Wei Ran Chen Feng

Chen Xi sat in the driver's seat, started the car, and asked, "Do you want to eat something?"

Yan Ran smiled and said, "I can't eat anymore, do you think you raise pigs?"

"Then...where are you going?"

"Let's go to my house." Yan Ran met his eyes in the rearview mirror, but only missed for a moment.

Chen Xi's eyes darkened, "Tonight I...?"

Yan Ran blinked, "I'm very tired tonight, I'll go to bed after washing up. Besides, aren't we about the same size? You can just wear my clothes, they are all new."

"I sleep on the sofa?"

"no."

Chen Xi was suddenly a little excited.

Yan Ran went on to say, "You can sleep in the guest room, I cleaned it up last week."

"……Oh."

Yan Ran caught a glimpse of his dazed look, and couldn't help laughing, but only bent the corners of his mouth, so as not to distract someone who was concentrating on driving.

33.

Taking advantage of Yan Ran taking a shower, Chen Xi opened WeChat, and Yan Xiaoran's circle of friends was updated.

Yan Ran (`) 22:04

I went to watch the movie of the male god today, and sighed that the male god is so handsome, so handsome, so handsome!The appearance is off the charts!The acting skills are off the charts!Guan Ze is a big pit!Once you get in, you can't get out! [image][image][image]

The first photo was taken at the curtain call of the movie, with Guan Ze on the cast list, and Chen Xi felt uncomfortable after seeing it for no reason.

The second photo is a movie poster, Guan Ze is standing in the middle, and Chen Xi is even more upset when he sees it.But he thought it was a little funny. It seemed that he had never seen anyone who finished watching a movie without posting the plot or ticket stubs. Fortunately, he posted the cast list and poster.

The last photo is Yan Ran's selfie. The person in the camera looks a little dazed, with wide-open eyes, but very cute.

Chen Xi didn't think too much, just saved the picture and changed the wallpaper.Looking at it, I suddenly found that something seemed wrong. After adjusting the brightness, I realized that the black lump on the left of Yan Ran was himself, wasn't it? !

This photo was probably taken when he was asleep, and Chen Xi didn't know whether Yan Ran posted it on purpose, or whether he was also included in the photo.Although his inexplicable hope is the former.After thinking about it, Chen Xi was in a very good mood, and he opened WeChat to give Teacher Yan Xiaoran a thumbs up.

After Yan Ran returned to her room, she sat on the bed and dried her hands before clicking on Moments.

More than a dozen people liked it, but it is estimated that few of them took it seriously. When they caught a glimpse of "Chen Xi" from the corner of their eyes, they couldn't help being happy.

Liang Shuo also liked it and sent Yan Ran a message.

Brother Shuo: Little Swallow, don’t you still?Why are you with him again?

Yan Ran didn't resign her, but she didn't know what to do: Didn't I tell you, I'm very affectionate.

Brother Shuo: If you have a long love, you are tall, so what kind of love is there, right?It's been a long time since you two broke up, and I haven't heard anything from you about him.

Brother Shuo: No, you started messing with him right after you came back, or did you keep holding back and didn't tell me?

Yan Ran has nothing to say: No, we haven't been in touch in these years. If we do, can I not tell you?

Brother Shuo: It’s hard to say, you guys are eating together and watching movies together now, didn’t you tell me?What are you thinking, little swallow?

Brother Shuo: [Manual goodbye] [Manual goodbye]

Yan Ran didn't think about it: I didn't think much about it.I just thought that I might only be with him in my life, and I couldn't like anyone except him.

Yan Ran has nothing to do with resignation: It's been almost ten years, but now that I look back and think about it, it's actually not a big deal, right?But why did I feel that I couldn't accept it at that time? Maybe it was because I was too young at the time, I didn't know that if I chose something, I might lose it for a lifetime, and I chose it based on the most direct feeling in my heart.But now I regret it, he has always been very good to me, before and now.

Brother Shuo: What do you want me to say about you...

Yan Ran didn't know what to do: Liang Shuo, you watched us step by step in those three years, besides my mother, you are the person I most hope to hear blessings from.

Brother Shuo: How many months have you been together?

Yan Ran has nothing to do with resignation: They are not together yet.

Brother Shuo: Little Swallow, are you kidding me? ? ?

Yan Ran has nothing to do with resignation: It's true.But I can feel that he has not forgotten me.

Brother Shuo: [Yunbei] Do you feel right?I really want to say that you are narcissistic, what should I do... Forget it, if he doesn't like you, then I will pack him up and give it to you.Bah, bah, he must still like you.

Yan Ran didn't want to return: Liang Shuo, thank you.

