there are wolves

Yu Wangran didn't know that the conversation between his mother and Luo Xunyi had deepened to the level of Luo Xunyi's psychological bottom line. He only knew that Luo Xunyi was shrouded in irreparable negativity and pessimism, like a lonely soul wandering at the gate of hell. Wild ghost, it seems that his future does not have Bi Luo, only Huang Quan.

Closed depression, Yu Wangran is just hearsay and has never experienced it with his own eyes. The last time Luo Xunyi got sick, it seemed that he deliberately avoided him, so that Yu Wangran had that ridiculous dream that was both true and false He only said that he woke up from the dream, but he forgot the other person, that person has been wandering in the dream, step by step towards the end of the road, step by step towards the extreme of fear.

Luo Xunyi seemed to be tightly absorbed by a black hole and fell into the endless darkness, like a fallen angel with black wings on his back. He fell into the world and brought only despair and unhappiness...

Yu Wangran suddenly discovered that he had never really entered Luo Xunyi's heart. Luo Xunyi had been pretending to him all this time. He put on a clown mask and danced and danced in front of him, saying all the time, you Look at how happy I am, stay with me, I can make you happy too... and the clown who took off his mask is like being stripped of his clothes, ashamed to face the crowd, ashamed to greet other people's enthusiasm He was tied to his ankle by an invisible iron chain and tied to the gate of hell.

It's hard to imagine, that night in the hotel, when Luo Xunyi grew black wings, he ran away in despair with what kind of mood.

Yu Wangran suddenly became afraid, he was afraid that he couldn't 'cure' him, Luo Xunyi's emotion was damaged, he could fill it up, his soul was empty, what could he do to fill it up?Giving your own?If that kind of thing really existed, he wouldn't hesitate to tear himself apart to mend him.

Anyway, even the heart has been given to him, so there is nothing to be afraid of.

In the extraordinarily quiet night, so quiet that not even a whiff of wind could be heard, Yu Wangran sat on the grass in the yard, holding a cell phone with a blacked-out screen, staring at the dark grass at night in a daze, under the cover of night without a starry sky , like a lifeless black shadow.

I just talked to my mother on the phone, and my mother said that his situation is more serious than she expected...

"His illness is not serious, the serious thing is that he doesn't want to recover"

"Why? How could he not want to?"

"Don't worry, listen to me, my mother has seen many children with mental illnesses, even more serious ones than him, Luo Xunyi is very different from them in that he did not cooperate with me in the process of talking to him If it were you, would you be defenseless if someone explored your heart? He didn’t, not because he wanted to be cured so much, but because he firmly believed that he was sick. When he was led out from the severe criticism and persecution, his reaction was extremely uneasy, as if he was hypnotizing himself. How terrifying is the power of a person's psychological suggestion? It is enough to switch his good and evil souls, he It's too abnormal. I'm not talking about his abnormal mental state, but his abnormal treatment of his illness. He is like a person who hangs himself on a tree, holding a rope hanging around his neck in his hand. He strangled his neck and refused to let go, not because he was crazy, but because he wanted to create an illusion for others. As for why he wanted to do this... I can only assume"

"What if?"

"Assuming that he is treating others badly, he does not let go of himself, showing his insanity to the world is nothing more than performing a trick. He hangs himself up to attract everyone's attention, so that he can hide some people and some things. I just Hypothesis, this hypothesis may or may not be true, but what I can be sure of is that he is not sick at all, his mind is normal, and his heart is sick."

Yu Wangran sat on the wet grass, the grass thorns pierced his body like densely packed embroidery needles pierced into his flesh, making his muscles and bones itchy and his body swollen with pain, after listening to what his mother said, when he opened his mouth again A little choked up, with five fingers embedded in the wet grass, he grabbed a handful of soil in his palm: "Mom, what are you talking about, isn't he bipolar disorder, can it be cured? Why does he keep giving himself those hints? I don’t want to be good! What can he hide? Please don’t scare me, I’m scared, I’m really scared now”

Yu Wangran hung up the phone and held the phone in his hand, staring at the dark grass in a daze, until the night fog gradually dissipated, and the sky was pale, then he stood up slowly on his knees, walked Stiff and numb legs moved back to the house.

Luo Xunyi was still sleeping, still the same as when he left the room last night, lying on his side curled up, with the quilt covering his chin, as if he had put an airtight feather shackle on his body.

Yu Wangran took off the T-shirt that was wet by the night fog, gently climbed onto the bed and lay on his side facing him, his expressionless eyes fell on his sleeping face.

