[Comprehensive fear] Borrow your life

Whether he was alive or after death, he didn't think he was special, so the only one who was abnormal was that strange ex.

He began to ask other consciousnesses about death.Gradually, he knew that people had two deaths, and those who could share consciousness with him were those who died twice.These people have been dead for a long time, and they have long been forgotten, but they have been under the unified management of death in this state of nothingness.

Occasionally a grim reaper would kindly endow some of the most lonely among them with a body.That body is the same as their previous identities, even their skills and appearance are the same.Naturally, the supreme existence of death can enter these bodies at will and act regardless of the original owner.However, only the god of death can't change the body in front of him, which seems to remind the god of death: you have completely broken away from the human category.

But even though he had been dead for three years, how could he accept such an unimaginable thing all of a sudden?What's more frightening is that probably due to the various experiences after death occupying too much of his memory, from some time onwards, his memory of his life is also a little blurred: he doesn't know what he does, he doesn't know what he likes , I don’t know what kind of person he is. Later, he was not even sure whether he was a man or a woman...

Somewhat irrationally, he continued to create bodies for other consciousnesses and use their bodies to experience the lives of living beings.

He is like a primary school student who can't do fill-in-the-blank questions, and needs to constantly fill in the answers about himself through various lives.

gender?This problem was doubtful, so he began to use those male and female bodies, focusing on using female bodies for a while, and concentrating on using male ones for a while, and in the final confirmation stage, the two were alternately changed.

So he came to a conclusion: for women, he doesn't like makeup, it's troublesome, he doesn't like perfume, it's pungent, he doesn't like big aunts, it's very, very uncomfortable and troublesome; for men, he doesn't feel bad about smoking, but not much I like it, but I don't like wearing a tie, but I seem to be used to it. Wine is delicious, especially white wine... So he should be an ordinary man who didn't like smoking, loved drinking but seemed to have quit after his death.

family?He didn't have any real feelings when he entered several families, and he didn't have any special feelings for his parents, brothers and sisters. Instead, he felt pretty good staying in the position of an orphan.So he wrote the answer of parents dying early and being an orphan in the category of family.However, the actual situation is that he had a relatively weak relationship with his parents since he was a child, that is, his parents missed him for more than two years after his death.It's a pity he doesn't remember these anymore.

name?He tried writing thousands of names and found that none of them made him feel right, well, that means he has a pretty good name anyway.

In such a transformation, he found that he no longer had the thinking of a normal person.He is like a pervert, looking at everything about living people with a research perspective.

It took him a long time to learn about the previous Grim Reaper from the consciousness of those elders.

That guy is even more perverted than he is now.Some time before his death, the predecessor ran frantically into the street with his whole body, beheading several people in a row.The reason for this is unknown.If you look at those people who are unhappy, this method of killing is completely unnecessary and laborious. He is the god of death, whoever dies can still live?

If he was in a bad mood, wanted to report to the office, and wanted to slash and slash people, that wouldn't even make sense. Before and after he slashed people, he had a blank face, and he didn't look happy at all.

"It looks more like desperation and despair." This is the answer of those consciousnesses who happened to notice.

Even stranger is the reaction of those victims after the predecessor's stabbing incident.They didn't seem to remember this incident at all, and when they met the body used by their predecessor, they greeted happily like good brothers.

This reveals a lot.After thinking about his own situation and his predecessor's deeds, he came up with a secret rule: In fact, those bodies are just the world's compensation for the dead, just giving them an identity.Without this identity, they are nothing.

Although the god of death has the characteristics that people can't remember their faces clearly and are not easy to remember, but this identity is easy to remember.The old neighbors, friends, and colleagues of these identities may not recognize his face when they see this body, but they can immediately realize this identity and greet him as if they didn't notice anything.

At this time, the god of death needs to act according to the pattern of this identity.If the god of death makes up a name to deceive others, this is an action that does not conform to the status and is not recognized by this world. Others will not remember the name, nor will they remember the name that the god of death said, but will still regard it as that identity.

This was the case with the ex, what he did violated his identity, so other people didn't remember the insane things he did, and still regarded him as that innocent identity.In fact, there is no self.It's okay to be yourself, so that no one will remember you, as long as you can hold back this loneliness.

In the end, he found out about the replacement of the God of Death's main consciousness.It turned out that once the God of Death's main consciousness forgot himself completely, and no one in this world remembered him, he would die.This is a self-selection process.As the main consciousness of the god of death, if he has reached this point, then he can only choose to die by himself, otherwise he will only lose himself more and more.There used to be a master consciousness like this, he refused to give up, even if he lost his sanity, he would not give up, so in those years, the world was frequently affected by disasters, all kinds of unimaginable accidents, wars, and diseases were all caused by the master consciousness. Madness happened.

This situation lasted until the main consciousness finally had the desire to die, and the main consciousness will take this as a precept in the future, and will no longer be greedy for life.But the ex is a weirdo, he doesn't want to die, but he has forgotten himself, so he came up with a way, as long as he gets to know the living again and let the living remember him.However, it can also be seen from the above deeds that he failed completely.

But after this, he still refused to give up and wandered around until he met his next one.Perhaps out of some kind of malice, he passed on the identity of the main consciousness to this person.

Everything is like this, and the current main consciousness has also fallen into the state of losing itself as the former one wished.

