doomed [last days]

That night, Anlu hugged Meng Shurong into his arms for the first time. The man, who was as pale as clear water, grabbed her clothes and cried depressingly.

Meng Shurong didn't say it, but Anlu knew that she would only shed a few tears in the dead of night, and never made a sound. She also woke up in the middle of the night, and then pretended to be insomnia all night long.She knew that the scar had never disappeared, and now, it was uncovered by those idlers.

Anlu has never personally experienced that kind of suffocating despair, but she has also stood on the edge of the cliff, helpless by countless hands pulling her under the abyss, and amidst countless pulls, it was Meng Shurong who stretched out his hand and pushed her away. Bundle.What she has touched is only a corner of despair, but when she thinks about it in the future, she will feel chills all over her body, and what Meng Shurong has endured is beyond her imagination.

Whether in the forest ranger station or in Shengle's camp, no one took the initiative to mention that matter.What was she thinking at that time, to take good care of Meng Shurong and never let her encounter such a thing again.If Meng Shurong doesn't mention it, then she will cooperate with her and forget about it together.

However, she didn't realize until now that it was so simple.The car accident would leave scars on his body, not to mention the injuries Meng Shurong had suffered.Meng Shurong would reject the men around her, feel uneasy and afraid. It seems that there are only a few people she trusts, but she never confides in them.

Over time, those pains seemed to disappear, and even Anlu believed it. Seeing the smile gradually increasing on Meng Shurong's face, she also relaxed in her heart.But Meng Shurong deceived Anlu, but failed to deceive herself. When the scar was uncovered again, all the disguises were also revealed.

Holding the scrawny body in her arms, Anlu imagined the pain that Meng Shurong had experienced. She couldn't think of it, but her heart ached.She didn't know what kind of mentality those people in the agricultural garden said those high-ranking words. She only knew that she should tell Meng Shurong that she was here at this time.

That night, Meng Shurong fell asleep in her arms.The cutlery used for dinner was not cleared away and was still on the table.When Meng Shurong woke up again, seeing those bowls and chopsticks, he felt ashamed.

Last night, she only cared about crying alone, didn't think about anything, and finally fell asleep with tears in her eyes.Now, after crying enough and waking up again, she suddenly remembered An Lu's "like".

Just when An Lu came out of the bathroom after washing, she looked at Meng Shurong who was there in a daze, and her heart skipped a beat. She took two quick steps and stopped beside Meng Shurong, but saw some reddish stains on her usual pale face. At that moment, he swallowed the comforting words that had reached his lips.

An Lu stammered, "Sister Shu, Shu Rong, you, you, uh..."

Before he finished asking, Meng Shurong brushed his hair, quickly said "Go and change clothes", and walked into the kitchen with the dishes and chopsticks, and the sound of washing dishes came out after a while.An Lu licked his lips, brushed his bangs that were wet from washing his face, and the expression on his face became complicated.

Meng Shurong, who was busy washing dishes, also forced herself to focus on the dishes in her hands. It's not that she didn't see Anlu's instantly disappointed expression, but she didn't dare to mention the word "like".Just like when she was in the shed in the camp, she thought, it would be good to stay by Anlu's side all the time.

The two of them went to the agricultural park together by car as usual.The probing gaze became more obvious, but Anlu held Meng Shurong's hand firmly, and stared back without showing any weakness, causing the person opposite him to hurriedly lower his head and walk away quickly.Only a very few people, like the aunts yesterday, did not hide their disgust on their faces.Facing this kind of person, Anlu could only ignore it. She wanted to rush forward to reason, but the soft and cool touch in her hand held her back.

Meng Shurong kept his head down, and his eyes were vaguely placed on the hands of the two people who were holding each other.As sensitive as she is, she can naturally perceive those unintentional gazes, but, as An Lu said, it's not her fault, she should try to raise her head in front of these people.

They knew about her past, but that was not her shame.

When Meng Shurong raised his head, Anlu seemed to have received a telepathy, and turned his head to see Meng Shurong's side face bathed in the sun.She glared at her instantly as if she was melted, and the corners of her mouth curled up.

When the two walked into the shed, Uncle Wu was already there. He watched the two walk in holding hands, and when his eyes fell on Meng Shurong's face, the wrinkles at the corners of his eyes seemed to be smiling.

"Here?" Uncle Wu said with a smile, "There is a lot of work today, we are busy."

An Lu waved his hand: "I have done any amount of work, Uncle Wu, don't worry, you and Sister Shurong can just rest, let me do it!"

