365 Difficult Ways To Live

Hypothesis: If all of Xia Yihan's reactions were delayed by half a beat, what would happen?

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After Xia Yihan officially joined the Superman Department, Chu Yu took her out to complete the mission, but suddenly found that Xia Yihan avoided her deliberately, not daring to look at her.

Once Chu Yu talked to her specifically, and after she finished answering, he tried his best to walk away and keep a distance of three meters from her.

Chu Yu noticed that her expression was not right, and couldn't help worrying, fearing that her PTSD, which had finally recovered, would relapse and cause avoidance.

So Chu Yu took time out in the afternoon and specially invited Xia Yihan to a nearby convenience store, sat under the umbrella outside the store, and ordered two servings of hot milk.

Outside the bright room, Xia Yihan's skin was creamy, and even though he had been injured before, he had recovered well.She lowered her eyes slightly to avoid eye contact with Chu Yu, and even if she glanced accidentally, she would quickly move away, as if Chu Yu's eyes were hot and could not be touched for a long time.

Chu Yu looked at her tenderly. He had been treating her for two and a half years. Xia Yihan had changed, especially in digesting the trauma. But Chu Yu also knew that this was a tortuous process, and there must be repetitions in the middle.

"Xiaohan, have you felt uncomfortable recently?"

Xia Yihan blinked, shook his head and said, "There's nothing wrong, I'm fine."

Chu Yu thought that after almost three years of contact, she had full trust in herself, but she didn't expect that there was still a hurdle in her heart that she couldn't overcome, or that she had some small actions and remarks on weekdays, which I didn't pay attention to, but they stimulated her ?

"Why are you avoiding me today? Are you afraid of seeing me?"

Xia Yihan spoke in a low voice: "It's not that I'm afraid, but I'm a little embarrassed."

"What's wrong?" Chu Yu became curious, wondering if she had made any mistakes.

"You know!" Xia Yihan's cheeks were flushed, his mouth was pursed, his eyes looked at her from time to time, and then quickly moved away.

Chu Yu looked at her reaction and quickly searched for special events in his brain, but he didn't get any results for a while.

"That night, my sister was so alive!" Xia Yihan said, covering his face.

Chu Yu had a question mark on his face.

"It was the night at the Yinchuan Hotel a month ago!"

Chu Yu instantly felt his brain flicker.

Xia Yihan covered his face with his fingers, but opened them again, leaving gaps between his fingers to secretly look at Chu Yu. After meeting his gaze, he closed his fingers again, making them fit perfectly.

Later, with her hands on her cheeks, she fell into fond memories: "My sister was lying on the bed, it smelled like a piece of cream cake, it was soft to the touch, and there were cherries dotted in the snow-white cream mass, ah... ..”

As she was talking, she suddenly let out an intoxicated admiration, as if after drinking fine wine, she couldn't help but chanted lyrically.

Chu Yu's blood pressure soared, her blood flow accelerated, and she felt like she could hardly sit still. She didn't know why she asked Xia Yihan out to talk in public.

Passers-by couldn't help but look back at the two of them, Chu Yu suggested, "Why don't we go back and continue talking?"

Xia Yihan has already fallen into fond memories and can't extricate himself: "My sister's legs are so fresh, like a white chocolate bar, it feels slippery to the touch, leaving a fragrance on my hand, I couldn't help but lick it, I touched it all the way from the ankle , and I touched the liveliest thing, like..."

Chu Yu tilted his body and grabbed her gesturing hand: "It's ok, you've spoken quite vividly, I can make up my mind."

Xia Yihan suddenly clenched his hands, "And my sister's voice is also very nice, like smoothing a kitten, making it comfortable, and then it..."

Xia Yihan imitated the long and lazy meow on the spot.

Chu Yu felt that she couldn't do it anymore. She was too old to bear the shock of being naked.

In the end, she dragged and dragged Xia Yihan back from the convenience store.

After returning to the office, the staff found that Chu Yu started to hide from Xia Yihan, not daring to look at her, and kept a distance of three meters from her.

......

Wangjiang City, a suburban cemetery.

Mu Yu, Fang Datuo and Song Qingyang watched the coffin being buried. They collectively mourned for a long time, and finally supported each other and left the cemetery.

The new tombstone is next to the old tombstone, and the two tombstones are next to each other and become neighbors.

One month later, the moonlight was bright, the surroundings were silent, the autumn was deep, and the insects in the grass were silent.

