Changan for the rest of my life

After the meal, Yu Shengyan obviously didn't want to separate from Qi Changan, and Qi Changan did the same, so Yu Shengyan suggested going to her house for a drink.

The two of them first went to the supermarket to buy some wine, knowing that Qi Chang'an can't drink well, Yu Shengyan just bought some beer and fruit wine, so that Qi Chang'an wouldn't get drunk again.

Qi Changan leaned on the sofa, took a sip of wine, and said, "Sister, why don't we play a memory game?"

"what?"

Yu Shengyan looked at Qi Changan with great interest, his eyes kept on her body, looking at her smile, as if he would never get tired of it.

"Arrange the playing cards one by one. If you find two identical cards, you can continue to flip them. If you don't find the same cards, it's your opponent's turn. Whoever finds the most identical cards in the end wins."

"it is good."

The two began to drink while playing cards. Sometimes when Yu Shengyan kept turning the wrong pages, Qi Changan would giggle like a child. Seeing Qi Changan smiling like a child, Yu Shengyan continued to turn the wrong pages. The child laughed even more.

The two played several rounds, and Qi Changan won every round. Qi Changan couldn't help but teased Yu Shengyan.

"Senior sister, your memory is not very good!"

Yu Shengyan looked at Qi Chang'an quietly for a few seconds, his eyes gradually turned red, but the smile on the corner of his mouth became more and more bitter.

"You have a good memory, can you remember it all the time?"

Maybe she was a little drunk, even though Qi Changan heard Yu Shengyan's words, she couldn't analyze what Yu Shengyan said, so she asked, "What?"

"It's nothing."

Yu Shengyan shook his head and stopped talking, then the two of them watched the movie, Qi Changan took a sip of beer after another, seeing this, Yu Shengyan immediately held down the beer can and said: "Don't drink, you're going to get drunk. "

Qi Changan looked at Yu Shengyan with those slender beautiful eyes, her eyes were a little more drunk, and in the dimness, it was as if the moonlight shrouded her eyes, adding a little silvery gentle light.

"It's good to be drunk... When you're drunk, you don't have to think about anything..."

No need to guess your mind, no need to think about whether you can meet again after graduation... No need to think about anything...

When Yu Shengyan heard this, her throat tightened, and she was unable to speak. She didn't want Qi Changan to show such a sad look, and she didn't want her to say these words...

"Chang An, be good, don't drink."

Yu Shengyan wanted to take Qi Changan's beer away, Qi Changan smiled mischievously, and immediately poured the wine into his mouth, Yu Shengyan frowned, and didn't try to grab it, but waited for her to finish drinking, she was afraid of snatching it It will choke her.

Qi Chang'an drank in a hurry, and the feeling of alcohol came to her head quickly. When she put down the wine jar, her head was already dizzy for a while.

"Sister."

Qi Changan grabbed Yu Shengyan's hand, but Yu Shengyan didn't move, allowing her to hold it, even unconsciously holding her palm instead.

"Can you...don't graduate..."

Qi Changan lowered her head, her voice was even crying, Yu Shengyan's eyes became hot, and she was filled with tears in an instant, her palms seemed to ache, and her heart ached too...

"Changan... Good boy, you're drunk."

Yu Shengyan knew that Qi Changan was drunk, and he was very drunk, and when he was sitting, he started to shake his head, his face was flushed red, and he looked like he was about to lose consciousness.

"Senior Sister...can I ask you a question?"

Yu Shengyan looked at Qi Changan's shining beautiful eyes, how could she bear to refuse...

"You ask."

Yu Shengyan's heart was beating wildly, she couldn't take her eyes away even for a moment when she looked at Qi Changan's eyes filled with too much emotion...

"I only ask this question once... I won't ask it again... How do you feel about me?"

Qi Changan didn't know why the conversation between Liang Sicheng and Lin Huiyin appeared in her mind, so she asked the same question.

Yu Shengyan's heart suddenly lifted...

How much she wanted to tell Qi Changan...I like you...but she knew she couldn't...not now...

"Never before..."

The love I never had before... only for you... Changan... I hope you understand, but I hope you don't understand...

Qi Changan seemed to understand but half understood, dizzy, and fell into Yu Shengyan's arms...

"I...so uncomfortable...here..."

Qi Chang'an covered his left atrium, tears welled up from the corners of his eyes...

