shame

- "Don't let me see you again!"

The arrogant eyes and provocative voice, just like the black shirt on his body that was torn, but did not affect his dignity in the slightest, made people feel dandy and uninhibited, but at the same time had a unique personality.

This was Xia He's first impression of Gu Sheng. Not only was it not good, but it was also very bad, and even his back gums ached faintly when he was angry.In his 17 years of life, no one had ever made him so angry, and no one had ever said such harsh words to him.So much so that it still rings in my ears——don’t let me see you again.

On an early summer afternoon, a man wearing glasses and a serious face walked through the corridor and turned into his office.He is thin, and his top is a short-sleeved loose white shirt. As he walks and shakes, the back of the shirt looks like waves undulating in the wind.

"Come in!" The voice sounded harsh.

Xia He walked in with an innocent face. He had played on the playground a few minutes ago, and his physical strength had not yet fully recovered, so he was a little out of breath.

The man glanced at him, walked to the water dispenser, poured a glass of water and handed it to him.

"I'm not thirsty."

"Drink even if you're not thirsty!"

Like every time he gives orders, those who don't finish will receive corresponding punishments, so generally no one dares to refuse at will.

Xia He had no choice but to take the water glass, and asked helplessly, "Dad, did you call me over?"

"How many times have I said, don't call me dad at school."

"... Teacher Xia, what instructions do you have?"

"I heard you're dating?"

As soon as the words fell, he frowned in surprise: "Who did you listen to?"

"Don't worry about it." The man's face was still solemn: "I'm not against you falling in love, it's just that you will be in your third year of high school soon, and no matter how hard you can't stand it, you can make it through this year for me."

Xia He thought of two days ago at noon, in the empty corner of the library near the window, the girl grabbed the book in his hand and said to him plausibly: "Be my boyfriend, I really like you."

He looked a little embarrassed at the time, but what he showed was more of indifference.The window was not closed, just as a gust of wind blew in, blowing past his green and warm face, and at the same time, brought a speck of dust into his eyes.He blinked, then raised his hand and rubbed it twice, pretending to be calm, stretched out his hand and said to the girl, "You return the book to me first."

"I will pay you back if you promise."

The girl looked extremely confident, and her arrogant and flamboyant expression made people feel that she was not confessing her love, but trying to conquer her.After speaking, he turned the hand holding the book behind his back, with a condescending meaning.

"Then I don't want it anymore."

He brushed past the girl with a cold face, but his wrist was immediately clamped by the other girl's jaw, and he asked, "Is that why you hate me so much?"

"I don't hate you, but I can't say I like you either."

His straight-to-the-point tone seemed tough and left no room for it.

The girl pouted indignantly, and the next moment, she raised her hand and slapped him hard.The voice was so loud that the students who were immersed in their books outside the corner looked up in surprise.

She threw the book on him and left with a ponytail toss.

Thinking of this, Xia He gritted his teeth and denied it: "I didn't!" He thought that Ye Lian must have confessed to him many times, and everyone knew about it.It's good for her, she slaps people without saying anything, and makes people use them as scapegoats.

"Then what's the matter with your grades that have plummeted recently?" The man sighed: "Your father, I am a teacher. If you drop to the middle and lower reaches, how can I hold my head up in front of other teachers?"

"It's because other people like me, it has nothing to do with me."

"Okay, let's not talk about this matter for now, what happened to you skipping class for self-study a few nights ago?"

Xia He was stunned for a moment, and then said in an obedient tone: "I asked for leave, so I won't approve it."

"what reason?"

"Go out to watch a movie..." Xia He lowered his eyelashes a little guilty, and told the truth.

"Watching movies, falling in love, skipping classes, you are good enough." The man stretched out his finger and pointed at him: "Go out, stop playing, and I will take care of you when I get home at night."

Xia He snorted coldly, turned around according to the words, and walked out the door a little angrily.He didn't pay much attention to his father's criticism, and he was already tired of listening to such lectures, but what the girl did gave him a headache.As soon as he stepped out of the threshold, an order came from behind: "Go home early after school and make dinner."

He pretended not to hear, put his hands in his trouser pockets, and didn't look back.