Brother Shuo: What did you say thank you to me? ?

Yan Ran has no idea what to do: I originally planned to tell you when we were really together, but now that you know it's okay.

Brother Shuo: The most important thing is that you live a good life. What is our relationship?The best and best deskmate, isn't it?I have always regarded you as my own brother. If he treats you badly, I will be the first to beat him up.

Yan Ran didn't know what to do: [laughs cry] Okay, thank you brother.

Brother Shuo: Are you home yet?

Yan Ran didn't know what to do: I've arrived, it's been a long time, I've taken a shower, and I just need to go to sleep.

Brother Shuo: What about him?

Yan Ran didn't resign her, but she didn't know what to do: I'm here too, why are you asking this?

Brother Shuo: Little Yanzi, you have to protect yourself, don't let that so-and-so take advantage of you.

Yan Ran has nothing to do with resignation: [laughs cry] What advantage can there be?It has already been taken up.

Yan Ran has nothing to do with resignation: Alright, alright, you can rest assured that nothing will happen.I'm not a little girl anymore.

Brother Shuo: When did you guys get together, remember to bring him out and show me.

Yan Ran has no idea what to do: let's go, let's drink with you some other day.

Brother Shuo: Let’s do this first. Call me when you have time, and I’ll be there for you at any time.

Yan Ran didn't resign and had nothing to do: Well, good night brother.

Brother Shuo: Good night!

Yan Ran glanced at the upper right corner of the phone, it was already 11:30, and he didn't know if Chen Xi had fallen asleep.

He gently opened his door, knocked on the door of the next room, and asked softly, "...Chen Xi? Are you asleep?"

A voice quickly came from inside: "No!" The door was pulled open the next second.

Chen Xi stepped aside, "What's wrong?"

"Nothing." Yan Ran walked in, "Why haven't you slept yet? Can't sleep?"

"It's not that I can't sleep," Chen Xi smiled, and said, "I'm thinking about something, what about you?"

"..." Yan Ran didn't answer, and suddenly raised his hand to turn off the switch.

Chen Xi couldn't see him in the dark, and didn't know what Yan Ran wanted to do, but was caught off guard by him.

His body suddenly became a little stiff.

"...Yan Ran?"

Yan Ran hugged him even tighter, and after a long time he said sullenly, "Let me hug you for a while."

Chen Xi put both hands on his waist and patted him lightly.

34.

So the two of them just let the flow take its course and lay on the bed, but they were very quiet and didn't say anything, and didn't do anything.

Yan Ran opened his eyes and looked at the ceiling, everything was messed up in his heart, but he just couldn't say anything.

They all did well in the mock exams in the third year of high school, and they were in the top [-] every time. As long as they didn't make mistakes in the college entrance examination, they could basically choose any one in China.

"Chen Xi, have you considered it? Should you stay in this city or go to other provinces?"

"Don't worry, isn't there still a few weeks? Where do you want to go? Do you like to see snow? Let's go to the north together? But it must be very cold, and I don't know if we can get used to it."

"Well... I haven't seen snow yet, but if it's with you, it probably doesn't matter where we go."

Chen Xi was a little happy when he heard this, and couldn't help hugging him, leaning close to his ear and kissing him. "Then go to S University, let's go to see the snow together, push snowmen, smash snowballs, and take a lot of photos."

Yan Ran was a little shy, but she didn't hide, "Don't make trouble... just in case someone sees it. S University... I haven't understood it yet."

"Who will see it?" Chen Xi refused to let go, and leaned forward to kiss again, "It doesn't matter if you don't understand, isn't there me by your side?"

Yan Ran pursed her lips and didn't speak, but her heart was very happy.A little excited, but also looking forward to it.

Chen Xi took his hand and held it tightly.Yan Ran tilted her head to look at him, looking serious, but wanted to laugh a little.He often thinks that as long as he is with Chen Xi, even if they don't say anything, just staying together quietly is good.

But it seems that not everything can develop in the direction he wants. After the college entrance examination is over, the results are out, and it is time to fill in the volunteers, he knows that Chen Xi has long been recommended to a famous university abroad.

Liang Shuo told him the news. Liang Shuo looked like he hated iron and steel: "I told you not to get so close to him all the time. See, he is not a good person in the first place, so he just lied to you. Three Years have passed, and he may have gotten tired of it long ago. Little Yanzi, you can talk anyway, can you smile? Don't be so sullen, it hurts me to see it... What is there to be happy about this kind of person? He Don’t you still have me?”

Yan Ran lowered his head, only to find that his eyes were a little sore, rubbed them, and said, "Who did you hear that...he lied to you?"

