as if poisoned

Did you ever see me clearly

Did you really like me once

These have become mysteries in my heart

I am afraid

when the mystery is solved

The answer I got was not what I wanted

I am afraid

because I will lose you

so i close my five senses

to believe what i want to believe

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After two days, it was almost better, but my head was still a little dizzy. I tried my best to cheer myself up, and I also had tutoring classes and part-time jobs in flower shops.

I got up and went to the zipper cabinet, took out a piece of clothing and put it on. I don't have many clothes in the closet, and it's the same style when I come and go.

Doorbell rang

I froze, and went to open the door.It was Huang Shengjia who saw it, "Why are you here again?"

During the two days I asked for leave, he came to see me, urged me to take medicine, and bought me food. He must really want to be friends with me, right?

"Can't I come?"

He pushed me away who was standing by the door, and walked in.Go to the folding table and put down a bag: "Come and eat"

"Huh? Eat?" I looked at the clock. If I go out at this time, the time is just right, and there is no time to eat.

Unpredictably, he came over and grabbed my collar, pulled me over to sit down, and pressed my shoulder: "Eat"

I sighed, opened the paper bag, and it turned out to be barbecued pork rice... Did he really think I like to eat barbecued pork rice?

I looked at him suspiciously, he turned his head shyly, and said shyly, "Last time, I saw that you really wanted to take it, but you need to take medicine, and you can't take it for the time being, so I just..."

"Thank you" Although I don't like char siu very much, I still thank him for his kindness. I still ate it. I thought I could eat it faster, so I can leave soon

I ate very fast, almost stuffed. I also heard Huang Shengjia calling me from behind: "Hey, Ding Yuzhen, eat slowly." But when he finished saying this sentence, I choked up

He patted me on the back to comfort me. "Water... here" said two words, I coughed strongly again, he went to the back and poured me a glass of water skillfully, I drank it quickly, "Thank you"

"You idiot, eat so fast after you say eat slowly, be careful to choke you to death"

I ignored him, I continued to eat the bag of char siu rice.I don't have time to care about whether he eats it well, I just gobble it up and want to finish it quickly.

And the awkward space alone with him left me at a loss for what to say.I am a slow person, and it is difficult for me to take the initiative to find someone to chat with.

After 5 minutes, the rice bottomed out.I quickly stood up and packed my things, thinking that although such a time was rushed, it was still too late.

"I see you off"

"Huh?" I feel that every time I listen to him, I have a vague feeling. Maybe I feel that he is not such a person?

"I said, I'll see you off" His volume turned up, and his articulation was also gnashing his teeth

"Okay" Anyway, even if I don't let him deliver it, he will follow me, so let him deliver it, I'm happy to save time.

He came downstairs with me. He got on the electric bicycle and realized that I would sit on it. I paused, wondering if this thing can sit on it?And it's like he sees right through me

"This guy is very strong, don't underestimate him" He waited for me and let me sit on his electric bicycle, I thought, I was running out of time, so I resigned myself to sit on the back of his bicycle and wait for me As soon as he sat down firmly, he galloped up, which scared me so much that I hugged his waist tightly.

I was enjoying the speed of the gust of wind, the wind was blowing coldly, I was so comfortable that I shivered, I almost forgot that my illness was not fully recovered, I tightened my shirt, I have to say that his riding skills are really good, he He drove me to the flower shop within 10 minutes, and when I got off, he put his hand on my forehead.

"Well, the fever has subsided."

I flashed his hand, and I said "what are you worried about, I can take care of myself", what he said made me a little confused, although it is true that he often came to my house in those two days, but I still don't think I can get along with him to this point.

That is, the kindness of the two-day meal.

"When are you free, I'll treat you to dinner." Treat it as a kindness.Of course I won't just say the last sentence, because he will refuse, if he refuses, how should I repay the favor?

He looked at me and smiled, "If you want to repay the favor, then please teach me English. I heard that you are now a tutor, right? Then I will ask you."

After speaking, he galloped away, leaving me behind.But why did he guess my mind?