Luo Xunyi suddenly frowned, and slowly turned over, facing the wall with his back facing him, and pulled up the quilt again.

The corners of Yu Wangran's lips seemed to be pulled up by a thread, pulled up a bit, and the thread broke in an instant, and the corners of his lips fell down.

He put his arms around Luo Xunyi's waist, hugged him tightly from behind through the quilt, buried his face on his shoulder, closed his eyes and fell asleep.

The next day, when he opened his eyes, the bed next to him was already empty, and he didn't know when he was covered with an empty quilt. He sat up and looked around the room blankly, then went to get the mobile phone on the bed cabinet. A note was found under the phone, and the not-so-clean handwriting came from Luo Xunyi.

I went to work, and I will bring you bread in the evening.Just one line of words, with a love heart drawn at the end and a stick figure of a fish drawn in the heart.

Yu Wangran propped his forehead and smiled, put the note away and put it in the drawer, and got up to look for something to eat.

Xue Mingyao went out early in the morning. Recently, his whereabouts are a bit mysterious. He leaves early and returns late on every rest day. When Yu Wangran asked him once in a while, he always said that he would go to Xiangyang's house to make up lessons. Yu Wangran never exposes his lies. Firstly, he does not have the power. Secondly, Xue Mingyao is thin-skinned. He doesn't want to quarrel with his friends again because of his "open mouth". One is no longer two, no more two is no three people, and the two of them are eager to tear down their old ones like last time, then they will really break up.

He used the leftover rice from last night to fry a simple egg-fried rice for himself. After frying it, he took a bite out of it, and immediately dropped the spoon and didn't want to take another bite. When Luo Xunyi fried the rice, he was always Looking at it from the side, there is no difference in the process of diet, how can it be so unpalatable?

Speaking of Luo Xunyi, he should be at work now, it's almost noon, I don't know if he has had lunch...

Yu Wangran pushed the bowl, leaned on the back of the chair, raised his foot to step on the chair under his buttocks, and turned his head to look out of the window glowing with white sunlight.

This is the time when catkins are flying all over the city, like the clouds in the sky are being pulled out by the weaver girl to let them go, and they fly down like shredded cotton, and fall on the ground and twirl into a ball. As the wind whirls and flutters, it seems to be dancing a kind of dance...

Yu Wangran was stunned for a while looking at the catkins falling on the grass, those catkins whirled and flew past his mind, gently and softly, without leaving a trace, as if thinking of many things, or something He didn't expect that when he caught up with those auspicious thoughts in his mind, he felt powerless and heavy... He really wanted to fill his head with those catkins, light and floating, not depressing, not heavy, it seemed So free and easy.

But how can a person be catkins?People have roots.

Go out and walk around, the cabin is depressing him.

Yu Wangran changed into a short-sleeved shirt, blue and black slacks, the hem of the shirt was lightly tied into the belt, he casually scratched his hair, put on his phone and was about to lock the door when he heard someone ringing the doorbell in the yard .

Standing outside the gate was a certain flower courier brother, holding a bouquet of flowers and asking him loudly through the wrought iron gate: "Hello, does Yu Wangran live here?"

Yu Wangran stood at the door and said, "I am, what's wrong?"

"Oh, I have a bouquet of flowers for you, please sign for it"

Yu Wangran frowned, huh?He let out a cry, walked over to open the door, glanced at the bouquet wrapped in blue cellophane in his arms, and asked, "Mine? Who sent it?" He said, picked up a rose-shaped card hanging on the flower, opened it and looked at it. After looking at it, I saw a line of machine-typed artistic words printed inside - for you.

The little brother said: "Oh, the person who gave the flower said that he will give it to you, you will know it, please sign for it."

Yu Wangran's melancholy eyes suddenly shone brightly, and the corners of his lips were dipped in honey, smiling sweetly: "Is the person who sent the flowers a man or a woman?"

"Hmm...it seems to be a man"

Yu Wangran signed the receipt, thanked the younger brother and went back to the house with a bouquet of bright purple flowers. When he couldn't find the vase, he vacated the chopsticks cage and put the chopsticks cage on the dining room table to make a Bracket, then fixed the flowers, enjoyed watching them for a long time, then remembered his plan to go out, locked the door in a hurry and left.

Oh, old couple, what flowers to send!

I don’t know where the lines I read suddenly came to my mind, with its own scene and character design, which made Yu Wangran’s teeth sore all at once, and those little joys that could not be suppressed were like sprouts after the rain. Breaking through the soil, he popped his head out, happily baring his teeth and claws, looking at the world.

