Cannon fodder "attack" development system

[The story is left blank when everything has not started, such a regret is considered perfect]

Jiang Wei has face blindness.

super serious.

Also have since childhood.

In many novels and animations, face blindness is often set as a cute character.If there is a character with the element of face blindness, most of them will get such a response from the public-"Hahaha, so cute", otherwise it will be "Hahaha, so funny".

But the truth is, if a person has prosopagnosia, it can really be a very distressing thing.Especially when it is impossible to discern the exact identity of the other party from other characteristics.In daily life, the most embarrassing situation is probably the question of greeting.If you don't recognize people and stop moving forward, most people will be classified as "cold and noble" and not easy to get close to; but if you say hello but get mixed up, the friendship index will plummet, which is not good The other party will also say "stupid" in his heart.

Maybe some people can get along well even with face blindness by virtue of their personality charm, but Jiang Wei obviously does not belong to the scope of this "some people".The experience of being cut off from friends because of this in childhood was simply a psychological shadow for his whole life.Even if Jiang Wei didn't recognize the face later, he could easily call out the other party's name by other signs, even so, he still rarely had contact with people.

Jiang Wei's mother was very worried about him, for fear that if he stayed at home like this, sooner or later he would be so homeless that he would have no friends.Jiang Wei's mother's worry was not unreasonable, because after Jiang Wei embarked on the broad road of scientific research, Jiang Wei really rarely saw people, and often stayed in the laboratory for ten days at a time, because in the laboratory everything from eating and drinking to From washing to sleeping, the equipment is fully equipped, there is really no need to go out.

Jiang Wei's mother looked at Jiang Wei, and sometimes she couldn't bear it: "Experiment, experiment, experiment, you know the experiment, will you marry the test tube as your wife in the future?" Jiang Wei thought about it carefully, and said, "That's pretty good. "I was so angry that my mother almost smashed the teacup on his head.

Parents always want their children to live a life that fits their own definition of happiness.Obviously Jiang Wei's attitude of "I want to dedicate my life to science" made Jiang Wei's mother very dissatisfied.Then one day, Jiang Wei received a notice from the research institute, which was well written, with a lot of embellishments and a lot of compliments. In short, in a nutshell, it probably means that the organization wants to give you a long vacation, you must let it go, you can rest assured Stay at home, don't come out to do experiments, okay?

Jiang Wei didn't need to think about it, he knew it was his mother's handwriting after his father was tricked.He stared at the notification in his hand for a long time, and decided to talk to his mother in depth: "Mom, this is not good."

Jiang Wei's mother sternly said: "What's wrong, this notice has come down, what else do you want?"

Jiang Wei remained silent, looking like he was thinking, his mother was in a hurry, afraid that his son would make a fuss again, covered his face with one hand, and began to cry, make trouble, and hang himself, until Jiang Wei was so worn out that he compromised on the spot.

For this long vacation, Jiang Wei's mother has many plans, including traveling, blind date and so on... But in the first few days, she was going to let Jiang Wei go back to his residence to rest. Jiang Wei's mother stood at the door to see Jiang Wei out. Sighing: "I know you don't like staying in this house, so I'll let you do it for the first few days, and you'll have to listen to Mom's arrangement when you come back later, you know?"

Jiang Wei wondered if there was any possibility to dispel his mother's thoughts, but he still responded, "Got it."

He hasn't returned to his residence for a long time, and the house there is basically a decoration.When he opened the door, Jiang Wei thought he had gone to the wrong place.Just like the scene of a group of demons dancing wildly, a group of strange men and women, and even in the entrance, there is a couple who are doing the most primitive instinctive movement of human beings - the "exercise" of passing on the family line.

Jiang Wei thought for a while, and then remembered that he had lent this house to a former classmate more than a year ago.I can't remember whether it was a classmate in elementary school, junior high school, or high school, but when the other party came to ask for help, Jiang Wei didn't refuse after all, probably because it was rare for someone to ask him for help.

Now the other party opened a group Pparty in his house. Obviously, he has not come back for a long time, and he has somewhat forgotten him as the owner of the house.The group of men and women in front of him looked like they had taken drugs, especially the pair at the entrance. The girl even came to hold his hand in a daze. close.

Sure enough, find another place to live.

It feels like the original place can no longer be lived in.

He never thought of getting angry, he didn't even bother to think about it, he just wanted to find another place to live.Jiang Wei took a fancy to a house and bought it from the other party, but he didn't expect an accident on the day he moved in. When he was cooking for dinner, he blew up the floor and sent the residents downstairs to the hospital. .

Jiang Wei was stunned, completely at a loss when faced with the neighbor's bloody appearance.Because of his own personality, coupled with lack of social activities for a long time, he has almost forgotten how to get along with people.Then he spent a month... writing an extremely long letter of apology that looked like a self-criticism.

