there are wolves

The feelings of a young man, like the beating heart in his chest, are fresh, warm, simple, turbulent, and at an early age, one always thinks that falling in love with someone and handing over one's heart can have it for a long time My lover, I am honest with you, so you have to be unreserved to me. Yu Wangran always feels that his love is much deeper than others. He thinks that he fell in love with Luo Xunyi's soul first, Then he fell in love with his body, and it was only at this moment that he realized that he knew nothing about that person's soul. His so-called falling in love was just his ignorant yearning and exploration, or it was more relevant, I'm in love with your body so I long for your soul.

But Luo Xunyi has no soul. Behind him is a black shadow haunted by monsters. Yu Wangran wants his soul, but he can't give it to him, and he can't chop off the filthy places on his body Open it to show him, it's bloody, he thinks it's dirty.

But Yu Wangran didn't know, that's why he was so desperate to beg and ask for it. The root cause was that what he wanted was Luo Xunyi's confession.

It was already dark when he woke up, Yu Wangran opened his eyes and found that the room was dark, only the small desk lamp on the bedside table was lit with sporadic scattered light, like broken stars falling from the Milky Way, lingering like a cloud. cloud of fog.

If it weren't for the strong feeling in his muscles, bones and skin, he really suspected that he had just had a dream, and when he woke up, he was gone.

He got up and found his mobile phone by the pillow. There were no unchecked messages on the mobile phone. The room was empty, as if that person had never been here. The strong anxiety was like a pair of big hands climbing up the skin, reaching out to him throat...

There was a sudden noise outside the door, and it was like a thief who entered.

He lifted off the quilt covering his body and wrapped it casually around his body, trotted to the door and opened the bedroom door.

Luo Xunyi was cleaning up the leftovers on the table in the restaurant. He was wearing a pair of sweatpants he had left behind. His upper body was uncovered, revealing some messy teeth marks and blue and red marks on his neck, shoulders and chest. The one that was crushed underneath.

Hearing the sound of the door opening, Luo Xunyi turned to look at the bedroom with a plate of leftovers, showing a gentle and plain smile: "Did it wake you up?"

Yu Wangran was wrapped in a quilt and leaned against the door frame, looking at him silently.

Luo Xunyi put the dishes into the sink, scanned the ground, found his slippers in the living room, took them and squatted beside his feet, saying, "Put your feet up, the ground is too cold."

Yu Wangran stretched his feet into the slippers with his hands, lowered his eyes and stared at his face for a moment.

Luo Xunyi took another set of clothes from the balcony and handed them to him: "Come out for dinner after changing."

Yu Wangran turned around like a puppet, and when the door behind him was about to be closed by him, he suddenly turned around and asked, "Aren't you angry with me?"

Luo Xunyi's smile seems to have become his label. As long as he is in front of Wangran, he will never tear off this label. He rubbed his hair and said, "Why, I won't be angry with you."

Yu Wangran entered the bedroom in a daze, stood on the floor with his clothes in his arms in a daze, a gust of evening wind came in from the window and blew his body cold, his heart was even more uneasy, he frowned and even felt a little irritable.

How is this going?So back again?What does Luo Xunyi mean?Does being so erratic imply that he has forgotten the previous quarrel?

It is in line with Luo Xunyi's style, but for Wangran, it is impossible.

After changing his clothes, he sat on the edge of the bed and meditated for a while, and suddenly stepped out of the room with some timidity, but his timidity could not solve any problems, so he convinced himself again, opened the door and walked out.

Luo Xunyi had already put on the short sleeves that she took off a few hours ago, and was washing dishes in the kitchen. When she heard the door ring, she raised her head and smiled at him: "Are there any guests today? So many dishes"

Yu Wangran walked slowly to the dining room and sat down, looked down at the washed cups on the table, and didn't answer him.

The wind swayed the curtains and came in, blowing the flowers in the vase into a frenzy, and a few wisps of faint fragrance wafted to the tip of the nose.

"Have you figured it out?"

Yu Wangran asked.

Luo Xunyi glanced at him, put the half-washed dishes into the sink, buried his head in hesitation for a moment, washed his hands and walked out of the kitchen, sat down opposite him, clasped his hands together and put them on the dining table, frowned and lowered his eyes. Looking at his face, he stammered: "I apologize to you, what you said... is indeed my fault, I... I'm sorry"

Yu Wangran frowned, not understanding what he was trying to express in this messy and interrupted prologue. He looked directly into his eyes through the vase on the table: "I don't understand what you want to say, do you apologize? Why do you apologize?"

Luo Xunyi closed his eyes, leaned back to the back of the chair, sighed as if he was very tired, stared blankly at the tablecloth on the dining table, and said softly: "These days, I have been thinking about what you said, You are right, I do not pay as much for you as you do for me."

Yu Wangran cut off his words lightly, like an upright judge, said: "Don't talk about giving now, I didn't give anything for you, I just gave you all I can give you, I am willing, I am not I'm asking you for something in return, I just want you to be honest with me, trust me, don't treat me like a villain, do you understand? That's all I want, I need you to be honest with me"

"...confess what?"

Luo Xunyi raised her head and looked into his eyes, her eyes were dazed and loose, extremely powerless.

Seeing him like this, weak and helpless, as if he touched him on that rainy night, immersed in his own lonely and dark world, Yu Wangran suddenly softened, but this time he did not retreat, He thought that Luo Xunyi's coming back to him meant that he was willing to confess the things he kept in his heart, and chose to be honest with him.

