365 Difficult Ways To Live

Chu Yu really wanted to hug Xia Yihan and hug her, but she controlled it, and asked like gossip, "Why didn't mom come to you? Does she not want to play games?"

Xia Yihan rubbed his fingers on the chopsticks, looking a little uneasy: "Maybe she doesn't like me anymore."

Seeing Chu Yu more often, the relationship between the lovers fades away, and they lose interest in each other, but it has never been heard that the mother loses interest in the child.In advance, she learned from Xia Yihan's uncle Wang Zitao that Huang Nan was originally cheerful and sunny, but after marrying Mu Shangqing, she became gloomy and haggard, like a lotus flower that has failed to bloom in late autumn. There was only a bare lotus pod left, dying.

Chu Yu judges based on the symptoms, such as depression, if coupled with positive symptoms such as delusions and hallucinations, it may be schizophrenia.

Combined with Xia Yihan's current mental condition, Chu Yu suspected that there were genetic factors in it, because Huang Nan suffered from mental illness, and Xia Yihan carried the susceptibility gene.

She investigated the families of Mu Shangqing and Huang Nan, and found that none of them had suffered from mental illness. If Xia Yihan's condition was affected by genetic factors, it should be one of Mu Shangqing and Huang Nan.

Mu Shangqing was able to work in the "Superman's Department", and he still stuck to his post for four years, which shows that the psychological examination has passed the test, and not only has to pass the test, but also has to be strong, otherwise he will not be able to handle the heavy work of the Superman's Department, and sooner or later he will be rejected by the daily routine. The "supernormal people" I came into contact with were biased.

From this point of view, the root of the problem should be Huang Nan, but Chu Yu dare not make a judgment based on this. After all, before marrying Mu Shangqing, Huang Nan's mental state was still good, and her personality foundation was good.

"Why do you think mom doesn't like you anymore?"

Xia Yihan continued to rub the chopsticks, if she had more strength, the fragile stick would have bent over on the spot.

"Because she doesn't talk to me anymore, doesn't hug me, and doesn't come to me anymore."

Looking at her drooping eyelashes, Chu Yu said softly: "Are you sad?"

Xia Yihan nodded.

"Did you tell mom that you were sad?"

"No, but I will still hide and let her come to me. I huddled in the corner of the sofa and waited for a long time, but she didn't come to me. In fact, I hid very clearly. As long as she stood up and walked to the balcony, she would Can see me, but she never comes."

Chu Yu's complexion changed for a moment, she now understood that Xia Yihan hid to attract the mother's attention, she is not like ordinary children who can cry and play with their mother, she only knows how to hide cats and cats. A covert way to arouse the mother's attention.

If her mother comes to her and finds her, she can feel a sense of security and self-worth because she is valued and loved by her mother.

But later, Huang Nan was indifferent to her hiding game. It may be because she is used to this form, knowing that the child will not be lost, and she is too lazy to look for it. Small until there is no response.

For Xia Yihan, this is rejection again and again, causing emotional deprivation, as if she rushed to hug Huang Nan again and again, but was pushed away again and again. If things go on like this, she no longer hugs, nor can she feel the warmth of hugs .

If people lose their sense of security in attachment, their emotional ability will be impaired, showing depression, indifference or autism, and they will not experience pleasant emotions, such as curiosity, joy, happiness and love, nor will they experience unpleasant emotions. Such as anger, fear, suspicion.

Chu Yu has been trying to find the reason for Xia Yihan's illness. Now it seems that the source seems to be Huang Nan, but what happened to her, she became ignorant of her own child?

"Did mom tell you anything strange?"

Chu Yu wanted to confirm whether Huang Nan had language and behavior disorders while being emotionally indifferent.

Xia Yihan fell silent, she never looked directly at Chu Yu, she lowered her eyes, like a stage covered by a curtain, and the actors stood behind to perform, she could only hear his voice, but could not see the change in his expression.

She shook her head, put her chopsticks next to the bowl, put her hands on her knees, and did not move.

Chu Yu picked up her bowl, picked up another taro bag for her, and changed the subject: "What about Dad, did you play with Dad?"

Xia Yihan raised his head, his eyes were blank for a moment, as if he just woke up and forgot where he was.

"Dad... is too busy and is never at home."

"When dad is at home, will he play games with you?"

Xia Yihan froze for a moment, her nerves seemed to be anesthetized and became dull, it took a long time for the words to enter the ears before reaching the auditory center of the brain and being analyzed.

Because of her thinness, her mandible on the side has a clear line, her ears go down and extend to the tip of her chin, without a trace of excess fat. I don't know, I thought Chu Yu abused her, and she was locked up in the villa for a few days to save food expenses. Let her eat a grain of rice.

"will not."

Chu Yu: "Why?"

Xia Yihan answered calmly: "Because I don't play with him."

Chu Yu: "..."

This is the difference in treatment in the legend, only play with mother, when father comes, just reach out, ugly rejection?