Liang Shuo said unhappily: "The head teacher said, did he lie to you too? And your mother, Teacher Xu said that in the office that day. I didn't dare to believe it at that time. Now we can't contact him at all... ...he's the one who lied to you."

Yan Ran didn't respond, but he already believed most of it in his heart.It wasn't because they didn't have enough confidence in Chen Xi, but like Liang Shuo said, they couldn't contact him anymore. It had been 20 days since the college entrance examination.But he didn't know where Chen Xi's house was, and there was no way to find him. A few days ago, he thought that Chen Xi was delayed by something, and he would call him in a few days. People go out to play together, and there is an agreed-upon coming-of-age ceremony tour.They are obviously lovers, and they have been together for two years, but he doesn't even know where Chen Xi's home is... Once he loses his phone, there is no other way to contact him.

But...he bit his lower lip, and said a little stubbornly: "I only believe what he told me himself."

Liang Shuo sighed, and rubbed his hair as before, "No matter what the result is, think about yourself. Think about me too. OK?"

35.

On the day when the application deadline, Yan Ran finally received a call from him.

He didn't know the expression of Chen Xi on the other end, what he was thinking in his heart, he only heard a voice ringing in his ear:

"...Yan Ran."

"I'm going to study abroad... What about you, which university did you apply for? Are you free tomorrow, let's come out and talk..."

He hastily interrupted the chatter on the other end, his voice trembling: "I see..."

There was a pause at the other end, and he quickly said: "What's wrong? If it doesn't work tomorrow, then another day, we haven't seen each other for a long time, I miss you so much..."

"Chen Xi," Yan Ran took a deep breath, his eyes were a little sore, and he said word by word, "Let's break up."

Chen Xi was quiet for a while, and they didn't say anything to the phone, maybe they didn't know what to say.

"……why?"

"We are not suitable yet... the age is not suitable, maybe the person is not suitable either." Yan Ran hung up the phone after finishing this sentence.He slumped on the ground, feeling very tired, uncomfortable, and wanted to cry. He didn't feel relieved, but felt even more uncomfortable, as if a big hand was holding his heart fiercely, and he was in pain.

He glanced at the wall clock. Xu Qingrui had been out for two hours, and it was almost time to come back. She got up and went back to the bedroom, locked the door, and finally couldn't help but threw herself on the bed and began to cry.

He felt that this was really bad, and he didn't know what he had experienced. How could he and Chen Xi get into this kind of trouble?But Chen Xi clearly promised him that he will be admitted to the same university in the future, and they will be together forever.

But before he took the first step, it was as if he had died before he had finished his mission. What was there to do?What else is there for a lifetime?As Liang Shuo said, it was just a lie to him.

He might not be particularly angry about Chen Xi going abroad, but he really couldn't accept it. Before making this decision, Chen Xi didn't mention anything to him, as if no matter what he thought in his heart, it didn't matter. , is not enough to change Chen Xi's decision.

Chen Xi actually felt that the agreement...was too funny, right?Believe in these verbal promises like a child.He never knew how important this promise was to him.It's just a pity that the real tacit understanding does not need any evidence of existence or non-existence.

Or is it that Chen Xi took the future agreement as a joke, and he was the only one who was willing to take it seriously, or maybe, in this one-man show, he performed all the joys and sorrows alone.

The quilt was so wet that Yan Ran couldn't remember the last time he cried, but it must have been several years, but now because of Chen Xi, he suddenly turned into a child, and there was nothing wrong with him except crying to escape. There are other ways.

He thought of those words Chen Xi had said, before, now, and just now, he said...he missed him.

So is this sentence just to tease him?Just another joke?

He began to wonder what Chen Xi was thinking, did he still want to be with himself?Now that the decision has been made, why call him to tell him?He felt a little funny again, if he was the one who said it but couldn't do it, he would just hide away, don't give any explanation, and don't contact him anymore.In the future, I will find a few better people than him, and I can live in college as I want, and it will be the same in the future.Make promises to others casually, but none of them will be fulfilled.So what does it matter?When it comes to things like falling in love, whoever sinks the deepest in it, who is the easiest to trust others, is the most stupid.

... his mind was full of things about Chen Xi, Yan Ran laughed, didn't he just fall in love or lose a love, it's like going crazy.

It's just that the more you laugh, the more you can't hold back your tears.

36.

"Xiao Ran?"

"Xiao Ran..."

Yan Ran woke up suddenly, he didn't know when he fell asleep, the sky was completely dark, and the faint street lamp shone into the room.The tears on his face have long since dried up, and the corners of his mouth are still a little salty.

