Cupid winks

stand up.She said, "It's better not to."

I said, "There are quite a lot of DINKs now."

I don't know why I have to have this kind of unnutritive, meaningless conversation with a stranger. It may be because I am sick, and the sick are too weak to refuse anyone's company and can only let it go.

"Why did you come to Rongshi? To work?" Xiuxiu asked me suddenly.

I said, "A man I know committed suicide by jumping into the Rong River."

Xiuxiu was taken aback for a moment, and then said firmly: "If you still remember such a bad thing, then you must not have amnesia."

I laughed.

I still remember many other bad things. For example, I couldn’t sleep all night, and I was paranoid. My head; walking on the road, when people make a sound, I feel that they are talking about me, and when the corners of their mouths move, they are laughing at me and mocking me; a black bug becomes as big as a crow, and wants to peck me For example, when I fled back home, Feng Fangfang chased me, wrote me a long letter every day, cried every day at my door, my mother kicked me out of the house, I went to the pier, I wanted to commit suicide, I wanted to jump into the river, But I really didn't have that courage, I just wet my shoes and pants; for example, I learned that Yin Liangyu committed suicide by jumping into the Rongjiang River, I got on a cargo ship, I learned to tie a sailor's knot, and I left a big lump on my back The sunburn has not healed so far. Ye Haowen was surprised and said, you have such a big birthmark on your back.I said, I got sunburned while running the boat.He touched my thigh obscenely and asked me, did I get hurt anywhere else when I was running the boat?

Xiuxiu asked me: "Do you really not need to inform your parents? Do you have their phone numbers?"

It may be that my silence deepened Xiuxiu's doubts, and she began to suspect my amnesia again, saying: "Sometimes amnesia is the loss of part of the memory, your parents, do you still remember?"

I remember that.

Two years ago, the cargo ship I was with stopped at Fengshun Wharf. I thought I might be able to go home. I should go home and have a look. I found it. My parents moved away. I called them and gave My dad, my mom, my brother, they all changed their phone numbers.I went to a bar for a drink and a man showed me a picture of his child in his wallet, his wife divorced him and took their one-month-old child, which was not his.While he was drunk and unconscious, I stole the full moon photo of the child who didn't belong to him in his wallet.

I remember that.

On my sixth birthday, I had a birthday meal at home, and my grandpa gave me a football, and I went downstairs to play with it. That night, my mother walked into my room, and I was already asleep. She turned on the light, called me up, and cut the football with scissors in front of me. I looked at the scissors in her hand and was too scared to speak.She said, don't play around with things.She asked me, do you know what it means to lose one's mind?She also said that without knowing this, it is impossible to be a doctor like her father.Under her supervision, I copied "Wanwusangzhi" a hundred times.When my younger brother was six years old, it was his birthday. We went to the hotel to have a buffet to celebrate. Relatives gave footballs, basketballs, yo-yos, and skateboards. He could play whenever he wanted, for as long as he wanted. How long can he stay at a friend's house, go to the Hong Kong Disneyland summer camp, go to the United States, go to Europe, when I was 11 years old, I got up in the middle of the night and secretly touched the yo-yo that my brother left on the coffee table in the living room, and played a few times secretly , my mother found out, she slapped me and asked me if I still wanted to be a doctor.I said, why my brother can play everywhere, can play this and that, but I can only go to cram school, learn Mathematical Olympiad, and learn new concepts.She slapped me again, told me to shut up, and said, what do children know, your brother is not a student!I'm all for your good!

My face was hurting, and my teeth started to hurt. I asked her, "Is it enough to get good grades? Is it enough to be a doctor?"

She was silent for a long time and said yes.

I studied hard, and I gave her a [-]-point test paper, and gave her all the certificates and trophies she wanted.I played desperately, playing football, playing basketball, playing billiards, playing arcade, playing cigarettes, playing alcohol, one by one girls approached me, I felt like throwing up, they were either like my mother, or they wanted to be my mother, I approached one Another boy, I can stay outside all day without going home, my grades are good enough, how many envious eyes I have earned my mother, how much money I have put on her face.My dad seldom goes home, he is too busy, too busy giving seminars, busy going to the operating table, busy being praised by colleagues, and being appreciated by patients.

I remember that.