He wanted to send Luo Xunyi a text message telling him that he was on his way to the restaurant, and then suddenly thought, would it be a little surprise to meet him secretly?

Thinking of the surprise that was about to bring him, Yu Wangran was so happy that he didn't know what to do. On the road, he only hated that his legs were not long enough, and he walked too slowly. The fool who was dazzled by happiness didn't think Get up and take transportation...

People in love are all blind.

He was too eager, his eyes stared at the Blue Whale coffee shop which was getting closer and closer like a chasing light, the world beyond the chasing light was dark and nothing, so he didn't see the blue whale coffee shop two or three steps away from him. , Shen Shaoyou, who was wearing sunglasses, brushed past him, and the direction he was walking towards was also a blue whale.

Shen Shaoyou stopped leisurely, turned his head, and pressed down his sunglasses, revealing his dark, indifferent eyes, looking at the back of Yu Wangran who was rushing forward in the sea like a fish, just now his He looks so happy, so fearless, as if the world is a sea to him, and there is no wall in the sea to block his direction. He is so innocent and cute, but also very ignorant.

Yu Wangran pushed open the glass door of the cafe, and saw Luo Xunyi sitting in the lobby. He was clearing up a broken cup on the table. He picked up the cup and walked a few steps away when he was called by a table of girls. Stop, the girl ordered food to him with a smile, Luo Xunyi held the tray in one hand, picked up their order board with the other, and was stopped by them again when she smiled and raised her legs to leave. The girl who ordered the meal nervously handed over her mobile phone...

Yu Wangran stared at them intently, chose a nearby table and sat down, staring at them as if watching a play.

Don't even think about it, the girl definitely wants to add him as a friend on WeChat, Luo Xunyi seems to have gotten used to it, first she smiled at the girl apologetically, then said that it is not allowed to play with mobile phones during working hours, and then apologized, Only then did he walk away with the things under the girl's gaze piercing Qiushui.

It's a pity that there are too many people in the store on weekends, and people are in a hurry. Luo Xunyi didn't walk through the lobby and walk through the corridor in front of the bar. Instead, he took a shortcut and walked directly from behind the art wall to the inner room. In the kitchen in the southwest corner, there was no Yu Wangran's seat, so naturally he was not seen.

Although it was expected that Luo Xunyi would not be a flirt, Yu Wangran was quite happy to see him rejecting Yingying Yanyan, but Luo Xunyi didn't see him for a long time, which made him a little anxious .

Finally, Luo Xunyi came out of the kitchen, went straight to the front of the pastry cabinet at the bar, and bought two cakes ordered by customers. When sending the cakes to their proper destination, they inevitably got stopped several times to ask about the menu or to order something. Yu Wangran was so busy that he wanted to roll up his sleeves and go over to help him.

After Luo Xunyi circled around for several times, Yu Wangran finally couldn't bear it any longer, took a moment when he was panting, and rang the summoning bell on the table.

Luo Xunyi and another boy who was free were chatting and resting at the console, and before they could catch their breath, the bell rang again.

"I'll go"

Luo Xunyi picked up the pen and order list, rubbed his heels and went to the lobby, walked past the art wall and saw the person sitting near the door with arms folded looking straight at him, he paused, and then speeded up towards he walked over.

"When did you come?"

Luo Xunyi stood by the table and asked with a smile.

Yu Wangran folded his arms, pursed his lips, glanced at the phone screen on the table, and said, "It's been half an hour."

"Why didn't you call me?"

"You didn't see me"

Luo Xunyi smiled: "There are too many people, don't be angry."

Yu Wangran wasn't angry at all, but his good mood was slightly compromised, and he was just a little unhappy. After being coaxed by him, his soul flew away.

"I'm not angry, you sit down and rest for a while"

Luo Xunyi quietly pointed to the ceiling, and said in a low voice, "I can't sit now, I'm watching from above."

Only then did Yu Wangran remember that the four corners of the camera were on the camera, and with drooping eyebrows, he put his hand on the table and stretched out towards him: "But I want to talk to you."

Luo Xunyi's smile became brighter and brighter, he gently squeezed his fingertips, and said coaxingly, "Drink two cups of coffee first, since there won't be many people, I'll come to fish with you, be obedient."

Luo Xunyi told him to be obedient, and Yu Wangran immediately became obedient, sat down properly, nodded and said, "Well, go get busy."