Cupid winks

Yue's loss was not small, as the saying goes, "What you can't see is what you see", so I quickly got out of the car, lest the young master look at me and feel worse.Unfortunately, the clothes and pants were lying in a pond, wet and smelly.Ye Haowen drove away.I pulled my pants on, pinching my nose, only to realize that my shoes were in his car, and my wallet and phone were in his pants.I took a few steps outside, Ye Haowen's car had long since disappeared, so I had no choice but to walk back to the dormitory.

When Xiaobao saw me in the dormitory, he was terrified. Luoyang was also very scared when he was with him. That day Xiaobao moved to Luoyang's house, and Luoyang came to help.Luoyang asked me what happened, whether I was robbed, robbed of money and sex, and asked me if I called the police.

I had a terrible headache, and was suffocated by the smell of the gutter on the pants. As soon as I entered the door, I took off my pants, threw them on the floor and sat in the living room to smoke.Xiao Bao raised the waistband of his trousers with his fingers up and threw the orchid into the trash can.I said, "Don't throw it away, Ah Ming's pants, I'll return them after I wash them."

Xiao Bao said: "A Ming robbed your color?"

I shook my head, pulled out my pants from the trash can, and hugged them.Luo Yang said: "You change your clothes, we will accompany you to the police station to report a case."

I still shake my head.I said, "No, I met a regular customer when I was off work. He seems to have been dumped by someone. Let me vent your anger."

Luo Yang asked me: "Then you walked back like this? It took more than an hour?"

I say yes."

"Huh?" Luo Yang was surprised.He may not be able to imagine such a picture, how many people will notice him, how many people will talk about him, how many people will treat him Pointing.He might find that embarrassing.

Xiaobao poured me a cup of hot water, he pulled Luoyang, signaled him to leave it alone, Luoyang still didn't understand, he said: "Which guest? Why should he, he, he...he bullies others!"

Xiaobao took Luoyang out.Luoyang doesn't understand, but Xiaobao understands.I will not go to the police. Next time I see Ye Haowen, I will not go to him to settle accounts, nor will I hide from him. Remind him that he didn't pay the car that time.He is the consumer and he can be right and undeniable, but he will not be my god, I will not pray to him, I will not seek his protection, I will not desire his love, he is not me I can't be his believer, I won't beautify his image with my own suffering, and I won't pin my hope on him.He will not be my salvation.Feelings are temporary, Ye Haowen and I don't even have feelings.I am a point, and people like Ye Haowen—these guests are one line after another. They pass me and continue their line. As for me, we continue to gather points and come again.Upstairs, on the ground, under the snow-white uniforms, under the bright sky, people living in the steel jungle have their own rules of survival, the law of the jungle, the law of the jungle, the vain and the slavish, muddle through, everything is good, nothing has anything to do with us, We have our jungles, rooted in basements filled with purple-pink light, breathing in the night, growing instinctively and bestially; We wandering, it shelters without reserve, for this shelter we sell everything we can sell, we become its nourishment, we obey its laws: our past is nothing, we say nothing about the future Say, we take care of other people's desires, our own desires are irrelevant, we are actors lingering in the background, waiting to be the clown, the vase, the cum kit, the confidant, the parent, the sibling.

I went to the bathroom and took a hot shower, and after I finished I dabbed some bone-setting water on my wrists and shoulders.I climbed to the upper bunk, my bed, lay down, my pillow shook a few times, I took out a mobile phone from below, the Nokia with a green screen, and three missed calls on the screen, all of them were Ye Haowen The call came along with two text messages, also from Ye Haowen.Article [-]: Why don't you answer the phone?Busy?Yin Liangyu committed suicide.Article [-]: How come you never told me?

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April 4th.I went to the First Affiliated Hospital of Rongshi University to see Feng Fangfang.Usually the next day after the morning shift, I would visit her.Ye Haowen said he wanted to see me.We met at the hospital.He brought me my mobile phone and wallet, and said to me: "You check." I said: "No."

How could Ye Haowen take a liking to the hundreds and dozens of items in my wallet.But he insisted on asking me to check it, so I had no choice but to open it and find out everything, including money, ID cards, bank cards, supermarket membership cards, convenience store coupons, lottery tickets bought last week, and tickets that didn’t win any prizes.The phone is dead.

Ye Haowen asked: "Is there anything missing?"

I said, "No."

That coupon has expired for more than a year, and you can exchange it for a teapot when you collect 25 points. I collected 24 points.I threw away the coupons and lottery tickets.

