[Comprehensive fear] Borrow your life

All disasters started when I was ten years old. After that day, the world in my eyes changed.

— Alice Lin

Alice Lin couldn't really fall asleep all night. The word "contractor" reminded her of the past. Her short six-year memory flowed through her mind like running water...

Humans are really strange creatures.Car accidents kill people almost every day all over the world, but people are not banning this form of transportation, nor are they being more careful because of it.It's like radiation is harmful, but people still use it happily.

Why?Ten-year-old Alice often thinks about it in the hospital bed.Later she understood, because everyone didn't think that kind of tragedy would happen to her, didn't believe that she would be that extremely unlucky person, and didn't even think about this extremely bad situation.

Just like if Alice hadn't been in a car accident, Alice wouldn't have so many thoughts all of a sudden.Thankfully, she survived such a tragic car accident.That's what everyone in the hospital said.Everyone tacitly did not mention the fact that Alice's parents had died beyond recognition, nor did they mention the other family who also died in the car accident.

It really was a miraculous car accident.There were three members of Alice's family, and four members of another family bumped into each other.Among the seven people, only Alice survived, and some religious worshipers even regarded Alice as a holy person, a lucky person, and a messenger of God...

Everyone said that, and everyone smiled and comforted her, as if Alice was a happy person, and everyone could be responsible for her happiness.

But... A few months later, Alice, who had just recovered, was sent to the orphanage. The only luggage was the clothes given by a kind nurse in the hospital.look!You should find a sense of superiority from me!This is what happened to the so-called lucky people.Little Alice looked at the indifferent people and thought so radically. The future of this terrible future is too different from what everyone described, so she doesn't like those who give herself too good expectations.

Alice doesn't know if this is the aftereffect of the car accident: she always has a vision of pure faint red in one eye, sometimes the left eye, and then changes to the right eye after a while, without a moment's rest, she always There is one eye that cannot see anything but red.

And in the middle of the red, there is always a number that is very dark and can be clearly seen-1.The crimson number looked like a warning light on the road, and it always made Alice have bad associations, and she looked quite frightened.

At the beginning, the doctor would make a special inspection for this, and the result of the inspection was that there was no problem, but Alice would always be blind in one eye in stages.However, the cause of this blindness was still unknown, and in the end Alice was discharged from the hospital hastily. This could only be regarded as a mental sequelae—a very strange sequelae.

But for Alice, this cannot be called abnormality, the real abnormality comes later.This is just the beginning, the beginning of a story in which the world changed as soon as she opened her eyes after the car accident.

If there is a prequel to this story, it would be the day before the car accident, because Alice lost her memory, and her memory only started from the day before the car accident, and all previous memories disappeared-this is what the doctor said. sure.Because compared to the symptoms of blindness, this is the most normal phenomenon for both Alice and the doctor.

However, because of this, she couldn't think of any relatives she could rely on, and was eventually sent to an orphanage...

Alice sometimes felt that maybe the day before the car accident was the beginning of the real anomaly.

The earliest episode she can recall was an eerie phone call.That day—the night before the car accident, she had just received her first mobile phone from her parents.There were only two people's numbers stored in it, but she was still so excited that even though she was under the same roof and separated by a wall, she still happily sent dispensable text messages to her parents.

Alice Lin likes her parents very much.This is the information Alice got from it, but to what extent she likes it and what kind of like it is, she doesn't have so much memory to judge.Alice sometimes even feels that the self that day is completely different from the present self.Only through the blank memory, she can recall the sweetness of the beginning.

At that moment, she received a call with the note of Alice Lin—her own name, but there was no such note on her mobile phone.Who will deliberately return the phone number to make a note?

Alice, who didn't know why, connected the call, and her own voice came out: "Alice Lin's family will die on XX road."

This is the death notice that Alice would hear from time to time later. Unfortunately, Alice was too young at that time to know anything. At best, she only regarded the phone call as an extremely real and weird dream.In particular, the prophecy did not mention such important words as the car accident, but only predicted the road section where the car accident occurred.

But how can a child care about the route taken by his parents?A car accident that could have been avoided happened like this, and then everything changed.

After Alice Lin's eye problems, she soon found that the people around her were slowly changing.

