Cannon fodder "attack" development system

The first time Noah met the young master was on a rainy day.

On the way from the aunt's house to the manor in the outskirts of the city, the carriage was unfortunately damaged when approaching the destination, so the group had to get out of the carriage and walk.Noah brought few things, all of which were packed in a box, and the servants helped him carry them. He was always unaccustomed to this, but he could only pretend to be used to it.In a specific environment, if one cannot abide by the "rules", a person will appear out of place.He doesn't want to be out of place, so he can only "obey the rules".

Standing in the middle of the road, behind him was a carriage that couldn't move forward. The road ahead was unknown in the darkness. Noah was so cold that he almost shivered.He came here with his mother. His father passed away last winter, and his mother became seriously ill.He had never heard his mother mention his former relatives until half a year ago, when his mother, whose condition continued to worsen, called him to the hospital bed, and asked him to write a letter.

His mother told him: "That's your aunt. Now, I can only trust you to entrust you to her."

Half a month later, my aunt sent someone to pick them up.The small town where few outsiders came was noisy once in a while. The luxuriously decorated carriage stopped in front of his house. When he saw it in his room, he felt an emotion similar to fear inexplicably.It was a spontaneous retreat in the face of a huge class gap.In his impression since he was a child, their family has always been very ordinary. If there is anything special, it may be that his parents' looks are much better than others.

He hasn't sorted things out clearly yet, the other party has already arranged everything.Noah followed his mother into the carriage. In fact, he had many doubts in his mind, but his mother's health was already very bad, and she spent more time sleeping than awake.He was full of doubts and finally arrived at the place where his aunt lived. This was the capital of their country, a bustling city, and it took seven days to travel by car and horse from his small town.However, he did not see his aunt when he arrived here, until more than a month later, when his mother was so ill that the doctor shook his head and sighed, his aunt finally came forward.

A lady who fits exactly as he had imagined.

The mother closed her eyes and died after seeing her aunt.

For the death of his mother, Noah was sad, but not too sad, because he knew that this day would come, and all the emotions that were too intense have been overdrawn into calm.Standing by the bed, he felt his aunt looking at him through his mother's body.How to describe it.It was a blatant, yet uncomfortably peeking look.For a long time, Noah couldn't find specific adjectives to describe the feeling he felt in the eyes of the other party. It was not until a long time later that he realized that it was a kind of subtly twisted greed and tyranny full of malice.

"Poor child." The older woman looked down at him. Because of the proper maintenance, the years have hardly left many marks on her body. "You must be very sad now." In the reverse light, the woman seemed to be about to be caught by the huge white light behind her. Swallow whole.Noah couldn't see her expression, and he couldn't see it from this angle. He heard her suddenly murmur to himself, "You and your father really look alike."

To put it bluntly, Noah doesn't like this aunt.

On the day of his mother's burial, his maternal grandparents also showed up.Grandmother seemed to lose her composure when she saw him, and suddenly burst into tears as soon as she hugged him.On the other hand, the grandfather on the other side was quite indifferent, and the eyes that fell on the person always seemed to be weighing the weight of an object.Noah didn't talk to them, and he had nothing to say. When they met, they were just strangers they met for the first time.

His aunt didn't seem to want him to spend too much time with his grandparents, and soon sent servants to take him away.After he walked out without saying a word for a long time, he suddenly stopped and looked back.The three in the distance seemed to be arguing.Black mourning clothes, blue sky, green lawn in the cemetery.Noah had an absurd illusion. He felt that those three figures were like ghosts that appeared out of time during the day.

The final result of the incident was that two days later, as if trying to hide him, my aunt sent him out of the house before dawn, and it was said that she was going to send him to a certain manor in the suburbs.

"That manor is beautiful, you're sure to like it. Song is there too. Song, I mean, he's my kid. I haven't seen him in a long time, just so you can show me him. He's about the same size as you At your age, he must be very happy to see you, and you will become good friends."

--here we go again.

The affirmative sentence that speaks for itself.

--here we go again.

That unpleasant stare.

Without saying a word, Noah got into the carriage.He was just silent, but a thought suddenly popped up in his heart, why not just run away like this.

He didn't like the place at all anyway.

He doesn't like the various rules here, he doesn't like his mother's relatives, and he doesn't want to be greedy for any advantage.The demeanor of those wealthy and powerful nobles did surprise him at the very beginning.But that's all.He didn't have any longing or delusions about them, and he didn't want to touch them at all.

