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After making the phone call, Shu Yuan couldn't fall asleep. He wanted to ask Shi Chengjin if he could find Li Xu, but he was afraid that it would be too late to disturb the other party's rest, so he tossed and turned on the bed wrapped in a thin quilt, and got up when he couldn't sleep. Sitting at the desk, turned on the desk lamp and thought about things in front of the mosaic cutouts hanging on the wall.

He didn't know anything about what happened at the back door of the school the day before the college entrance examination. The gossip was exaggerated when it was spread by others, and no one could believe it, let alone the school blocked the news.But Shu Yuan was sure that Li Xu was a participant in the incident, otherwise why did the head teacher keep silent?

He sat at the desk for a long time, but he couldn't remember when he fell asleep on his stomach, and when he woke up, it was bright daylight, and Liu Mian didn't wake him up, probably because he wanted him to rest after the exam.

Shu Yuan found the phone from under the pillow. There was no call on it, but the notifications from various apps occupied the screen.He deflated and threw the phone in his pocket.

Wash up, eat breakfast, change clothes and go outside for a walk.Seeing him approaching, the old lady at the convenience store across the neighborhood smiled and asked him if he wanted a Coke.Shu Yuan shook her head, and picked out a hazelnut chocolate ice cream cup from the freezer.

There are a lot of people in the square, and today is the Dragon Boat Festival, most people have to be free to hang out.Shu Yuan sat under the shaded bench, picked up the ice cream with a wooden spoon and put it into his mouth, letting the sweetness melt on the tip of his tongue, it seemed that the bitterness in his heart would be lessened.

He still doesn't know much about Li Xu. Apart from the other party's address, he can't think of where else he can find him—maybe "indulgence" is okay?But Li Xu said that the place was very busy, and told him not to go there alone if he had nothing to do.

After finishing an ice cream cup in twos and twos, Shu Yuan licked the corners of his mouth, swept a shared bicycle by the side of the road, and made up his mind to "Indulge" to have a look.

"Indulgence" is not like other bars that are cleared during the day and open nights at night. It was not until ten o'clock in the morning, and the store was full of people. Most of the people sat in the booths. It looked like young people who came out to party during the holidays or after the college entrance examination. people.

Shu Yuan was brought here by Li Xu before to eat fruit plates and drink juice. When a waiter came over and asked him what he wanted, he said awkwardly, "I want to find someone."

The waiter was taken aback for a moment, and then asked, "Did you have a friend who booked a private room?"

"No," Shu Yuan said, "he used to be a bass player here before, I want to find out if someone is here."

"Oh," the waiter understood, and raised his arm to point to the bar. "Ask the bartender. He has worked here for a long time, so he should know who you are looking for."

Shu Yuan doesn't like dealing with people, especially strangers.But if the price of hiding in the protective shell is to lose Li Xu permanently, he is willing to break the shell.

The bartender was very busy, he kept fiddling with the bartending utensils with both hands, skillfully made colorful cocktails and put them on the tray, and then the waiter took them away.

"What do you want?" The bartender asked the only customer sitting at the bar with a slanted eyebrow.

Shu Yuan sat upright and said nervously, "Excuse me, I want to ask you about someone."

"You said." The bartender wiped the glass and put it down, with his arm on the edge of the table.

"Do you know Li Xu?" Shu Yuan gestured, "He used to be a bass player in a band here, he's tall and handsome..."

Before he could finish speaking, the bartender smiled: "What's your relationship with him?"

Unexpectedly, the other party asked such a direct question, Shu Yuan's face blushed, but she answered honestly: "He is my boyfriend."

"There are many boys here who claim to be Li Xu's boyfriend. How do I know if what you said is true?"

"Only I am." Shu Yuan said without hesitation.

The bartender looked at Shu Yuan's face, which was fair and clean, with the appearance of a good boy.

"What's Li Xu's favorite drink?" He asked.

Shu Yuan blurted out: "Coke."

The bartender smiled again. All the boys answered the names of various drinks before, only this one said Coke.

"He hasn't been here for a long time, you can't find him, maybe he has something to hide from you." The bartender shook his hand, and when he saw a customer ordering drinks, he turned his head and hurried away.

Shu Yuan sat on the bar chair and smacked on this sentence for a while, and when the other party finished his work, he asked again: "Excuse me... what is Li Xu's favorite drink?"

"Coke," the bartender looked at him, "He said Coke to you, and that's Coke."

"Brother, do you want a Coke?" Li Jue knocked on the door of Li Xu's bedroom.

He only heard the word "Get out of here" from inside, but Li Jue didn't listen, and twisted the doorknob while holding the can of iced Coke that had just been taken out of the refrigerator.

His brother was lying on the bed reading a book, with a black cat nestled in his arms, and another white cat at his feet, perhaps because he was overweight and rejected by the owner.

"Brother, drink a Coke." Li Jue probed Li Xu's arm with a cold Coke can, and was snatched away by the latter: "I said don't dangle in front of my eyes, it's annoying."

"I'm sorry," Li Jue whispered, Li Xu's bedroom has plenty of room to sit, but he stood restrainedly in front of him, "Brother, I'm sorry."

