The No. 1 women's clothing boss in national clothing

Yu Yao woke up once in the middle of the night, and there was nothing around him. After groping through the quilt for a while, he got out of bed and opened the door.

The living room was pitch black, and the light outside the window cast folded light trails on the ground through the blinds, and there was no sound.The tall figure sat on the sofa with his head slightly lowered, probably asleep, with bright arcs of light reflected on his side face.Yu Yao understood that he didn't want to sleep with him.When passion is burning, rationality is weak, and what you do when you calm down is the behavior that is in line with your original intention.Yu Yao turned and went back to the bed, pulled the quilt over his head, and curled up in a ball in the hot and humid space, feeling very sad.

When he got up, He Jinping was already eating. Yu Yao sat down, not feeling well, so he stood up holding the bread plate, and the sound of knives and forks was crisp. After a while, He Jinping said, "Don't come to me anymore. "

Yu Yao had a mouthful of toast in his mouth, chewed it slowly, swallowed dryly, and did not answer.

He is not without self-respect.

"I won't pursue the matter of lying to me. If you think you can't offset these two times, you can think about what you want and tell me." He Jinping put down his fork and picked up the mellow coffee, "I will stay here for the next two days. Here, hurry up, I have already booked the ticket."

Looking up at the complicated ceiling, Yu Yao felt that his heart was squeezed into a small ball like a piece of bread full of holes in someone's hand.He grabbed his hair and said softly, "Find me a suit of clothes that fits me first."

He Jinping stared at the table, as if his emotions had exploded for no reason: "Why are you like this?"

Yu Yao lowered his head and put down the dinner plate.

"Do you have any morals? Pretending to be a woman and cheating a man, refusing to admit that I did wrong, lying and lying all the time. I really thought you were very good to me—from home to here, you take care of me the most, but I didn't expect you to be this kind of person." He clenched his five fingers and punched the table, "Why did you do this to me? Playing with me? Knowing that I still have feelings for Xue'er, you wear women's clothes to seduce me, don't you? !" He was stunned for a moment, "Why are you so shameless!"

Yu Yao wiped off the bread crumbs on his hands with a paper towel, strode towards him, held his cheek and covered his lips, and said sincerely, "I also think I'm very shameless."

After being pushed away abruptly, Yu Yao stopped not far away, clutching the corners of his clothes with both hands, and spinning around in a hurry.He opened his mouth but it was difficult to make a sound. He said with difficulty: "But I am born like this, and my parents are very disappointed in me. I lied to you in the game because you are good to me. No one has treated me for a long time. I'm so good, but why can't I like you. I'm despicable, shameless, how can I tell you not to go away." He gasped, "But I just want to do my best, even if If you want to leave, I tried my best to keep you. After you left, I still miss you. You go, it has nothing to do with me, because it is wrong for me to like you. "

His mind was in chaos, all his memories and thoughts turned into sharp knives, the knife pierced his heart, and every bloody cut was announcing his despicableness and failure.Yu Yao sighed, tears rolling down his cheeks, "I'm older than you, I've accomplished nothing, I'm good at games, I don't have anything, you like girls who are like dreams, they are so different from me No, but I want to like you even so. If only you liked me a little bit."

"There is definitely something wrong with your brain." He Jinping said after being silent for a while.

Yu Yao's legs softened and he knelt on the ground, and he actually listened to it. Yes, I still have problems in my mind.He lay on the sofa and cried for a while, scratching his heart and lungs, when he heard the door slam, He Jinping slammed the door and went out.

He got up, sat on the sofa and panted for a while, dizzy and numb, and could hardly think. It took him a long time to regain his sanity, and then he put on his nightgown and went back to the room he had booked.

**

it rained today.

Yu Yao stood at the window and looked out. It was gray outside, and the drizzle was blowing in the cold wind.He went to the table and picked up the canvas bag he had packed, opened the door and went out.Holding an umbrella, following a fixed route, the security guard greeted him when he left the community, and asked with a smile, "Mr. Yu, why don't you go to work when it's raining?"

Yu Yao smiled with him, stood beside him and chatted for a while, before stepping into the rain.The subway station was crowded with people, the heat was mixed with the cold, and the smells were mixed.Yu Yao put away his umbrella, found a seat and sat down, staring at the billboards and neon lights on the car window in a daze.He still decided to look for He Jinping, no matter what, he had to look for him. Sometimes the effort a person can make is too limited, but he doesn't regret it.

Walking along the street, Yu Yao had already felt the flow of people coming and going on the side of the road. He Jinping's coming here was like a dream, and returning home was the time to wake up from the dream.His hands were soaked with some rainwater that drifted in, and it was cool. He stopped, removed the umbrella and looked at the dull and heavy clouds. Raindrops spewed out from the boundless lead clouds, piercing his emaciated cheeks like needles.

Put on your umbrella and walk in the countless shadows.

Passed the ID card to the front desk, she looked up and handed over the room card.Yu Yao took the bag and went to the elevator entrance, pressed the floor and waited for a while before squeezing in two people.

