[Comprehensive fear] Borrow your life

Ken Kaneki ended the call and wrote down the address of Shinigami on a piece of paper.

Judging from the place name, this place is still within the scope of Tokyo, and it can't be said how far away.Kaneki Ken couldn't help but wonder why Alice took so much trouble to trouble himself, although he really wanted to do something for Alice.

If I remember correctly, this address is located in District 11—an area that is not as stable as the 20th District where Kaneki Ken is currently located, but it is not a dangerous area either.

Compared with some dangerous areas where ghouls are active, this area should be considered relatively peaceful.In his opinion, the God of Reaper should stay in a place where death occurs frequently and is very dangerous—for example, Districts 1 to 4, where there are many ghouls and basically uninhabitable. At first thought of District 11, it seems inconceivable.

But who can guess the mind of the god of death?Just like the mysterious Alice.

I mean...as soon as possible?

Kaneki Ken hesitated for a while or backed out from the gate of Shangjing University.Yesterday was the last time he went to the research laboratory of Will Company. All their sampling experiments were almost completed, at least he didn't have to go there again while waiting for the results.Originally, he was supposed to resume his normal life, go to school normally, and happily meet Ying, whom he had not seen for a long time.

However... well, there was nothing to regret about postponing the date for a few days.Even though he thought so, Kaneki Ken still called the friends who had already made an appointment to inform him of his whereabouts and his deep apology.

"Okay, you must call me when you come back and tell me what the hell you have been doing these days. You have been elusive, and I can't find you when I go to antiques." Ying complained helplessly.

The word "antique" suddenly brought back Kaneki Ken's memories, and he suddenly missed those ghoul shop assistants.They are all kind ghouls, just like human beings, they love their companions and provided shelter and necessary food for him, an unrelated ghoul.

"Actually, I've been working with a friend recently. Ah, her name is Alice. I'll send you her phone number later. If you can't reach me, you can find her. If you can, don't go to Antiques. Please, please." It's not that people don't trust the people in the antique coffee shop, but there are many other ghouls haunting it, and some human beings may be targeted by those ghouls if they are not careful.That's how I was targeted by that female ghoul at the beginning - God Dai Lishi, and finally fell into this situation.

He doesn't want anything to happen to Ying, so it's better not to go to places like antiques.As for the reason for not going, he hasn't figured it out yet, so he is anxiously waiting for Ying's next words, lest he ask why.

"Then... well, you must come back quickly." Ying didn't ask any more questions.This friend has always been like this, and he is always terribly sensitive to people's emotions. He must have noticed that he doesn't want him to go to antiques, but he can't tell the reason.

Thank you, Ying.

Kaneki-ken smiled and hung up the phone, put on his backpack, opened the door, and walked down the street silently.

Next, he will spend an afternoon driving to District 11. If all goes well, it may only take two days.

This time he still chose the tram, looking at the tram that just left, and listening to the not-so-beautiful and not-so-noisy sound of the tram running, he couldn't help but think of the last time he met the god of death.

Will there be any adventures this time?In the end, why did Alice desperately look for that god of death, and that god of death would rather show up in front of someone who has nothing to do with him than beside Alice?Although Alice always talks about the god of death as if she is facing an enemy, Kaneki Ken doesn't think so. He thinks that the god of death has been silently taking care of Alice.

Thinking about it this way, he actually changed from the original fear to looking forward to meeting the god of death, and a little smile could not help but appear on the corner of his mouth.

"You seem to be very happy after you left Antique." A familiar voice, familiar smell, familiar purple hair, and - familiar posture.Kirishima Touka stepped on the back of Kanekiken's seat and put one hand on this leg, showing a displeased expression, and said in an extremely displeased tone that was not very friendly no matter how you heard it.

"No—" Jin Muyan stood up in a panic and waved his hands, intending to defend himself, but found that she was right.After leaving Antique, he not only has the hope of turning back into a human, but also has a day to return to being a human. How can he be unhappy like this?

"Everyone from Antique, are you all right?" Jin Muyan invited Dong Xiang to sit down together.

"Hmm..." Dong Xiang seemed a little hesitant, "Actually, you and Alice have gotten very close recently, and everyone is very worried."

"Don't worry, Miss Alice is very kind to me, even if she knew that I was a ghoul, she didn't say anything." She also tried hard to help me change back to a human.Kaneki Ken could see that Alice was not the kind of bad person who would help someone when she was in trouble.She can even be said to be a person who is indifferent to everything except the people and things she cares about.So he is grateful to her.

"No—that's not what I meant. In fact, I wanted to kill you at one point." Kirishima Touka's tone and content suddenly became fierce, which made Kaneki Ken stunned for a moment.