Once such a thought arises, it cannot be lingered.

And suddenly it rained outside.

When the carriage was damaged halfway, Noah got out of the carriage.He pondered in his mind slowly, rather carelessly, that he didn't have a detailed plan yet, maybe after arriving at the manor, he could stay for a while to sort everything out before leaving.He thought it would not be too late.

Then he met Song.

The little master in that manor, the child of his aunt.

This—the noble young master who didn't have much imagination in his mind before he came.

It was completely impossible to describe in words exactly how he felt when he first saw each other.

As if his soul had been stripped away, at that moment he even thought his heartbeat had stopped.

Of course Noah tried to calmly think about why he fell in love with each other.Yet no answer.Every time this question surfaced, he would fall into a kind of chaos.In that chaos, only his young master was clearly discernible.It's ridiculous.It's ridiculous.But the addiction that made him unrepentant.

He still remembered the first time the two were alone in private, in the study.In fact, when the young master was still asleep, he had already found him.He wanted to get a book on the upper shelf, but he never expected that there was a person lying on the top shelf.The person lying on it was in a deep sleep, wearing expensive silk and satin clothes, but laying on the dusty board indifferently.He looked at the pale complexion of the other party, the white that hadn't seen the sun for a long time, it was a kind of weak white, as if it might be broken if not careful.He remembered what he had heard people say, that the young master had been in poor health.He looked at it and suddenly became angry.Those people knew that the young master was not in good health, so how could they not follow closely and take good care of the young master, and let people sleep in such a dirty place.

In a strange accident, he lowered his head and leaned over, and lightly touched the other person's face with his fingers.It was warm and cool, which was much lower than the temperature of his skin.He saw the other party's long eyelashes, and the lip color that was much paler than others due to lack of energy and blood, it was a pale pink.

He kissed each other.

on the lips.

Sweet, tastes like candy...

When he realized what he had done, Noah was so panicked that he almost fell off the ladder.

He climbed down the ladder in embarrassment, then picked up a book randomly and pretended to be reading.Noah almost ran away from the door, but the room seemed to have a strange magic power, so that he could only think about it, but in fact he couldn't take a step at all.

Holding the book in his hand, he didn't read a word, his mind was filled with the sweet fruity smell, and after an unknown amount of time, a voice suddenly sounded in the silent room: "What are you reading?"

He trembled, and could barely hold the book in his hand.

Then he applied medicine to the young master... and then fed the young master.He actually wanted to leave at first, but later he slept on the young master's bed, and he could feel that everything was out of his control. When the young master kissed him for the first time, Noah's heart was full He felt a little hopeless, like being pushed off a cliff, but he was willing to do so.

Of course he likes the young master, very much.But he couldn't see through what the young master was thinking at all. He wanted to see some sincerity in the words and deeds of the other party, but he couldn't understand.When his aunt finally came to pick him up again, he didn't want to leave at all, but he couldn't help it.That night he asked the young master if he would miss him, and the young master said of course.He was neither serious nor serious, or maybe subconsciously and intentionally, he made many marks on the young master.But the young master didn't care, and didn't even apply the medicine the next day, only saying that he missed him with these traces.

Such extremely intimate and ambiguous words made him feel as if someone had bitten his heart, and he could hardly control himself, wanting to bite the other person's shoulder, arm or inner thigh as well.

Noah thought he wouldn't be away for too long, but things didn't go his way.He has been there for two full years, and he has not had a good life in the past two years, too many things have happened.He knew some family history, but only a few words.He knew that his father and his aunt used to be a couple, but then his father eloped with his mother.He sensed his aunt's malice towards him, and his aunt discovered by accident that he had a little thought for the young master.After learning this, the aunt was almost furious: "You like that child?" She looked in disbelief, "It's disgusting." Then she sneered, "Look at yourself, do you deserve it?"

That deeply buried inferiority complex emerged again.Yes, in fact, he himself felt unworthy.

What happened later was just the same, not worth mentioning.

He is not afraid to fight with people.The question of whether it is worthy or not can be left to others to talk nonsense, anyway, what is held in his hands is his.In order to stay by the young master's side, he would do whatever it takes. He is not afraid of suffering, nor is he afraid of being robbed by others. He is only afraid that there will be no hope.

