Huaigui

The day after the banquet, Gao Lejun sent out another invitation to Gao Jing to move to the princess mansion.

This time he didn't insist anymore, and moved in with the help of Yuan Ying and Ran Yunyang that day.There were not many things, Mr. Gao Le sent a dozen people to serve in the other courtyard, and Yuan Ying took care of it himself, and it was not until the afternoon that the arrangement was barely completed.

The decoration of the warm pavilion in the small and exquisite other courtyard has a Jiangnan style. Sitting in it, Yuan Ying lit some soothing incense: "Yesterday, I was really afraid that your siblings would quarrel again."

Gao Jing was served by Amang to change his dressing. In front of Yuanying, he never shy away from it, and generously exposed his wounds: "You know Huangjie's temperament best. She is too strong, so she has to say a few words before giving up."

"That's right." Yuan Ying remembered that his wife was a little funny, but when he saw that Gao Jing's injury was far more than expected, he immediately said with concern, "Before you only said that you were inconvenient to move, so... did Prince Yu actually torture you like this?"

Gao Jing smiled: "It's all about venting your anger. But I haven't seen you in a few years. Yesterday, when Huang Jie mentioned the child in her womb, she was all smiles, and she cared very much about what you said. Brother-in-law, it seems that your relationship is better than before. Less."

Yuan Ying blushed a little: "We have been together for many years, and we can always find a balance."

After Gao Jing listened, he glanced at Helan Mingyue vaguely.

Holding the tiger amulet, He Lan thought about the past, didn't notice his eyes, and only heard Yuan Ying continue: "The princess also mentioned later that when she was young and ignorant, she was confused by Li Huan, and she was angry with the late emperor. , That's why I vowed not to marry to the death...The following is the private conversation between the princess and the minister, so don't tell your Majesty."

Gao Jingdao: "Your Majesty Yuan has something to say, you might as well speak it out."

"As soon as the proclamation came out, the Li family in Runzhou continued to act and responded. Although Li Huan had a feud with the princess, he did not make a big mistake in the country. I think that if he can help at that time, I hope that your majesty will not let the old children Condemnation of personal affairs."

Gao Jing was stunned: "Where do you start with this?"

Just as Yuan Ying was about to explain, He Lan Mingyue thought of it first: "In the east courtyard of Yuan Mansion, you once said that you wanted to kill Li Huan to calm the princess...whether you killed it or what, I forgot."

"Is there such a thing?" Gao Jing looked confused, turned to Yuanying and said, "Whether there is or not, brother-in-law said so, then let him go-but I still want to remind, that is the old lover of Huang Jie."

Yuan Ying said: "The past few years, I don't think he can rekindle the old relationship with the princess, what does your majesty think?"

Gao Jing stretched out his arms to prop himself up and leaned up: "Forget it, after you have said so, I will naturally think about it. It is strange to say that there has been no movement in Pingcheng since the document was published."

Yuan Ying said: "No rush, it will be there soon."

Gao Jing looked over suspiciously.

"It's only been ten days since the letter written by His Majesty was issued, and the voices asking for the truth are raging in Luoyang City. But counting the days, the news has spread all over the world, and it will only come and go within a few days." Yuan Ying smiled. , "Don't talk about others, as far as I know, the Youzhou Army is a royal party, and they will definitely respond without hesitation. Besides, the third son of Yuwen has always—"

"Come on, I'm annoyed when it comes to him." Gao Jing interrupted him, "Going back to Zicheng from Duanbu early like a no-brainer, and almost didn't write the word 'rebel' on his face, so impulsive and ignorant, Don't be afraid to ruin my big business!"

Yuan Ying raised her eyebrows, but said nothing.

After Gao Jing scolded Yu Wenhua for a few words, he changed the subject: "Forget it, we'll talk about these matters until we hear back. He Lan is still injured, let him take care of his body here for the next few days."

Yuan Ying saluted and said: "Yes, I will invite a doctor to come and diagnose Master He Lan's pulse tomorrow."

The words were a bit weird, He Lan Mingyue frowned, but she couldn't tell what made her feel uncomfortable.He didn't wait to think about it, Gao Jing asked Yuan Ying about the other's family: "Second Young Master is now in Gao Hong's camp, do you have any opinions?"

Yuan Ying said: "My father means that you don't need to pay attention to him."

Gao Jing understood: "The grand master is my benefactor, and it's my fault that he's in a bad situation now... Is he okay?"

"Although he is in prison, some students used to take care of him through some means. My father is still healthy."

It sounded like an ordinary routine, Helan Mingyue briefly forgot the discomfort just now.The topic went from Yuan Tan to the glory of the Yuan family as a great family in the past, which was a bit embarrassing.

When Gao Jing and Yuan Ying were completely at ease, He Lan Mingyue thought suddenly, "I still want to ask Mr. Yuan for advice."

Today is different from the past, Gao Jing still has to grasp He Lan's meaning in every way, Yuan Ying does not dare to neglect this question: "Please tell me."

He Lan asked, "How is Miss?"

