as if poisoned

There is a big stone in everyone's heart

Every struggle will only tighten into the abyss

Just take an ax and smash it

to float up for fresh air

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"Mom, I'll take the three of them to play by the river."

Ever since they found out that there is a river near here, they have been making trouble for me to go there to play. I just came back yesterday, so I still have an excuse to delay not taking them. Now they, after breakfast, are like energetic bugs, making a fuss died.

"Hey, remember to be careful."

I patted my mother on the shoulder and said to him: "I will." My mother gave me a reassuring look.

Sheng Jia noticed the behavior of my mother and me, and wondered why.It wasn't until I went out with him that he asked, "You are so old, why is your mother still worried about you going to the river?"

Qin Nuo also joined in and said, "That's right, he objected to you taking us to the river yesterday."

Yuzhi seemed to think of something and echoed it, "That's right, you said that it was getting dark at Shenmen, I thought your mother was worried about us because we were still children!"

Shengjia saw my hesitant expression, and he strangled my neck and asked me, "What happened? If you don't tell me, you won't treat us as brothers."

I struggled for a while, knowing it was useless, and then started to say, "When I was still in primary school here, we had a group of children who often went to play by the river, but they rejected me and another child who was mentally handicapped. I often played with that little girl, but one day they took the little girl into the water when I was not around, and the body floated up the next day. She had several scars on her body, and the doll she often held was also Missing, the police suspect that she was bullied before she died. But there has been no evidence."

I couldn't continue talking until this point, Yuzhi couldn't hear what happened next and asked, "And then?"

Seeing something strange, Qin Nuo and Sheng Jia pushed him at the same time, and then I sighed and continued, "When he was in his first seven years, all the children except me had a handprint that seemed to be caught by someone. , Everyone's fingerprints appeared in different places. And after the fingerprints appeared, each of them had a high fever."

At this time, Yuzhi interrupted me, "The little girl came back for revenge?"

The other two killed him with an eye knife, and the consciousness told him to be quiet, and I continued, "Yes, I found out later that he fell into the water because they robbed her little doll, and he did it to pick it up." overboard, and they beat her with vines before he fell overboard."

After hearing this, Shengjia asked me, "Does your mother know?"

I said, "My mother only knows the first part, and the latter part is what Li Rong said to me by mistake once."

They opened their eyes wide, and Yuzhi said, "Let's not go, what if he wants us to play with him?"

Qin Nuo rolled his eyes, "I said, Lin Yuzhi, can you stop being so timid? I'm not afraid of a woman anymore, but you are afraid of a man?"

Yuzhi was about to retort, but Sheng Jia blocked him with his hand, "Okay, since we have decided to go, then stop arguing, Qin Nuo is right, don't be timid, Yuzhi, and you haven't done any harm. People, you shouldn't be afraid to find you."

I smiled, so let's go.In fact, the road to Xiaohe is not too far away. This matter was sealed back then, and no one dared to speak about it. Many people still came here to play.

I seemed to have thought of something, and said to them: "The little girl's tomb is actually behind here. You can play first, but I'm going to see him."

Sheng Jia said with a blank expression, "I'll accompany you."

I nodded, "OK"

We found a place to sit by the small river, and then Shengjia and I walked in, and I picked a bunch of flowers and made a garland.At this time, Shengjia laughed at me, "I never thought you would have this kind of skill."

"Actually, she taught me. She likes this kind of flower very much, but I rarely come back after junior high school. Every time I come back, I am in a hurry and don't have time to see her."

Sheng Jia looked at me, as if he had something to say, he patted my shoulder, "Actually, there is a follow-up to this matter, right?"

I looked at him with an incredulous look on my face, "How do you know?"

He patted me on the shoulder even more vigorously, "Since he will tell you, he must have taken measures to frame you or something. If you look at someone like his mother, his son will definitely not be much better."

"Well, he later said that I made those handprints, and I even made ghosts here before."

"Sure enough, there is such a mother as there is a son." He said with a look of contempt.

When I walked to his tombstone, I found it was very clean, I put down the garland and looked around, "No, I remember that Xiao Ai's parents immigrated very early and said they would not come back here, and I remember that after they She also gave birth to a son. But why is this place so clean?"

Shengjia asked me, "Does he have any other relatives?"

I shrugged my shoulders to show that I didn't know, and said, "Otherwise, I'll go home and ask my mother?"

"Um"

I sat by Xiao Ai's tomb, "Xiao Ai, I am studying very well now, and I have very good friends. You see, I brought him to see you. I remember you wanted to drive me away and asked me to talk to you over there." I play with my little friend, but you pinch the little doll’s palm every time, I know you really don’t want me to go.”

Shengjia walked away silently, but I didn't mean to stop and continued, "I'm sorry, Xiao Ai. I can't help you. You are lying here alone, but I don't have time to look at it every time. You. You must be very lonely. I remember you said that you will marry me as a bride when you grow up. May I tell you a secret?"

I said next to Xiao Ai's photo, "That person just now is the one I like." I touched Xiao Ai's photo, and in this photo, he is lively and cute, with two dimples around his mouth, and his smile is really sweet. It's very sweet, different from those scheming children.But now she can only lie in the cold tomb, lying alone.

"Xiao Ai, I like you very much. It's getting late, I'll go first, and I will be happy together for your sake."

After finishing speaking, I left. The summer wind is hot, but I feel extremely relaxed. Maybe this matter is also one of my knots. Now that I have told them, I feel a little relieved and comforted. .

I hope that Xiao Ai can live a good life in the other world.