Huaigui

Helan Mingyue couldn't control the soreness of her nose, she was one step away from the answer he wanted.

In the drowsy environment, Gao Jing heard his approaching footsteps, and then he smelled a ray of frosty breath, which was a bit cold, and he knew that it was He Lan Mingyue coming, so he couldn't help spreading his palms.

The place where Yan Shanxue scratched had not been bandaged up as fussily as before, and the scar was exposed naked, contrasting sharply with the fair skin.The deep red color is reminiscent of the rich scarlet curtains in the Yaoguang Pavilion, which bound up so many young souls during the long years in the palace.

There was darkness in front of him, and the shadowy spots of light had been accompanying him since he came out of the ghost prison. Gao Jing didn't know what was going on, and he couldn't tell others that he could only continue to take the medicine for diagnosis and treatment according to the previous prescription.

Later, he learned to recognize these light spots, some were lamps, some were fire, some were a ray of moonlight leaking from the window, and some could not be traced back, like a person's heartbeat.

He knows that the heartbeat is invisible and can only be heard, but he sees light spots jumping lightly from time to time, just like the heartbeat.

At this time, he felt that he also saw He Lan Mingyue's heartbeat, which was very gentle at first, then a little uneven, and forcibly returned to the previous indifference.Helan Mingyue stood and did not sit. They had faced each other for countless long nights. There was silence around the exit of those words, only the two breathed ambiguously.

Helan Mingyue's body temperature seems to be higher than that of ordinary people, and the warmth can flow into the bottom of my heart when holding him.

"Others may be loyal to me, they may be in exchange for benefits, or it may indeed be a better choice, but I don't know why I just went to the northwest with all my heart when I left Luoyang." Gao Jing lowered his head and noticed that He Lan was gently touching the road. Scar, "You're not dead. If you didn't go so far along... I'm sure you wouldn't come back. I guess you don't want to see me, but I can't help but think, I'll go find you, We can always see each other..."

He Lan Mingyue said "hmm" and waited for him to continue.

Gao Jing's tone was very slow, his voice was very soft, and he floated like a dreamer. He held his hand in vain, and when he didn't touch He Lan, he was immediately depressed: "I know I hurt you, and you should think it's not worth it. I always miss my own. Things, everything... I never asked you if you want it or not, is it too late to make up for it now?"

He could hear a throbbing pain in his heart, and he couldn't help but feel a lot softer when he spoke: "I didn't have to come here earlier."

Gao Jing wiped his face indiscriminately, he couldn't hold back his tears, and kept holding back until the tip of his nose turned red: "You, wait for me... When you go back to Luoyang, I will give it to your people... I will definitely make amends to them!"

A gust of breeze blew past the candlelight and flickered it, He Lan Mingyue's heart was in such a mess.

How much weight does this sentence carry?

If he is really the lord of the world under the Ninth Five-Year Plan, it is not easy to make a special trip to issue an edict to pursue the grievances of his parents, let alone make amends in person.This is not only for vindication, but also for the entire Gao family to admit that they have wronged loyal ministers.

It is normal for rabbits to die and dogs to cook, and birds to hide their bows. How many good ministers have been wrongly killed throughout the ages?

The list goes on and on.

Which emperor didn't rule the country with countless loyal bones on the green hills?They plan the world, do not reflect on their mistakes, and some of them make sacrifices one after another, so what is the death of two loyal ministers?

The blood of the royal family is cold, promises are false, what has been done is never looked back, and the occasional trace of trust is a great honor.

Due to his background, He Lanmingyue couldn't blame Gao Jing for this matter, but just as he knew that Gao Jing would not ask for help easily, he didn't expect Gao Jing to do anything for the clansman who died 20 years ago What.

He only does his best, He Lan Mingyue never cares about his destiny.

But he was caught off guard when he heard the word "apology" from Gao Jing's mouth.

Gao Jing finally held his hand with such great strength that He Lan felt that he would open the wound because of it.He sobbed, then remembered that He Lan didn't like crying and stopped crying, and said after a while: "I'm good to you, I'm afraid you don't want it anymore. Please believe me again, He Lan, I also have sincerity."

"..."

"I'll give it to you now, is there still time?"

Everyone has a heart, how could Helan Mingyue not know?He has felt how intense the feelings of a heart are. He is not himself, and if he can't give it out, he will sink to death.

He wanted Gao Jing's sincerity, and now Gao Jing said he could give it to you.

Whether it is hate or love, the two feelings are destined to be opposite but cannot be completely separated, whether it is tolerance or tearing, he thinks this is not a contradiction, but most of the time hate covers up love.

