there are wolves

The first heavy rain in midsummer, it came fiercely and quickly, and the heavy rain that seemed like a disaster fell for a few hours and then calmed down. The remaining strands of roots continued to fall, and the sound of the light rain was calming down. In the night, it was like jade beads falling into a plate, and it sounded like a musical score. Yu Wangran felt that he would always remember this sound...

Lying on the bed under the dim wall lamp and listening to the sound of rain falling for a while, he walked to the balcony with bare feet on the cool floor and opened the window. The evening wind is blowing towards your face, and it also carries the special industrial flavor of the city after the rain.

"Is not It Cold?"

As soon as Luo Xunyi got out of the bathroom, he saw him wearing a bathrobe from the hotel and standing barefoot in front of the window blowing air. The cool night wind made the curtains sway.

Yu Wangran shuddered, rubbed the wet and cold cheeks blown by the wind, jumped back onto the bed step by step, and sighed sincerely: "It's cold!"

Luo Xunyi wanted to close the window, but he stopped him: "Don't close it, let's change the air, come and eat quickly, it will be cold in a while."

Ten minutes ago, Yu Wangran ordered a bunch of fast food at the 24-hour KFC next door. After the food delivery boy delivered the food, he put the plate on the bed and neatly arranged two or three rows of burgers Chicken nuggets and French fries, he was so hungry that he ate up all of his portion while Luo Xunyi was taking a shower.

Luo Xunyi was wearing a bathrobe of the same style as him, and walked towards him while wiping his hair with the towel around his neck. After looking at the food he ordered, he didn't know what to say: "KFC?"

Yu Wangran sat cross-legged on the bed, tore open a packet of ketchup and squeezed it on the plate, and finally licked the spot on his thumb, so messy and casual, it was like a different person.

"What else do you want to eat in the middle of the night?"

Luo Xunyi kicked off his slippers and went to bed with him, sitting cross-legged facing him, picking up a hamburger: "You are so self-disciplined, I thought you wouldn't eat this kind of thing."

Yu Wangran is very self-disciplined, but tonight he didn't want to be self-disciplined at all, he just wanted to do whatever he wanted, tried everything he hadn't tried before, and found that it was quite delicious.

Yu Wangran dipped a piece of French fries in some ketchup and ate slowly, and said, "If I was really so self-disciplined, would I still come here with you?"

Luo Xunyi chuckled: "That's true"

Yu Wangran raised his head and scanned the chandelier on the top, and said seriously: "I thought of a question when I was taking a shower just now." He raised his arm and swayed around the room: "Will there be a camera here?"

Luo Xunyi took a bite of the hamburger, puffed up her cheeks and turned her head to look around: "No way."

Yu Wangran looked at him very seriously, stretched out his right hand in front of him, spread out his palm, and a black round object the size of a fingernail was lying on his palm.

Luo Xunyi straightened his expression, silently swallowed what was in his mouth, looked at him for a moment, and said, "Don't worry, I'll go to the hotel owner in a moment...to make a copy"

The corners of Yu Wangran's lips twitched a few times unnaturally, and then threw the thing on him: "It's boring!"

Luo Xunyi slanted his lips, picked up the black round object, looked around, and asked with a smile, "Is this the hidden button on your schoolbag?"

Yu Wangran rolled his eyes at him: "The cat's eye lid on the door"

"You're treacherous, godfather"

"Trying to scare you, son"

Luo Xunyi rubbed his forehead and said worriedly, "How much do you have to pay for this thing?"

Yu Wangran said: "I didn't deduct it, it fell by itself"

Luo Xunyi raised his hand and pointed around randomly: "There is no camera, who can prove it?"

"From your tone, you seem disappointed that there is no camera in the room?"

"You're right, I really want to make a copy."

"...You are too shameless"

"Haha, where is this?"

Yu Wangran gave him a hard look, picked up the mobile phone and called Yu Xiangrong back. Not long ago, Yu Xiangrong called him and was hung up. It is already past one in the morning. I don't know if she is asleep.