As soon as this remark came out, Yuan Ying was confused, and Gao Jing turned his head to look at He Lan in disbelief.Anticipating Gao Jing's reaction, he felt relieved that the joke had succeeded, and asked again: "Could it be that I remembered wrongly, there is only one young lady in the Yuan family?"

"Sister She..." Yuan Ying almost bit her tongue, Gao Jing's complexion was not good, but besides the attendants, only the three of them pretended not to hear too deliberately, so they could only say, "Sister She is still in Luoyang, the original mansion was sealed up, She lives with Lord Lan, the servant of the Ministry of Rites. Mrs. Lan and my mother are cousins. Lord Lan helps her visit my father once a month."

He Lan Mingyue said: "Master Yuan, won't you persuade Miss to take refuge here?"

Yuan Ying couldn't help sighing when she mentioned this matter: "At first something happened, I wrote to her to ask her to come to Pingcheng, but she refused and insisted on staying in Luoyang, saying that Erlang hadn't left. It was also for His Majesty and adults to see It's a joke, Sister She thought there was room for change with Erlang, Erlang... hey!"

Yuan Zhuo'er and Yuan Yuxin may be brothers and sisters, but he must never turn back.

Gao Jing narrowed his eyes and asked, "Is Third Miss married already?"

Mentioning this, Yuanying smiled wryly: "In the early years, many dignitaries in the court asked someone to talk about their marriage. She said that the person she loved was no longer in this world, her heart was dead, and she refused to get married anyway. I thought your Majesty would have heard of it. , Later, Your Majesty... after leaving Luoyang, the Yuan clan declined, and my younger sister was too busy taking care of my father, and she never mentioned the matter of getting married."

If the person you like is not in this world, you will not remarry.

In the past, Gao Jingxing might only find it extremely ironic.

He has never transferred his emotions with life and death. Helan Mingyue was gone at first, and after he was sad, he would not let the emperor see the slightest bit, as plain as this person had never existed.Gao Jing is well versed in people's hearts and knows that it is useless to fight for it. It is enough to know that you are dead. Of course, outsiders cannot be manipulated. Yuan Yuxin's move was just a superfluous trick in Gao Jing's eyes.

He's dead, what can you do when you're heartbroken?How much do you love him? What's the difference between not letting others know?What's the use of being sad when you'll never see anyone again?

Gao Jing couldn't understand Yuan Yuxin.

But now hearing Yuan Ying conveying her recent situation again, Gao Jing felt sad for a while.Most amorous people in the world are like this, Yuan Yuxin is not himself, there are not so many channels to inquire around——

She is just a poor daughter, who may or may not remember the last time with her sweetheart.

Gao Jing sometimes thought, if she knew that the earring belonged to He Lan Mingyue, not only would she not give it to him, but she might have to make a big fuss before giving up?

Comparing the two, he is not as affectionate as Yuan Yu, but he is betting that He Lan Mingyue still has herself in her heart.

The other courtyard of the princess mansion bought a residence for He Lanmingyue alone. When Yuan Ying resigned and Amang reminded Gao Jing to go to bed, Helan Mingyue stood in the courtyard, but had no intention of returning.

Yuan Yuxin's words came out of Yuanying's mouth, Helan Mingyue's heart was not hard, so it was hard not to be touched.But he really has no affection for Yuan Yuxin, so he is destined to be unable to respond.Falling on Gao Jing, as he calmed down, some emotions quietly found the soil to germinate, and then grew up overnight, overwhelmingly occupying all the lax rationality.

If you have expectations, you will no longer be monolithic.

The same people are remembered differently, without even having to mention names.

Gao Jing extinguished Yuan Ying's tranquilizing incense, and seemed to be talking to himself: "Sooner or later, I will know when I return to Luoyang. If she sees you, she must be very happy."

Helan Mingyue didn't answer, but asked instead: "You know that she is waiting for me if she refuses to remarry, and I will marry her if she is not afraid to go back to Luoyang?"

Gao Jing blushed instantly, and his vision was blurred, but now he pressed his finger into the incense burner and was scalded, and he cried out in surprise. Aman was not there, so he hurriedly wiped it with his sleeve.Helan Mingyue watched him coldly, seeing his emotional ups and downs and refused to say a few words, she was suddenly a little annoyed and disgusted.

He hated Gao Jing's attitude so much, he refused to say anything, and had to guess everything by himself.If you guessed right, it would be happiness for both sides. If you guessed wrong, Gao Jing didn't give the correct answer, and only he felt sad.

During the bloody rain in Suzhou and the wind and snow in Cangzhou, he once thought that Gao Jing could finally speak well, so he had to dig out his heart and lungs several times. For this reason, He Lan Mingyue even secretly told himself that if this continues, he can forget the previous suspicions.

He waited until Luoyang returned to Gao Jing, and asked Gao Jing to give an answer whether he regretted it or not.

If you regret it, if you have him in your heart, he will stay with Gao Jing.

If Gao Jing kept avoiding and didn't answer, he won the reputation of his family and turned his head back to the desert in northern Saibei.