For example, the nurse who has been taking care of her.Every time Alice Lin's normal eyes saw her with such a friendly smiling face, the whole person was like sunshine warming everyone's heart, but the eyes with red vision couldn't see anything.But one day later, Alice Lin found that the red color began to fade slowly, and in the end she could see it with both eyes.

However, there are still some problems with the eyes with the original red vision. From that eye, the number on the nurse's body is actually the same color and style as the original 1, except that the number on the nurse's body is 34.Looking at the other people, you can see it, but everyone has different bloody numbers on their bodies, which looks very pervasive.

Alice cried desperately, and the nurse rushed over here to check, nervously asking Alice what was wrong, but Alice just looked at the nurse in astonishment, speechless for a long time.Because she saw the number on the nurse's body suddenly changed to 33.

The number that seemed to be a time warning suddenly decreased by 1.Alice inexplicably felt fear and panic.But at this time, she acted like an adult, and didn't tell the doctor who already suspected that she had a mental illness. She just kept it in her heart and observed silently.

Slowly, when she opened her eyes, she could see with both eyes, and one of them could always see the numbers on other people's bodies, but as soon as she closed her eyes, she could see the crimson figure in the red field of vision. 1.

She knew it was her number, like everyone else's.Just what does this mean?What does it mean that she has the least number on her body?If it was Alice before the car accident, she would probably regard it as a novelty and publicize it like an ordinary child.But after the car accident, Alice, according to her own evaluation, seemed to have become another person completely, a precocious and anxious person.

She felt no novelty, only terror.She didn't want other people to think she was weird, she just wanted to figure everything out silently and alone.

So she chose an old man whose number was closest to her to observe.The number on that person was 7, the lowest number other than hers.From Alice's point of view at that time, the numbers generally seemed to have some kind of regularity.

Generally, the numbers of the elderly are relatively small, fluctuating roughly in the range of 7 to 20, the numbers of adults are more, ranging from 30 to 70, and the numbers of children are the most, most of which are above 80. The most numbers she has seen is A newborn baby with the number 301.In my impression, only she is abnormal.

That's why she couldn't wait to observe the old man.

The old man seems to be a chronic patient. He can often be seen coughing painfully and sometimes vomiting blood.Every time he vomited blood, Alice could see the number on him decrease by one.

When the old man's number became 4, the lonely old man suddenly said to Alice: "I want to die."

The old man's pain comes from two aspects: the torment of illness, and the drag on his children.

He would rather die and stop treatment than continue like this.The old man and Alice were very calm when they said this, and even smiled symbolically because they were afraid that Alice was worried. The two patients were worried about different things at the same time.The next day, the old man tried his best to commit suicide once, but it was a pity that he was so weak that he survived and was rescued.

Alice found that the old man's number has changed to 3 again.After being unable to commit suicide, the old man hoped that his illness could take him to see the god of death sooner.But Alice felt that was impossible for no reason.Why?Because his number has not yet become 0.Alice has seen some people who died in the operating room, and their numbers all became 0.

In fact, she has already noticed something, but she has not come to that conclusion for a long time, as if she was verifying it, but also as if she couldn't believe it.

Finally, the old man died completely after vomiting blood three times, and the number on his body became 0.Alice can finally tell herself that the number is the number of everyone's life. In case of an accident or serious illness, one life will be lost. When all lives are lost, the number becomes 0, and that person's life is over.

And she is already on the way to the end, is there any difference between her 1 and 0?Isn't this the legendary waiting to die?

But the god of death still doesn't seem to let her go.Since she woke up, she has been encountering various accidents. Thanks to the attention of many people and timely medical treatment in the hospital, she can survive time and time again.So she knew that the last "1" can only be taken away by death.It's just why the god of death just doesn't let her go?Why did you have to create so many unimaginable accidents and let her die?

She didn't understand, but she was always afraid, vigilant, and surviving.Sometimes her accidents even hurt other people, and she didn't know if this was one of the reasons for her discharge.

She was sensitively aware that if she left the hospital, she might... really have no chance of surviving...

Sitting in the car, her heart was ashamed, her hands were trembling, and her tears seemed to fall at any moment. She even had the urge to jump out of the car and die right now, which was considered self-destruction.

Before she could do that, however, the orphanage arrived.