365 Difficult Ways To Live

In the dark night, the door was gently opened, and the door shaft made a slight opening and closing sound, which seemed particularly abrupt in the silence.

The light comes in from the outside, projecting the human silhouette on the floor, elongated and deformed, like a ghost sneaking into the boudoir.

Chu Yu stood in the crack of the door, her eyes fell on the bed, she was still sleeping on her side, with her back to the door, motionless.

"Asha, are you asleep?"

The voice was extremely low, like a light paper airplane, it circled in and landed on Xia Yihan's pillow, but failed to attract her attention.

There was no response, and the question was engulfed in darkness.

Chu Yu walked in, she didn't wear shoes, and stepped on the carpet, making almost no sound.When she got to the bed, she lifted a corner of the quilt and fell asleep.

The bed was a double bed, more than enough to sleep two people, Xia Yihan slept in the middle, and after Chu Yu got up, his head rested on the outside of the pillow, less than three centimeters away from Xia Yihan's head, almost touching each other.

She lay down, the mattress vibrated, and Xia Yihan's body rose and fell, but she didn't respond, she was still lying on her side, silently.

Chu Yu pulled up the quilt and covered the two of them. Although the air conditioner was turned on in the room, if the quilt was suddenly lifted, they would definitely feel chills.

A certain amount of body temperature had already accumulated in the bed, and after Chu Yu went in, he felt that he had entered the bathroom warmed by his roommate, and felt warm all over his body.

The room was very quiet, Chu Yu breathed lightly, but it was still audible, the gas might spray on Xia Yihan's neck, making her itchy.

However, it seemed that Xia Yihan's anti-itching ability was super strong, and after "scratching" Chu Yu's breathing for a few minutes, there was still no response.

Chu Yu stretched out his hand and put it on her shoulder. She took off her pajamas and wore a thin autumn dress. When Chu Yu put it on, she could feel the outline of her shoulder bones through the material.

"Axia, I gave you this gift today, not to make you sad by recalling the past, but to tell you that I want to know you."

Chu Yu leaned inward, "I know your birthday, your childhood friends, your little habit of memorizing cards, everything about you, I am fascinated, I want to know, I desperately search for it, I also found your past."

Because the distance was too close, Chu Yu could smell the fragrance of Xia Yihan's body, it was the smell of shampoo, mixed with the milky fragrance of his body.

"After knowing your past, I want to be with you and hug you more and more. I know that I care about you very much. Your past, present, and future, no matter what, as long as it is related to you, I will do my best. Go on, I now know very clearly that my mission is not to catch you, but to accompany you. I brought you here, not to imprison you, but to prove to you that as long as you want, I will always be here .”

Her voice was neither high nor low, neither urgent nor slow, but every word was clearly audible, containing the weight of every word carefully.

After the words fell, it fell into silence again. Xia Yihan didn't respond, not even moving his body.

Chu Yu's hands slid down from her shoulders and wrapped around her waist. Her head was down, leaning against the gap between her shoulders and her neck. For a moment, the two of them were close together, and one could even feel the heat flowing between them. transfer between.

Chu Yu felt Xia Yihan's heartbeat, like a little rabbit in a cage. Although it didn't jump high, it still beat vigorously. Every jump was just right, and it didn't hit the cage board, protecting itself very well.

After an unknown amount of time, Chu Yu hugged her quietly, not expecting her to respond, she was very patient and willing to wait until she opened her heart.

"She's so small, she looks so soft."

Hearing the sound suddenly, Chu Yu suddenly opened his eyes, but his movements remained the same, still closely intertwined.

"Well, I've seen pictures of her, lots of pictures."

"When we met for the first time, I was sitting on a stone chair in the corridor, looking down at the Bougainvillea falling on the ground. Few people go to that place, but when she came, she asked me what my name was, and I ignored her. After that, I often met her in the corridor, just me and her. After school, I like to sit on the stone chair, and she likes to walk around.

Every time she saw me, she would ask me what my name was, but I ignored her. She asked me like this for more than a month. Finally, there was a rainy day when she was walking in the corridor. I held an umbrella and sat on the textbook cushion. On the stone chair.Her hair was drenched in rain, and her feet were splashing with water when she walked. She came over and asked: What's your name?

I said: My name is Mu Han.

She said: Her name is Xia Yihan, from now on I will call you Xiaohan.

I said: Call me Xiaohan, then what is your name?

She looked at the bougainvillea falling at her feet, and said: Call me Xiaomei, and take it as a stage name. "

Chu Yu listened quietly, excited and moved, telling the past was the first step to open his heart, different from flirting in the past, this was a kind of trust like a steady stream.

At the same time, she quickly captures key information:

The promenade is relatively remote, and those who like to go alone are probably not gregarious people. It's fine for Xia Yihan to go, but Xiaomei often goes there, which shows that she is also worried.

But she really has perseverance, most people ask other people's names, if they don't answer, they may just say goodbye, and if they don't answer, she has persisted in asking for more than a month, which is really commendable for her perseverance!