When the capital was in chaos, he was going to sneak out of the city, but his aunt stopped him from talking first.

She said coldly: "Things have become like this, you have a 'contribution' to some extent."

Now, he doesn't have to hide it anymore.But he still answered politely, just like she had been taught by others all these years, he said, "Is it obvious?"

There was an inconspicuous scar on the forehead of the woman. It was after a dinner party. She was drunk and tried to kiss his father's name. She kept crying, her eyes and cheeks were all swollen in a flushed manner, as if She wanted to cry all her life unwillingly, but in the end, she was pushed directly downstairs and scratched her forehead.

"Where are you going now? Let me guess, are you going to find Song?" The corner of the woman's mouth curled up, her smile tinged with sarcasm, "I guessed right? I didn't know my son was so charming. Those who cared You are so pitiful to the noble lady and young master who are played around by you, I really should let them all see my son."

His face finally sank.

The woman said: "Don't pretend anymore?" Suddenly she threw him a ring, and he looked down and found the family power ring.He heard the woman continue, "Why anger me? Actually, you didn't do anything."

He was noncommittal: "Since you think I'm mean, let you think so."

The woman turned her face to the side: "You can do whatever you want. This power ring is for you. Butler Nelly understands everything when she sees this ring. My son and I know it. He is a man who knows nothing. Trash, if you have a way to take him away, take him away, if you don't want to take care of him, let him die quickly."

In the end, this woman didn't make things difficult for him, and even gave him convenience.

He was suddenly a little curious: "Why did you stay here? You clearly know..."

The woman turned around and said coldly: "These two families deserve what they have done. I'm willing to stay and watch. What does it have to do with you?"

He didn't ask any more questions, and rushed to find the young master overnight.When he hugged the young master in his arms, a thought finally popped up in his mind coolly and sweetly: this person will be his from now on, and no one can snatch him away.

And then many things happened.

Many, many.

He broke one hand, of course it was a trivial matter, not worth mentioning, but he slowly felt that the young master really liked him later, this is a big event.He used to live in the shadow of uncertainty, never being able to grasp the other person's mind, but later he really felt a little bit of connectedness——

However, the young master died.

It's all his fault.

He shouldn't have left the young master at home like that.

He didn't want to mention that nightmare memory again.

He can only live, desperately, and then keep searching, to find a way to revive the young master.

This is the only belief that supports him to continue to live.

But all of this was messed up by a lunatic in the end.

Perhaps life is born for pain.Short-term happiness is followed by endless despair.He could feel the life force being continuously drained from this body.In a trance, he remembered changing the young master's clothes before, which was a very interesting daily life for him.Every time he changed the clothes for the young master and then dressed himself, he felt no fun at all, so when tidying up by himself, he always dressed in a hurry.Of course, he also remembered that he once wanted to scratch the young master's face.The young master was too eye-catching, even if he covered the young master's face with a bandage, he still didn't feel at ease.In fact, after they arrived in Liber City, there was a knife under the bed where they had been sleeping.One day he was holding a knife in the middle of the night and almost struck.He knew what he wanted very well, no matter what the young master turned into, he liked it.He was so nervous that his palms were covered with sweat, he could hardly hold the knife, the surface of the knife reflected his own face coldly by the moonlight, he touched the young master's earlobe, and was about to strike cruelly.It's just that when the blade was close to the young master's cheek, he thought that maybe the young master would hate himself because of it, and even if he didn't hate him, he would definitely have a thorn in his heart because of it in the future. When he thought of this, he didn't want to strike at all .

Now he is wearing the ring he gave to the young master back then.His young master had already been burned to ashes by that professor, and only this ring was left.He was cold all over, and he clenched his hands tightly, and the last scene of the two parting appeared in front of his eyes.At that time, he was going to get the "exit order", but the young master hooked his neck, gave him a rough and simple kiss, and said: "Got it, you go to work quickly, I will wait for you at home obediently. "

In reality, he left, and then it was a farewell.

In this last vision before death, he struggled to place the hand with the ring on his chest.

——No, I'm not leaving.

He struggled, he seemed to be crying, but he didn't seem to.

In the image where reality cannot be rewritten, he was able to hug the young master and bury his face in the other's neck.

—Your Excellency, I'm not going anywhere, I'll just stay here and watch over you.

【End of the show】