After all, he is a kind person, like Gao Jing who said confidently: "I know you are soft-hearted."

Once the past has passed, there will be no resentment all day long, revenge will not affect the innocent, no matter how painful or bitter today is, the sun will still rise the next day, put all emotions on the enemy, and the other party will not suffer from the thunderbolt death - this is what he learned in Saibei.

He herds sheep, races horses, and walks through deserts and oases, with a broad mind and broad vision; the high scenery in Ziwei City is disturbed by the fear of death, calculation, and swordsmanship, and he is in constant panic all day long.

Isn't this also a punishment?

"Do you still want me?"

"is there time?"

As long as no heaven and man meet each other forever, there will be time.

Maybe he was silent for too long, Gao Jing panicked, thinking that Helan Mingyue would not forgive him, let him go indiscriminately, knelt and moved forward, ignoring the knee that had been injured for a long time and finally showed signs of improvement, supported Fumble around inside the bed.Helan Mingyue didn't ask any questions, but watched him cruelly self-mutilate.

Gao Jing was enough to hold the pillow, and the spot of light in front of his eyes was beating violently. After opening it, he looked around for something cold that his fingers touched, but Gao Jing let out a long breath of relief.

He regained his backbone, and walked forward with his knees—the hem was slightly opened to reveal the scarred calf bones—and he ignored his appearance, and spread his palms in front of Helan Mingyue like a treasure: "Look, I found it I'm back... Mingyue, I want to get you back too."

Taking advantage of the candlelight and the hazy night outside the window, Helan Mingyue glanced down.

In his open palm lay quietly a smoked purple jade earring that he thought he would never see again.

When he left Luoyang, he went to pawn with Xie Bi, and got ten gold beads to support them all the way to Yinzhou.This was what he thought was the last connection with Gao Jing, after he discarded it, he never saw him again.

But he and Gao Jing said goodbye, and the earring returned to its original owner.

The smoky purple jade is still the same piece as before, the periphery seems to have been rebuilt with finely carved patterns, making it more delicate and paradoxical.He picked it up and looked at it carefully, but couldn't tell what was engraved on it, like some kind of religious symbol.

His fingertips brushed over the string of unknown words and asked, "What is this?"

"To keep you safe." Gao Jing said softly, "I went to Tongtian Buddha to find an eminent monk to protect it. Maybe I, like my father, love to believe in these when I am at a loss and have nowhere to go. My Shi Shi thought, if I can still see you, no matter whether it is life or death, I will put it with you, so that even in the next life, I can pursue it—isn’t it said that there is a spirit in the jade? It is impossible to be unprotected all the time You and me."

Helan Mingyue couldn't help but raised his hand to touch the hole in his earlobe, he never wore any accessories afterwards.In the palm of his hand, the fingernail-sized jade was wrapped in finely carved gold, which was so exquisite that it was unique in the world.

"Do you think it's suitable?" Gao Jing asked.

Not just earrings, do you think it fits me too?

Helan Mingyue was holding the earring with downcast eyes. When the slender earhook passed through the hole, it was a little painful because the back was closed and it would be forcibly split open. He heard a slight sound of being punctured.

There was a little blood on the fingertips, but it finally passed through.

Without a bronze mirror, Helan Mingyue didn't know if it was suitable.He has worn this thing for a long time, and now it has returned to its original position, and the pain is still there, but he feels that the weight is reassuring.

How can it be so easy to reunite after breaking the mirror?

The world is far and wide, he thought, maybe for a moment, he will never see Gao Jing again.

After hearing the movement, Gao Jing raised his hand and touched the side of He Lan's face. His slender fingers wandered from the earring to his chin, resting on his lips, and murmured, "Thank you."

He is crazy, blind and lame, and he is 01:30 worse than when he was at his prime.

When the most honorable eldest son of the emperor made him fall in love with him, he just had a good face and was kind to him. After suffering enough, the abandoned emperor stumbled over and crawled over. He Lan Mingyue thought it was another scheme, but he said: "Give me my heart, do you want it?" ?

Gao Jing was really unpredictable for him.

"Okay." He Lan Mingyue turned her head away, "The things have been delivered, and other things are gone, then I should go back to rest, and you should go to bed early, tomorrow Yuanying will come to discuss with you about the future."

As he was about to get up, Gao Jing suddenly said: "Brother Mingyue, come closer, I have something to tell you secretly."

He Lan Mingyue forgot for a moment that this person was the most deceitful, so she leaned over Gao Jing's face without doubting him—he couldn't see his expression clearly, so He Lan relaxed his vigilance—

In just half a breath, Gao Jing grabbed the hem of his shirt, and pressed his soft lips against his.