It's just that this letter of apology was at the end, and it didn't have the full effect it should have.There are two reasons: first, he forgot his words when he was interrupted by the other party; second, after he forgot his words, the other party gave him a pillow, and he was really sleepy at the time, so he hugged the pillow and fell asleep.

...How should I put it, after getting along for a while, the feeling of getting along with each other is not bad.

It is probably rare to have the opportunity to get along with people outside the family so closely, Jiang Wei subconsciously pays attention to the behavior of the other party.Observe as you would observe an experimental sample.He met his cousin in the hospital.Cousin still looked like he didn't care about anything in his memory, just standing beside Song Guan's bed with the folder.

My cousin is also face-blind, and his symptoms are only a little bit better than him. When he was in the hospital, his cousin always spent a little time every day looking at Song Guan, as if he wanted to see a flower from the other person's face. , It seems that after watching it for a long time, you can really see something different.But in fact, no matter how long you stare at it, you can't see why.Song Guan lay in the hospital for several months, and his cousin joked, "Isn't this guy really unlucky to meet you?"

When he finally left the hospital, he heard the phone conversation between Song Guan and Song Guan's mother. He knew that Song Guan had an ex-boyfriend, and he knew that Song Guan's mother suspected that he was Song Guan's new boyfriend.He saw that Song Guan was embarrassed, so he said that he went out together. In fact, the door was ajar after he went out. He didn't understand why he did such an unscrupulous behavior of eavesdropping.

Because of eavesdropping, I also knew that the other party would move out sooner or later, but the other party did not move out immediately, but delayed for a while.In fact, he has a vague guess, probably because the other party's hands are not convenient to use, so he wants to stay here and let him help complete the things in the game.This was confirmed when the other party drove him back upstairs as soon as the plaster was removed, and when he decided to move out the next day.

He didn't know why he was so angry. He obviously didn't need to be so angry, and there was no need to be so angry.Even for this reason, he did something completely inconsistent with his past behavior - he knew that Song Guan had a gang fight in the game, he knew that Song Guan wanted to lose, he knew it all, but he let Song Guan win.

So the other party is very angry.

Seeing the angry look of the other party, he panicked, knowing that his behavior was wrong, and wanted to apologize.But those words reached the tip of his tongue, until parting, but he still couldn't get out of his mouth.At night, I tossed and turned and couldn't fall asleep anyway, and the other party's alarm clock was placed on the bedside table, which was not needed when the other party moved.Song Guan said to him, you can throw it away for me, I can't fit it in the box.He took it over, but in the end he didn't throw it into the trash can. By some strange coincidence, he took it home.

He didn't know what the emotions were going up and down.

He decided that it was just trying to make up for the guilt of the other party after doing something wrong.

How to compensate?

But how to compensate?

Is the closer to each other's preferences the better.

Sure enough, it's still a game.

This is what he taught him to play.

So without the other party knowing, he registered a game account.

But he didn't want the other party to know his existence.

Even created a female number.

It's called "one tail".

Secretly joined the same sect as the other party.

Normally, he doesn't speak, just completes the guild's tasks silently, his existence is inconspicuous at all.

Later, when the other party was discharged from the hospital, he no longer had to help him play games. He got on the trumpet and followed the other party secretly.

He has always felt that the other party is a person with very contradictory behaviors, and for some reason has constructed an unlikable illusory character.He watched him being killed again and again, and the dialogue on the screen was ridiculously unflattering, and he always felt that it shouldn't be like this.So it was probably an impulsive idea. During the help battle, he played on his behalf. In fact, the way of winning was not straightforward, but it turned the tide of the battle in the end.

But the other party didn't look happy about it.

He looked at the other person's expression and thought, he probably did something wrong again.

Later, the other party moved away quickly, and did not need any compensation from him.Jiang Wei felt a little dazed, his mother told him to go home quickly, but he just said that he couldn't go back because of something.

In the game, a girl named "One Tail" runs around the world after the opponent's character.

He quietly looked at the screen.

If there is no bond in the game, will the two of them have no relationship in the future?

In fact, the two are not very familiar with each other.But why can't I let it go.That kind of thought can't be regarded as scratching one's heart and lungs, but in the end, there is something missing.Emotions that arise unexpectedly.Can't let go.Such a strange emotion.What a novel experience.For the first time, he pestered a person almost shamelessly.Yes, using the word "tangle" is not an exaggeration at all.He pestered the other party to accept him as an apprentice.In fact, he didn't know what to say and what to do to get the other party to agree, but he followed the other party all the way without a teacher. Later, the other party was really scared by him, so Yue Mo had no choice but to accept him.

Well, since the other party has accepted him as an apprentice, what then?

