there are wolves

Chapter 21:

Ever since Luo Xunyi ran away in front of Luo Xunyi in the small forest at the back door of the school, Yu Wangran has been absent-minded for several days, and his abnormal behavior once made Yu's mother suspect that he had been caught by some evil spirit or had some kind of illness. Yu Wangran always looks extremely open-minded, extremely chic, and everything is superficial, so nothing can disturb his emotions and behavior. This person has always been so unreasonable, quite condescending.

What's going on these days...

Yu's mother dares not to speak out, she knows her son too well, Yu Wangran is a very proud and extremely self-centered person, his thoughts are kept in his heart, and he won't speak out for everyone's reference to come up with ideas, He himself is a very thoughtful person, and he is a person who does not listen to other people's ideas.

He picks and chooses in his heart, only some nonsense to maintain world peace and promote social harmony, so those who are familiar with him can easily find that this man is dressed like a beast, a gentle scum.

"Brother, do you know what it means for an old horse to stumble and lose his mind?"

Before dinner, before his parents were seated, Yu Xiangrong asked him like this.

Yu Wangran sat on the dining chair and stared at her speechlessly for a long while, with his lips tensed and said nothing, when the dishes came, he poured some lotus flower white into the rice, and said: "There's a lot of homework, I'll go up and eat."

Then he went upstairs, leaving Mother Yu and Father Yu staring at each other.

Yu Xiangrong snorted: "The poisoning is not shallow."

Yu's mother worried: "What's the matter? Got angry with your brother again?"

"It's wrong, I didn't provoke him"

After eating, Yu Xiangrong knocked on Yu Wangran's door with a fruit plate.

"Who?"

"I, open the door"

"...I don't want to open it, just tell me if you have something to do"

Yu Xiangrong rolled her eyes, and slapped his door with a little force. She didn't expect that Comrade Yu Wangran, who has always been on guard against the "door" issue, did not lock the door, which made her stand at the door without knowing it. What to do.

"Eh!"

With a bang, Yu Wangran slammed the notebook shut, glared at her and said, "It's too much!"

Yu Xiangrong: ...

From her point of view, her brother was sitting in front of the desk in a panic, and the moment the notebook on the desk was closed, the page she saw... didn't have any explosive scenes. It's text, isn't it?

Then he is nervous.

"You didn't lock the door"

Yu Xiangrong refuted him righteously.

Yu Wangran folded his arms and leaned against the back of the chair, the panic on his face disappeared and he returned to normal, he said firmly, "I won't eat, thank you, bring it to the door for me"

"What are you doing?"

Yu Xiangrong was a little amused: "Are you looking at adult webpages?"

Yu Wangran said lightly: "I'm thinking too much, I'm...doing a question"

Yu Xiangrong kicked off her slippers at the door and walked over with a fruit plate: "Do the question? What question? Let me see."

"Hey hey hey hey!"

Before she opened her notebook, Yu Wangran covered it tightly with her hands, startled and angry: "Well water doesn't interfere with river water, you should stop in moderation."

Yu Xiangrong looked at him calmly, with a mischievous smile in her eyes, she shrugged her shoulders and let go: "Okay."

At the end, he said: "Brother, you have been very strange these two days"

Yu Wangran covered the notebook with one hand, and leaned back the chair back with the other, and said to Xiang Rong in a posture of guarding the territory and guarding against it: "What's wrong with me? It's because you pay attention to me all the time and want to watch over me"

Yu Xiangrong's eyes widened in surprise: "Why are you talking? Are you in a bad mood? Why are you biting people!"

Yu Wangran felt that what he had said was too much, so he closed his mouth and bowed his head in annoyance.

Yu Xiangrong was really angry with him, she slammed the fruit plate on his desk, and said, "I don't want to care about you, don't be sentimental."

After finishing speaking, she was about to leave, but Yu Wangran grabbed her and made a smile and apologized, so she turned off the fire.

"Oh, by the way, Rong Rong, your English is good"

As if remembering something, Yu Wangran got up and took down an idle book from the upper shelf, took out a fruit green post-it note from the page, handed it to her and said, "Look, what does this mean?"

Yu Xiangrong pulled the post-it note out of his hand, glanced at it and frowned and said, "What, it's a mess, it doesn't have any words... SALUTARIS? Is this a place name?"

Yu Wangran shook his head, he was also confused, what Yu Xiangrong was holding was the little note that Luo Xunyi gave him not long ago, on which was written a line of English letters that looked like garbled characters, NCAN—SALUTARIS.

When he found that his English was not good enough to translate these letters, he went to the powerful Youdao and invincible Jinshan, but the translation results were all out of order, so he had to ask his sister for help.

Yu Xiangrong glanced at him suspiciously: "Are you kidding me?"

Yu Wangran smiled a little: "No."

"Where did the ghost painting come from?"

"I saw it in a magazine, do you know what it means?"

Yu Xiangrong frowned and looked at it for a while, then shook her head: "It's no fun to take it apart, is it still useful for you? I'll take it away and think about it slowly."

Yu Wangran took the note back from her hand without making a sound, tore a piece of paper, copied it, and handed the copy to her: "Hehe, thank you."

Yu Xiangrong glanced at him, took the note and went out.

After she left, Yu Wangran went to lock the door again, then sat back on the chair and let out a long sigh.