He has been repeating these three words in Li Xu's ear since Li Xu was discharged from the hospital, and he said it for three days after Li Xu came back.Li Xu thought he was annoying, didn't give him a single glance, repeatedly scolded him out of the bedroom, and his younger brother who had changed his sex came up to him again next time.

"Brother, have you decided to repeat it?" Li Jue asked, pointing to the puzzle book in Li Xu's hand.

"Don't read again and wait for you to support me?" Li Xu rolled his eyes, pinched the earphones and put them on, with an expression that he didn't want to talk to Li Jue.

When Li Jue retreated tactfully, Li Xu took off the earphones, swiped across the screen of the phone, and saw the message from Shu Yuan at a glance.

"Today's graduation ceremony, you still didn't show up. The classmates in the class said that your family has a background and you were sent directly to a key university, but I don't believe it."

"Your things in the dormitory have not been cleared away. I thought you would come back, so I stayed in the dormitory and waited for you after the ceremony, but the dormitory manager came to urge people to leave, and you never showed up."

"I went to 'Indulgence' to look for you a few days ago, and the bartender at the bar said that I couldn't find you because you had something to hide from me."

"Gougou, please ask me again, ask me if I want to see you."

"I miss you and want to see you."

Li Xu touched his heart, there was a strange feeling there, like a piece of sea water, swaying up and down, washing away the decision he had finally made.

He knew it was called reluctance.

Slowly and cruelly gouged out the flesh of his heart, dug a black hole in the middle, and then carved Shu Yuan's name on the deepest part with the tip of the knife.

Xiaoxiaosu, lying in her arms, suddenly arched her body, Li Xu hurriedly held it down, and felt a small patch of wetness on its soft fur.

Suddenly, a drop of transparent liquid hit the back of his hand, Li Xu angrily pulled up the quilt to cover himself, never felt so weak for a moment.

Xiaoxiaosu, who didn't know the truth, bit the quilt with her mouth, wanting to see what the owner was playing with inside, but she stretched out a hand from inside and hooked the naughty one inside.

"Little thing," Li Xu said in a nasal voice, holding Xiaoxiaosu and rubbing his nose against its ears, "You may not see him for a long time."

The phone that had been silent for a long time finally started to move.

Without hesitation at all, Shu Yuan threw the towel she had just used to dry her hair on the bed after taking a shower, rushed to the bedside table and pulled out the phone that was charging.

Before unlocking, opening WeChat, and clicking into the chat box with Li Xu, Shu Yuan first noticed the line of small characters next to the red number 1 that represented unread.

The message Li Xu sent him was very short, so short that he could read it without entering the chat interface.

Shu Yuan's heart tightened, and the smile froze on his lips.The thumbnail scratched the buttons on the side of the phone, but Shu Yuan didn't turn off the screen in the end, and clicked into the chat box to read the message again.

——Let’s break up, don’t talk about it.

Shu Yuan didn't hold the phone steady and let it fall on the bed.He sat blankly, staring at the mosaic cutout on the wall, looking at it, the picture became blurred, as if immersed in water and melted.

He got up suddenly, put on his slippers, opened the door and ran out, startled Liu Mian who was watching TV, "What's the matter? Why are you crying?"

Shu Shaokong followed the reputation, and when his son passed by him and walked towards the entrance, he grabbed the other's arm: "Xiao Yuan, calm down, what happened?"

It was nearly nine o'clock in the evening, and in Shu Yuan's state, neither Liu Mian nor Shu Shaokong was worried about his son going out, so they held him down one by one: "Is it because the grades are not satisfactory?"

Shu Yuan shook his head, his grades were not satisfactory and he could do it all over again, but if he agreed to let go, there would never be another Li Xu in the world.

But how could the parents understand these things? Shu Yuan curled up on the sofa holding her mobile phone, and after being questioned by her parents in turn, she said in a choked voice, "I want to find Li Xu."

"Did you two quarrel or what?" Liu Mian took out a tissue to wipe Shu Yuan's face, "Let's look for it tomorrow, it's too late."

"It's quite normal for friends to quarrel. You can make up after calling and softening up. When Dad was studying, he even fought with his buddies." Shu Shaokong patted Shu Yuan's arm, "Get up, go Wash your face."

Shu Yuan also realized that he was too impulsive, he thought while washing his face, he was just afraid that he would become the second Tan Xuanlin, in the future when Li Xu would talk about himself with a smile on his face, he just thought it was an ordinary relationship. However, he still regards Li Xu as the light that drives away the darkness.

The sound of running water stopped, Shu Yuan leaned against the washstand and called Li Xu, but when the other party refused to answer, he edited the text and sent it: "I disagree."

"I won't accept any reason. Why do you say that you are together when you say you are together, and you say that you break up when you say that you break up?"

After sending the second message, Shu Yuan typed the third message in the edit box: "Do you think I'm easy to bully?"

The eye-catching red exclamation mark jumped into the field of vision, and the third message failed to be sent. Shu Yuan couldn't believe it and went to the other party's circle of friends. The mechanical female voice reminded him that the other party was on the phone.

Shu Yuan put the phone aside with dull eyes, and the receiver repeated the same sentence tirelessly until it hung up automatically.

He understood what it meant—

Li Xu cut off all the contact methods between the two, and he will not let him find it again.

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Forget it, it can be finished in early February?