She seemed to be "righteous and dignified", which made Uncle Wu laugh out loud, while the person led by her lowered his head and curled his mouth for some unknown reason.

However, Anlu didn't let Anlu do this job alone. Not long after she picked up the hoe, a few people came to the shed.

"Anlu! Sister Shurong, long time no see!" The first person to poke in was none other than Xu Jiayu.

Anlu straightened up when he heard the sound, his eyes widened: "Jiayu!! How are you?!"

Without putting down the hoe in his hand, Anlu looked at Xu Jiayu who was walking step by step, his face was full of excitement.Xu Jiayu, who was stared at by her, also seemed to be affected, looked down at her legs, and the smile on the corner of her mouth grew wider: "Yes, everything is fine!"

At the beginning, when she was sent back to the base city, she had given up all hope in her heart. Unexpectedly, after returning, the doctor in charge of her immediately had a plan.Fortunately, there were those medical equipment and three high-level doctors in the Shengle camp, so they were rescued in time.

"I heard that when you and Sister Shurong came back, I wanted to see you." Xu Jiayu took a few steps forward and said with a smile, "Qi Ya has been unable to get away, so we will come first today." have a look."

Anlu understood, Qi Ya followed Yang Yi'an into the army, so naturally he had to be busy.Those who came with Xu Jiayu were all acquainted friends in the camp. After a few people greeted each other, they replaced Uncle Wu and Meng Shurong without saying a word.

Meng Shurong stood aside, a little helpless, but the smile on his face deepened.Anlu should be like this, with his peers, smiling carefree.

At noon, a few people didn't leave. When they came, they bought food from outside and packed it in an insulated box. They wanted to have lunch with Anlu and the others.But there was no table big enough for seven or eight people in the shed, so they simply went to the canteen of the agricultural garden together.

Just use the table, and don't eat the things inside.

I don't know if it was a coincidence or what, the group ran into an acquaintance, Li Si, who, like Xu Jiayu and the others, used to be in the vocal music camp as a team member.Anlu and Meng Shurong didn't meet him after staying here for so many days, and now when they saw him again, he had already put on a set of work clothes like theirs.

Before Anlu could say anything, Xu Jiayu frowned and snorted, and skipped him without saying a word.

Anlu was startled. She remembered that Xu Jiayu was very popular and could hang out with everyone in the camp. However, looking at it like this, she seemed to hate Li Si.What surprised Anlu even more was that the few people who came with Xu Jiayu showed dissatisfaction and did not speak, and directly pulled Anlu and Meng Shurong forward.

Anlu caught a glimpse of the man walking away with his head down from the corner of his eye, and suppressed his curiosity.

Just like yesterday, they attracted a lot of attention as soon as they entered the cafeteria, just like when a star appeared on the stage, but what they faced was not a joyful exclamation.

Today attracted more attention, because there are so many new faces around them.

"Let's sit over there," Xu Jiayu suggested, she pointed to a corner, and said, "I'll talk to the staff."

After all, they are foreigners in this agricultural park, and the current situation is different from before, so they still need to be informed.The person in charge of the canteen was very talkative, seeing that they had brought their own meals, they agreed without saying a word.

After the turmoil back then, there were a large number of small shops that were still open in Pu'an City. Compared with the big pot dishes in the cafeteria, the meals brought by Xu Jiayu and the others were much more delicate.They also brought tableware, saying that they would take it back after eating, and just clean it up by themselves.

An Lu looked at the small white bowl in front of him, with a small pig's head printed on the edge of the bowl.

"Sister Shurong, eat more. I haven't seen you for several months. I think you've lost weight again." Xu Jiayu said while picking up the meal.

Meng Shurong responded, but didn't know that under the dining table, Xu Jiayu's toes lightly touched Anlu's leg.

Anlu was startled, and when he looked up, he saw Xu Jiayu's eyes seemed to be cramping, looking at her for a while, looking at the vegetables for a while, and then glanced at Meng Shurong for a while.Before Anlu could respond, his hands moved.

She put a piece of meat into Meng Shurong's bowl, and said, "Jia Yu is right, you should eat more."

After An Lu finished speaking, he noticed a few gazes. When he looked over, the people on the opposite side were holding back their smiles, their faces full of gossip.I don't know how they knew, Anlu's ears turned red, and he stared back at each other without any deterrent effect.

Not to mention them, even she herself didn't know when it started or when the protective desire in her heart changed.The protection is still there, but the liking has the upper hand.

