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During self-study class, Li Xu returned to the classroom.

In the classroom without a teacher to supervise, Li Xu is more effective than the class leader. Almost as soon as he comes, the class is quiet, and there is no commotion at all.

Stubborn, Li Xu tore a piece of paper, Shu Yuan turned his head to look at it, Li Xu was lying on the table writing something, most of his body covered it, so he couldn't see the content on the paper.

Shu Yuan immersed himself in finishing the English reading with two remaining questions, and caught a glimpse of Li Xu still maintaining the same posture at the end of his eyes.He put down his pen, touched the bag on the desk hook with his left hand and took it off, and poked Li Xu's arm with his right hand.

"I forgot to pay you back this morning." He whispered.

Li Xu didn't look at him, just took it and threw it on the backrest: "Thanks."

"The ID card is in the dark compartment." Shu Yuan said.

"Okay." Li Xu put the cap on his pen, crumpled the densely written paper, raised his hand and snapped his fingers.

Guang Mingsen, who was separated by two groups, turned around. Li Xu squinted his eyes, raised his right hand, and precisely threw the ball of paper onto Guang Mingsen's neck.

Shu Yuan pursed her lips, feeling that the small window she had just opened had been mercilessly closed from the outside.

In the second half of the self-study class, Li Xu was sleeping all the time, while Shu Yuan couldn't write complete sentences for the English composition.

The habit he developed since he was a child made him not easily disturbed by the outside world. During the time when he was out of school, he even closed himself into a state where he had nothing to do with everyone and everything.

And Li Xu even distracted him by lying on the side without moving. While Shu Yuan was introspecting, he asked himself confusedly, is this a good thing or a bad thing?

When the bell rang for the end of get out of class, Shu Yuan couldn't help looking at Li Xu again. This time, the other party didn't even give him a chance to look at him. He grabbed his backpack and basketball and rushed out the back door. Guang Mingsen also ran out together. .

"Brother Xu," Guang Mingsen followed Li Xu's pace, "Is this feasible?"

"If you can't do it, you have to do it," Li Xu threw the bag over his shoulder, "I will take responsibility for any accidents."

They took the lead to occupy the field near the far side of the gymnasium. Li Xu threw the basketball to Guang Mingsen, crossed his fingers and moved his joints.

"What about Lin Kang and the others?" Guang Mingsen asked, "Can't fly a plane?"

Li Xu chuckled lightly: "No."

After about a few minutes, the originally empty basketball court was filled with people. Lin Kang led a few other tall and burly boys to run over. After stopping, he held his knees and panted for a while: "What a fucking bad luck, All of a sudden, give me a continuous test."

"It's okay." Li Xu patted Lin Kang's shoulder and waved to the boys behind him, "Have you found anyone?"

"I found it. I was cleaning the public area in the playground," one of the boys smiled jokingly. "I heard he was fined. Tutu will bring him here later."

Tutu is in the same class as Qiangzi, and is named because of his big ears and his surname Tu.

Li Xu patted the ball twice: "It's better to wait a little longer, it's better to act when there are fewer servants."

Shu Yuan walked across the school road after school, and unconsciously turned his gaze to the basketball court.He stopped his forward steps, hesitated, and sat down on the bench next to the end field.

Except for Guang Mingsen, who was familiar to him, the other players who played with Li Xu were not the same group every time.Shu Yuan felt that Li Xu was actually very popular. Everyone in the class said he was difficult to get close to, but those who made friends with him could see that they were sincere.

When Li Xu scored another goal, Shu Yuan called his name: "Li Xu."

This was the first time he called Li Xu's full name officially, and to him, this was already the most obvious expression of his affection for someone.

But Li Xu was only two or three meters away from him, but he seemed to turn a deaf ear to him. He picked up his clothes and wiped his sweat, then took the basketball thrown by others and ran to the other side.

That night, Shu Yuan turned off his phone before going to bed. He opened the drawer and touched the medicine box, but finally retracted his hand.

He still turned on the wall lamp by the bed, stuffed a soft pillow in his arms, wrapped himself tightly with a quilt, and stared at the scattered light above his head for a long time before falling asleep.

Unexpectedly, in the dream, he met Li Xu again, who turned his face sideways and asked him to help put a Band-Aid on the wound.

Shu Yuan in the dream felt that this scene seemed familiar, but she couldn't tell whether the moment when she touched the other person's face was real or not.

Li Xu asked him with a smile: "If one day I get hurt because of you, will you feel bad?"

Shu Yuan wanted to ask, well done, why did you get hurt for me?

But he opened his mouth and couldn't make any sound.

Back at school the next day, people in the class were talking about "disabled", "basketball court" and "suppressed". .

Before the morning reading started, Quan Haolang turned around and gossiped with him: "Hey Shuyuan, you know the school bully very well, do you know what's going on with him now?"

Shu Yuan felt like the whole world knew the truth and he was the only one kept in the dark: "What do you mean?"

"That's right, you're not at school at night, so you don't understand what's normal," Quan Haolang pushed his glasses, "Yesterday afternoon after school, the school bully led a crowd to beat up a boy from the senior year and beat him up."

Shu Yuan felt as if he had been hit in the head, this blow directly woke him up from the bizarre dream last night.

