Wife, I'm afraid of blood

Xu Mo went to another room to write a song, and Qi Qi was tossing and turning in bed alone.

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"Then have you really let go of Ning Wei?"

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"But don't you think it's unfair for you to stand with Xiang Qingyao like this?"

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"Fuck it and face it bravely! I only care about your feelings, and I only want you to be happy."

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"If you really like Xiang Qingyao, then you should go after her instead of pushing her further and further away like you are doing now."

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What Xu Mo said just now still echoed in Qi Qi's ears.

This is unfair to the senior sister.

Qi Qi thought so.

And... I don't want to stand with senior sister in this state.

With a long sigh, Qi Qi didn't fall asleep until three or four in the morning.

Early the next morning, Qi Qi rejected Xu Mo's request to send her off, and repeatedly told her to go to the bar to sing at the bar tonight.

"I know, long-winded."

Xu Mo waved his hand, motioning for her to leave quickly.

Qi Qi sighed lightly, and then left the rental house.

Back in the dormitory, Shang Xiaowan happened to be packing her luggage.

"Are you so diligent?"

Shang Xiaowan, who was making the bed, turned her head and saw Qi Qi leaning against the door frame.

"You actually went out to play all day without telling me? You're done with friends, little Qi'er." Shang Xiaowan glanced at her and said slightly annoyed.

Qi Qi stepped forward and hugged her shoulder: "When is the car? I'll see you off."

Shang Xiaowan snorted and said, "Take the bus at two o'clock in the afternoon."

Qi Qi accompanied Shang Xiaowan to have lunch near the school, and accompanied her to the station around one o'clock.

At the same time, Xiang Qingyao finished her lunch at home and drove to Dr. Cheng's house.

An hour and a half later, Xiang Qingyao appeared at Dr. Cheng's door.

"Why so late today?"

Xiang Qingyao walked in and put the box in her hand on the dining table.

"I specially drove to the south of the city to buy mung bean cakes for you."

After speaking, Xiang Qingyao glanced and saw the tofu in the kitchen and the pork being thawed in the sink.

"You still have a conscience." Dr. Cheng washed his hands and brought Xiang Qingyao into the room.

Dr. Cheng brought in two cups of warm water and asked Xiang Qingyao who was on the sofa.

"Did you have a nightmare last night?"

Xiang Qingyao picked up the cup and drank less than half of it, then nodded.

Dr. Cheng thought for a while, and led Xiang Qingyao directly to the reclining chair beside him.

Under Dr. Cheng's guidance, Xiang Qingyao gradually closed her eyes.

Dr. Cheng first guided her slowly with words, saw that the other party gradually calmed down, and then began to ask.

"Now, try to recall, what did you dream about at night?"

Xiang Qingyao adjusted her breathing and brought her thoughts back to the dreams she had had in the past two days.

"I saw her sitting on the hospital bed with thick bandages on her palms and arms."

"The gauze on her forehead and the scar on her wrist are all so shocking."

Xiang Qingyao's breathing became short of breath.

"But she had a smile on her face when she heard me coming. She had a beautiful smile, a smile from the heart."

"Later, she sat on the roof of the hospital. The wind on the roof was very strong, blowing over her body, making her hospital gown look empty, and she lost a lot of weight."

Xiang Qingyao's voice trembled a little, and she took a few heavy breaths.

"I watched her fall down like a leaf, and when she looked at me for the last time, she still smiled like that."

Her voice became weeping, and her emotions became more and more agitated.

"I couldn't stop her, I tried to stop her, but I couldn't move, my legs were like lead, I couldn't move a step."

"I wanted to shout, but I couldn't make any sound. I couldn't stop her, I just watched her go away."

Tears began to fall from the corners of her eyes, and Xiang Qingyao's breathing became more and more rapid, her palms were tightly grasping her arms, and her nails were embedded in her skin.

Dr. Cheng's hand covered her hard hand, comforting her softly, and slowly, she let go of the force.

Because of the force of the palm, nail marks were left on the arm.

Xiang Qingyao was gasping for breath, her brows were furrowed, and there was fine sweat on her face.

"Everyone around me scolded me, they scolded me like they did six years ago."

"Then, then I saw a door, a door with light, and there was a girl in front of the door."

According to Xiang Qingyao's description, Dr. Cheng quickly recorded in the notebook with the pen in his hand, showing a thoughtful expression from time to time.

"I wanted to run to that door, I was running like hell, but the door just closed right in front of my eyes."

Xiang Qingyao's tone revealed deeper fear than before.

"Can you see what that girl looks like?"

"That girl...that girl, she, she..."

Xiang Qingyao frowned even tighter.

In my mind, the girl was tall, fair-skinned, and seemed to be muttering something.

"She, she seems to be calling me."

Dr. Cheng continued to record in his notebook.

"What did she call you?"

The girl opened and closed her lips.

learn...sister...