Yu Xiangrong was still awake, and when the phone was connected, he asked him where he was straight to the point.

Yu Wangran had been with Lin Shuer earlier and lied skillfully, saying that he was at Lin Shuer's house, Lin Shuer's mother had gone to other provinces for business, and he went to be Lin Shuer's companion, and then asked her what was the matter.

Yu Xiangrong was silent for a while, then stopped talking: "It's nothing serious, it's just... Liu Xueying came to Yigao to find me at noon today"

Yu Wangran's first reaction was to look at Luo Xunyi, who was biting a French fries and squeezing ketchup onto the plate.

"Oh, what's the matter?"

Liu Xueying seemed to have become a secretive and shady figure, Yu Wangran subconsciously didn't want Luo Xunyi to get involved in the intricate relationship between them, pretending to ask in a relaxed and natural tone.

Yu Xiangrong said: "She said she wanted to explain the previous arson case to you."

Yu Wangran frowned slightly, as if hearing Liu Xueying's name was enough to make him worry, when he heard his sister say that Liu Xueying wanted to explain to him, his first reaction was to be upset.

His life has returned to peace, and Liu Xueying is already a figure he has almost forgotten in the dust. Her past, her experiences, her luck and misfortune, good and bad, he can stand by and not participate, regardless of Liu Xueying's reservations. Yu Wangran has no interest in knowing what the truth is like, and getting involved in things that have nothing to do with him will only cause trouble.

More importantly, he has classified Liu Xueying as an 'enemy', just like the nonsense policeman back then, the enemy who deliberately disrupted his life, now he just wants to stay away from these two enemies, and never commit any crime The river water is fine, why bother to create unnecessary entanglements?

Luo Xunyi suddenly touched his knee, and Yu Wangran turned around to look at him, only to see him smilingly turning the dinner plate around, a heart drawn with ketchup lying on the white porcelain plate Seeing him beaming with joy, Luo Xunyi raised his arms and made a big love gesture and smirked at him.

Yu Wangran pursed his lips and laughed, and said to Xiangrong: "No, hang up", then threw the phone aside, dipped his index finger into a little love ketchup and put it in his mouth to taste. Shaking his head and sighing: "The purity is not good, the concentration is not enough, this sauce has to be boiled."

Luo Xunyi took the dinner plate down, put his hands on the bed and crawled towards him, and said with a smile, "Why do I think this sauce is so loyal and infatuated that it's ready to be cooked?"

Yu Wangran grabbed the collar of his bathrobe and lay down on the back, smilingly put his lips up.

The two made a fuss again, then tore off the quilt and hugged each other, just chatting.

The topics are all over the place, and the other party's name is mentioned while chatting.

Yu Wangran said: "My mother chose my name from the last sentence of the ancient poem Jinse. My mother said that the word "Wang" is too silly. I don't have the blessing to enjoy the deep affection. I can only get lost in it and never end. Changed "悲" to "forgetful", I hope I can be more open-minded, not afraid of clouds to cover my eyes, always yearn for the highest level, learn to forget, people are all nostalgic animals, she hopes that I can afford it, let it go, and get it Don’t be obsessed with what you don’t get, and don’t be obsessed with what you get. There is a word in my name, and my sister’s name has a thought. The meaning is similar to mine. If you only “forget” but not “read”, this person will be hollowed out Is it? She hopes that I will not be obsessed, that I will not be obsessed with Rong, and that my life will be free and fearless."

Yu Wangran said with a smile; "You must think that the names of the two of us are a little heartless, right? No, you see, the two of us add up to 'never forget'. My mother still wants us to be affectionate and gentle people. "

The simple two names, the two people of Zhucheng Yubi, were endowed with such a profound meaning by a loving and great mother, full of blessings and verses.

"Auntie made it"

Luo Xunyi said: "You are already a gentle and affectionate person."

Yu Wangran asked how he got his name, and it sounded very strange and bland.