In the evening, the setting sun dyes the clouds in the sky into a dazzling orange, and at the same time renders everything on the street.

Passing through the young faces talking and laughing in twos and threes, the snack vendors who yell on time, and the bicycles that come and go intensively.Xia He was walking home with his schoolbag on his shoulders. He had a few dirty ball marks on his chest, and his white short sleeves were rolled up again, revealing his strong and white arms, glowing under the afterglow.

The early summer wind blew past, lifted his short bangs, and wiped away the only drop of sweat on his cheeks.

He used to ride a bicycle back and forth, but the bike was stolen two days ago, and this trouble happened again and again, so he didn't dare to let his father buy a new bike for him.

Passing by a game hall, he stopped and heard the sound of pressing the game handle from inside. He couldn't help but touch his trouser pocket. There were two yuan left, and he could play two rounds.He is not a person who is obsessed with games, but he just happens to be unhappy and can't find a good way to vent, so he wants to go in and play a few games.

After changing the game currency, he found a machine that looked relatively clean, but found that there was still an unfinished game in progress, and there was no one guarding it, so he thought it was someone who forgot to turn it off before leaving, so he ignored it. I quit the game regardless, and started my own experience.

As soon as he put the coin in, a man with yellow hair came over and gave him a look, then turned to a boy standing at the door drinking a drink and said, "Gu Sheng, your seat has been taken away."

The boy continued to take a sip of soda, and winked at him: "Let him go."

Huang Mao grabbed Xia He's short jacket collar from behind, and signaled: "There is someone here, go play somewhere else."

Xia He obviously didn't react, but the action of being caught off guard by a stranger's neckline aroused the anger he had so hard to relax.

He shook off the opponent's hand and stared at that person like an offended wild leopard: "What do you mean?"

"I said there are people here, are you deaf?"

He was not deaf, and he also remembered the unfinished game screen just now, and obviously knew what was going on, but the game currency had already been invested, and the other party's such a bad attitude made him have no intention of giving in.

He glared at Huang Mao, then turned around and continued to sit in his seat, as if he didn't hear anything.

"Hey, you're looking for a draw, aren't you?"

"what happened?"

The boy who was drinking soda at the door just now came over.

Huang Mao said: "This kid took our place and refused to leave."

The boy glanced at Xia He, the gaze was just a glance, but it made Xia He feel as if his neck was burned, it was hot.

"Forget it, don't know him as well."

After the boy finished speaking, he turned around and walked out of the door, and at the same time unscrewed the cap of the drink bottle and took a sip.Although Huang Mao seemed very unwilling, but out of unconditional obedience to the other party's words, he had no choice but to withdraw.

Xia He looked up at the backs of the two leaving, and let out a disdainful 'cut'.

When he went back, while walking, he recalled that boy, and suddenly felt as if he knew him.And even if you don't know him, you must have seen him before. That familiar look is absolutely unmistakable.A strong feeling came to my mind, like humming a melody unintentionally. Although the tune is very familiar, I can't remember where I heard it.

At noon the next day, just as Xia He lay on the table and wanted to take a nap, he felt someone pull a stool and sit beside him.He raised his head and glanced, and saw a pretty girl's face, but her eyes were indescribably tricky, staring straight at him.

He sighed helplessly, raised his head, and said to Ye Lian, "Do you want to come over and slap me again?"

Ye Lian was the girl who failed to confess to him in the library two days ago. At this time, she seemed not affected by that incident at all, and she still had a cheerful and domineering expression.

"It hurts to hit you. You don't like me, do you?"

Xia He shook his head: "I've said it many times."

"Okay, as long as you agree to one condition, I will never pester you again."

"What conditions?"

"Accompany me to the movies on weekends, and treat it as a parting gift."

Xia He gave her a sideways look helplessly: "We haven't had a good time, how could we break up?!"

"Do you agree or not?"

It was originally a coquettish tone, but it sounded extremely harsh when it came out of her mouth.

"Okay, but you promise, this is the last time. I was scolded by my dad after going out with you last time. I'm a person who wants to study hard, you know?"

Xia He spoke seriously, and the other party nodded triumphantly after listening.