The man held her finger and didn't raise her head. He Lan Mingyue felt resentful and said it even more: "In the past, I was just a dispensable attendant by the prince's side, and got the favor of the Yuan family. After going through twists and turns, not only didn't he die, but also became famous. I went back to Luoyang to marry her... Do you think this story will be passed down for a hundred years?"

"Stop it." Gao Jing's voice was trembling, "You...you won't marry her."

He Lan Mingyue said: "That's right, His Highness wanted to propose a marriage for me in the past."

Gao Jing suddenly clenched the blanket on his lap, not wanting to speak, but tears rolled down his cheeks without warning.He cried without a sound, which is the royal forbearing demeanor.

Helan Mingyue waited for a while but still did not respond from Gao Jing, the silence was abnormal, the lights beside the couch flickered on and off, as soon as he walked over, he heard sobbing and paused before he opened his mouth, as if a sound passed by his ear The wind is specious.He Lan Mingyue blew out the lamp, and asked stiffly, "Is your hand okay?"

"You know that I only have you in my heart, but you deliberately said that you want to marry Yuan Yuxin." Gao Jing raised his face, his eyes became bright with tears.

"Then I beg you not to go, are you happy?"

Helan Mingyue missed her breath, and beside her ears, the sound of insects in late spring pierced through the window screen.

"I only have you in my heart", he wanted to get this sentence a lot before.

But now listening to Gao Jing's words clearly, He Lan Mingyue did not jump as he imagined.I don't know where the desire to die for him in the past has gone, maybe it's still hidden in a well-known corner of my heart that hasn't been completely stripped away, Helan Mingyue can't find it, and lacks an opportunity——

For him and Gao Jing, the word "believe" is too extravagant.

The wound lying between them was just a narrow shadow from a distance, but when I approached and tried to persuade myself to abandon it, I realized that it was an abyss that could not be ignored, could not be let go, and could not be crossed easily.

He Lan Mingyue was not so powerless in her most desperate moments.

I beg you don't go you are happy?

Is this what he wants to hear?

He Lan Mingyue shook her head: "I didn't want you to be happy like this... I just think that after life and death are taken lightly, everything is nothing more than a trivial matter. Did I deliberately make things difficult for you? Gao Jing, you still don't know why we came here I don’t know that I’m not waiting for you to admit your mistake.”

Gao Jing was surprised: "I have already admitted my mistake!"

He Lan Mingyue pointed at him: "You don't think you did anything wrong, it's okay to say sorry because of those estrangements at the beginning, or because you want to reset, or say you only have me in your heart...you really think that what I care about is apologizing Is it?"

Gao Jing was completely confused, he shook hands empty-handedly, but missed He Lanmingyue: "...Isn't it? I owe you an apology, what happened before nearly killed you..."

"What I care about is never whether I am dead or not. Those are all in the past, and I am standing here, alive. Besides, even if you don't do it, His Majesty will use other methods to get rid of me. You just follow his orders. Take what you want." He Lan Mingyue held his hand and folded his fingers together, "If fate is fixed, then I deserve this fate; if it's human-made, then there will always be a day of shame - I can't blame you for these things .”

Gao Jing's eyes were hot again, he looked at He Lan's outline vaguely.On the spring night when everything was revived, Dongfeng finally had a three-point warmth. The scene was so similar to before that he just wanted to cry.

Gao Jing couldn't convince himself that the hand holding him was as warm as before, but Helan Mingyue was no longer the Helan Mingyue he had cherished for a thousand days and nights.

The age of the desert has changed, and Helan Mingyue has become more dazzling, more powerful, and even too reasonable, but he is no longer and will never be the Helan Mingyue who told him "why should the pearl lead the way?"

You can't blame me, so why don't you look back at me?

Gao Jing covered his eyes with a splitting headache.

He let go of his hand and asked people to keep him quiet, but Helan Mingyue stood in front of him without moving away, his wide and dry palm stroked the back of Gao Jing's head and moved him forward, letting him lean into his arms.

He is visually blind, but his hearing is more sensitive than before, so He Lan's heart beats like a drum in Gao Jing's ear.

His voice came in a deep voice: "Now I'm asking you, and you will definitely tell me the answer I want to hear without hesitation. But I know, this is not what you want to understand, but I forced you to say it. Xiaojing, feelings No force, I will wait for you to understand, don't marry others, and don't want others to be good."

Gao Jing knew that everything has a price, so he grabbed him tightly: "What if I can't figure it out?"

Helan Mingyue stroked the blue silk and twisted her fingers three times, as if she had never smiled so gently: "Then I am not that important to you. Then everyone will get what they need. I'm gone, and we don't have to see each other again."

He always thinks clearly first, whether it's a lingering love or a cruel farewell.

For the first time, the proud son of heaven has something he likes but may not get, which can almost break his proud head.He had to accept this fact, and couldn't find a way to deal with it.

It turns out that he is not the only one who wants in the world.

Gao Jing hugged him and just shook his head, but his throat was sore that he couldn't utter half a syllable.

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