Luo Xunyi thought about it carefully, and finally found that there was no trace to be found, and said with a smile: "My family is not educated, maybe I took a Xinhua dictionary and used whatever word I found."

Unconsciously, more than two hours passed, Luo Xunyi was still whispering beside his pillow, Yu Wangran gradually couldn't open his eyes, and quietly fell asleep as if he had been given a lullaby. Unfamiliar, the edge of the cerebral cortex is still continuously receiving Luo Xunyi's whispers, but Luo Xunyi's voice is low and gentle, which doesn't wake him up.

Suddenly fell into a deep dream, and when Yu Wangran was awakened by a sense of weightlessness, the room was already dark. He propped his drowsy head and looked at the empty bed beside him, and found that the bedroom door was ajar, and the warm light The light squeezed in through the crack of the door and fell on the floor, and there was a faint sound of rustling outside the door.

"Luo Xunyi?"

He opened his sleepy eyes a little, looked at the bedroom door and called out.

Luo Xunyi responded to him, quickly opened the door and walked in, still so energetic and cheerful.

"Did it wake you up baby?"

Luo Xunyi squatted down beside the bed, smiled and kissed him on the forehead.

Yu Wangran lay back on the bed, looked at him and asked, "Why don't you sleep?"

Luo Xunyi covered the quilt for him, raised his eyebrows happily and said with a smile: "Just now I went down and asked the front desk, and the front desk said that if there is any damage in the room, they will be compensated at 30.00% of the room fee, so I have to put the door on the door. Put the little cover back on, you go to bed first."

Yu Wangran was so sleepy that he heard half of his words in a daze: "Quickly fix it and go to sleep" and closed his eyes after finishing speaking.

He didn't sleep peacefully that night, and not long after he closed his eyes, there were faint and small voices outside the door again, accompanied by Luo Xunyi's talking to himself...

Yu Wangran opened his eyes and glanced at the bedroom door, sat up slowly, then got up and walked to the door, opened the door and asked, "Is it finished?"

There was no one in the outside room, the front door of the room was half opened, the cat eye cover that fell off returned to its original position, and there was a screwdriver lying at the foot of the door.

Yu Wangran stood at the door of the bedroom and looked at the empty outer room in a daze. An inexplicable panic surged from the bottom of his feet to the top of his head, and he was dizzy for a moment.

He ran out of the room and saw the couple in the elevator in the corridor. The girl said to him in panic, "I saw your boyfriend just now. Is he sleepwalking?"

"Where?"

"Lobby"

Yu Wangran pressed down a few times to go downstairs and the elevator didn't come, so he ran down the stairs at a speed no less than that of the elevator. When he reached the lobby on the first floor, he saw Luo Xunyi in a white bathrobe outside the glass revolving door. A piece of coming and going traffic crossed the road.

When he ran out of the hotel, the white figure disappeared again. Yu Wangran stood on the sidewalk anxiously and dazedly looking around, and suddenly saw two people not far away pointing at the mid-air across the road.

Yu Wangran's scalp was numb, and he raised his head to look at the department store opposite the hotel, and saw a touch of whiteness on the roof of the building in the night, and there was a person sitting on the roof, who suddenly fell off him Something quickly fell from mid-air and then fell into the puddle of rainwater on the ground, splashing a circle of water.

It was a white disposable slipper.

Yu Wangran shuddered all over, his heart sank to the bottom of the valley with the slipper that fell, and the force from nowhere drove his legs towards the rushing traffic at night...

"what!"

The screams of passers-by awakened Yu Wangran from his deep sleep. He suddenly opened his eyes and found himself lying on the bed stiffly, his hands and feet were cold, and his back was covered with cold sweat.

His heart was beating so fast that it almost rushed out of his throat, his face was pale and his body was exhausted, he sat up and gasped heavily, he couldn't tell whether he was in a dream or not.

He lifted the quilt and found that the place where Luo Xunyi had been lying was already empty, the bed was cold, and the bedroom door was still ajar.