The wind passed by again, and the slightly drunken warmth extinguished the dim candle.

Kneeling on the side of the couch with one knee entangled, Helan Mingyue let him go, panting heavily.He looked at Gao Jing's eyes, knowing that he couldn't see clearly, but he insisted that he saw himself in his eyes.

Nothing could be more certain than this moment.

On the Lantern Festival night, the person wearing the little fox mask sitting in his arms shook his head slyly.At that time, Helan Mingyue's mood was relaxed and pure, and all his plans were not ignited. On the calmest winter night, he could still seriously say such fiery words of love as "You are the sun".

It's just that even at that moment, he still hesitated, his love for Gao Jing overshadowed all emotions.His most ardent, craziest and most overflowing love was given to Gao Jing in the fiery trees and silver flowers like rain of stars.

But it was too ethereal at that time, and it couldn't compare to the great snow in Saibei that we had seen together after the suffering, and the life and death we had experienced.

Helan Mingyue kissed Gao Jing, feeling that the other party raised his hand to hold her belt hesitantly, and finally pulled it away resolutely.Gao Jing pulled him back and kissed him more reluctantly. He heard vague words between lips and tongue: "Want...give it? It's not like last time, I want you...come in."

The seductive breath, the provocative movements, the calming fragrance left by the couch in the other courtyard.

Fingers went up from the knee to the leg. He Lan Mingyue pecked and kissed his earlobe: "At that moment...don't scream too loudly."

(...)

He saw someone walking in a snowfield, purple lightning flashed across the sky, the wind roared like a roar, and there was not even a trace of life in the wilderness.He was shivering with cold, and for another moment, his whole body seemed to be enveloped in the center of the flame, warmed quietly.

He Lan walked into him like this, without a white horse, without colorful flowers, and he stood naked in the snow.

He stretched out his hand towards Gao Jing.

Gao Jing almost died in the wonderful imagination, his throat hurt, he woke up again, opened his teary eyes, the two red moles were like the flames in his hallucinations: "...Huh? What?... ..."

He Lan kissed his ankle: "Is there anything else you haven't told me?"

Gao Jing was taken aback.

He seemed to have some thoughts, but he couldn't remember what else he was hiding.Gao Jing remembered one thing he hadn't confessed to Helan Mingyue, but he was wrapped in bliss and couldn't remember it anyway. His pain and desolation were all in the past, and even the future would be a failure. At least at this moment, he and Helan had nothing to do. separate.

The legs were put down, He Lan leaned over and hugged him tightly, her lower body was still tightly combined.This posture was maintained for a while, and then hot tears ran down his neck, which quickly turned cold, and Gao Jing thought blankly: What happened to him?

He Lan pressed his forehead against the scar, and suddenly said in a trembling voice, "Am I... I almost never see you again?"

Yes, Scar.

Gao Jing wanted to say something, but felt powerless to speak, so he raised his hand and ran along his loose hair silently.

After what seemed like a long time, Helan Mingyue touched the red mark across his neck: "I should have thought about it a long time ago, how could it be like this when being tortured, this is a knife wound, cut by myself...why don't you want to alive?"

The scene at that time has become very blurred in his memory. He only remembers the heavy snowfall in March of the first year of Tianxing. Before the sky was bright, the Tai Chi Hall was surrounded by heavily armored soldiers.The queen mother didn't cry, but Gao Sheng cried so much that he didn't realize what happened.

"I don't want to live..." Gao Jing snapped his fingers, and before he recovered from the extreme pleasure, he was asked this serious question, and said slowly, "It was so desperate at that time, it seemed that the only way to escape completely was death. I didn't kill Passing people, trembling when seeing his own bloody hands, the knife was taken away by someone, and he did not die."

"And then survived again."

Feeling relieved, he smiled after listening to it: "Yes, I survived again later. I don't want to live, but I don't want to die either."

"Because I heard that I'm still alive?"

After he finished asking, Gao Jing didn't answer, but put his lower lip in his mouth and kissed him gently.

So Helan Mingyue knew about it.

As the night deepened, he woke up after a brief sleep, and suddenly found that the window frame was still half-open.He Lan Mingyue pulled away Gao Jinghuan's hand on her waist, got off the bed and walked over lightly.

Just as he was about to close the window to avoid the cold dawn, when he glanced at it, the stars were sparse.

In the lonely sky, after the clouds cleared, the bright moon adorned the branches of a bunch of pear blossoms.

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