"He went to play basketball with Guang Mingsen after school yesterday." He said that he didn't realize that the balance in his heart was tilted towards Li Xu.

Quan Haolang laughed twice: "After playing basketball, hit someone! Guang Mingsen didn't show up last night, and he didn't come back to the dormitory. Can you believe that he just asked for leave?"

Can you believe it?Can you believe that Li Xu didn't organize gang fights?

Many words lingered on his lips, but Shu Yuan couldn't ask a single word.

He has too many doubts, and it seems that he can find an explanation for every doubt, but all explanations are speculations until they are confirmed.

During the morning reading, Cui Chanjuan came in in a hurry. She stood on the podium and clapped her hands, and the whole class fell silent immediately.

"About what you guys are talking about," she said sharply, "I didn't see it with my own eyes, but just listened to other people's wildly fabricated rumors." She knocked on the podium, "the exam will be held next week. , I hope you will not affect the exam because of unwarranted things, understand?"

The people below responded sparsely: "It's clear - it's clear -"

"Got it!" Cui Chanjuan raised her voice.

This time everyone responded in unison and loudly.

Although they were warned by the class teacher, but their mouths were on each other, it was inevitable that some people would discuss this matter during class breaks. After all, Qinghe Middle School, which is famous for its school spirit, has never had a group fight, and it has become so intense.

The fact that Li Xu didn't go back to school added to the authenticity of this matter, Shu Yuan was so anxious that he couldn't even listen to two classes.An idea was about to come out, but he suppressed it, telling himself that it was impossible.

how is this possible.

How could Li Xu be for him.

How could Li Xu know the ins and outs of that incident.

Reason and impulse tore each other, tortured Shu Yuan so much that his head was about to burst.After the third class was over, he rushed out of the classroom and ran across the corridor to the senior three teaching building.

Class 15 was next to the stairs on the fourth floor, and when there were two steps away from the fourth floor, Shu Yuan stopped.

If the rumors are false, can he bear the consequences of his own impulse.

The answer is necessarily no, but what if the rumors are true?

An invisible force pushed Shu Yuan up the last two steps. His legs were trembling, and he barely supported the wall and looked into the classroom.

The liberal arts class was even more noisy than he had imagined, boys and girls clustered together in twos and threes, with exaggerated expressions as if they were describing something terrible.

Shu Yuan glanced quickly, but didn't see Qiang Zi, so he couldn't tell whether it was more peace of mind or more anxiety.He stopped the girl who came out from the front door, and asked bluntly, "Is Lu Zhengqiang there?"

The girl smiled: "Are you here to inquire about last night again?"

Shu Yuan felt a chill in his heart.

"Don't ask, if you ask, you're crippled," the girl said, "He's crippled."

"Him?" Shu Yuan asked.

The girl nodded: "Yes, Lu Zhengqiang, he was bullied by the school bully, the school bully knows it? Li Xu from class 10 of the second year of high school, Lu Zhengqiang was crippled by him."

why?

Shu Yuan returned to the class in a daze. Others were reading aloud before class with Chinese textbooks, and he stared at Li Xu's seat in a daze.

No matter how appalling the rumors are, they are only chatted about by everyone, who has ever really worried about the person involved?

Shu Yuan took out her mobile phone from her schoolbag, hid it under the table and pressed the power button for a long time.

While the teacher was writing on the panel, Shu Yuan quickly lowered his head to unlock the lock screen, swiped it twice, and was disappointed to find that he hadn't received any unread messages or missed calls since the phone was turned off last night.

He stuffed his phone into a drawer and stared straight at the blackboard.The teacher was expanding his knowledge. He wrote a word "问" on the blackboard and asked the students if they could tell the pronunciation and meaning of the word without using tools.

The people around made a lot of guesses, the teacher called out a student number casually, Shu Yuan stood up and replied meekly: "xià, crack."

The teacher clapped his hands and wrote the pinyin he read on the blackboard.Shu Yuan sat down with a blank face, and just said this word to continue what he didn't want to finish.

Interpersonal cracks are based on feelings, and the appearance of cracks is a lack of attention to emotional details.

Shu Yuan thought he was analyzing rationally. The teacher on the stage said something, and the students burst into laughter. Shu Yuan was disturbed by the laughter, and the thoughts that had just been sorted out in Shu Yuan's mind became a mess.

Tsk, I don't want to.

He reached into the drawer and gripped the phone tightly.There are very few names in the address book. After he dropped out of school, he deleted all the people he knew before, so apart from his parents, Li Xu is one of the few people in his address book.

Very easy to find.

Shu Yuan quickly typed and sent three words: "Where are you?"

"Confinement at home."

Li Xu deleted the edited sentence, sat up on the bed, and took out a Coke bottle cap from under the pillow.The date was also written on it with an oil-based pen, 20140905, the time when he received the Coke that Shu Yuan bought for him.

The front is hair, the back is not hair.

Seems like tails are easier to throw out?

Then don't post it on the front side, but post it on the back side.

After making up his mind, Li Xu tossed the bottle cap up. The bottle cap made a free fall motion, fell on the bed, twirled, and then turned upside down.

Li Xu quickly picked up the phone, and edited in the text box: "Do you want to see me?"

Sent successfully.