Yu Shengyan hugged Qi Changan, and a tear finally couldn't hold back... This was the most painful tear she had suffered in many years...

She picked up Qi Changan, walked slowly to the guest room, and put her on the bed...

"sleep well…"

Yu Shengyan straightened Qi Changan's hair sticking to his face carefully and affectionately. Yu Shengyan looked at Qi Changan's face, couldn't help it, and pecked lightly on Qi Changan's lips...

"You have a good memory...but...can you forget all of this?"

Yu Shengyan spoke softly, I don't know if this person can hear it, but she started to cry first, she turned around and was about to leave, but Qi Changan held her back with one hand...

"do not leave Me…"

Yu Shengyan shook Qi Changan's hand, turned to look at her, eyes still closed, talking in his sleep...

In the end, Yu Shengyan still left...

Yu Shengyan turned on her mobile phone and sent Ming Xuan a message.

【Mr. Ming, Chang An is drunk, I will let her sleep at my house for one night, and I will take good care of her.Yu Sheng smoked. 】

After sending the message, she fell powerlessly on her bed... Tears flowed from the corners of her eyes as if she couldn't stop...

Rationality and sensibility are pulling...

It feels like I'm going to kill myself...

Ming Xuan looked at the message on the phone, frowned, and sighed...

【it is good. 】

After replying a good one, Qi Wanshu walked in muttering.

"Why didn't the kid come back so late?"

He sat by the bed, sighed, and was about to pick up his mobile phone to call Qi Changan, but Ming Xuan stopped him.

"No, she's sleeping at her senior sister's house today."

"Huh? How did you know?"

Qi Wanshu asked, but when it comes to Yu Shengyan, Qi Wanshu is also relieved, after all, he seems to be a very reliable person.

"Her senior sister told me, all right, go to sleep!"

"okay…"

Qi Wanshu just fell asleep like this, but Ming Xuan never fell asleep...

The next day, when Qi Changan woke up, her head hurt... She sat on the bed and looked around...

Depend on!I'm drunk again!It's over, it's over, I'm done!

Have you drank again?But there are some pictures... fragmented in my mind, I don't know if it is a dream or reality... I shook my head... I don't understand...

Fortunately, after the beer was not strong, she was not too uncomfortable. She was about to go out to find Yu Shengyan, but found a note on the coffee table.

[The toiletries are all new. 】

When she saw it, she immediately went to wash up, packed up her clothes and went out. As soon as she opened the door, she felt the smell of rice...

Goo...

His stomach was growling, Qi Changan covered his stomach, cursed himself for being worthless, and immediately went to the living room, and saw that Yu Shengyan had cooked breakfast and was waiting for Qi Changan.

"Good morning, come and have breakfast!"

"it is good."

When Qi Changan saw it, it was an ordinary English breakfast. She ate happily, after all, Yu Shengyan cooked it herself, so how could she not be happy.

"Ah! I didn't inform Lafayette...too bad!"

It was only then that Qi Chang'an remembered that he was not coming home at night, but fortunately Yu Shengyan immediately smiled and said, "No hurry, I have already notified Mr. Ming."

"Oh! Thank you so much, I thought I was going to be cold..."

Qi Changan patted his heart, Yu Shengyan looked at Qi Changan, but the smile on the corner of his mouth gradually became a bit bitter...

Chang An, she... hide that uncomfortable feeling deeply...

After the two finished their meal, Yu Shengyan sent Qi Changan home. Just before getting out of the car, Yu Shengyan took a deep look at Qi Changan.

"Goodbye."

"Well, goodbye, Senior Sister."

Qi Changan unbuckled his seat belt, and when he was about to get out of the car, Yu Shengyan stopped Qi Changan.

"Chang An."

"Ok?"

"Take good care of yourself."

"Okay, senior sister, you too..."

Qi Changan left, Yu Shengyan watched Qi Changan go upstairs, knowing that there was no one to be seen, so he drove away...

Goodbye, my Changan.

Tears...broken...

Qi Changan didn't expect that this would be the last time they met. In the next semester, Qi Changan hadn't seen Yu Shengyan, and she wasn't even online when sending messages. She was waiting every day and night, but always Can't wait for Yu Shengyan.

Qi Changan looked at Yu Shengyan's dialogue box, flipped through the dialogue records over and over again, and saved them...

Why...Yu Shengyan suddenly disappeared...

