sad love

The author has something to say: In life, if you don’t learn how to walk, you can’t grow up after all.

The train arrived at the station, and the destination was neither heaven nor hell, but a strange city beyond description.I dragged my suitcase and wandered the streets of the city, looking at all kinds of passers-by.What I said to myself a few hours ago came back to my mind: I don't deserve to be angry with the world.Suddenly there was a rush of energy flowing back in Dantian.right!everything will get better.I quickened my pace and walked forward, went to the food stall and bought 4 fresh meat buns and ate them vigorously.When I recalled it, I felt that there was a Sun Walker making trouble in my stomach, and it was so uncomfortable.After a while, all the food I ate was spit out.I supported the nan tree beside the road, closed my eyes and panted silently.Opening my eyes to a dog devouring my vomit, oblivious to my presence.Forget it, forget it, everyone is hungry, fate is interlinked.I pulled up my sleeves and wiped the sweat from my forehead, walked with heavy steps, looked around the street, and finally my eyes stayed on a recruitment notice.A construction company recruiter.When I first arrived in this city, I didn't have time to think about it. I just hoped to get a job quickly and exchange a few RMB to buy something to fill my stomach.I took out my mobile phone to take a picture of the address, called a motorcycle and negotiated the price and drove to the destination.

The car was driving on the bumpy road.The large-scale construction of the city is carried out in the suburbs: some are being renovated; some are being piled up with concrete, as long as they don’t offend the Heavenly Emperor; The crater looks like a wound left by Mars when it hit Earth.Looking at these huge pits, my heart throbbed, and I couldn't turn my attention to other places, even looking at the women picking up garbage on the street with their children on their backs. Sadly, I can only let this kind of Pain unscrupulously spread in my cerebral cortex.On the surface, the demolition and construction of the city gave the city a new look, but in fact we lost a lot of things.Repeatedly among major cities across the country, the character of the city becomes blurred.Sometimes I foolishly wonder if the Chinese civilization is the next one to disappear.

The car stopped in front of a building under construction, and as far as the eye could see, the entire building was covered with a light green nylon net.I don't know if it's because I'm afraid people will gain insight into the secrets or it's a security measure.A middle-aged man wearing a red helmet held a cigarette between his left thumb and forefinger, and gestured with his right hand. He seemed to be a leader, directing the workers to rush to work.I went up and interrupted: "Excuse me, are you recruiting?"

"Xiaomei go through the formalities for him." The middle-aged man walked out of the prefab room as he said.

"Please sit down." The girl smiled.I stared blankly at her.

"Any questions?"

"No... no, my name is Shi Yunjie."

"Oh, the name is good. 'Sweet Song of the Historian, Li Sao without Rhyme'. Please fill in your number and address."

"Address? I just arrived in this city and haven't found a place to live yet."

"Then let's live on the construction site first, and start working tomorrow."

The night fell mercilessly from the sky, and the lights on the construction site pierced through the night.The sound of the mixer, the shovels and hammers in the hands of the workers are intertwined, as if they are crying and asking for something in the night?

A helpless life creates bitter people, but they can only crusade and sigh in the dark night.I rolled over, and Xiaomei's appearance appeared in front of my eyes: long black hair, fair cheeks, why did she suffer in this place?In this era of laughing at the poor but not laughing at the prostitutes, it's better to be a mistress or a chicken than here, right?I suddenly laughed at myself, why use my own ideas to define other people's lifestyles.Everyone has his way of being, no matter who he is or what he does.

My heart is always occupied by doubts, what method should I use to develop my own life path, and what is my belief?This heavy question was the first time I thought about it after graduating from university, and I felt a little confused and a little caught off guard.Go to sleep, go to sleep.Maybe the sun will be warmer tomorrow.

Today is the first day of work, I am not excited, I feel a little bit of shame.

"Go and push the bricks." The foreman said to me.I walked up to a small stroller and grabbed the handle, my hands hurting from the cold.

"Brother, put on these gloves." A dark-skinned worker handed me a pair of gloves.

"Thank you..." My throat choked.

His surname is Wang and I call him Big Brother Wang.Five years ago, he left school and got married in a daze.Finally, that is to say, I am working on the construction site day and night.

"Brother Wang, have you ever thought about changing jobs?"

"Change jobs? I've thought about it many times, but I just got married, had children and bought a house. All these pressures made me breathless, and sometimes I really didn't dare to think about it. Besides, I was confused when I was studying. Hey! The book arrived. It takes time to regret less!"

"It's not like that. Reading is the most useless thing to do now."

"I can understand your thoughts. This is a confusing era. Although the development of science and technology has enriched people's material life, many problems faced by human beings cannot be solved by science and technology. So I still have to study .” Brother Wang’s words gave me a lot of inspiration.He encourages me to face each day with energy, no matter what the situation.

The trial period expires in one week.One month trial period! —how ridiculous!Dogs will laugh when they hear it!Three-year-olds know how to do jobs, and there is a fake trial period to remind you not to rebel halfway through.During this period of time, I did not listen to the radio, watch TV, listen to music, or surf the Internet. My brain stopped working like a clogged cutting machine when mowing grass.As for going for a walk in the city, it is simply a fantasy, because every day I am as busy as a cow and as tired as a pig, and another thing is that I have no money to buy underwear.

Days are like refugees in the US-Iraq war stumbling, and every day I always hear a voice in my heart shouting: Look for it!Look for!And head forward, the sky is always gray.

"Sister Mei, can you advance a little salary first, I'm a little tight."

"Yes, but the foreman's signature is required first." Mei Yu said and handed me a form.I filled out my information, said thank you and walked out of the prefab room, and returned to the prefab room 10 minutes later.Counting my hard-earned money, I found that my hands were trembling and my nose was sour.

"Is that right?"

"kindness."

"Take a fingerprint here." I thanked again and left the board room.As soon as I arrived at the door, Meiyu stopped me: "I forgot to tell you, call me Meiyu from now on. We are about the same age."

Later, during the days when I went to her, I learned more about her.