mind.They have kind faces and smiles like flowers.They are all such important people, and their existence is indelible in my heart.

At this time, Zhou Yu stood on the corridor on the third floor and waved to Xiahe, telling him to bring the water up quickly.

Xia He was still comprehending Gao Yalan's inexplicable words, so he didn't see them.It was Gao Yalan who reminded him: "Come on, Zhou Yu is calling you."

He raised his head and saw Zhou Yu's figure in the corridor.So he stood up, and when he was about to lift his legs to leave, he said to her: "Don't worry, you will be needed."

After the sound, he lifted his legs and trot away.

After the college entrance examination, the results have not yet been announced.

July 19nd of that year was Xia He's [-]th birthday, and it was skipped in a hurry. Zhou Yu insisted that he would help him make up for this important day.

His original words were: "I personally spend money to treat you to your birthday."

So, on the night of the [-]nd, he invited many people and opened a private room in the karaoke room.Originally wanted to invite Gao Yalan to come over and take the opportunity to develop the concept of love, but helplessly, Gao Yalan refused casually.

That night there were two girls whom Xie Dong knew, and there were also a few people Xia He had never met.It doesn't matter to him, anyway, it's just a formality, birthdays are dispensable to him, and he has never had the habit of celebrating birthdays since he was a child.

After everyone sang the earthy birthday song to him, they began to eat and drink and chat about their own affairs.Xia He sat beside Zhou Yu, listening to the waist-length girl singing "Promise".

Although the timbre was not beautiful and out of tune, but for some reason, everyone fell silent after hearing that melody.After all, who hasn't loved someone who wasn't available in their teenage years?

After she finished singing, Xie Dong started the tune and said, "Hey, isn't the birthday star coming up with a song?"

Xia He frowned, raised his eyes to look over, curled his lips and shook his head.

"No, no, there must be one."

He had no choice but to stand up, and Zhou Yu also handed over the microphone very "intimately", and said, "I'll leave it to you."

Xia He thought about it, and said: "No, I have been incomplete since I was a child."

"I don't believe it, you listen to so many songs, how could you be tone deaf."

"..."

"Then let's have a song."

Zhou Yu said: "Xiahe, sing whatever you want, we won't say anything if you don't make a sound with the accompaniment."

Xia He lowered his eyes and had no choice but to choose "Favorite in Life".At the beginning of the prelude, he was a little apprehensive, but after he opened his mouth, he felt relieved. Fortunately, he was born with an excellent voice, even if he ran away occasionally, he was better than everyone present.

"If you wait obsessively for a certain day, you can finally find your favorite in your life... (Lyrics)"

"Yo, that's not bad. She can also sing Cantonese. She's hiding her secrets, Xia He."

Xie Dong interrupted midway, and Xia He stopped again.The girl next to him said: "Don't interrupt, let him finish singing."

Now that he has been recognized, Xia He feels like he has an extra dose of peace of mind.So I continued to sing, more seriously and beautifully.

After singing, others said: "As expected of a birthday star, he sang so well."

Xia He smiled unnaturally, and hurriedly handed the microphone to Xie Dong: "Don't talk about me, it's your turn."

Xie Dong was not afraid of making a fool of himself, so he picked up the microphone and howled.

After singing, someone suggested: "Why don't you play cards, the loser will play truth or dare."

"sure!"

Xie Dong turned off the karaoke music as soon as he heard some people were playing.

"Come and play cards, don't sing, No.1 can designate the last person to do anything." After speaking, he turned to Xia He: "Shouxing has no objection?"

Xia He didn't care about the familiar rules of the game, so he nodded, "Come on."

So several people sat down around the table and began to deal the cards.

It's a round of winning and losing, and Xia He doesn't even care.But in the later stage of the game, everyone's interest was almost worn out. When they were about to go home and sleep, the last place suddenly fell to Xiahe.

In the end, everyone fell asleep again, claiming to uncover the big secret hidden by Xia He.

The No.1 girl in that game thought for a long time before she said to him: "How about you call the person you like the most and say a word of love?"

Zhou Yu smiled: "He's all alone, there's no one he likes."

"If someone didn't tell you, it doesn't mean there isn't."

Zhou Yu turned his head and asked Xia He again: "Is there any? Except me."

Xia He's expression was calm, he ignored him, with a hint of a smile, he didn't seem to care about it anymore.Or maybe it was because of drinking that he suddenly had the courage to call someone in front of everyone.

He took out his mobile phone, walked to the door, and made a call under everyone's gaze.Everyone else looked expectantly, only Zhou Yu was surprised.

After a while, Gu Sheng's voice came from the other end: "Hello, Xia He"

After hesitating for a while, Xia He smiled, leaned against the door frame, neon lights flashed in his pupils, and said, "If you don't come again, I won't wait for you..."

"what"

"I miss you so much!"

Pause for a moment, then hang up!