I came to Rongshi by boat from Fengshun. I went to Yin Liangyu's house. The door of his house was unlocked. I found Feng Fangfang who had suffered a stroke in the living room. I sent her to the hospital.

I said: "Contacting them is also to make them worry, it's just a broken bone, it doesn't matter."

"You vomited just now, several times."

I said, "It's fine."

I said, "I really don't have amnesia."

Really sorry.

When Xiuxiu heard what I said, she patted the back of my hand and took out an apple from the fruit basket by the bed, which also contained a lot of dragon fruit.She peeled an apple for me to eat.She introduced herself formally, claiming to be a volunteer with the Red Cross, whose main job was to help lonely patients like me in the hospital.I think her main job is to deal with her loneliness.

The news of my hospitalization quickly spread. Xiaobao and the others came to see me. The hospital is only open for visiting patients during the daytime. They just sat down and left after they came.The day does not belong to us, we can only haunt under the guise of night.During the day, Xiaobao and the others' faces were either very white or very blue, much like walking corpses in movies and TV shows.

Xiuxiu has supernatural powers, and she can come whenever she wants 24 hours a day. She doesn’t let me eat the food in the hospital, and brings me nutritious meals, all made by herself. The pictures in books like 100 Healthy Recipes are exactly the same, and they are not only good looking, but also delicious.She would eat with me, and we would each hold a porcelain bowl, and she would sit by the window and ask me, "How does it taste?"

I nodded: "Very good."

She asked again: "Do you like it?"

I said: "Your craftsmanship can open a shop."

"Do you like it?" She looked at me happily, "Do you have any favorite dishes that I can cook for you?" She said, "You know, I wanted to be a chef before, wouldn't children have that kind of food? Have you ever grown a house toy? I have a whole set of stoves, small pots, and saucers, and what about you, what did you want to do when you grow up?"

I said, "I want to have my own house."

"Huh? You have been thinking about houses since you were a child? You are so practical." After speaking, she stuck out her tongue.I looked at her, and she asked me, "Did you live in the same room with your brother when you were young, without any living space of your own?"

I said, "We each share a room."

For a while, we had nothing else to talk about, Xiuxiu flipped through the books on my cabinet, those were brought to me by the box, and they were all the books I usually read.I cleared my throat, and said to Xiuxiu, "I'm not picky about food, I eat everything, and I like everything."

Xiuxiu put down the book in her hand and said, "Really?"

I hesitated.She said: "Hesitation means that there is something you particularly like to eat or something you particularly dislike."

"Green pepper shredded pork." I said.

"Like it or hate it?"

"like."

The next day, she made shredded pork with green peppers.I took a bite first, and then I ate it in big mouthfuls. The green pepper was a little sweet and a little spicy, and I was sweating profusely.After dinner, I fell asleep in bed, and when I woke up, I saw Xiuxiu drawing in a notebook.She is drawing my hand.I looked at her, she smiled, and yawned moderately, the sun shining on her green hair like a lifeless grass.

I waved to her, she sat on my bed, I moved to the side, Xiuxiu lay down, lying beside me.She hugged her notebook, and I said, "You can also draw, so versatile."

"I can also dance, make clay pots, and make statues," she said.

"That's amazing." I said, "So you're an artist."

She turned around, face to face with me.We were so close that my hands touched her hair, which felt like dry grass, only so brightly colored that at first glance I mistaken it for life.Xiuxiu spoke to me softly: "You know, I wanted to have an older brother when I was young."

Her head was on my shoulder, I couldn't see her expression anymore, she said: "I have a good relationship with my cousin. How old are you this year?"

"Definitely older than you."

"I'm thirty." Xiuxiu said.

"Then your life is about to begin."

"Wow, your mouth is so sweet." Her face was buried deeper.

She said, "There must be a lot of people who like you." She asked, "Do you have someone you like?"

I didn't answer, she continued to ask: "Is it one of those people?"

"those people?"

"Is it the one who is not tall and has canine teeth, or the one who has no expression and hands like a pianist, or the one who is old, always wears a bow tie, and his hair is always shiny, or... the bangs are a bit long, wearing Black stud earrings?" she said.

She was talking about Xiaobao, S, Manager Fan and Hehe.

She suddenly yelled and looked up at me: "There is another one. When I went to change the water in the vase, I didn't see his face. It was just a few days ago."

She was talking about Ye Haowen.One day, he came to the hospital with