He began to understand why so many gods of death in the past didn't create identities very much, because each identity represented that he had to receive such a huge memory and records generated at any time, and the characteristics of his main consciousness prevented him from feeling this. This is a burden, but the few memories about himself are constantly being squeezed, subtly, he has forgotten himself.

Whether intellectually or emotionally, he did not want to accept such a result.

He didn't seem to be very old when he died. (It can be seen from the fact that he didn't adapt to the body of the middle-aged and elderly people). It was only a dozen years after his death. So he was going to die?Just kidding, his lifespan as a human and as a god of death may not be as good as the lifespan of an ordinary person.How could this make him happy?

The predecessor's method is the only feasible method. Through the understanding of other living people, we can reshape ourselves and have a new life.But even this last hope is despair, what else can he do?

He began to walk around with various bodies like his predecessor, and sometimes deliberately played pranks. Passers-by looked at him in surprise and then didn't remember anything, and continued on the original track.As long as he doesn't conform to his status, it's like he doesn't exist.But is this still him?Is he still alive?

Oh... he realizes he's dead long ago, and suddenly it's... less of a struggle.

At this time, he didn't pay attention to the road, staggered, and bumped into a girl lying on the hospital bed in the hospital——Alice Lin.I don't know when he wandered to the hospital, maybe the god of death is naturally closer to the hospital, a place where there are so many deaths.

At this time, the girl has not yet seen the fate, so she cannot see that the person in front of her is the god of death with unknown fate.

The god of death immediately apologized, but the other party turned a deaf ear to him and just asked him curiously: "Are you here to see the family? What's your name?"

"Uh...I went to the wrong ward." Reaper replied awkwardly, "The name is James."

The god of death casually picked up such a bad street name, thinking that the other party would soon forget him, and he was not responsible for the name at all.

"Oh..." The girl replied boredly, and stopped looking at the Grim Reaper, and turned to look out the window.

"You really want to go out?" Reaper thought it was rare to have such a day to chat with people with the mentality of Reaper, so he asked one more question.

"No, I'm just..." The girl turned her head in surprise, but the answer paused, "Relax your eyes."

Only then did the god of death realize that her eyes had always looked like a pool of stagnant water, and she didn't seem to want to go outside.After seeing the god of death of many people, I can see the fear hidden under that calmness at once.The little girl, about ten years old, was desperately holding back some kind of fear, and now there was a hint of boredom in that fear.

I disturbed the girl myself.The Grim Reaper quickly grasped this point, didn't stay any longer, and went straight out.

Alice didn't leave a deep impression on this meeting, but the God of Death noticed that Alice's fate was as invisible as the God of Death.

He started researching this person named Alice Lin, and the results were astonishing.As the god of death, he can see the status quo of the world and all the past records at any time, but he can't find the direct records of Alice Lin. Instead, he can get the information about Alice Lin through the sights and information heard by some people. Si Lin's information.

Alice Lim is special.Because of this thought, he walked near Alice's hospital bed again. Sure enough, those patients didn't seem to remember that a strange man broke in yesterday, even though the god of death still used the same body as yesterday.Because of Reaper's ability to be unobtrusive, no one talks to him, and no one looks at him.

This is another special feature of Alice. She was able to take the initiative to talk to Death, although it was because the other party bumped into her hospital bed.

The Grim Reaper ignored those people numbly, walked straight to the sleeping Alice, looked at her bottle, and counted the bubbles in a bored manner.

"Sir, what's the matter with you?" Alice woke up, staring at Death in a daze, obviously no longer knowing him.

"I came to see the family members, but I went to the wrong ward." Death was a little sad, and was about to leave, but heard Alice's brisk laughter.

"There was also a person who went wrong yesterday, and said his name was James." Alice swept away the gloom and said with a smile, "Although I joked about other people's names, I still think he must have made up the name."

The Grim Reaper froze in place, never expecting that Alice could still remember the unexpected guest.He stopped and moved a stool to talk with Alice.This chat lasted for two hours.In the end, the nurse's inspection interrupted the two of them, and the god of death left again. Before leaving, he caught the flash of melancholy in Alice's eyes.

That is not to regret the departure of the god of death, but to worry about oneself.

For unknown reasons, Alice Lin always encountered various accidents after waking up from a car accident. This situation made her live very cautiously and very difficult.And the strange thing is that before the car accident, everything about Alice Lin was directly recorded, but after the car accident, it was gone.

And the last direct record of her is that Alice Lin was in a car accident and was on the verge of death.Presumably this is the reason why she frequently encountered accidents. She should have died at that time, but she survived for some reason. In order to fill this loophole, the rules of the world are bound to obliterate her.

The god of death does not stop this phenomenon, and his current thoughts and concepts are completely different from those of ordinary people.He didn't think death was wrong at all, he even thought it was another new birth.So he has no reason to hold back.It's just that after that, he would visit Alice Lin every day, talk to her for a while, and then talk about him who appeared before.

Every time they met, Alice Lin didn't know him, but she could always leave the place of this stranger in her memory.Even though they had met a dozen times, Reaper was a stranger.But that's enough.This is considered to be alive.

Just imagine, if one day, you can control the life and death of others, you can even run naked on the road, rob, steal, kill, you may be excited for a while, but the result is that no one can remember what you did, the one who was almost killed by you The person who hacked to death actually gave you a friendly gesture.Can this count as living?Whatever you do is nothing, you are always like air...

But it's different now, there is one person who won't recognize him, but can remember him, that's enough.He finally has himself.