Yu Wangran opened the bedroom door and saw the empty outer hall, half opened the door, and the screwdriver lying on the ground, the panic and fear he felt in the dream just now almost overwhelmed him, he ran out of the room and saw The oncoming couple on the seventeenth floor.

"What about others?"

The girl was stunned for a moment: "I don't know, he said he went to buy food for you"

Yu Wangran took the elevator downstairs and was stopped by security guards in the lobby on the first floor.

"Sir, is it your friend who went out just now? If you want to leave, you should check out first and change back into your own clothes before leaving."

"Go away!"

Yu Wangran pushed down the security guard, rushed out of the hotel and looked at the dark department store opposite and the empty roof, and then asked the few passers-by along the way, following Luo Xunyi's direction in the quiet, sparsely lit street. Look around for traces...

It was past four o'clock in the middle of the night when Shen Shaoyou received Lou Xiaoneng's call. Lou Xiaoneng said that a boy came to the bar and asked for Shen Shaoyou by name, saying that Luo Xunyi had disappeared.

In less than 15 minutes, Shen Shaoyou arrived at the bar. Lou Xiaoneng had a premonition that it would not be a peaceful night, so he drove all the guests away and closed the door. Now there are only a few waiters on night shift left in the bar, and Yu Wangran.

As soon as Shen Shaoyou entered the door, he saw Yu Wangran sitting on the steps of the bar, wearing a hotel bathrobe and barefoot, Yu Wangran buried his head in his arms, his feet were covered with mud and sewage as if he had wade through muddy water, Like a helpless child lost in the middle of the night and unable to find his way home.

"Little friend, where is Luo Xunyi?"

Shen Shaoyou asked.

Yu Wangran stood up and looked at him with helpless and tired eyes: "He's gone, I don't know where he went, he didn't bring his mobile phone, I can't contact him"

Shen Shaoyou asked his subordinates to look for him a long time ago, and looked at Yu Wangran with undisguised contempt and sneer: "It's okay, don't be nervous, the old problem has happened again, you came in time, otherwise I will pay him back whether he lives or dies." I really can’t guarantee it, don’t worry, I’ll find it in two or three days.” He paused for a while, and approached him with a surprised expression: “Handsome guy, are you crying? Hey, it’s not like that, didn’t I say that, It’s just that he can’t die for a while, at most he’s very depressed, and he hasn’t reached the point where he wants to kill himself.”

"...what the hell happened to him?"

Shen Shaoyou sneered, turned around and sat down on the sofa, his face darkened instantly as if he had taken off a mask, and said coldly: "He is sick, do you know?"

"What disease?"

"Depression, bipolar disorder, bipolar disorder, none of his hearts, liver, spleen, lungs and kidneys are normal. Do you think he likes you when he is with you? Don't be funny, he doesn't even have behavioral autonomy. Doesn't he like you?" You, he thinks he likes you"

Seeing him looking at him with hostile eyes, Shen Shaoyou seemed to retort silently.

"You don't believe it? Well, for example, he has a dog, you know?"

Yu Wangran slowly sat on the steps as if his whole body was rusted. Rather than saying that he was calm at this moment, it would be better to say that he became very dull, and his vain and empty eyes fell loosely on the floor.

"He has a dog, I know"

Shen Shaoyou said: "The dog was stolen from the rescue station when he was sick. He insisted that the dog was his own when he was a child. He was locked in the cell and couldn't get out. He stole the dog and raised it. After a few months, he chased the dog away, because he woke up from the dream, and he no longer regarded the dog as himself, so he chased it away, and he still took morphine tablets, you know?"

"......Know"

"At the beginning of autumn last year, he was testing a car in my factory. The brakes were not installed properly, and he hit the wall. The idiot passed out for a while. When he woke up, he insisted that his whole body was crushed by the car, and he was in pain if he didn't take morphine. It’s terrible, and he became addicted after a month. He quit several times intermittently. He ate it when he was sick, and he wanted to quit when he woke up. I thought he was finally getting better, but it turned out that he found you."