Maybe Qi Chang'an understood... Yu Shengyan didn't want to contact her anymore... But she still kept a glimmer of hope, she hoped that she had guessed wrong.

[Sister Qian. 】

【Um? 】

【That... Is Senior Sister Yu in the dormitory? 】

【ah?She doesn't live on campus, didn't she tell you? 】

These words made Qi Chang'an's mind go blank for an instant, and he couldn't read all the content on the phone. The sense of loss and weightlessness in his heart seemed to overwhelm him...

Qi Changan sat on the bed in a daze. At that moment, she seemed to be unable to think about anything... If the last hope is also broken...

How about that?

Despair instantly filled Qi Changan's body...

At this time, Qian Ai called, and Qi Changan felt that the root of her tongue was sore... She glanced at Qian Ai's caller ID...

"Hey?"

Qi Changan finally got through to Qian Ai's call...

"Changan, are you okay?"

It's okay... how can it be okay...

"It's alright..."

Qi Changan's eyes were sore, she wanted to cry, but her fists were clenched tightly, as if she was relaxing, and she was about to burst the embankment...

Qian Ai gritted her teeth on the other end of the phone, she didn't expect that Yu Shengyan didn't tell Qi Changan about this...

"have a good rest."

After Qian Ai finished speaking, he hung up the phone, picked up his car keys, and drove directly to Yu Shengyan's community. Qian Ai also visited Yu Shengyan's house several times, and the guard quickly let him go.

Ding-dong-

Yu Shengyan was concentrating on looking at the notebook, but was startled by the doorbell...

After nine o'clock in the evening... who will come over?

Yu Shengyan walked over vigilantly, looked at Maoyan, and found Qian Ai standing outside the door with a livid face...

Yu Shengyan understood a little bit in his heart, opened the door, Qian Ai grabbed Yu Shengyan's collar as soon as he came in, and said: "Yu Shengyan, what do you mean?"

Yu Shengyan looked at Qian Ai calmly, and said coldly, "Close the door first."

Qian Ai let go of Yu Shengyan, turned around and closed the door, and then asked again angrily: "Yu Shengyan, what do you mean? You didn't tell Chang An anything?"

When Yu Shengyan heard that name, his throat felt a little stiff for a moment, and he couldn't speak for a few seconds...

"Sit first."

Yu Shengyan's tone was still calm, but compared to just now, it was obviously a little unnatural.

Although Qian Ai was angry, facing Yu Shengyan's indifference, she felt as if she had punched cotton in an instant, and she couldn't start a fight.

Both sat down...

"I... won't meet her again."

After Yu Shengyan finished speaking, Qian Ai suddenly became angry, but she patiently asked, "Why?"

Yu Shengyan sighed...

"Qian Ai, let me tell you a story..."

"you say…"

Yu Shengyan didn't look at Qian Ai, but watched the TV, the TV was not turned on, and the black screen reflected his own appearance, as if making Yu Shengyan examine himself.

"I was an accident. My mother and father liked each other, and then got drunk and did something wrong. With me, was my father forced to marry my mother? Even if he liked... my father didn't want to marry my mother. Like it, it's no different from liking a pet..."

The first time I heard Yu Shengyan tell her own story, Qian Ai's anger gradually subsided, and she listened quietly.

"My mother is just a working woman with no family background. After giving birth to me, my father ignored her."

Yu Shengyan said calmly, the holes in his eyes seemed to be an abyss that no one else could reach.

"My mother has no background, and my father was ridiculed by the family because of this. My father gradually became manic and beat and kicked my mother...and I grew up in this environment."

Yu Shengyan looked at Qian Ai at this time, Qian Ai was a little surprised, he didn't expect Yu Shengyan's family to be so unhappy...

"Then why didn't your mother get a divorce?"

"for me…"

Yu Shengyan turned to look in the direction of the TV... and continued: "My mother knows the rules of the Yu family, and I can only be able to get rid of the Yu family only if I grow up relying on the Yu family."

Yu Shengyan suddenly smiled wryly... said: "I don't believe in love... I don't even believe in all the feelings in the world, including family love... Growing up in this environment, I seem to be becoming an emotionless robot... But..."

Yu Sheng paused, eyes flushed... said: "I met you, met everyone in the student union, and I learned about friendship... Maybe I didn't do well, but I cherish you all... Later I met Chang An... I know love..."

After hearing this, Qian Ai's eyes were a little red, and he choked up and asked, "Then why..."