In the silence, there was a sound, and there was a knock on the door under one of the tombs. After a while, the tomb was dug open from the inside, and a figure crawled out to the next door to the tombstone.

The man hugged the tombstone and made an old voice: "Sister, why did you leave? You haven't worn the wedding dress I picked for you..."

In the night, Xia Yihan cried like an old pagoda tree flower with rain, heartbroken.Chu Yu died a month and a half ago, she didn't react at all, she should eat and drink, and soon she also died, and she still didn't feel any pain before she died.

But now, she felt sad, so she crawled out of the grave and specially came to pay homage to Chu Yu.

While crying, Xia Yihan dug up Chu Yu's grave, opened her coffin board, and lay down to sleep with her.

She closed the coffin lid, hugged the corpse beside her tightly, and died again.

After passing the ghost gate, Xia Yihan came to Huangquan Road. At the end of the road, she saw the Naihe Bridge. After crossing the bridge, she took Po Meng's soup on the Wangxiang Terrace. After drinking it, her mind went blank. A boatman called her, so she sat on it.

The ghost boatman is rowing a boat, floating on the river, the bank is full of Bianhua flowers, looking from a distance, it looks like a field of flames.

Xia Yihan asked: "Where are you taking me?"

The ghost boatman said: "I was supposed to take you to reincarnate, but Lord Yan said that your brain is very valuable for research, so let me take you to see him."

The journey was long, and Xia Yihan stayed on the boat for a few days, when suddenly she felt a burst of sadness flowing in her chest.She stood up, she wanted to find Chu Yu, she remembered.

So she asked, "Where is the reincarnation?"

The ghost boatman pointed behind him: "Beside the Wangchuan River, there is a stone called the Sansheng Stone. There is a well beside the stone, indicating the afterlife."

After he finished answering, his face was full of vicissitudes, and he couldn't help but sigh with emotion over the thousands of years of reincarnation: "It can be said that it is..."

Xia Yihan grabbed the oar and fanned him into the river.

She raised the oars and paddled back desperately, and finally returned to the original road, towards the Naihe Bridge, followed the River of Forgetfulness, found the Sansheng Stone, and saw Chu Yu who was queuing there to jump into the well.

Chu Yu dyed her hair black, so she doesn't look very old, but at the corner of her forehead, she can still see traces of silver, as well as the wrinkles on the corners of her eyes.

There was a scramble in the team, and some ghosts wanted to jump first, jumping early and overtaking, so a dispute arose, but the dispute lasted for a long time, and none of them made it.

In the end, the ghosts came to maintain order, and the incident was settled.

Taking advantage of the chaos, Xia Yihan grabbed Chu Yu's hand and ran away. She thought the two of them could walk like flying, but in fact they ran slower than snails. Chu Yu was dragged by her, so he was faster, and finally ran to a distance of more than 30 meters. distance, stop on the grass beside the River of Forgetfulness.

Chu Yu finally broke free from Xia Yihan, panting and sat on the ground to rest.

"Why are you pulling me out? I've been in line for a long time!"

Xia Yihan sat next to her, put his arms around her shoulders, and said affectionately, "Sister, it's me!"

Chu Yu was presbyopic, squinting his eyes, saw her face clearly, and suddenly frowned, his expression became agitated.

Seeing that she recognized her, Xia Yihan happily stepped forward to hug her.

Chu Yu raised his hand and pushed her away: "You look older than me, so you have the nerve to call me sister, pretend to be tender!"

As she spoke, she stood up tremblingly, and walked towards Sansheng Stone.

Xia Yihan was pushed down by her just now, and there was a sound of cracking bones. She supported her waist, rushed up from the back, hugged Chu Yu, and hugged him tightly.

"Sister, don't go, I'm here to pick you up!"

Chu Yu twisted his body and tried to break her free, "You are a bad old woman, you just want to get in my team!"

She was too excited to speak, and she couldn't control it well, and her dentures flew out.

So Xia Yihan supported her waist again, helped her pick up her dentures and put them on, took her hand and said, "Sister, I really know you, I am your wife."

Chu Yu said, "Then how can you prove it?"

Xia Yihan thought for a while, and said: "In the past, I often picked you up and twirled in circles. You were so happy, like you were sitting on a high-end version of a merry-go-round. Now I also hug you up and twirl around. You can definitely get back to the past. a feeling of!"