This little episode didn't affect Meng Shurong, she looked down at the meat in the bowl, and suddenly remembered the wing root that she caught in Anlu's bowl on the first day they came to this agricultural garden.If she gave Anlu this piece of meat again, Anlu would definitely not eat it silently like she did back then. She guessed that Anlu would give her more meat.

This is the difference between her and Anlu.

Their table is really eye-catching. There are a few colorful colors mixed in the uniform work clothes, which is very eye-catching.When everyone had finished eating and got up to clear the table and was about to leave, the good guy came again.

Xu Jiayu turned her head only after someone grabbed her arm.There was a little impatience on her face, but looking at the aunt with a simple and honest face, Xu Jiayu licked her lips and said politely: "Auntie, what do you do?"

"Little girl, do you know those two people?" The aunt said in a low voice, and glanced at An Lu and Meng Shurong from time to time.Seeing that Xu Jiayu nodded her head, her face was full of worry, and her voice became melancholy. She first sighed, and then said: "You know about that person, right? She was given... oh, Little girl, I think you have a pretty face, you must be a sensible child, you persuade her, take her sister and leave here, go to a place where no one knows, find a man to marry. Everyone here already knows , Alas, your reputation is ruined, and you still come out to show your face..."

"Your reputation is ruined!"

Before the aunt finished speaking, Xu Jiayu yelled, and the politeness she had just squeezed out was thrown behind her in an instant.She looked at the group of people behind the aunt who were staring eagerly, and understood that this was a representative of being pushed out.

Xu Jiayu raised her voice: "Auntie, are you Geng?"

"63..." The aunt just came back to her senses, and subconsciously answered when she heard Xu Jiayu's words.

"63, Old Master Confucius said that sixty is pleasant to the ears. I don't think you are good enough for this level." Xu Jiayu changed his voice and continued: "And you are getting old, you should be at home with your grandchildren, how can you go to agriculture? Come to the garden, do these hard work, is it because your children are not filial?"

The aunt's complexion changed, and her pretended kindness turned into a bitter look. She opened her mouth, but before she could say anything, Xu Jiayu interrupted her. "And that auntie, why are you wearing your work clothes like this? It's so irregular!" Xu Jiayu's surprised expression was vivid, as if he saw something unclean, "Hurry up and tidy it up, what does it look like?" What does it look like?!"

"Ouch, my grandson, has your grandson gone to school? The schools in the city have just resumed, and they must not be able to take care of all the children. I advise you not to go to the theater here, and go to find out! Otherwise, you will regret it later. of!"

Xu Jiayu seemed to be chatting with a group of uncles and aunts in the courtyard, and he was chatting with all the uncles and aunts in the cafeteria, and no one could get in the way.Except for the aunt at the beginning, she didn't name her name, just looked in a direction and babbled a few words, making the group of people feel that every word was talking about themselves, but it didn't look like they were talking about themselves.All of them could only be flushed with anger.

Not only her, but the young people who came with her also left one by one.They were quick-witted and easy-talking, and even An Lu was taken aback when he heard this.

After the unilateral suppression was over, Xu Jiayu showed remorse, and muttered in a low voice: "When I was young, my grandma told me that if I chew my tongue, I will be sent to hell. I just said so much, tsk, alas... ..."

No one spoke at all, even if she muttered to herself, the words still clearly fell on everyone's ears.The young people held back their laughter, but the group of elders and aunts were stunned. After they realized it, Xu Jiayu and his group had already left.

The spectators had no more fun to watch, and all dispersed, but the atmosphere of the agricultural garden seemed to have changed.

After coming out of the cafeteria, An Lu's expression of wanting to ask but not daring to ask fell into Xu Jiayu's eyes, making her laugh.But she straightened her face, looked at Meng Shurong, and said, "Sister Shurong, we..."

"You know it, don't you?"

There was no dissatisfaction in Meng Shurong's affirmative tone, her face was calm, in Xu Jiayu's view, she looked like a wooden man who had no emotion and no pain.However, Xu Jiayu nodded, and then solemnly said: "Sister Shurong, we will always stand by your side."

"What are you guys..." An Lu interjected, she became curious when she was in the cafeteria, Xu Jiayu and the others came prepared.