".....What's wrong with me?"

"You distracted him, like that dog, those morphine tablets, took his attention away from these things and onto you, and he was in this state like a dream, in a dream He can convince himself, he can deceive himself, but dreams can wake up, and now he is awake, so he is gone, why do you look at me like this? Still don’t believe it? Well, let me ask you, he chatted with you Did you ever say that he was from there?"

Seeing Yu Wangran nodding, Shen Shaoyou went on to say, "From Xinjiang? From the grasslands? Right? He is indeed from Xinjiang, but if he told you that he grew up in the grasslands, he would be wrong. He grew up in the grasslands. It was his sister who grew up, not him. He was insane and grafted Sihua's experience onto himself. He has lived in the city since he was a child and has been to the ghostly grassland. Do you understand now that Luo Xunyi has a mental state? The question is, he doesn't even know who he is, so why do you think he likes you?"

What Shen Shaoyou said was very straightforward and ruthless, he didn't care about the feelings of the listeners at all, he used the self-righteous facts to pierce the vulnerable armor of the young man's heart, and mercilessly pushed him to a place he never expected At the end of the cliff, cut off every hopeful escape route behind him, force him to jump down, and tell him that you were lured into the fox forest described by Pu Songling by a ghost fire, where there is no goodwill and true love, just A monster in a prison can't bear loneliness and loneliness, and uses his sick sincerity to lure you to give your enthusiasm and sincerity. You send loneliness and loneliness to him, and he will accompany you for a walk in the blind forest.

Yu Wangran felt that he was like a tourist who was sent out of the forest. When he looked back, it was all lies and deceit.

The feelings of teenagers are immature, lively and full of enthusiasm. They have not yet carried so many hypocritical shells. They often show their sincerity for the appreciation of their sweethearts. Every word and every word is unpolished sincerity and ignorance. Although I am young, But my heart already belongs to you.

Although Yu Wangran is selfish, he has the courage to sacrifice himself. He thought that the person who accepts his courage has the same courage and sincerity as himself, but he finds that what he has is just a piece of paper terracotta warriors and horses, the utopia he built in his heart. , empty.

He closed his eyes, feeling unprecedented despair, as if he had built a city, in which there were row upon row of tall buildings, and suddenly one day, those tall buildings collapsed without wind, collapsed from the foundation, and turned into ruins in an instant , he sat in the ruins, helpless and sad.

Xu Xuzhi called and said that he had found Luo Xunyi by the lake in Central Park. Luo Xunyi had a high fever and was being sent to the hospital.

Shen Shaoyou hung up the phone and asked Yu Wangran: "He's in the hospital, do you want to take a look?"

Yu Wangran stood up slowly with his hands on his knees, with an ugly face like a paper-stitched person, and said, "No, thank you."

Shen Shaoyou was worried that he would be pretended to be dead by the car when he went out with such a ghostly appearance, so he asked Lou Xiaoneng to drive him back, and put him in the car himself, and said to him just before closing the car door: "Luo Xunyi is a mental patient. , There is no reason or logic for him to do anything. You think he is doing some normal and normal actions. In fact, he is dancing with the demons in his heart. You have helped him spend these two months very happily. I thank you for him, but that's not the truth, the truth is that he has a depressed, cranky, suicidal side, and I'm not telling you this to upset you, I'm helping you"

Yu Wangran said: "Thank you"

Lou Xiaoneng drove him back to the hotel. He changed back into his own clothes and carried his schoolbag on his back, just like when he came here. Then he put Luo Xunyi's clothes left in the hotel in a bag and handed them to Lou Xiaoneng, refusing him to send him back home. With the kindness of my family, I walked alone on the sidewalk at night, and the rainwater flowed into the potholes in the ground, forming puddles of water. The street lamps at night were illuminated by the rain on the ground. Bright shadows, Yu Wangran stepped in the rainwater , like walking on the bottom of the sea, those street lamps are like moons falling into the sea, he is walking from one moon to another, crushing bubbles one after another...