As he said that, Xia Yihan put his arms around Chu Yu's thighs and hugged her over his head with all his might, but when he turned around, her hands lost all strength, and when she loosened her arms, Chu Yu flew out.

Xia Yihan yelled, and ran over tremblingly, among those who pinched Chu Yu, "Sister, sister, are you okay!"

Not long after, Chu Yu opened his eyes and looked into the distance: "Fortunately, I'm already a ghost, so I won't die if I fall."

As she spoke, she stretched out her hand to Xia Yihan: "Honey, help me up."

Xia Yihan beamed with joy: "You think of me?"

Chu Yu shook his head, but there was a smile on the corner of his mouth: "I still don't remember you, but I know, if it's not a lover, who would hold a bad old woman high?"

Xia Yihan touched her blue grimace, eyes full of affection: "I'll take you back, I know the way back to the world."

"Why are you going back?"

Xia Yihan led her and walked back: "Go back to get married, we are going to have a wedding, I picked out a wedding dress for you, but you left before trying it on."

Saying that, the corner of Xia Yihan's mouth turned down, but soon turned up again, "But it's okay, I'm here to pick you up, we'll go back this time, and live for a few more decades, if you get tired of living, we'll come back again , anyway, I already know the way."

Chu Yu didn't speak, her center of gravity was not stable, but fortunately, there was someone beside her who could act as her human crutch.So she took her hand and walked forward side by side with her.

In Yinjie, by the Wangchuan River, by the Sansheng Stone, and among the flowers on the other shore, an old lady is leading another old lady, walking slowly forward, their footprints are closely adjacent to each other, facing forward.

......

In the research room, Chu Yu suddenly woke up. She was researching Xia Yihan's "slow emotional response" problem recently, but as a result, she was about to go astray, and some strange things appeared in her head. Obsessed.

She specifically asked Xia Yihan about her reaction to emotions.

The final result is that she can feel anger and excitement, but other emotions and feelings can only be felt gradually after a long time, and after she feels them, they don't come like a flood, but like a leak On the roof, the rainwater slowly seeped into the walls, the process was slow, and the emotions she showed afterwards were not violent reactions, but turned into memories, engraved in her mind, sometimes she could detect it, but sometimes she couldn't. , has become a subconscious existence, such as her feelings for her mother and Xiaomei.

Chu Yu couldn't help asking: "Then, can you feel how you feel about me now?"

Xia Yihan replied seriously: "Maybe my feelings are very slow, but my feelings for you are not intermittent points, but a continuous process, because you make me like you every moment, and my feelings for you now Like, it comes from the feeling a month ago, and a month later, I will also like you because of my current feeling, my love for you is endless, so no matter at any moment in time, I like you .”

After she finished speaking, Chu Yu was silent for a moment, and suddenly, by surprise, he kissed her and smiled mysteriously, "Tell me secretly how you feel in a month's time."

The author has something to say: This is the end of the episode. I know that some friends will come to update it every night. Don’t squat in the future. All the episodes in the episode are over.

This article is the longest one I have written. I first estimated that I would write it for two or three months, but it took eight months. Looking back now, I feel that I am a bit... hardworking, hahaha.

During the long process of coding, I was particularly impressed by one thing. In school last semester, I finished my professional courses every day and went to the library to study psychology or do my homework. After I finished writing, I started to code. Looking around, most of them are postgraduate students, they are studying hard with their thick political or English.

I'm a little embarrassed. I feel that people go to the library to fill their brains with knowledge, and I go to the library to imagine a beautiful love story.

And the most amazing thing is that I left later than them, and I only came out every time I was urged by the curator.Sometimes the building is completely dark, and I just squat under the stairs, typing with my mobile phone.

Then I found that some people passing by me were a little strange, and their pace quickened, trying to get away from me quickly.

At first I thought I had experienced some kind of supernatural event, but then I realized it, because the surroundings felt a little dark, and I was squatting there alone, and the light from the mobile phone hit my face, which was pale and scary.

So after I typed, I changed direction and tried to face them with my ass.

Although these eight months are indeed a bit tiring, I am really grateful to those who "stick to the front line", leave me messages, send me flowers, and my friends who have been silently paying attention all the way. I remember that I was a little cautious at the beginning , and under your continuous encouragement (molestation), I have become skinny!

This is the end of this book. If you miss me, you can go to the book "The Thousand and One Face" next door to see if it suits your taste. Maybe we will meet again~

Goodbye friends, be happy~