Gong Nan God's little rabbit

After Fang You fell asleep, he fell into a strange dream.

Maybe it was because the story of "This Love Is Not a Human" touched him too deeply. In his dream, he was like Gu Nanjiang, who loved someone deeply for many years, but never dared to tell him, pretending to be by his side as if nothing had happened. , even to please with careful temptation.

He didn't know who he was, but he knew that the man he was watching from afar was Gong Qi, his lover.

The contours of that person's eyebrows, eyes, demeanor, and movements are all engraved in my heart.

He knows all his habits and preferences, and his possible reaction to every event.

So he knew very well that he couldn't let Gong Qi know his thoughts.He won't hate himself, but he will definitely alienate himself.For those who should not be emotionally entangled, he has never been out of mud and water.

They didn't talk about everything like they used to. With Gong Yan's intelligence and sensitivity, they probably sensed something strange, so they had to be more careful.

With such persistence in his arms, Fang You has been following behind Gong Ji, walking down one street after another, not daring to stop for a while.

The scenery on both sides of the street is very familiar: the supermarket and the bench where they met for the first time, where he played the guitar and sold and sang, and the coffee shop at the corner of the street, where he saved the money he earned for a week and treated Gong Qi to a drink. A cup of coffee, and later they often met there. Under the row of sycamore trees with fallen branches and leaves, he used the clumsy excuse of his birthday to ask Gong Yan for a hug that was nothing more than friendship. His expression was casual, but his heartbeat was loud Astonishing, and the high platform where he participated in the competition for the first time, Gong Yan’s car was parked in the square opposite, watching him through the window glass, and he was kicked out by the landlord, homeless overnight The park, and...

There are many, many more... In the bits and pieces piled up by countless times, he is like this, following him step by step and always following him from a distance, fearful and secretly happy.

Fang You felt that this was a very strange feeling. He was clearly a lover whom he knew in his heart, why did he only dare to stand behind him and watch silently, but still took it for granted?

Although he had doubts in his heart, as long as he could see Gong Qi when he looked up, he felt very at ease.The boundary between right and wrong is very blurred in his mind, wherever Gong Qi goes, he just follows.

Fang You stared at the back in front of him with burning eyes, and secretly warned himself: he must become outstanding, become someone who can walk by his side, and make his eyes willing to fall on himself.

To get a word of appreciation from him, even an admiring look, is enough for him to work hard for his whole life.

He knows that Gong Qi doesn't like people who do nothing and only complain, don't like people who are arrogant and stubborn, and don't like people who think they are pretending, so he must pay attention to avoiding these disadvantages in every major event and detail, and always be self-disciplined.

Gong Yan said that he is too proud and paranoid, and also too withdrawn and sensitive. He always subconsciously speculates on others with malice, and then closes himself off from the world. Cover up all negative emotions, in fact, the heart has already festered.

He didn't know how to change this, so he consulted a psychiatrist.The doctor told him that this is a manifestation of low emotional intelligence and does not know how to relieve emotions by himself. It is a mentality problem and needs to be adjusted slowly.

His tense heart relaxed, as long as it can be cured, it doesn't matter how long it takes.

He still followed closely behind Gong Yan as always, making changes silently, getting closer to him every day, and getting closer,

Then one day...pretending to be casual, she touched his finger.

Gong Yan finally stopped, turned around, and stared at him with deep black eyes, his expression still indifferent.

Fang You was so nervous that his mind went blank, he clenched his hands nervously, not daring to look at him.

"Stop wasting time and energy on me, I don't have that in mind now. As for the future, if I have a partner, it won't be you. I don't want to give you meaningless fantasies and get you stuck in the mud. After today , I hope you can have the happiness that truly belongs to you, and by then, we will still be friends, and you can come to me if you have any difficulties."

The calm statement instantly pronounced his death sentence.Fang You stood there blankly, without raising his head, his vision was blurred.

He felt that his EQ was still very low, and he didn't know what to say or do in the face of such a situation. He just stood there silently, his whole body feeling cold.

Gong Yan's always indifferent and rational face flashed in his mind, and he blurted out a word of apology, "I'm sorry for causing you trouble, I will not contact you again in the future, I am really sorry."

He didn't know who he was angry with, and he felt as uncomfortable as being pierced by a knife when he said such words.

For a moment, he hoped that Gong Qi would regret it, and would try to persuade him to stay because he didn't want to lose him.

As long as there is a single word, even if it is a hesitant movement, he will not hesitate to let go of the only dignity and pride that he uses to protect himself, pretending that nothing happened, and still follow behind him with a stern face.

So please...please keep me.

He took three slow steps back, all hopes dashed at the last moment.

Fang You lowered his head and laughed silently, but the tears rolled down unsatisfactorily.

"Goodbye." He bowed vigorously to the opposite side, and no longer caring what Gong Qi would think, he turned around abruptly and ran out.

His pride does not allow him to show weakness to others, especially if this person is still Gong Yan, he may not care about the eyes of the whole world, but he does not want to be in front of him, even the last bit of self-esteem can't be regained.

Fang Youman ran forward desperately, his eyes were so full of tears that he couldn't keep his eyes open, and his chest hurt like it was going to burst.

He chanted the name of Gong Yan frantically in his heart, the faith that once saved him from despair, now drove him down the endless abyss again, he tried his best to climb up, but he couldn't stop his falling body, and sinking lower than his body faster soul, it weeps.

This time, no one came to save him.

I would do anything to keep myself by your side.Is there a way for me to stay where you are?I could trade everything for...

Palace, palace, palace...

Tears trickled down the corners of his eyes, quickly soaking his temples and pillow, Fang You murmured in pain, and opened his eyes bewilderedly.

There was only one orange wall lamp on in the bedroom, and he looked drowsily at the ceiling and chandelier above his head, and for a while he couldn't distinguish between dreams and reality.The unforgettable despair in the dream was still stimulating his nerves.

Gong Yan immediately noticed his abnormality, and quickly turned on the lamp by the bed so that he could see himself clearly.

"Ayou, don't be afraid, Ayou, it's okay, I'm here, it's okay..."

He stretched out his thumb pad to gently wipe away the tears on Fang You's face, and coaxed him softly over and over again, trying to calm down his little man.

Fang You stared at him blankly for two seconds, then buried his face in his lapel, wrapped his arms tightly around Gong Qi's waist, his voice was full of panic and grievance, "You don't want me anymore...I dreamed of you Don't want me...don't want me...please...don't want me..."