Senior Sister?

She's calling me senior?

Suddenly, Xiang Qingyao suddenly opened his eyes.

Panting heavily, his eyes stared blankly at the ceiling.

Dr. Cheng helped her sit up and handed the water glass to her.

Xiang Qingyao poured all the water with her head up, and her back was completely soaked.

Going to the living room to get her a glass of water, Dr. Cheng returned to the room and asked Xiang Qingyao who was beside him.

"The girl in your dream is the one you said, the one who is special to you."

Xiang Qingyao looked at her and nodded slowly.

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At the station, Qi Qi sent Shang Xiaowan away, and then took the subway back to school.

It was already three o'clock in the afternoon when we returned to school, Qi Qi went directly to the professional classroom of the college, preparing to pack up his things before closing at night.

It has been almost a week since the end of the internship. Except for a few who applied to stay in school, the students in the school have all gone home one after another.

As soon as Qi Qi closed the door of the toilet cubicle, he heard another person coming in from behind, followed by the sound of the faucet.

At this time, there are still people who teach?

Qi Qi was still wondering which class hadn't returned yet, but the sudden conversation outside the door brought her back to her thoughts.

"Ning Wei?" one of the girls asked cautiously.

"It's really you, I thought I made a mistake."

Ning Wei wiped the water off his hands, looked at the other party with a smile and said, "Chen Qing."

Chen Qing smiled: "When you come back, don't tell us."

The two were talking about the old days outside the door, Qi Qi looked complicated inside, and slowly retracted his hand on the handle.

Why is Ning Wei here?

This is the School of Architecture.

"I just came back a month ago, and I have been contacting the hospital for an internship during this time, so..."

Chen Qing waved his hand: "It's all right, I must be very busy when I just returned home."

"By the way, why are you with us?"

A trace of panic flashed in Ning Wei's eyes.

"That..." Ning Wei said hesitantly.

"Qi Qi, did she stay in school?"

Chen Qing and Qi Qi were promoted from undergraduates to postgraduates at X University together, and they were studying in the same class before.

Everyone in the academy knew that Qi Qi and Ning Wei used to be a couple, but later Ning Wei went abroad to study, and they didn't know when they broke up.

"That's right, she has always stayed in school." Chen Qing said while washing her hands, "She just came back from City K two days ago, and I haven't seen her these days."

Ning Wei said goodbye, then said goodbye to Chen Qing, turned and left here.

As soon as Ning Wei left, Chen Qing followed suit.

Hearing the footsteps outside the door fading away, Qi Qi waited for a few more minutes before walking out from inside.

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"you like her?"

Xiang Qingyao stared at the cup in her hand and nodded.

Dr. Cheng took a sip of water, looked at her solemnly and said, "As your psychiatrist, I think Qi Qi's appearance will be of great help to your illness."

"Based on your previous state, she can bring your condition into remission."

Dr. Cheng paused, and then said, "But from your friend's point of view, I want to ask you a question."

"Do you like her because she looks like Meng Qi?"

Xiang Qingyao was speechless, she didn't know how to answer Dr. Cheng.

When I first met Qi Qi, I really paid attention to her because they resembled each other.She had the same symptoms of blood dizziness as herself. When she saw Qi Qi on stage for the second time, for a moment, she thought she saw Meng Qi, and they really looked like each other.

But later, in her heart, she was just a cute little girl who would blush when she saw her.

Gradually, I seldom compare her with Meng Qi, and in my heart, she exists more as Qi Qi.

Seeing that Xiang Qingyao beside her was hanging her head and didn't speak, with a dazed expression, Dr. Cheng just shook his head, got up and went to the kitchen to prepare today's dinner.

Xiang Qingyao ate very little for dinner, the dishes on the table were basically untouched, and she didn't linger after the meal, so she left Dr. Cheng's place directly.

After sending Xiang Qingyao away, Dr. Cheng went back to his room and began to sort out today's records.

Back home, Xiang Qingyao lay on the bed, thinking over and over the last question Dr. Cheng asked herself.

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Do you like her because she looks like Meng Qi?

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I never let Xiao Mengqi go in my heart.

Xiang Qingyao knew this very well. If she really let go, she wouldn't be tortured by nightmares all these years.

What else are you talking about?

Xiang Qingyao laughed at herself.

Can such a self be qualified to be with Qi Qi?

Xiang Qingyao felt a little sore in her heart, took out her phone and started to look through Qi Qi's circle of friends.

The girl on the screen smiled so innocently, she was so pure, as clean as a piece of white paper.

And what about yourself?

I am a sinner who kills others, a disaster star.

How can I be qualified to be with her?

Xiang Qingyao let out a long sigh, and the phone screen slowly dimmed.

There was only a pair of eyes full of tears left in the dark night, and it was another sleepless night.

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I don't know what to say today. .

Alas, the writing is a bit bad (￢_￢)