Lou Chengling Li Teenage Dream

20

"Uncle, I'm a bad person, I'm not worthy, I'm not worthy..."

Ah Cheng was crying out of breath, and he kept repeating this sentence.Ling Yuan frowned and hugged him, feeling extremely distressed.He knew why Ah Cheng was wandering and suffering, but how could he help him?

"Ah Cheng, Ah Cheng, listen. Uncle loves you, Sister Mingjing loves you too, Mingtai loves you too, Brother Minglou loves you too, Teacher Jin, grandparents, Dongdong, Uncle Wei, Aunt Shaobai, they We all love you. You deserve it, we all love you, you deserve our love. Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, uncle is here." Ling Yuan patted Ah Cheng on the back, comforting him in a panic.

Ah Cheng broke down in tears, and said intermittently: "Uncle, I have been dreaming about my mother recently, and I have always dreamed about her. She said that I killed her. If it wasn't that I was so useless and made her angry, she would I won't die, if I ran to ask for help earlier, Mom, I wouldn't die, why am I so useless, uncle, I killed her..."

"I'm sorry, Uncle, I'm sorry for you. I know that you all treated me very well, but I don't deserve it. You are so kind to me, but recently, I can't stop thinking about my childhood more and more. I'm sorry for you."

"Today, I can't control it. I want to beat those people. I can't stop. Uncle, I hit Mingtai hard that day, but Mingtai said that he fell accidentally. Uncle, will I become a mother?" , I will hurt more people, what should I do, uncle, what should I do..."

In the end, Ah Cheng cried out hoarsely.

His eyes were blood red from crying, his throat couldn't make any sound, he lay on Ling Yuan's shoulder hollowly, his eyes kept streaming tears.

Ling Yuan kept frowning and listening to him, patting him on the back constantly, his heart ached, and he said "it's not your fault" and "we all love you" countless times.

When he spoke again, Ling Yuan found that he was also in tears, and his voice was already too hoarse. "Ah Cheng, wait for me, uncle will show you something."

Ling Yuan got up, went to the room and opened the wardrobe door, took out a box with a lock, opened it with a key, took out a crumpled piece of paper from it, and handed it to Ah Cheng.

Ah Cheng's eyes were red and swollen from crying, and it was very difficult to read the words, but the content on this yellowed paper made him unable to move his eyes away.

This is a letter with beautiful and neat handwriting. The person who wrote the letter is obviously a mother, and the recipient seems to be the director of an orphanage.

This is a loving mother, because she speaks of her child so tenderly and with love between the lines.This is also a sad mother. Her husband and the child's father, a member of the Chinese People's Liberation Army, died heroically in the flood relief in 94. She was also terminally ill and died soon.Poor newborn son, still in his infancy, unaccompanied.

"The child's baby name is A Cheng, so don't mention the surname. If you can be adopted by a kindhearted person in the future, you will only follow the surname of the adoptive parents and take care of them until the end. If you have to trouble the dean to take care of you before you grow up, let A Cheng Follow your surname, let him remember your kindness, and honor you well."

Ah Cheng struggled to finish reading the letter. He raised his head blankly, weeping, hoarse, and asked Ling Yuan: "This is my mother?"

Ling Yuan nodded and said: "Ah Cheng, I'm sorry, I didn't tell you earlier. I thought you had forgotten the past, so I didn't take the initiative to bring it up. I was afraid that you would be sad again. It was uncle's negligence. In the past two years, I have been busy Work, I didn't communicate with you in time, it was my uncle's fault to communicate with you."

Ah Cheng frowned and looked at Ling Yuan blankly, and asked him: "Uncle, I don't understand, is this my mother?"

Ling Yuan took out a piece of paper and wiped Ah Cheng's tears, and said, "Ah Cheng, you always knew that you were brought back from the orphanage by Li Gui, and when you were young, you heard the gossip from the villagers and thought you were her own son. , is it? But actually, it’s not like that.”

"Do you still remember that one winter, I said I was going on a business trip to Beijing? I didn't go to Beijing. I went to your hometown and found the orphanage where Li Gui raised you. I wanted to... ask about your father's whereabouts. I I explained my purpose of coming, but the young dean who received me refused to say a word, and wanted to drive me away. I begged softly and stubbornly for two days before she told me the truth." Ling Yuan sighed and continued: " The reason why Li Gui adopted you back then was because she thought you were born to her and a businessman. You should know the story. You lived in your hometown when you were young, right. At that time, Li Gui treated you in every possible way. She loves her dearly, and often spares her own food and clothing to help orphanages, so it can be said that she was once a very kind and simple woman."