Opening the notebook, he looked at the post-it note and thought about it, and then pasted it on the base of the desk lamp. This way, the transfer note was not exposed to the light, but he could see it clearly.

The so-called darkness under the lamp may be so.

He was indeed working on a question, and on the page that he hadn't had time to close, there was such a line of titles——Test your homosexual orientation index.

He has finished several pages of questions, and finally scored 28 points, out of 100. The system gave him the comment that the probability of being attracted to the same sex is lower than Leslie Cheung's dating you. Be a straight man honestly.

When Yu Wangran did this set of questions, he didn't know what result he wanted to test. Now that the result came out, he was happy at first, similar to the sense of relief that a big rock has successfully fallen to the ground, but this subtle joy soon Disappeared, soon replaced by more doubts, restlessness, and restlessness.

He knows very well whether he is gay, who the hell doesn't even know whether he likes a man or a woman?

For such a foolish person, he set the matter on fire.

He likes girls, indeed girls, from the beginning of the development of male hormones in his body to now, he likes all girls, but...Yu Wangran understands that his desire for women is a bit weird, like When dealing with a fresh and beautiful lotus, he wants to appreciate it and get close to it, but he has no desire to pick it up and take it for himself. He is not even interested in smelling the fragrance of the lotus. Women belong to him far away. Appreciate beautiful items that should not be played with nearby, like flowers blooming in the lotus pond, jewelry placed behind glass windows, and artworks hung on the wall. You can like and appreciate them, but you can’t love them. Get close No, even in the face of the first love at this time, Liu Xueying, his heart is like a stone that can't be warmed up. Although it won't cool down, it can't be said to be hot. It's neither warm nor cold. Seven points retreat.

When Luo Xunyi confessed to him and said 'I like you' to him, Yu Wangran remembered very clearly that his head was sprayed with 'paraquat' at that time, and the stubble of weeds burned like that. A wild, that is called a lively!What a lotus wind, pavilions, water pavilions, and a fire. I have never experienced such a big stimulus in my life. It is like being drugged with ecstasy and pushed into a maze. Turning around in the maze is not organized. Turning his head into a daze, he climbed up in a daze to find you test questions to test his sexual orientation. Now that the score comes out, it's like a slap in the face and another reassurance. Science Tell him, I can't solve your problem, let's think about it slowly.

Until now, when he thought of what Luo Xunyi said to him a few days ago, his face flushed and his whole body trembled. This feeling was almost like a bad cold with a high fever, dizziness and fever all over his body, and his skin was sensitive. It seems that there is only a layer as thin as a cicada's wing, and it hurts and itches when it is touched a little.

Realizing this, Yu Wangran shuddered suddenly, calmed down instantly, and then began to doubt his steadfast 18-year-old sexual orientation.

The system told him 'you're not gay', which reassured him, but it didn't make him happy for a long time, but it confused him even more.

Then what do I feel about Luo Xunyi?

Yu Wangran found himself caught in a strange circle of logic, rationality told him 'you are not gay, don't think so much nonsense', but desire said 'I am curious about him, I want to explore him, I want to get close to him', rationality time and time again Occupying the high ground, but the desire is endlessly haunting in the bottom of my heart, you are better than me, I am one foot higher than you, rationality wants to be defeated, and at the same time desire is gradually subsiding, when desire wants to die down, rationality Run out and build up steadily.

The bottom line is that Yu Wangran is an extremely serious person, he doesn't want to be confused, he wants to coexist.

What is indisputable is that when you feel yearning and longing for a person, it is basically a match, and besides, this desire to get closer is still so strong.

It took Yu Wangran three to five days to recognize himself and smooth out his thoughts. The false propositions of man and science were thoroughly understood by him, and he simplified it to the words "human nature desires". When a person has desires, what is it? Should he live as the 'self' or the 'self'? This simple single-choice question made him want to applaud himself.

Yu Wangran stared at the black circle of light under the desk lamp for a while, and he already had the answer in his heart.

He chose 'self'.

He is very smart, as long as he is willing to convince himself, what is the principle of heaven, what is the secular ethics, all... Shit is not.

The idea was finalized, and Yu Wangran felt a gust of divine wind enter his body in an instant, blowing away the stagnant internal organs, like a person on fire who was drenched in a heavy rain, his muscles and bones stretched, and he was dripping freely.

He didn't feel any hesitation, confusion and unknown, he just felt excited, as if he had been restrained in the old land for too long, and a random door of Doraemon suddenly appeared in front of him, should he go in or not?This is not a difficult question to choose.

After convincing himself perfectly, he felt his blood was burning hot, so that his whole body was a little excited, so excited that he felt that he had to make some changes, right now, he had to!

So he opened the door and ran down, walked up to the elder who was sitting in the living room watching TV, without any foreshadowing, and said plainly: "Mom and Dad, I want to move out to live by myself for a while, and the house has been found , the rent has been paid, next week will be normal”

Father Yu: ...

Mother Yu: ...

Yu Wangran stood upright in the living room with a smile on his face, quietly looking at the frightened parents who were in a mess, and his mind had already wandered around.

Well, tonight, the eight wildernesses are surging but the palace is not moving, and the silver snake is shooting at the bullfight, auspicious.

Tonight the stars are big and the moon is round. Tomorrow must be a good day!