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At about nine o'clock in the evening, outside the window, the brighter and more conspicuous moon was cut into pieces by the slowly swaying tree shadows, casting scattered light.

After eating, Xia He and his father were clearing the table and dishes. Gu Sheng wanted to help out of politeness, but Xia Zhendong didn't let him touch it. Seeing that his face turned red after drinking, he urged him to sit on the sofa. sit.

Gu Sheng didn't go, instead, he walked to the balcony, leaned on the railing, lit a cigarette, and felt very comfortable.The night wind blew in, and the layer of smoke lingered and drifted away.

Xia He glanced at his back for a while while wiping the table, under the faint moonlight, in the thin layer of smoke, he looked silent and looked a little lonely.And he is no longer the image of Ares in Xia He's heart, he is no one but Gu Sheng.

After Xia He cleaned up, he washed some tomatoes and went to the balcony, walked around behind him slowly, and leaned on the railing to feel his breath when he smoked.Many years ago, he couldn't bear this smoky and bitter smell, but he didn't know when it started, probably after getting to know Gu Sheng, he felt very clearly that he became obsessed with cigarettes.It's not that I'm obsessed with its taste, nor its appearance. I'm infatuated with it. It's just that when it is held between Gu Sheng's fingers, it flickers on and off, and when it is squeezed at the corner of his mouth and burns slowly.The smoke circled into his heart and lungs, leaving indelible traces.

For Xia He, cigarettes fulfilled all his fantasies about Gu Sheng.

He handed the tomato over and said, "Here you are."

Gu Sheng still held the cigarette between his fingers, turned his head and glanced at Xia He, took it with his hand, then snuffed out the cigarette butt, and said thank you.

He looked at the other party feeling a little dazed, and asked, "Did you drink too much?"

Gu Sheng took a bite of the tomato, and while chewing, he boasted, "I guess I drank a little too much, but I don't usually drink more than this amount. Just that kind of canned beer, I can at least drink this amount." 'Six bottles' gesture.

Xia He sneered: "Stop talking big, you drank too much last time..."

As soon as he finished speaking, Gu Sheng hurriedly retorted: "I'm really not talking too much, last time I drank at least seven or eight bottles before I got up. Today I'm a little tired from riding all afternoon."

Xia He let him make a face for himself, turned his eyes to look at the dim road outside the courtyard, and said flatly: "Can you go back later?"

"Yes, if you can't go back, will you send me?"

"Thinking beautiful."

Xia He smiled, turned around and saw his father coming in this direction, he probably heard what the two of them were talking about.He walked up to the two of them and said, "Gu Sheng, if you can't go back, you can stay here tonight, and sleep with Xia He, he doesn't mind."

At this time, Xia He couldn't refute anything, so he could only accept this character design without his own consent.After being shocked, I realized that this is not feasible...

Xia Zhendong added at the end: "Of course, if you mind, we can talk about it."

Gu Sheng hurriedly said, "Of course I don't mind, but do you agree? I'll sleep with you?"

When he said this, his eyes were on Xia He, with a trace of unscrupulous banter.

Xia He was silent for a moment, and the unsightly images that he usually imagined in his dreams flashed through his mind.He didn't know what it would be like if he and Gu Sheng were lying on the same bed, he didn't dare to think about it, he was forbearing and restrained in his heart, and there were always times when he was on the verge of breaking.Reality is always the opposite of dreams, and he seems to have seen through this long ago.

However, he couldn't say anything, it was so easy to be seen by others, especially because he was afraid of being seen by Gu Sheng into his dark thoughts, so he could only pretend to be indifferent and nodded: "It's okay, if you can't ride a bicycle, you can Stay overnight."

Xia Zhendong laughed happily and said, "That's right, Gu Sheng is such a good boy, you always treat him with a cold face, how rude, be more enthusiastic."

Xia He had a stern face, didn't want to talk, and looked unhappy.But Gu Sheng never cared about it, and then chatted with Xia Zhendong about his rich father.

We didn't talk for long, and halfway through we said that we were sleepy and we were going to lie down for a while.He walked into Xia He's room, lay down comfortably on the bed, and even sniffed the quilt that Xia He usually held in his arms.

Xia He also went in afterward, seeing that he hadn't washed or taken off his shoes, he threw himself on the bed like that, afraid that he would sleep uncomfortable, and asked again: "Do you want to take a bath first?"

Gu Sheng opened his eyes and said slowly, "Can I not wash it?"

"Okay, it's up to you!"

After Xia He finished speaking, he went to open the closet, found a change of clothes, and went out into the bathroom.

After he took a shower, he walked to the living room to drink water, and saw that there was no moonlight shining on the balcony, and at some point in the night sky, dark clouds floated up, covering the moonlight, and it was suddenly dark outside.He passed Dad's room, the door ajar and the light coming through.He glanced into the room and saw that his father was sitting at the window table preparing lessons, so he helped him close the door and walked into his room.

Gu Sheng probably fell asleep, and the sound of breathing gradually became louder.

Xia He approached, looked at his slowly rising and falling chest, and the quiet and handsome face in sleep, hesitated for a while, and couldn't help reaching out to touch his shoulder: "Huh?"

Gu Sheng moved his eyes, turned over, and said wearily, "What's wrong?"

"Go and wash before going to bed, or you can sleep on the sofa."

"Just now you agreed to let me sleep in your bed, and you changed your mind if you said it?" Gu Sheng sat up while talking, and added: "I'm really sleepy."

But after saying that, he suddenly moved out of bed and started to take off his clothes.

After taking off the jacket, he began to untie the belt.

When Xia He saw it, he suddenly panicked.He hurriedly reached out to stop him: "Why don't you go to the bathroom and take it off, I'll find you some clothes to wear to sleep."

"No, I'll just take it off here and go in again."

It was the first time for him to use such a childish tone, but it sounded very shameless.

After finishing speaking, he untied the belt and unzipped the zipper, and the pants fell off by themselves.

Xia He subconsciously cast his eyes away. In fact, for boys, even if they take off everything, it's not a problem, at least in Gu Sheng's eyes, not to mention that he is not serious at this time, and he will be sorry for dinner if he doesn't do something stupid Alcohol poured down.

He bent down again and took off his shoes slowly, and then he took off his pants. When he was about to continue to take off his underwear, Xia He hurriedly stretched out his hands and said, "Go to the bathroom and take it off." Then he pushed him directly into the bathroom ,Close the door.

He stood in front of the bathroom door and hesitated for a while, but he didn't hear any movement inside, so he knocked on the door and asked, "Gu Sheng, you didn't fall asleep in there, did you?"

No response.

He knocked again, still no response.So he turned the door lock, and when the door opened, Gu Sheng was completely naked, bending down to take off his underwear.He glanced at Xia He in surprise, and asked in confusion, "What's wrong?"

Xia He frowned tightly, feeling like he was being cheated, so he hurriedly backed out and closed the door behind him.

It's a pity that the picture has been engraved in my mind and cannot be erased.

That night, Gu Sheng fell asleep under the hypnosis of alcohol.Xia He lay next to him and couldn't fall asleep, and couldn't bear to toss and turn to wake him up, so he stared out the window for a while, looked at the pitch-black ceiling for a while, and then quietly approached Gu Sheng's face, feeling his warm breath and A faint smell of smoke.

He seemed to be ignorant of everything, and he seemed to have seen everything about Xiahe with those wise eyes.

Gu Sheng turned over and touched Xia He's stomach with his right hand.Suddenly, he didn't even dare to breathe hard.After a long time, she still decided to reach out and move the other's hand away, turned her back to him, and continued to sleep.