He quickly responded, and Xu Qingrui who was outside the door seemed relieved, and said: "I thought what's wrong with you, the old answer... Are you asleep? Get up and eat, you should be hungry later."

He said: "Got it." As soon as he opened his mouth, he found that his voice was a little hoarse and terrible, like a patient with a severe cold.

But fortunately Xu Qingrui didn't notice anything and walked away.

There was no mirror in the room, so Yan Ran put on his slippers, walked into the bathroom a little bit slowly, looked at his face carefully in the mirror, his eye circles were red, and there were some bloodshot eyes, in fact, he couldn't tell that he was crying After a while, he looked more like a drunk who had been drinking all night, but he didn't smell of alcohol all over his body.

He sniffed, still a little stuffy.

Xu Qingrui had already prepared dinner and was waiting for him to come out. Seeing him like this, she couldn't help but startled, and then said, "Xiao Ran, why are you like this?"

"What's this look like that?" Yan Ran smiled, pretending to naturally pull out the chair and sit down.

As soon as he made a sound, Xu Qingrui was even more surprised: "Your voice...what's wrong with you?"

Yan Ran knew that she cared about herself, so she just said: "It's nothing, maybe I have a cold? Maybe I forgot to cover the quilt last night...Mom, why don't you eat?"

Xu Qingrui picked up the chopsticks, but still couldn't help asking, "Xiao Ran, have you volunteered?"

Yan Ran's hand holding the chopsticks paused, then smiled again: "I reported it a few days ago, what's the matter?" He knew that Xu Qingrui didn't really want to ask this, so she asked in the next second:

"Where did you report it?"

"Master S, didn't I tell you then?"

Xu Qingrui looked at him worriedly: "Then, that classmate of yours...Chen Xi, you..."

Xu Qingrui knew about the fact that they agreed to take the S University exam together.Yan Ran lowered his head and looked into the bowl, as if nothing happened: "He went abroad, didn't you know? Don't you have to sign for the procedures at that time."

Xu Qingrui sighed, "His parents are the ones to go through the procedures, and it's mainly the family's idea... Maybe he didn't know it at the time... Forget it, it's a foregone conclusion now."

Inexplicably, Yan Ran felt that her words meant to excuse Chen Xi, but she really didn't know what to say, so she could only keep silent.

Xu Qingrui continued, "I seldom tell you about your father. I first met him on a blind date arranged by my family. He was 28 and I was 26 at the time. He was very handsome at that time. The conditions are also good, but I don't know why there has been no object.

"He just told me that he doesn't like women, and he doesn't want to delay me, so he asked me to go back and pick a more normal man for a blind date. I don't know how many times I was told that by him... Hey.

"At that time, the school was busy with work, and I had no intention of getting married, so I just told him, 'I don't like men either, we can try together, and save the elders from nagging'." Having said that, Xu Qing Rui couldn't help smiling, "He was a little surprised, but he finally agreed. I promised him that if he has someone he likes in the future, we can also divorce, but at least the superficial work has to be done, no matter what At worst, we will be together for two or three years.

"He didn't refuse. After four or five years of marriage, we slept in separate rooms. He always came back very late, but he never mentioned the divorce to me. I don't want to intervene. It's just that the elders in the family urged me urgently later. Yes, we went for a test-tube baby, and then...you were born."

Xu Qingrui looked softly, "Xiao Ran, the most important person in my mother's life is you. As long as you live well, it doesn't matter what you do."

Yan Ran's throat was a little dry, "Then...then what happened later."

"Later... when your father's work unit went on a trip, the driver of the big bus got drunk and bumped into another car on the way back. It's strange to say that there were twenty or thirty people at that time... but he was the only one who rescued him. I'm not coming back." Xu Qingrui's voice was very soft, with tears in her eyes, "He called me before he came back, and he said that he wants to live a good life with me in the future."

Xu Qingrui raised her hand to cover her eyes, "So Xiaoran, no matter it's Chen Xi or anyone else, as long as you like it and think it can bring you happiness, I will support it. Mom doesn't know how to care about you. Nian has been ignoring you, sorry."

"It's just Xiaoran, you must be happy."

Yan Ran didn't know when Xu Qingrui knew about his relationship with Chen Xi, but at this moment the answer to this question became unimportant.

"Mom...thank you." He didn't tell Xu Qingrui about his breakup with Chen Xi, maybe she knew it too, what happened last month was in the past, what happened in the morning was in the past, and what happened in the last second was also in the past.At the moment, nothing else seems necessary.

The author has something to say: ...Anyway, it's just a small white essay...All kinds of misunderstandings and so on, there will definitely be blood...After all, the author can only think of these things and only write these things...Woo