Ling Yuan paused, and then said: "But the good times didn't last long. The director of the orphanage was critically ill. When Li Gui went to see her, the director told her the truth. In fact, you are not Li Gui's biological son at all. , her child was quietly picked up by that businessman long ago. When she went to adopt you, the dean gave you to her selfishly. Li Gui was shocked when he heard that, and abused you in every possible way after returning home. And you were taken away by Li Gui The story of Gui’s abuse was heard back to the dean, and she was heartbroken and regretted telling Li Gui the truth, her heart was full of anger, and she was dying of illness, so she passed away that night.”

After hearing what he said, Ah Cheng shed tears again and said, "So, I'm not her biological son?"

Ling Yuan nodded, raised his hand to wipe A Cheng's tears, and said: "Li Gui beat you, scolded you, abused you, it was all her own demons, it was not your fault, you did nothing wrong, and she didn't do anything wrong at all. Not your mother, you don't need to take responsibility for her sins, she has nothing to do with you."

"We love you because you are my child, you are their brother, their junior, their friend, and their classmate, because you are a person worthy of being loved. I know you love her , because you thought she was your mother. There is nothing wrong with your love, children are born to love their mother, whether it is a good mother or a bad mother we once said, I know you love them. But Ah Cheng, can hurt Those who see you are those you love, but those who love you will not be willing to hurt you."

Ling Yuan walked to the balcony and lit a cigarette.

Ah Cheng fell asleep, exhausted from crying, and finally fell asleep, hoping that in his dream, he could see what he wanted to see.

A mouthful of turbid air filled the lung cavity, Ling Yuan spit it out slowly, the misty smoke was blown away by the cold wind, Ling Yuan looked at the direction the wind left in a daze.

Ah Cheng's knot in his heart may be untied soon, or it may take a long time.The shadow of childhood had too much influence on the child. As a parent, he ignored it.

Fortunately, Ah Cheng trusted him enough to let him understand his thoughts early, so that he could help him.

It will be a long time in the future, but fortunately they are family members, and he will always be with him.

Ling Yuan led Ah Cheng along the mountain road, stopped, and said to Ah Cheng: "Here we are, this is it."

Ah Cheng nodded and walked forward. There are two grave mounds overgrown with weeds.There are no traces of incense, just two simple mounds and a rough stone tablet.

Ah Cheng put down the flowers in his hands, went forward with Ling Yuan in silence, and began to clean up the weeds on the grave, then took out a handkerchief and carefully wiped the stone tablet. The names of the two people were engraved on it. with his biological parents.

"It's not difficult to find your biological parents based on the information written in the letter, but because there are no relatives, it took some time to inquire about their cemetery, so I didn't bring you to pay homage to them until now." Ling Yuan said.

Ah Cheng lightly touched the stele, feeling with his hands the place where the name was written on the sunken stele.It's a very common name, but it still seems to carry warmth.

"Your father was a soldier. There was a flood in Hunan the year you were born. He saved many people, but he died heroically. He is a hero."

"Where's mom?"

"She is a middle school teacher. She is very good at painting. She is a girl in the county. I heard from the old man that she was the only college student who had been abroad and studied painting in France for two years. Secretly wiping away tears. It’s just that she has been in poor health. I heard from the old man’s description that it should be a liver problem..."

So, he was not abandoned.

Ah Cheng smiled, and a beautiful woman had already been outlined in her mind, her eyes were full of smiles, her hands were slender and warm.

Ah Cheng knelt down in front of the grave and kowtowed three times. For the first time, a 15-year-old boy thanked his parents for their birth.

On the way down the mountain, Ling Yuan was walking in front, and Ah Cheng followed behind. The two of them were in a relaxed mood. Although there was nothing to see on the mountain in winter, the sun was bright today, the air was fresh, and it was comfortable and pleasant.

As Ling Yuan was walking, he suddenly remembered Ah Cheng's childhood, and said, "I remember that you were not afraid of the dark when you were a child. At that time, the bed was made on the first day and you slept in a small room. I was afraid that you would be afraid by yourself. I left a small night light for you, but I didn't expect that when I got up to see you in the middle of the night, you had already turned off the light and fell asleep."

Ah Cheng followed behind him slowly, thought for a while, and said with a smile: "Yes, I explained to you the next day that I couldn't sleep because of the lamp, and felt comfortable in the dark."

"Have you ever wondered why you are not afraid of the dark?" Ling Yuan asked suddenly.

Ah Cheng was suddenly stopped by the question, and replied: "No."

Ling Yuan slowed down his tone and said: "I think your mother must have been very careful when she was pregnant with you. The comfort, warmth and security you felt when it was dark in her belly gave you love and confidence. Power, so that you are never afraid of the dark."

After finishing speaking, it took a long time to hear Ah Cheng's reply. Ling Yuan was about to look back, but felt a furry head on his back.

Hearing the sound of Ah Cheng sniffing his nose softly, Ling Yuan smiled and didn't point at him, just said: "You're still acting like a baby when you're so old?"

Ah Cheng ignored him, and after a while, he called out to him: "Uncle..."

"Well, uncle is here."