365 Difficult Ways To Live

4 years ago, May 5

Xia Yihan didn't go to school, and stayed alone on the bay window, looking outside silently. The neighborhood has beautiful scenery, green trees surrounded by water, small bridges and stone steps, as well as residents coming and going, dotted it as a flowing scenery.

It has been 7 months, and it has been more than 7 months since I found Mu Shangqing, and she recorded it on purple card paper.Afterwards, the "cardboard diary" was discontinued, and she didn't write anything down, because since then, nothing seemed to impress her.

White clouds in the sky, black cats on the ground.The abused homeroom teacher and Ou Huang in the game couldn't make her fluctuate in the slightest.

After such a long time, Xia Yihan finally understood that she hadn't been unresponsive to Mu Shangqing's death.She had a reaction, but it was special—from then on, she might not have any reaction to the outside world.Of course, apart from revenge, when she thinks about revenge, when she thinks about killing a murderer, she will be faintly excited, feeling that her blood is burning faster.

The article in yesterday's Chinese class was titled "The Cutest Person".The Chinese teacher was already afraid of her, so she didn't ask her to answer the questions, but if she was asked to say, she thought only Mu Shangqing was the cutest.Because of Mu Shangqing, she even felt that this boring world was a little cute.

Now that the cutest person is gone, she has also witnessed the process of his death. Now that she has no eyes to see the world, she wants to protect her eyesight and care for her eyes.

In the past eight months, she has been secretly planning, she wants to find out the truth and take revenge.

She carefully analyzed 5 mobile phone numbers, two of which are local numbers in Wangjiang City, and three are from other places, belonging to Luoyu City, Changyan City, and Jinling City.

The real-name system has been implemented for mobile phone cards, and most of them have been bound with ID cards.Xia Yihan knew that she definitely couldn't go through the public security system or the operator to make inquiries, she couldn't use formal channels, and currently didn't have the ability to hack into the network.

In the end, she did everything possible to find the entrance to the black market and paid a high price to ask someone to check the private information of five people.

But after finding out, she found that these five people were all ordinary citizens, they had no criminal records, no psychopaths, and they didn't even have any intersection with Mu Shangqing.

Five complete strangers from all over the country, why did they jointly kill Mu Shangqing, and after committing the crime, they went back to their respective homes as if nothing had happened?

After finding out the information, Xia Yihan rushed forward without holding a knife and desperately. After thinking calmly, she felt that these five people were just executors, and there must be black hands behind the scenes.

And the identity of this black hand should be related to Mu Shangqing's work.How can a normal organization, a normal work unit, be so mysterious

It is indeed in the downtown area, in the city, but there is not even an obvious entrance to it, and it is inextricably linked with the Public Security Bureau!

Xia Yihan recalled that before Mu Shangqing sent her away, he was haggard and in a trance, as if he was about to be squeezed dry, and he was so busy at work every day, Xia Yihan suspected that he had entered the What cult organization.

She tried to check the "cult organization".But to her surprise, the place of work, the name of the unit, and personnel information were all blank.That organization seems to exist in the world in an invisible way.

This made Xia Yihan even more suspicious and wanted to investigate it himself.However, her ability is limited now, so she can only ask someone to investigate for her. If she can personally access the information channels of the black market, she may be able to dig three feet deep and dig out the "black material" of the mysterious organization.

But now she has only touched the edge of the black market, and it will cost money to check it, so check it several times.She had to fight the dog for food.

But Xia Yihan is poor and strong.In the past 8 months, she has been preparing: investigating the murderer's information, monitoring the mysterious organization, she even bought a gun from the black market, but Wang Zitao discovered it and confiscated it.

She thinks that she is too small and too weak, so she has to grow up, even if it is to encourage the growth of seedlings, she has to grow up!

Other children went to school with their schoolbags on their backs. She took a knife to the martial arts gym, but she didn't take out the knife and kept it in her bag. She watched other people's classes attentively.She told the curator that she wanted to enroll in a class, but the curator, like her head teacher, asked her to "invite her parents to come."

Xia Yihan bit the bullet and told Huang Li.

Huang Li looked at her, although she used euphemistic words, Xia Yihan understood her subtext: You are already so good at fighting, if you learn it again, do you have to give up the school?

So far, her preparation plan has come to an impasse. She is still too young, has no identity card, and has no stable source of income.

So this day is another day of decadence for my own weakness and helplessness.

She became decadent, and even she was afraid of herself. She didn't eat for a day, and her body seemed to stop consuming energy, so she nestled on the bay window, closed the curtains at the back, and fell into an advanced daze mode.