"After graduation, I will return to country Y to continue my plan. If I succeed, I will be free. If I fail, I will lose my life."

Yu Shengyan turned to look at Qian Ai, and said, "I don't want Chang An to know this... I don't want her to do anything for me. She wants to develop in City B. This is her wish. I can't do it because of myself." Mess with her plans."

"Why are you so selfish to make a decision for her? You tell her the matter, she can make any decision, at least she won't have any regrets!"

Qian Ai was still angry, she hated Yu Shengyan's calmness, and Yu Shengyan's too rational... Arranged everything properly...

"So what if she follows me to Country Y? I can't protect her, so what if I fail? Chang An is the one who sacrifices from the beginning to the end, and then the one who gets hurt the most..."

Yu Shengyan looked deeply at Qian Ai, with tears in his eyes, and said: "I don't want to gamble with her life...she is someone I want to cherish..."

Qian Ai choked instantly... She said: "Then you at least... at least... say goodbye to her!"

"I... don't know how to say goodbye... Is this not good? She will slowly forget me..."

At the end, Yu Shengyan couldn't help it, and finally cried out. She covered her eyes with the palm of her hand, even though she wanted to do this, she still didn't want Qi Changan to forget herself...

It was the first time I saw Yu Shengyan crying. She had never cried before even when things were worse. This time, she finally understood...

Love can hurt deeply...

"do not Cry."

Qian Ai hugged Yu Shengyan and hugged her into his arms. This person has too many burdens, and she is still unwilling to scold her too much. Even if she can't accept the decision she made this time...but she can only respect her...

"Qian Ai...Qian Ai..."

Yu Shengyan called Qian Ai's name in Qian Ai's arms, like a person who fell into the deep sea, calling for help at the last moment...

"I miss her...I miss her so much..."

This is the first time that Yu Shengyan expresses his love for Qi Changan unreservedly...

When did she fall in love... She didn't know, when she came to her senses, it was already in such pain...

When Qian Ai heard Yu Shengyan crying, she couldn't help but started crying too. She hugged Yu Shengyan's trembling body, so she could know how painful she was...

Qi Chang'an was the first person Yu Shengyan liked, and also the first person he loved, that's why he was so inseparable...

But I have to give up...

After that day, Qian Ai would visit Yu Shengyan every now and then, but he didn't tell Qi Changan anything about Yu Shengyan. Qi Changan also went downstairs to Yu Shengyan's apartment...but he never went upstairs...

She knew that Yu Shengyan didn't want to see her, so she could only look at her like this... she couldn't do anything...

During that semester, Qi Changan kept herself very busy, and she only slept for 4 or 5 hours. She didn't want to stop, and was afraid that if she stopped, she would think of Yu Shengyan again.

From the beginning, she often looked through the conversation records with Yu Shengyan, but in the end she didn't dare to look at them, and even the only photo of them together was hidden at the bottom of the album by her, out of the light of day.

The angel pendant was also put away, put it in the drawer, no more looking at it...

Even though she didn't say anything, Zhao Yuan could feel Qi Changan's pain... She lived in pain, even though she couldn't see anything on her face...

"Chang An."

"Ok?"

"What's the matter with you recently?"

It's been half a semester, and Qi Chang'an is so busy that he doesn't touch the ground at all, and he doesn't let himself stop at all. Seeing her body getting thinner day by day, and her face becoming more and more haggard, Zhao Yuan can't help but feel worried.

"Nothing, just busy."

During this period of time, it was rare to see Qi Changan smile happily, even if he smiled, it was just a fake smile of politeness and alienation, which made Zhao Yuan feel very uneasy.

"Relax and stop working."

"Just a little while."

Just a little bit more... Just a little bit more and I can stop thinking about her for a little while longer...

Zhao Yuan didn't try to persuade her anymore, she could tell that Qi Changan was in a bad mood, even if she tried to persuade her, she couldn't persuade her...

Qi Chang'an had never contacted Qian Ai, and suddenly she was afraid that getting news from Yu Shengyan would break the mood that she wanted to forget for many days...

It's just that what Qi Changan doesn't know is...

She tried not to think about Yu Shengyan, when she wanted to drive everything about Yu Shengyan out of her own world...but she lived like her...

Unknowingly, Qi Chang'an has become like Yu Shengyan...

What would happen if you missed someone to the extreme?

Perhaps the current Qi Changan is the answer to this question.

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