"Haha, do you think Dad didn't play well?"

Xia Yihan opened his mouth, as if opening a door, and bit off half of the meat bun, "I'm with dad... we don't play games, we do other things."

"What?"

"Walk, read the newspaper, grow flowers."

Chu Yu: Are you guys getting along with old men and women?

"Will you guys chat together?"

Xia Yihan shook his head, "I don't want to talk to him, he's too old, we have nothing to talk about with him."

Chu Yu: "..." If you are about the same age, it would be scary!

Although she was puzzled in her heart, Chu Yu didn't rush to ask questions. According to Xia Yihan's description, her emotional response was slow, probably from a young age, and she was not as active towards her parents as ordinary children.

Maybe other children, parents laugh once they are teased, cry when they are scared, hugging their parents' new toys, laughing so much that their saliva drools.

But when he came to Mu Shangqing, he took the toy in his hand and announced joyfully: Baby, this is a birthday present from Dad, do you like it!

Xia Yihan: Oh, put it here.

This is undoubtedly a big blow to Mu Shangqing. His wife doesn't talk to him, his daughter doesn't want to talk to him, and when he works, everyone he meets doesn't speak human words. How has he survived in the past ten years?

Chu Yu learned about Mu Shangqing's character from Chu Dongren.He is gentle, enthusiastic, and can be called a walking warm baby. He exudes temperature all over his body, which is still the temperature of warm in winter and cool in summer. In addition, God rewarded him with a unique face, fair skin, picturesque eyebrows, personality and appearance. Charming, it can be said that everyone loves it, and Chu Dongren is quite happy. When Chu Dongren talked about emotion, he couldn't help but add: If your Uncle Mu is a woman, I can't help but marry him!

Chu Yu: You have the ability to say this, so say it in front of my mother!

Thanks to Chu Dongren's high evaluation, Chu Yu has a good impression of Mu Shangqing, not to mention whether he is a good father and husband, or at least a good employee, "died" at work, it can be considered a dedication.

It stands to reason that such a warm baby should be loved by his wife and daughter, but Huang Nan's natal family was very dissatisfied with Mu Shangqing, including his disappearance, they didn't make any movement, but hoped that he would just disappear, out of sight Don't worry.

"Ahan, do you like Dad?"

Xia Yihan's mouth puffed up, chewing the buns, she looked at Chu Yu, and finally made eye contact: "I like it, who wouldn't like Dad?"

Chu Yu smiled, Xia Yihan's ability to say such a thing was considered an official seal for Mu Shangqing, affirming his honorary title of "good father".

She still remembered what Gong Yanhua asked her to say to Xia Yihan in Pei County Hospital: Tell her, she has a good father.

Mu Shangqing is so good that even the victim recognizes it?

Xia Yihan gnawed on the second bun, freed his mouth, and opened his mouth: "Sister, do you like your father?"

As soon as Chu Dongren was mentioned, Chu Yu's eyes became more gentle, and the smile just now was filled with relief, but now it adds a bit of warmth, as if thinking of his favorite roasted sweet potato when he was a child, and it is hard to hide his familiarity.

"Like, like you said, who doesn't like Dad!"

For her, Chu Dongren is a good father. Although she is often too busy to see her, because of the high risk of occupation, she will hurt her brain. When she encounters overtime work, Chu Dongren will hold Chu Yu's hand and say affectionately: Xiaoyu, this year I may not be able to go back home during the Chinese New Year, so you just treat me as a closed-door practitioner who has upgraded, don’t miss me too much!

Chu Yu really didn't miss him too much, because she was also busy, and compared to her father, she was even worse——she was a woman who wanted to take care of multiple subjects at the same time, and she had already dedicated her life to studying, so how could she have time? Inseparable from daddy?

Two busy people part ways when they are busy, and get together when they are free. It can be considered that the rhythm is in harmony, and the family and business are balanced.

Seeing Chu Yu's reaction in his eyes, Xia Yihan nodded, stepped on the crossbar of the chair, and turned to her: "If Dad is a bad person, will sister still like Dad?"

Just now she was the one who asked the question, but now the other party turned to attack, Chu Yu was a little caught off guard, the smile on her lips remained undiminished, trying to analyze the deep meaning of what she said just now.

"Do you think my dad looks like a bad guy?"

Xia Yihan's face was calm, like the surface of a windless lake, the surface was smooth and without waves, but the lake was so deep that he couldn't see clearly what was going on at the bottom of the lake.

"I don't know, I haven't had any contact with him."

Chu Yu thought she had finished answering, and just about to answer, she suddenly laughed again, looking a little shy: "I look like a bad person, but my sister still likes me very much."

Chu Yu took her hand, put it in his palm, and ordered a hamburger, "Do you feel like a bad person?"

Chu Yu felt excited. Did this girl finally find out her conscience?

Xia Yihan giggled, and contributed the aroma of bean paste and taro to the entire dining room.

"I don't know, I haven't had close contact with myself."