People's minds are always unsatisfied. Once a requirement is met, more demands will come up later.He wanted to get close to each other, but felt that getting too close didn't seem very good.Knowing the opponent's movements in the game through the screen seems to be enough, but it doesn't seem to be enough.He thought that such emotions were really due to guilt, and because he didn't know how to make up for it, he felt even more guilty.Maybe he should ask his mom for advice, or maybe his cousin.Jiang Wei restrained himself as much as possible, not to make noise to the other party.In fact, he was not a noisy person himself.With so many titles of fame in the game, he only chose "Apprentice of the Bloodthirsty God" to hang under his name.Even if someone came to pk him because of this, he would even be a little happy.They came to him because of the "Bloodthirsty God".It is for this reason.So he also felt that the relationship between the two seemed to be a little closer.

In fact, in the game, the only in-depth contact between "Bloodthirsty God" and "Yiwei" was only the day before Song Guan's accident.At that time, Jiang Wei was about to go to bed, but the other party stopped him: "Aren't you going to bed so late?" Jiang Wei really didn't expect the other party to take the initiative to talk to him, so he was stunned for a while, but he quickly tapped the keyboard with his fingers and replied, " Um".The other party asked: "Can't sleep? Insomnia?" In fact, he really wanted to go to sleep, but he hesitated for a long time looking at the line on the screen, and finally typed "Yes, Master, I can't sleep. Can Master also not sleep?" ?”

He revised this sentence several times. Before sending it out, he felt that he was playing a female character in the game now. If he spoke like this, would he be too stiff and not like a girl at all.Then I found that I had very few women in my life, and it seemed that there was no one else except his mother.He recalled how his mother spoke... Finally, the sentence was changed back and forth, and changed into the above-mentioned appearance.

After that, it was the all-night game time. Jiang Wei silently manipulated the character to follow the opponent to be a "Nurse", killing all the way, and at three o'clock in the morning, he encountered other players who made trouble for them.It was also at this time that the other party gave him such a private message: "Don't be afraid, follow Master closely, Master will take you to kill people."

Jiang Wei looked at the screen silently. Looking at this sentence, he felt that his heartbeat that suddenly accelerated was not normal.

This sentence inexplicably aroused his emotions, obviously it was not a gentle word, it was obviously not a vigilant word, and it also contained the bloody word "killing", but it aroused his emotions, which was difficult to dispel.He couldn't figure out why, but after the second day, he didn't see the other party online again.

The other party's name became gray offline, and it was five days after he knew the news of the other party's death in a car accident.In the days before, he had been waiting online, obviously the other party was always online in the past, as if he had devoted all his time during the day to the game and never did anything else.In fact, Jiang Wei doesn't like this game very much, far from being addicted, it is a dispensable pastime, even if he deletes the game software immediately, he will not frown because of it.It's just that the other party is in this game, so he is always concerned about this game.But he waited for him for a long time, but he still didn't see him online.Not now, and never again.

The sky is a rare haze for the occasion, and the sky is overcast and dark.Many times, a person's mind is always in chaos.They did exist, but they were not necessarily noticed by the parties concerned.Just like many years ago, because of face blindness, he had a low self-esteem.

His cousin, who is as blind as he is, can play well with everyone around him, but he is not like his cousin.He is not isolated, but marginalized after all.At that time, he was very envious of his cousin, and secretly imitated him cautiously, but after being noticed, he was severely laughed at.

At that time, my cousin leaned against the wall and looked at it with a half-smile, and said nothing, yes, this person is not the initiator of this ridicule, nor is it the promoter of this ridicule, but just keep silent Oh, how cunning, let everyone criticize, the most important person in the matter just needs to keep silent, this kind of silence is the best driving force, let all the incidents stir up to a climax, someone will speak for him, talk about it Excited.

And his mood at that time was ashamed and sad.Children's emotions are always more intense than those of adults. Isn't it often described like this, "I can't wait for a crack in the ground to let me slip in"-but where does it stop there? Where is there only a crack? It may be that there is only one crack, but it should be that the ground is cracked and the earth is broken. It is best for everyone to fall in together.All fall in.Die together without a place to die.

Like his once-deep disappointment with his dad.His father has always been the object of his respect and admiration since he was a child. He is a model father who loves his career and family.His father loves his mother very much, which cannot be faked.But one day, he learned of the existence of "little mother".It turned out that somewhere he didn't know, his father had always had a family.At that time, he felt that something very important in his heart was breaking apart little by little.It's a very helpless emotion.He has always been unclear about his ups and downs.I had no choice but to suppress them all, just like the Tathagata Buddha suppressed Sun Wukong under Wuzhi Mountain.

How else can I compare it?

Those unknown thoughts.

That's right, just like his emotion when he saw the sentence "Don't be afraid, follow Master closely, Master will take you to kill people", maybe until he died, he didn't know this feeling, it can be called heartbeat.

But that's fine too.Unclear, those sad emotions are not clear, nothing can shake the foundation of the mind.It's like the unnoticed throbbing, snuffed out at the very beginning.If the heart moves to the end, it can return without a trace, let alone the dead are long gone.That's fine.Unknown is very good.The blank part of the story is when everything has not started, just like the song that I heard inadvertently when I was in a taxi. Termination, such a regret is considered perfect.

【Finish】