"What Li Si said, we met Li Si on the street yesterday, he was like a gossip, commenting there. We scolded him first, and then thought you are here now..." Xu Jiayu said The expression was a little disdainful, "Boss Yang gave me your address before, I planned to visit you and Sister Shurong when you were on vacation, and didn't want to disturb your work. But I saw Li Si's reaction, so, I was very angry , There are so many uncles and aunts here, and they like to control the world, we are worried that you will be wronged, so we are here today."

After she finished speaking, she snorted again, and continued: "They really are nosy, one by one, they don't talk about their own feudal thoughts, but they want others to follow them... It doesn't make sense to deal with such people. You can only fight with an eye for an eye!"

The few people on the side also complained about each other, and the expression of gnashing teeth fell into Anlu's eyes, and she only felt warm in her heart.As she responded, she secretly glanced at Meng Shurong. The other person still had the same smile, but Anlu always felt that there was more light in those eyes.

After the group of people finished speaking, Meng Shurong said, "Thank you."

Her voice was very soft, but when Xu Jiayu and the others heard it, her heart suddenly became heavy.I don't know how to describe this feeling. This is what they should do, and this is what this society should look like. Neither they nor this society should accept this "thank you".

Before Xu Jiayu left, he called Anlu out.

"Are you with Sister Shurong?" Xu Jiayu cut to the chase, and An Lu's face flushed when she asked in one sentence.But she was not awkward, she blushed, shook her head and said, "No, you, how did you know..."

Xu Jiayu glanced at her, and said with disgust: "You are too obvious, but anyone with eyesight can see it." After listening, she glanced at the group of people waiting for her not far away, Only then said: "You are not together yet, you are not embarrassed to confess your love, are you?"

"Of course not." With a swollen face, Anlu recounted what happened yesterday lightly, and then said, "I said I like her, sister Shurong doesn't think I said that just to comfort her, does she?"

"No way, I think Sister Shurong is embarrassed, you should take the initiative. Besides, your confession was too hasty, without any preparation at all, and you just said like you, without any sense of ceremony," Xu Jiayu hated iron Bu Chenggang, "Also, you are still called sister, do you want to be sister Shu Rong's lifelong sister?"

An Lu shook his head violently: "How is it possible?!"

Her voice got a little louder, and she froze for a moment, then lowered her voice and said, "I'm used to it... You, you mean, I'm ready to confess my love again?"

"That's right, you haven't seen it in TV dramas, even if it's not a marriage proposal, the confession must have a sense of ceremony."

"Too."

Xu Jiayu looked at her thoughtfully, patted her on the shoulder, and said, "We have saved the mobile phone number, and you can call me if you have anything to do. But to confess to Sister Shurong, I will I think you have to think for yourself."

"Ok, I know."

"Also, although the previous things are in the past, if it were me, it would be difficult for me to get out. We are just here to support you, but sister Shurong has to rely on herself. Please accompany me She, walk out with her. And that Gangzi, I've inquired about it, he didn't do anything wrong, so he can't be taken away directly, but there are people we know here in the agricultural garden, and they have already said hello, and they will protect him You and Sister Shurong, I will visit you often when I have time in the future."

After hearing Xu Jiayu's words, Anlu choked up a little: "I see, thank you Jiayu."

"Thank you for what, we are all friends, I'll treat you to dinner after you and Sister Shurong are together."

Anlu had heard the word "off the single rice" when she was in college, and when she heard this word again now, she felt as if she was suddenly connected to her previous life.

"Okay, I will work hard."

After sending Xu Jiayu and the others away, Anlu took a deep breath outside the shed before opening the thick curtain and walking in.Meng Shurong was holding a small shovel. After seeing her coming in, he looked at her carefully for a while before looking away.

Uncle Wu has been sitting beside him, smiling, looking at the two children, thinking of something, the smile on his face is a bit desolate.

What Xu Jiayu said, Anlu has always taken it to heart, but now it is not the same as before. It is not like when you can buy what you need online when you are in school, and it is not like you can go to the mountains to look for it when you are at the forest ranger station.They have been living such a monotonous life, and in such a life, it is easy and difficult to create romance.

After Xu Jiayu and the others came, the atmosphere in the agricultural garden changed a bit.Some young people didn't bother to take care of this matter, but suddenly they looked like "Xu Jiayu" on the upper body, eloquently speaking.They usually put up with the nagging of the group of uncles and aunts, but after seeing Xu Jiayu's operation, they followed suit one by one, and the nosy people were so angry that they couldn't speak.As for the younger and older ones, Uncle Wu dealt with them, and most of them also changed their attitudes, leaving only some hard knots, dragging out old ideas, and fighting the world in the agricultural garden, but they couldn't get a spark.