She had forgotten the time at first, but then she heard the voices of Huang Li and Wang Zitao, and they told her the time - it was already 6 pm, after school and after get off work.

Not long after, Wang Zitao's unscrupulous voice came: Tell me, why don't their junior high schools let people live on campus?Is it because we are too close to the school that we don't need her to live on campus?

Next is Huang Li: Why are you so concerned about this?Even if she lives on campus, she has to come back on Saturdays, Sundays, holidays, winter vacations, and summer vacations!

Xia Yihan crossed his legs, put his hands on his feet, and pricked up his ears, knowing that the two of them thought she was not there, and started talking about embarrassing things.She didn't want to remind them either, so she just quietly listened to their "duet".

"I searched recently. There is a children's welfare home in Wangjiang. Can we send Mu Han there?"

Huang Li's voice sounded a little angry, and she kept talking and shouting: "Send it, how do you send it?"Send the child to the orphanage, the condition is that the adopting family does not have the financial ability to raise them. You don’t even look at our economic conditions. Let alone one, you can raise 10. Before the orphanage accepts the child, it will check. Clearly! "

Wang Zitao sighed, and walked into the kitchen muttering, his voice was vague.

But Xia Yihan's hearing is excellent, and he still heard his last coda: This is the first time to worry about not being poor enough...

In the bedroom, she stared at a puppy outside the window, thinking that it was really embarrassing for the two of them, and it was really heartbreaking to send her away.

4 years ago, on May 5st.

Xia Yihan put his schoolbag on his back.This is the first time I have carried a schoolbag since I was in junior high school.There is food and water in the bag, as well as a mobile phone and a charger, ready to take a walk-and-go trip.

She was going back to Liangshui because Huang Nan was from Liangshui.Both Huang Nan and Huang Li grew up in Liangshui, but later the two sisters separated, Huang Nan married to Wangjiang, and Huang Li married to Chenyang.

She didn't want to go back to Wangjiang for the time being. If Huang Li and Wang Zitao were looking for her, the first choice would definitely be Wangjiang.After finally running away from home permanently, wouldn't it be embarrassing for her to be found so easily?

In the car, Xia Yihan read the information of the Liangshui Welfare Institute again. She heard that the welfare of the orphanage is good, and the children will live in a 3-bedroom, 2-living suite like roommates, with special staff acting as parents , and there are many snacks and toys, and you can go to school.

Although she is 14 years old, she may not be able to go in, but she wants to try, after all, she is not yet 16 years old, so she can be an older child with a shy face.

The journey went smoothly. After reaching Liangshui, she followed the navigation and arrived at the gate of the orphanage.

The gate was repaired in a western style, with red tiles, golden letters, and a little villa-like feel. Xia Yihan looked it over and was quite satisfied.

As soon as she entered, she was stopped by the security guard and asked her why she came.

Xia Yihan tightened the shoulder straps of his schoolbag, and said: I want to live in a welfare home.

In fact, before coming here, she considered whether to disguise herself or not.After all, an orphan has to look like an orphan, but in that case, she can't bring her mobile phone or money, and it's better not to carry her schoolbag, her hair should be messed up, her face should be dirty, and it's better to have tears in her eyes and gloomy eyes.

After thinking about it, she felt that it was too contrived to make it that way, so she still carried a schoolbag, and there were no tears in her eyes, and she was even a little indifferent. I don't know, I thought she was forced to go to school by her parents, and she was completely forced to open the business .

Sure enough, the security guard looked her up and down and drove her out: go back and find your parents, we only accept children without parents.

Xia Yihan's face was indifferent, and his eyes didn't lose sight: I'm an orphan.

Security guard: Since you are an orphan, who bought you your clothes, your shoes, and your schoolbag?

Xia Yihan is small, has not yet drawn a stick, and has baby fat on his face. At first glance, he looks like a 10-year-old child. With a big schoolbag on his back, he may not be 10 years old, like a child who is angry with his family , a rebellious child who ran away from home.

Facing the security guard's in-depth questions, Xia Yihan told the truth: My aunt bought it for me.

Security Guard: Then you go back to your aunt.

Xia Yihan: You don't need to look for it, if you do, I'll still come here.

She had a look of determination that "the strong man is gone and will never return": I don't need them to do it myself, I will do it myself.

The security guard frowned and told her not to leave. He went to talk to the person in charge of the orphanage.

Xia Yihan was finally invited to the reception room inside, but according to the person in charge, he wanted to call her guardian and send her back.