In such a comparison, Xia Yihan's reaction was also slow. When people asked her name, she answered it dozens of times, and in front of the little girl, she directly rejected her dozens of times. She is a ruthless person!

Also, Xia Yihan used the Sophora japonica flower as his symbol, and now the Phantom of the Sophora japonica flower has become her "stage name". Could it be that he learned this from Xiaomei?

To encourage her to continue, Chu Yu asked, "So you keep calling her Xiaomei?"

"Ah."

Raising his head and lying back on the pillow again, Chu Yu took a long breath, "Xiaomei, isn't she very lively? I heard from teachers and classmates that she loves to laugh and is always warm and friendly. It's a pleasure to get along with her."

Xia Yihan fell silent, and Chu Yu's heartbeat began to speed up, but she didn't continue to ask, she didn't want Xia Yihan to feel any pressure, if possible, just say a little bit every day.They can talk a few words unintentionally during the gossip, and Chu Yu will write it down without leaving a trace. She will guide and guide, but she will not ask questions.

After moving his legs, Chu Yu changed into a comfortable position, ready to embrace and sleep with Xia Yihan.

Suddenly, the other party's voice sounded again, "Yes, this is her, lively and cheerful, friendly to everyone, and always smiling."

Chu Yu opened his eyes, and his eyes fell on the back of the head of the person next to the pillow, "Then what do you think?"

There was another silence. This time, Chu Yu waited patiently. She knew that Xia Yihan would tell the whole story and would not whet her appetite.

"She's fragile, she gets hurt easily, and she's nice to everyone because anyone can hurt her."

On this point, Chu Yu had guessed when she read Xiaomei’s previous information. She suspected that Xiaomei was an extroverted autistic patient, and had a flattering personality. , Cheerful, enthusiastic, confident, aggressive, and will agree to any request from others.

However, she is sentimental in her heart, but she doesn't like to show it. She can comfort anyone and bring warmth to others, but no one comforts her. Besides, in the eyes of others, she is strong enough, and there is nothing that needs help from others.

This type of person will be hurt more than the original introverted person, because in addition to enduring loneliness, she also needs to disguise and hide her vulnerable side. This alone is enough to make people excited. exhausted.

But later, Xia Yihan appeared in Xiaomei's life. Of the two children, one was overly sensitive and the other was overly slow. With such wild personalities, they became close friends unexpectedly.

He knew it in his heart, but Chu Yu still guided Xia Yihan to continue: "Xiaomei is so friendly, others will be friendly to her, will anyone hurt her?"

Xia Yihan's voice was astringent, as if his vocal cords were soaked in mugwort leaves, and became deep: "Ignoring is also a kind of injury."

"Did Xiaomei's parents, teachers and classmates not care about her?"

"They were kind to her, but it was a ritual kindness, like a father should cook for the child, a teacher should remind students to turn in their homework on time, that's all. But other than these kindnesses, there is nothing else, more It's a request. There are three children in her family. She has a younger brother and a younger sister. Most of her parents' love is on her younger siblings. For her, there are more expectations. I hope she can be the first in age and set a good example for her younger siblings , the teacher sees that her students are doing a good job, and also hopes that she can go up in her studies and be excellent in character and learning.

She studies very seriously, very seriously, but she has always been at an average level. Every time her grades come down, she goes to comfort the students in the class who are poor in the exam, but she is very sad because she has tried her best, but her grades are still stagnant. "

Chu Yu's breathing became heavy. Fang Datuo's feedback was that when he asked Xiaomei's parents, they all praised their daughter for being sensible and filial, taking care of her younger siblings, always finishing her homework on time, taking the initiative to do housework, and helping to take care of her younger siblings.

They must have thought that this sensible daughter could manage herself in an orderly manner and didn't need them to pay too much attention, so they confidently and boldly distributed all the love to the younger daughter and the younger son, but they didn't expect that what the older daughter lacked was exactly what they thought was precious. Dispensable attention.

"Fortunately, you became friends with her."

Xia Yihan sighed through his nose, feeling an unfathomable melancholy, "Every time I sit in the corridor with her, she always says, I listen, even when she cries, I won't comfort her, just Watching her cry and saying goodbye to her with a deadpan face."

Chu Yu was at a loss for words, if there was an award for the most unqualified friend in the world, Xia Yihan would get second, and no one would dare to touch the first.Talking to her is different from talking with a doll. The doll is softer than her and can be pinched casually.

But maybe what Xiaomei needs is such a silent company, so that she can calm down and listen to her. She has been trying to please others, but Xia Yihan doesn't need her to please, because she is too cold and heartless, no matter how you please, it is useless. It can act as a qualified tree hole to accommodate her thoughts.

"But what she needs is your company, to be able to listen to her heart and accept her unknown side."

Xia Yihan moved his body, put his hand on Chu Yu's, overlapping hers.

"No, she needs someone to communicate with her and help her solve things, so she went to her head teacher."

Chu Yu's heart skipped a beat, and the homeroom teacher Wang Tong finally appeared.