And Gangzi seems to be invisible, his reputation in the agricultural garden is not very good, now that Xu Jiayu is making a fuss, the people in the agricultural garden will not look at him, no matter how much he wants to make trouble, he will not be able to fight against safety The group of powerful people behind Lu and Meng Shurong.

As time went by, few people talked about the incident he caused. More and more people stood by Meng Shurong and Anlu's side, and the light in Meng Shurong's eyes seemed to become brighter and brighter.But Anlu still couldn't figure out how to confess his love romantically.

An Lu was holding a carrot, and the knife in his right hand was delicately carving on it.She learned from her grandfather when she was a child, but she only learned some fur. After being able to carve a bunny, she became complacent and never went to school again.An Lu thought, if she had studied hard then, would she be able to carve a rose now...

When Meng Shurong came out with the food, he saw the little girl holding two small red rabbits in her palms. She thought they were extremely cute even without taking a closer look.The carrot that Anlu took out from the kitchen just now had disappeared. Meng Shurong looked at the two rabbits, one big and one small, and said with a smile, "You have learned this before."

"Well," Anlu licked his lips, then suddenly reached out and handed the smaller one to Meng Shurong, "Sister Shurong, try it."

The little rabbit had already been handed to Meng Shurong's mouth, and she saw clearly that the little rabbit was still a bit rough, but it was just in the shape of a rabbit, but when she heard Anlu let her taste it, she couldn't be cruel. "You carved it with great difficulty, I..."

Anlu didn't say anything, but his face was full of persistence, as if if Meng Shurong didn't eat, she was going to make a fuss.Seeing her like this, Meng Shurong had to listen.The little rabbit carved out of carrots naturally tasted like carrots, but Meng Shurong felt as if he had eaten carrots dipped in honey, it was too sweet.

She was still a little bit sorry, after all, it was carved out by Anlu one by one, but before she could say anything, she was blocked by Anlu's words.

"The little rabbit is me. If you eat the little rabbit, I will live in your heart."

After Anlu finished speaking, her ears turned red from an angle Meng Shurong couldn't see, but her expression remained unchanged. She picked up the slightly larger rabbit and took a bite.Without saying anything, he looked at Meng Shurong with bright eyes, which was self-evident.

Meng Shurong's face was already red, and she half opened her mouth, not knowing what to say.After so long, she thought that Anlu would never mention that phrase of liking again.She wouldn't mention it either, but she, who was content with the status quo, felt as if she had been thrown into a stove, and her whole body was scorching hot.

"Sister Shurong, I like you, I like you very much." Anlu swallowed the carrot in his mouth, stood up and looked Meng Shurong in the eyes, and said, "It's the kind of liking that I want to kiss and touch you. I know , you are still afraid, and I am also afraid."

She was a little incoherent, as if she said whatever came to her mind.She lowered her head, looked at the white hands she held in her palms, swallowed her throat, and continued: "You were the one who protected me back then, you were my sun, but I didn't want to stay behind you all the time." , I also want to be your sun, I want to be with you and protect you. If, if you think I am not strong enough, then let’s protect each other, okay, we support each other and accompany each other. But I don’t want to be your Sister, I want to be your girlfriend."

After An Lu finished speaking, he suddenly felt relieved.She said it, she said everything that was on her mind.Without organizing words in advance, without flowers and candles, Anlu just held two rough carrot rabbits and herself in front of Meng Shurong.She couldn't wait any longer. She forgot all the romance and sense of ceremony. Anlu took Meng Shurong's hand, raised her head again, looked at Meng Shurong, and said, "I will work hard to become stronger, so, so, Shurong, can you be my girlfriend too?"

Already sweating in the palms of his hands, Anlu felt his scalp tingle, and his whole body was nailed to the floor.Except for the beating of her heart and the sound of swallowing, she seemed to be unable to hear any sound.But the next second she heard it, she heard Meng Shurong say that there is no need to work hard.

"You don't need to work hard," Meng Shurong's voice was still a little choked, looking at the helpless little girl in front of him, he finally showed an unreserved smile, "You are already my sun."

Meng Shurong could never say no to Anlu.But now she knows that she will never be able to reject her heart.

It was dark outside, but the two of them waited for their own dawn after all.

The author has something to say:

The sub cp is over.Writing about Meng Shurong is very complicated, contradictory and idealistic, and the writing is not good, but I hope to give Meng Shurong a better ending.