He welcomed him with great joy. How could he have thought that it was a repetition, another repetition, why was he so capricious? !

Intense anger suddenly surged in Yu Wangran's heart, and his throat was burned by the anger of being ignored. He was so hysterical, Luo Xunyi still didn't take his words seriously, he was still pretending to be stupid, still repeating, and still Trying to whitewash the peace of the world!

There are two people sitting on the left and right ends of a 1.5-meter dining table. They want to hug each other very much, but there is a distance of 150 centimeters between them, life and reality. One of them does not want to ignore this distance, and the other dare not Across this distance, Party A and Party B, who seem to be at an impasse in negotiations, are arguing over the terms of the contract. The dispute is ugly, and they both want to persuade each other and surrender themselves.

Yu Wangran smiled coldly and said, "Don't you understand? Then why did you come back to me?"

Luo Xun recalled: "I want to apologize to you, I apologize to you for what I did, I have been trying my best not to bring you any harm, but in the end... I still hurt you"

Yu Wangran seemed to be putting on a mask, the expression on his face quickly cooled down, and said: "I don't want to hear these words, it's too fake, what you've always said to me is so fake, it's a big joke over and over again. Heap, actually? You didn’t say anything, you didn’t tell me the truth, you were a fake in front of me, what you said to me was false, the real part of you never allowed me Been close, do you admit it?"

Now he has become a debater in a debate competition, and he puts forward his rebuttals without leaving room for reason and attack. He is so angry that he completely forgets how anxious, sad and helpless the person sitting opposite is.

Luo Xunyi was forced into a dead end by his words, and had no way out, so he could only look up at him as if begging, and asked, "What do you want?"

"You have something hidden in your heart, I know, you are hiding it from me, and I know it too, what I want is very simple, I want you to trust me, I want you to be honest with me, because I don't want to worry about you all the time I don’t know how to comfort you, how to help you, how to protect you, I don’t want to hug you blindfolded like a fool, I don’t care about anything, I want to I want you to give me the power of an insider, not because I love you, but because I want to help you, I want to protect you"

Luo Xunyi leaned on the dining table with his forehead in his hands, as if he had fallen into a disadvantage in a negotiation and was about to lose everything, his voice was choked and trembling: "No, Wang Ran, except for this matter, I will depend on you. I listen to you, you forgive me, I can't say"

Yu Wangran looked at him quietly, and a layer of moist white mist gradually floated in front of his eyes. It was his opponent who forced the opponent to retreat steadily, but he did not show the slightest gesture of a winner. Confused, more sad than him.

"Then you're here to tell me we've broken up?"

Yu Wangran asked softly, calmly as if he was watching someone else's story.

Luo Xunyi shook her head crazily: "No, no, no, don't break up, don't break up..."

He seemed to be having a nightmare, a child in a babble, the words were crushed and glued between his teeth, repeating back and forth.

"Then what exactly do you want from me!"

Yu Wangran was calm and self-retained. He had never collapsed since he was a child, let alone cried out. The moment he spoke just now, even he himself was frightened by the angry and sad tone, which was nothing like his own. The voice didn't even resemble a human voice, it was like a dying beast struggling and roaring with blood and tears in a violent storm.

"Why don't you kill me?! Dig out my heart and weigh it to see how much it is worth. Is it worth a little sincerity of yours! I keep saying that no matter who you are, I will accept you, I love you You! I love you, Luo Xunyi! Why don't you believe me! What can I do to make you trust me? If I bump my head to death here now, won't you just believe me!"

Luo Xunyi tugged at the roots of his hair, making a sound like boiling water in his throat, biting his lips tightly without saying a word, as if trying to turn the situation around with his own stubbornness, but he realized desperately that Yu Wangran Already disappointed in him, he's about to lose him...

Yu Wangran stared at the top of his thick black hair, took a few breaths, his blood-red eyes were a little flirtatious and merciless, he gritted his teeth as if he was going to tear him apart, and said, "Speak up"

"...Please, don't break up"

"impossible"

Luo Xunyi slowly lowered his arms, struggled as if all his bones were crushed, pressed his hands on the table and stood up precariously, raised his head and looked at Yu Wangran who was on the opposite side of the table, tears were streaming down his face at some point, Trembling lips said: "Okay, listen to you"

It was as if the judge had swung his hammer to the ground and sentenced them to death with one sentence, and there was no room for turning back.

Yu Wangran went crazy and furious, he lifted the vase on the table and threw it on the floor...

Glass shards were shattered all over the floor, and flowers and branches were lying on the floor mottled with tears, as if a beauty was crying bitterly. The moment the bottle shattered, the water splashed wet the trousers of the two.

Looking at the shattered starlight all over the floor, Luo Xunyi froze for a moment in silence, picked up a pink rose that had already started to wither in the glass shards all over the floor, walked to Yu Wangran, and handed the flower to his hand.

Yu Wangran looked at him with bloodshot eyes, as if he was staring at an enemy who wished to cut him into pieces. Instead of picking up the flower, he gritted his teeth word by word and said, "Luo Xunyi, remember, I am selfish, I hold grudges, if you break up with me, you will never come back, I will remember you forever, and I will always hate you"

Luo Xunyi put the rose on the dining table, looked up at his face, was confused for a while, then stepped on the broken glass on the floor, and left the hut.

He left Yu Wangran in the hut, and closed the black wrought iron gate in the wall, as if he had locked a lock in his heart. The young man living inside was his sweetheart.

Yu Wangran may never know how much he longs to be with him, he loves him, loves him like a monster.