Limb Reorganization

After class today, I felt very tired. I took the bus home alone, exhausted physically and mentally.There happened to be a radio program on the bus every evening.

"Xiaoyu, your girlfriend ordered Xu Ruyun's "The Sender" for you. I hope you will be happy every day." The voice of the host is always so sweet.

"I am used to seeing the letter you wrote to me in the mailbox every morning while having breakfast and reading it for three years without interruption. I am used to thinking quietly in the study every night by myself. I write to you every word and every bit of life. The recipient of the letter is me relying on Your feelings are like paper put into a fire for love to burn a little longer, and the sender is also I imagine that you may care about me, as if the boat is floating towards the sea, even if it keeps swaying, it still feels like love..."

Xu Ruyun's singing voice is really delicate and euphemistic, which made me feel very relaxed.Especially the climax part is even more lingering: "I am the recipient, live by your feelings, and I am the sender, imagine that you might care about me..." Suddenly, I woke up from my laziness, and I Repeatedly: I am the recipient, and I am the sender; I am the recipient, and I am the sender!yes!Is there anyone else who keeps writing letters to himself like the song says?If this is the case, the recipient and the sender are the same person. Of course, it is only possible to find the recipient, but not the sender.

I trembled at this sudden thought of mine.Because it means that the "little bug" is Miao himself!No!I don't want to believe the thought!Let's hope this is just baseless speculation.

But if Miao didn't write letters to himself, then why is the address of "Little Chongzi" a place where no one has ever lived? Is the "little bug" real, or has it evaporated, or is it just an illusion?

It was very late before I came to Miao's house, and I saw that Miao was already lying on the bed and fell asleep.Looking at the sleeping boy in front of me, this handsome boy who can make people's heart beat, this boy I have loved for two full years, I suddenly feel that I don't seem to understand him.There have been so many beautiful and wonderful girls who have liked him.However, the girls related to him all suffered misfortunes.Could it be that God is jealous of this boy?Only then did the girls around him take away one by one.

I'm going to do a good job of previewing tomorrow's lesson.The title of the course is: Schizophrenia.It is a condition somewhere between psychopathology and psychology.There is a category of perverted murderers who commit murder because they suffer from schizophrenia.Usually, it is not the murderer himself who comes out to kill, but another personality that he splits out.

I was thinking about Xia Zhihuan's case again.Xia Zhihuan's death is related to a letter, and I found the envelope of that letter in the basement of Miao's house, but the address on the envelope Miao wrote to Xiao Chongzi has not been lived in for more than ten years. .

Looking at the notes, they gave me some inspiration. If Miao wrote the letter to himself, it is obvious that the tone of "Little Chongzi" has feminine characteristics.So why did Miao imitate a woman and write a letter to herself?Unless—he has split personality disorder, and the personality he split off is a female, not a male version of himself.

However, 4 years ago, the person who reported the case was Miao, and 4 years later, the person who identified the corpse was also Miao. If he really killed someone, why did he report the case and identify the body himself?By the way, I think of a famous foreign criminal psychology expert who once cited the reason why the murderer himself would report the crime and even assist the police in solving the case, that is: if the murderer suffers from severe amnestic mental illness, then he or she may forget to remember where he or she was. What you did when you got sick.

I thought of "Little Chongzi", thought of Xia Zhihuan's death, thought that "Little Chongzi" might be the murderer, thought that Miao might write a letter to himself, thought that Miao might be the murderer... a series of thoughts suffocated me.Caressing Miao's face, I suddenly saw Miao's cold eyes looking at me from behind in the old residence that day, and my hands were trembling.

In a daze, I saw a girl with beautiful long hair like a waterfall was instantly hit into the air by a speeding car, fell in the middle of the road in a parabola, covered in blood, and then the blood continued to flow horizontally—— Flow—flow... Then I saw a person standing in the crowd who seemed to be smiling, but it was blurry, I couldn't see the face of the smiling person...

I was in a cold sweat and suddenly woke up from a nightmare.I heard someone calling my name: "Xin, what's wrong with you? Why are you sweating all over when you wake up? Still sleeping on the sofa?"

As soon as I opened my eyes, I saw Miao shaking my shoulders.

"I, I'm fine, maybe it's because I'm too tired recently that I have nightmares."