Xia Yihan was upset, she didn't plan to go back after she came out.Leaving Huang Li and Wang Zitao is also good for her. She no longer has a guardian and can do whatever she wants.But looking at this orphanage now, there are still people who take care of the children's diet and daily life, and pay attention to everything about the children. How is that different from being at home?

Xia Yihan left the orphanage. She wandered the streets. Now she had dozens of dollars on her body, but she had accumulated 3000 dollars on her mobile phone.If she lives in a hotel, according to the standard of 100 yuan/night, she can only stay for one month, so she has to find a way to earn some money.

Wandering to a small restaurant, Xia Yihan ordered a plate of fish-flavored shredded pork. After eating, she wiped her mouth and called the boss: Your chef's skills are very average, I am much better than him.Do you want to consider changing someone? We can discuss the salary.

The boss looked at her milk doll and smiled: Child, do you know that it is illegal to recruit child labor?You're trying to lure me into breaking the law, you know?

Xia Yihan was quite calm: It's okay, I will secretly cook in the kitchen.You can find a substitute, and when someone checks, he will come on top. If the checker finds me, you can say that I am your niece.

The boss smiled and ignored her.

Looking at his back, Xia Yihan felt that he was a little pitiful, and missed the opportunity to make a fortune with the help of the chef!

When she got out of the restaurant, she leaned on the side of the road and searched on her mobile phone to see if there was any suitable part-time job.In fact, she can help primary school students with their homework, and it is no problem to teach junior high school students.It is best to tutor online, otherwise, seeing some elementary school students' naive looks, she is afraid that she will beat the children to tears.

However, for online counseling, you need to provide academic qualifications, identity certificates, award certificates, and some require teaching experience.

Xia Yihan turned off the phone with an indifferent face. With her like this, she has only had reading experience for a few days, let alone teaching experience.

After searching for a day, there is no suitable job.Xia Yihan felt that her talents were underappreciated. She felt that she was proficient in everything and could do many things, but because she was still a baby, she was rejected by the market.The whole society is persuading her to go back to school, study hard, and grow taller by the way.

She wandered the streets and began to find other ways, paying attention to the small advertisements on the walls by the side of the road.

On the side of the road, she saw a boy. He was wearing a sleeveless T-shirt. He didn't know how many times he washed it, and it was almost transparent.He sits on a board with pulleys on which he seems to move, and on the board there is a small box containing chalk.

In front of the boy, there is a row of chalk characters, a row of Chinese, and a row of English, all handwritten, and one can tell that he is an educated child.

Xia Yihan stood in front of the boy, browsing through the words.It turned out that the boy was a good student. He was in the first grade of junior high school, but his parents died in a car accident, and he was also injured, leaving no one to support him.He came out to raise a tuition fee and wanted to go back to school to study again. He hoped that all kind-hearted people would lend a helping hand and help him.

Xia Yihan looked intently, scanning the words on the ground row by row, the boy raised his head, his face was a bit delicate, especially a pair of big eyes, dark and bright, full of sorrow and pleading.

Xia Yihan and the boy stared at each other for two seconds, but they didn't intend to pay. The boy felt embarrassed and looked away.

Xia Yihan looked at the 200 yuan raised in the basin, and suddenly said: "My child, your handwriting is not very good, but I can write well. In the future, I can help you write. We will give you [-]/[-] for the money raised." ?

The boy stared at her with wide eyes, his expression twisted, but he didn't speak.

Xia Yihan squatted next to him, picked up a chalk and wrote a few correct characters, the handwriting was beautiful, the pen was sharp, and the calligraphy was small.

"Look, compare it, I didn't lie to you."

The boy still didn't speak, his face full of hesitation.After a while, he finally opened his mouth and whispered: "Go away!"

Xia Yihan was taken aback, and quickly realized that the boy's expression was not quite right. She looked around and found several men paying attention to this side intentionally or unintentionally.

She immediately stood up and walked towards the crowded place, keeping an eye out for anyone following her.

She didn't relax until she was sure that no one was behind her after walking two streets.I found a hotel nearby and planned to rest for the night first.

Without an ID card, she couldn't stay in a good hotel, so she chose a small hotel, saying that she was really uncomfortable, and had already called her father, who would pick her up tomorrow, hoping to stay here for one night.

The boss seemed reasonable, seeing that she had paid the money, he didn't ask any further questions, and allowed her to move in. Xia Yihan took the key card and went up to the third floor from the side stairs, but before she got out of the stairs, she noticed a man following her behind .

She immediately became alert, and was about to walk into the room quickly, but before she could take a few steps, the man took out a telescopic stick from his pocket, and hit her hard on the back of the head, Xia Yihan fell face down in an instant.