"Are you worried about my betrayal?" Kaneki Ken's astonishment didn't last long and turned into a warm smile, "I still remember when I first became a ghoul and said that I was neither human nor ghoul, but the store manager said I am both a human and a ghoul. So I think, I will not betray the ghouls, nor will I betray humans. So I did not tell you about Miss Alice, nor did I tell Miss Alice about you thing."

"The store manager—that's what he said." Kirishima Touka suddenly lowered his head, "Sorry, we're really worried, after all, you were once a human being, Kaneki."

"But you didn't do anything," Kaneki Ken was not angry, "That's enough."

Kaneki Ken can imagine how difficult this is.There is a ghoul who is familiar with their ghoul identity mixed with humans, and often disappears without knowing what he is doing.All kinds of suspicions are not excessive, the safest way is to kill this betrayed ghoul.However, after all, this ghoul once worked together, got along for a while, and they are of the same kind, so it would be difficult to kill them.

And during this period of hesitation, Alice did not take any action for a long time, and she didn't look like she was going to deal with the ghouls at all.

That's why I was able to live until now, and that's why Dong Xiang appeared here and talked to me so plainly.

"I went back. Today, I came to say sorry to you." Dong Xiang got up, but suddenly stopped, "Also, you are always welcome at Antique."

"En." Jin Muyan responded silently, hearing the sound of footsteps fading away, feeling a little regretful.If he finally turns back into a human, he may have to stay away from these ghouls forever.

The tram finally arrived at the station, Kaneki Ken packed his luggage and was in the mood, and embarked on the journey briskly.

In the end, he couldn't help but send a text message to Alice:

"I'm going to find Reaper now. I gave Ying your number, and please help me deal with anything during the period. Thank you for taking care of me all the time."

There are two replies:

"Ah."

"Go early and come back early, pay attention to safety."

The receiving time of the two text messages was 1 minute apart, Jin Muyan finished reading it with a smile, and could almost imagine how Alice struggled for a minute to hold back the second text message from this lame caring person.Alice is actually not good at caring for people, this is her best expression.

Whether it is human or ghoul, it is the same, and it makes Kaneki Ken feel warm.He was looking forward to completing this mission as soon as possible and coming back to see this group of lovely people sooner.

Soon, District 11 arrived, and he wandered along the road following the address.

There were very few people on the street, and many of them had dark faces on their faces.

Kaneki Ken felt that something was wrong, so he asked a middle-aged man in the name of asking for directions.

"Here, it's not far away, just go straight and then turn right until you reach the end." The middle-aged man answered his question enthusiastically, and carefully warned, "Little brother, it's not peaceful here in District 11. , you'd better not stay outside and wander around by yourself as much as possible."

"Unbalanced mean?"

"Besides those beasts, what else can it be?" The man said angrily, "Sorry, I scared you, anyway, be careful, everyone doesn't go out very much recently."

Kaneki Ken's good mood was suddenly tainted with a little haze.

He walked and sniffed the smell around him.Ghouls have a very sensitive sense of smell and can identify their own kind by smelling them, but humans can't tell the difference.And he is a ghoul, so it stands to reason that he doesn't have to worry about being attacked by a ghoul... right?

Kaneki Ken was a little nervous.The man's words made him realize that it might not be a coincidence that the god of death lived here, it must be because too many people died here recently.

"Beast", this is how humans evaluate ghouls. Perhaps in the eyes of humans, ghouls are not as good as animals.Animals can at least contribute some food, but ghouls will only harm society.This is what a classmate in my class said.

Somehow, Kaneki Ken has remembered it until now.He couldn't help thinking that for himself now, ghouls were of the same kind.But he couldn't admit that he was a ghoul so frankly. Deep in his heart, he always believed that he was a human being, so he wanted to change back to a human being.

What about before?What did I think before I had no intersection with ghouls and I was still a human being?Probably just regarded the ghoul as a dangerous creature.

Jin Muyan's eyes became heavy, and he didn't feel anything before, but now, looking at the door that was so close at hand, he was actually thinking about an unimportant thing: If he can't turn back into a human being in the end, he really wants to keep going. To live as a ghoul?

God of Death, how does he view the two different creatures, ghouls and humans?

The door opened.As if they knew Kaneki Ken's arrival early in the morning, the death couple opened the door for him.

"Iris asked you to come." Her husband invited Kaneki Ken to the table and sat down together.

The wife brought drinks for the two of them, the husband's was green tea, and Kanekiken's was coffee, "Please take it slow, we only have this coffee here to entertain you."

"Do you know that I'm a ghoul?" Kaneki Ken couldn't help pricking up his ears to listen to the sound outside the house when he said this.

"Well. Don't worry, no one here cares about us, and no one will approach here." The husband took a sip of tea and said softly.

"Alice, she has always wanted to see you, she - thinks you are the god of death, and wants to know why you have been avoiding her." Kaneki Ken first chose this question.

