sad love

A week later I received a call from my college girlfriend Sophie: "Jay, I hate you and I will always hate you!"

Bye.Three days later, I learned from the newspaper that she had fallen to her death. My heart was like a falling glass.I spent the whole week in a haze, and Jingyi comforted my grief.I received a package from my college girlfriend, which contained photos of our college days and a letter: When you open this letter, you don’t know if I’m on my way to heaven or I’ve already arrived.You must be curious that I know your address, and I will tell you when we meet in heaven.Do you remember the promise you made to me when you graduated?You said you would marry me, but in the end you slipped away, and I was left to marry an old ghost who was 25 years older than me, and then passed on to someone else.I know you remember the promise we made, you just couldn't keep it, but I still hate you.Remember the last time I asked you, when I heard the call of God.I struggled hard and wished you would give me back my hope of life, but you were so relentless and ruthless, pushing me into the abyss of death, so I hate you.You want to know how I found your address, I followed you.Hey, I was going to tell you when you and I were together in heaven, but it's fine.I hate you, do you know how I got to the end of my life?drink!I squandered the breakup money that the old ghost gave me to hang out in bars or places where bad guys haunted.I don't know if I've been fucked by those jerks while I'm drunk.But several times I woke up and found that I was always lying naked in a room, I knew I was fucked, it was like this, it must be like this.How many times have I come downstairs to your apartment to look through the window to see if you are there, I really want to talk to you, but I still stop.I know that we are people from two worlds, and we can never go back to the original point.So I can only pass the time in a daze, coming to your building again and again, and then turning around and leaving again and again.I want to say, I will tell you all the words of hundreds of reincarnations, but the hand holding the pen trembles, and the words in my mind are frighteningly limited.Remember, I hate you no matter how many centuries the world has passed, or how many times time has passed.The signature is: the person who loves you even if you are a ghost.After reading the letter, I sat on the sofa and cried.

I decided to go away for a while.I proposed to the company to take some time off and left a note to Jingyi: What happened recently

Love makes me very sad, I want to go out and relax by myself.I know leaving you is like cutting your heart with a knife, please forgive me.I hope she takes good care of herself, and the little flower shop.When I am not by your side, I will always think about your smile and dream about you.

Carrying my bag, like a patient in "Resident Evil", I slowly shuffled towards the station.The train started slowly, and I felt like a passenger in the car in "Chain Saw".Seeing my distraught appearance, the passengers all avoided me, thinking that I was a carrier of some kind of pathogen, and that if I was not careful, I would be infected with the Black Death.I really want to cry happily, but there are so many strange eyes looking at me.At this moment, I have a terrible idea in my head: smash my head against the window and jump.

"Does the child need help?"

"Thank you for not needing it." I turned my head and saw a gray-haired old man talking with a 10-year-old child.

"Grandpa, are you alone? Where are you going?"

"I am the only one in this world, and I am a little confused about where to go." The old man's words made me confused,

Didn't it say that sixty is pleasing to the ear and seventy is ancient?

"Grandpa, where's your family?"

"Family? I sent away my son, then my wife, and finally my grandson." The old man said with tears in his eyes.

"Grandpa, don't be sad." I don't know if life, death and wealth really depend on God, and my brain capacity can't think about it.

question.The car came to a small town, and we separated.The trembling figure of the old man going away made me feel mixed. Life and death have no meaning for the old man.My sorrow settled, and it turned out that there are people less fortunate than myself in this world.Suddenly I despised my own psychological changes again.People, when they find something less fortunate than themselves, they will always forgive their sorrow.

I stayed in a small hotel, and the time for eating was not fixed. When I was hungry, I would go to the small restaurant downstairs to have a meal.sometimes

One meal is enough, some days it seems like four meals.For a few days, I would also walk on the streets of the small town, just like a dog, the only difference is that the dog would scratch the grass next to the road or sniff the wild flowers beside the road, while I would look at the pavement beside the road .The streets were filthy and foul-smelling.The old man who sells stinky tofu, the lady who buys kebabs, the boy who buys bananas, the girl who buys silk stockings... all placed in one place, everything looks chaotic and crowded.I went into a grocery store to buy a pack of cigarettes, a pack of biscuits, and a bottle of water.Then he walked down the street and devoured the hard biscuits.Even the flies swarming around the slop bucket in front of the small restaurant did not dampen my appetite.

Go away the strange smell, go away the yelling, go away everything!Maybe it was because I was too hungry that I choked hard. I unscrewed the water bottle and hiccupped while drinking. I looked down at the label on the biscuit and found that the production date was too early.I comforted myself that I would be fine in a few days, but I crushed the biscuit severely with my hand and threw it to the other side of the street together with the water bottle.After I vented, I felt a kind of pleasure in my heart.

At dawn, I checked out and went to the station. "Where are you going, sir?" the conductor asked with a mechanical smile.I froze, this

I haven't thought about this question, "To a place where there is a sea."

"Oh, Xiajiawan. I wish you a pleasant journey, sir." Xiajiawan?Isn't that where I study by myself?I don't know whether it is Sophie's guidance in heaven or the trick of fate.I took a taxi to my alma mater.The sign in front of the door is still standing, the flowers and trees are still standing, and the towering teaching building is still standing.Unknowingly, I came to the lake where I often dated Sophie in college. The willow branches are much denser than a few years ago. It may be that I have eavesdropped on too many love stories, and they have become thicker under the nourishment of love words.On the cold stone bench, I don’t know how many nights Sophie and I sat on, and overheard how many love words we had.Today, I can still clearly recall those words at that time.But the voice in my ear came from another world.

Jingyi didn't call after leaving for a few days, it's between me and her

agreement.I don't know how she spends every lonely night alone, whether she is gently flicking her tears, or is her thin body resisting the tide of nightmare?

Yuu asked me if leaving was a romantic thing for her.I couldn't find the right words to answer her, just let Shen

Silence spreads among us.

Yunfei called me a coward and never went back.

I ran out of money in a few days, and I was deeply in hesitation.Is it a begging way to continue walking or Xiang Qiang

The big reality raised its hands high.Finally I raised my hands—to my own weakness and incompetence, to those I liked and were liked.I gave my handbag to an old man with a beard in a street bazaar, and bought a ticket to return to the city where I lived.

It was getting dark and I felt like I was in a black hole.It was past nine o'clock when I got home.Jingyi sat up from the sofa,

hug me tightly.Ignoring the smell of sweat all over my body and the bearded Bazaar's cheeks, he kissed my lips.

"Didn't I come back?" I pushed Jingyi away and walked into the bathroom.

Close your eyes and let the warm water flow from overhead, and finally flow into the Pacific Ocean.Suddenly the bathroom door opened, "Let's wash together." Jingyi said as she took off her coat, the water wet her hair, I took off her underwear, and kissed her body.I don't remember what I did in the end, I just feel that my brain is being operated by a strange creature in outer space with a remote control.

After careful calculation, I have been away for 25 days, and I don't know what has changed in the company.I just deeply understand: if the ground

It still works with no one on the ball.

The author has something to say: Leaving is not an escape, but an exile of the soul.