Ye Haowen also brought a handful of pink carnations and a full fruit basket.Every time he came to visit Feng Fangfang, he would bring these two things with him. Carnations are sometimes pink and sometimes yellow, and there are always a lot of dragon fruits in the fruit basket. I don’t know where he heard that eating dragon fruit is very good for recovering from stroke and hemiplegia. help.

Feng Fangfang was sleeping, and we were sitting beside her bed. No one spoke for a long time. A middle-aged man on the bed beside her passed away last night. Wen couldn't sit still, so he went over to give them a hand.I use my mobile phone to play Snake—the Nokia slider phone that was placed under my pillow yesterday and was popular more than ten years ago, and received two text messages from Ye Haowen.After the family members in the next bed left, Aunt Wang, the nurse who took care of the ward, came to collect the sheets and pillowcases, and disinfected the bed and bedside table with alcohol.Ye Haowen sat back, looked at me, and asked me: "How can you still use your Nokia, why are you still using it?" I nodded.He is looking for something to talk about. He knew that I was still using this phone a long time ago. I understand that he wanted to use this phone as an excuse to talk to me about Yin Liangyu.

I didn't answer.

He asked me again, is your Nokia number not changed since university?I still nodded and didn't answer.What else is there to say about Yin Liangyu?

Yin Liangyu was an associate professor when I was in college. We were hanging out in the school library, and someone took a photo and posted it on the campus network.One spread ten, ten spread hundreds, Yin Liangyu lost his job and committed suicide not long after.

Ye Haowen and I are in the same school, one year younger than me, and in different departments.Ye Haowen added: "I always thought you kept this phone and the number because you were waiting for a call from Yin Liangyu. I heard that he went back to his hometown. I didn't expect him to commit suicide."

The gluttonous snake bit its own tail and died.I yawned, put the Nokia in my pocket, stretched my legs, stretched my arms, and stretched.Ye Haowen hesitated to speak.

Director Zhou came to check the ward, and Ye Haowen greeted him warmly with a big smile.Director Zhou said, "Xiaoye came to see Aunt Feng again."

Ye Haowen nodded with a smile: "I have to trouble the director to take care of me."

Director Zhou turned to look at me, and I nodded to him.Director Zhou brought a group of medical students on rotation, and he introduced Feng Fangfang's situation to them.

"This patient, after the first attack, was sent to the hospital a bit late. Fortunately, she was rescued. At that time, we removed the hematoma, and then she had another attack. This kind of hemorrhagic stroke... Let me ask For ischemic stroke, within how many hours should thrombolytic therapy be performed, and the effect will be ideal?"

I replied, "Within six hours."

Director Zhou looked at me, I smiled and walked out.

Hemorrhagic stroke has a higher disability rate than ischemic stroke. Feng Fangfang is now paralyzed on one side of her body, unable to speak, and her expression cannot be controlled by herself. The corner of her right eye is always hanging, and her right eyebrow is always raised high. Like a small mountain, the whole person is like a marionette. The person who manipulated her only gave her such a "hate" expression.But her will is strong, almost tenacious. The nurse said that she is now learning to use crutches, walking up and down stairs with the left side of her body that she can still control while dragging her right side.She is practicing every day and adapting.She hates wheelchairs and loses her temper when she sees them.

I went to smoke outside the inpatient department, and Ye Haowen followed me out.We talk under the trellis.Many wisteria flowers hung down from the flower stand, one bunch after another, one next to the other.Two young people took pictures of flowers and selfies beside us, looking very happy.

Ye Haowen asked me, "Why didn't you tell me that Yin Liangyu committed suicide later?"

I looked up at those wisteria flowers, their petals were delicate and thin, and the sun was shining brightly, and the veins and meridians on the petals were clearly visible under the light.The sun shines through the petals into my eyes.The sun was a bit harsh, so I lowered my head, rubbed my eyes, and said, "Everyone is dead."

Ye Haowen said, "I never thought he would commit suicide..."

I said, "Yeah, I didn't kill myself."

Ye Haowen said, "I didn't expect..."

The young man's cell phone buzzed.I said, "Don't think too much about it."

"You're kind of cold-blooded," he said.

I smiled, raised my eyes and looked at him: "It's not possible."

He looked at me and asked me, "Did your mother have a stroke because of this?"

I said: "My mother?"

"Aunt Feng."

"Oh, that's Yin Liangyu's mother."

The young people had had enough of filming and walked away.

Ye Haowen said, "I didn't recognize it."

His voice