"Actually, we didn't hide from her. We happened to be watching her all the time. But for some reason, we didn't want to have too much close contact with her. She may have realized this before letting you come Yes." The husband answered his question with a smile.

some reason?Kaneki Ken was a little puzzled, but another question made him ask first.

"That means you are indeed the gods of death? Why are there two gods of death, male and female, at the same time? Why do you observe Alice?"

"I have to ask you this point. Why do you think there can't be two male and female Death Gods? What do you think Death Gods should be like?"

Kaneki Ken was questioned all of a sudden, and found that he did not have a clear concept of death.It's just the impression based on various myths that made him and Alice feel that the god of death should be a man, not a couple.

"I think the god of death should be illusory. I never thought that the god of death would appear in the form of a dead person. There are still so many gods of death."

"Then let me ask you again, what do you think is death?"

"Eh?" Kaneki Ken felt like he was being played with, "Death means that the body loses its functions, the signs of being alive... right?"

"However, humans often say that even though someone is dead, they still live in people's hearts."

"That's just a good wish." To die is to die, Kaneki Ken can accept this very well.

"What if I say it's true?" However, the god of death gave him a heavy negative.

He was so surprised that he couldn't close his mouth from ear to ear, he couldn't imagine that it was said from the mouth of death.

"Human beings cannot see the real god of death, because the real god of death is a concept that transcends the material, a natural law, but this law has consciousness like a human being. The same is true for the dead. *Death can only be seen when The material human being seems to be dead, but in fact he still lives in the hearts of those who remember him. However, once no living person in this world remembers him, he is really dead, and the god of death will accept him at this time. This dead man. You can barely think of it as the so-called harvesting of souls, although human beings don’t actually have such a thing.”

"This is the first time I've heard this statement..."

"Of course, people have always believed that the god of death harvests life. In fact, losing life is just a natural law, and the god of death accepts the last dead. Of course, before that, the god of death could design various accidents and deaths. For those who escaped the design of the god of death , Death will pay attention, Alice is like this."

"However, I still don't understand what the god of death is." Kaneki Ken held the cup tightly, looking at the swirl in the coffee, feeling confused.

"Because I haven't finished talking yet. Those dead people who are accepted by the God of Death will become a part of the God of Death just like us, and become a common consciousness. The God of Death also has preferences. He wants to enjoy life like a human being, so he uses those who have already The body of a person who is completely 'dead' acts in the world. Because he is completely dead, no matter whether it is physically or consciously, the god of death uses a dead person. So no one can make him die again, no one can kill him, No one can remember his face either. Because he is consciously dead. Do you understand?"

"In other words, there are many 'dead people' acting in this world?" Ken Kaneki felt a chill inexplicably, "But how can so many bodies be managed at the same time? It always feels amazing."

"It seems that you still haven't understood that the god of death is not a person, he is just a law, a kind of consciousness. There is no such thing as a complex system in the world that is overloaded because of a series of tasks at the same time. Similarly, the god of death has both It is also possible to touch so many consciousnesses and bodies, just like the flow of water and the flow of air, which are carried out naturally and simultaneously. For example, when I am talking to you now, other gods of death can also feel it at the same time, knowing that I am here What happened, of course I felt theirs at the same time."

"Won't this be confusing? Having multiple consciousnesses at the same time, receiving different memories at the same time." Kaneki Ken couldn't accept these things that refreshed his worldview.

"Maybe, but there is indeed a main consciousness in the God of Death, and that is the body of the God of Death—an existence that cannot be touched, seen, or heard. Our consciousness can only be regarded as assisting him. , our consciousness can be conveyed to him but cannot affect him, and his consciousness cannot be shared with us, it can only be conveyed to us. Just like some time ago, he suddenly sent us to monitor Alice one by one, but like this After doing that, he told us not to have close contact with Alice, and we don't know why."

"The main consciousness?"

"I personally think he was the first person to die in this world."

"Eh?"

"*'s death is a law of nature, maybe he was not the first * to die, but he was the first to be completely forgotten by the world, so he became the original consciousness of death, that is, the main consciousness, me and many others The god of death thinks so. It's a pity that maybe because he has been dead for too long, the main consciousness doesn't remember who he is. Otherwise, you would know the real name of the god of death today."

"I always feel that I am suddenly curious about the world after death."

"Hehe, you don't have to think about it, that's what happens after you die. And if you die as a ghoul, it's not under the control of our god of death. I don't know why, but even non-human gods of death like zombies don't care about it." It can be accepted, but we cannot accept the ghouls that are more like humans, and even some laws of death do not apply to you."

For the first time, the god of death complained with strong emotion: "Ghouls should have existed since ancient times."

The author has something to say: come back, update~~ In order to compensate for yesterday's broken update, today's chapter is relatively thick and long.

In fact, the last sentence of this chapter has already shown why the god of death can't get close to Alice...