Taking a casual glance, one of them rested his hand on the railing.That hand was well-knit, slender and slender. Looking along the hand, the wrist watch was elegant. The white sleeves leaked a little from the cuff of the suit. The suit was ironed and the tie was meticulous.The man looked sideways and talked to another man in the same suit and leather shoes, his eyebrows were slightly frowned, and his voice was clear and sweet: "Obviously, you can go to the company to have a look before you come here." The tone was somewhat reproachful.

Yu Yao was stunned for a moment, and the photo of Guhan Pinxiang flashed through his mind quickly.

The man next to him had regular facial features, and his brows were full of heroic spirit. He curled the corner of his mouth and smiled inexplicably, and his gaze fell directly on him: "The business trip is still long, what's the rush."

He sneered lightly: "It's you who always say I'm not serious."

The voice lowered: "That was before."

Yu Yao took two steps back and looked at the man wearing the watch again.He still looks very young, with beautiful features between his brows and eyes, but his temperament is sharp and clear.That's similar to He Jinping's, a temperament that hasn't been baptized in society.

Gu Han seems to be the same age as He Jinping, only 23 years old.

The three of them were on the same floor, the elevator door opened, and Yu Yao was about to follow out, but stopped in front of him, and just raised his head, and saw He Jinping standing at the elevator entrance.

He should be planning to go down, he raised his eyebrows and glanced around, his eyes fell on people of his age.The man stretched out his hand and walked towards him first, and he reached out to shake it, and the two of them patted their shoulders like old friends.

"Coincidentally, are you here to play or not?"

"I'm at work, how about you?"

"I'm on a business trip, are you going to work?" Qingrun's voice suddenly smiled and nodded, "I just said I haven't seen you for a long time. Some time ago, Song Yan rented a mountain repair driveway and said that he would borrow your car to support the venue." , I don’t know if I told you.”

Politely: "Yes, it's a waste to park in the garage anyway, I've already borrowed it."

"Next time Li Jingyun's birthday party comes out to play together?"

He Jinping nodded: "Okay." Pointing to the elevator, "I have something to do going down, I'll talk to you another day."

The two rich second generations smiled at each other, after exchanging pleasantries, they moved forward separately.

Yu Yao stood beside him without moving, and He Jinping walked into the elevator as if he hadn't seen him.

Yu Yao really didn't expect him to know Gu Han—probably only in reality, not in the game.Sighing, he followed the two of them, and even the booked room was close - the hotel's most expensive luxury suites are on these floors, there is nothing wrong with it.Seeing the two people entering the same suite, Yu Yao seemed to push the door impatiently when he closed the door. He walked over, the door was a little thin, there was a lot of movement inside, and rustling conversations could be heard.

It's broad daylight...

I didn't expect Gu Han to do the same.

After going to the next room, Yu Yao took a shower and changed into women's clothes again.This time it was a white long skirt, the inner layer was a tighter inner petticoat, which reached below the hips, and was covered with a thin white embroidered gauze, which made the outline of the body and the lines of the long legs faintly visible.Yu Yao put on a wig, stroked her princess-cut bangs lightly, and smiled reluctantly in the mirror.

Now his cheeks are thin, his expression is haggard, and his appearance is haggard. No matter how he looks, he looks sick and crooked, as if he has been drained of his spirit.Yu Yao thought of Gu Han's youthful splendor and brilliance just now, and his heart ached: Maybe I'm not as good-looking as before.He took out his cosmetics to put on makeup, and took a rest for a few minutes, as if he was very tired.When applying the lipstick, it was slightly crooked, and the red fat poured onto the cheeks, with a mouth full of blood.Yu Yao stared blankly at the mirror for a while, feeling deeply hopeless, even prostitutes have flair to show off, so what else does he have.

He sat on the sofa for a while, and finally regained his composure a little.This Saturday, He Jinping should not go to work. He went downstairs just now. He doesn't know when he will come back.After sitting for more than half an hour, I estimated the time to stand up and push open the door.Walking to He Jinping's door, he raised his hand and knocked.

After waiting for a while, he knocked again, and the door opened. A young man with green hair was standing in the doorway, with colored headphones hanging around his neck, looking at him slightly surprised.

Yu Yao was also stunned, and took a few steps back.

The young man scratched his head: "Are you looking for He Jinping?"

Hearing this voice, Yu Yao's calm heart trembled suddenly, before he could speak, he turned around and wanted to leave.

Zhou Yu turned his head and shouted inside: "Old He, there is a girl looking for you, so don't play with her mother."

There was a loud sound of tables and chairs being dragged inside. Yu Yao saw He Jinping striding towards him with a nervous expression on his face. Yu Yao understood and slowly backed away.He didn't want Zhou Yu to know about the two of them.

Zhou Yu went in without knowing it, stared at Yu Yao, pushed open the door and walked out. He was wearing a loose Southeast Asian floral shirt, ripped jeans, and a row of black diamonds on his ears. How wet.He nodded slowly, with a strange look on his brows, coughed twice, and said hesitantly, "It's... Teacher Yu?"

Yu Yao felt as if he had been rotten, how could such a disgusting pervert deserve to be called a "teacher"?He lowered his head in fear and turned to run.

His arms were tightly grabbed, and Zhou Yu's voice was gentle and gentle: "Mr. Yu, you look pretty like this. Why are you going?"

Intense sadness and pain hit his heart instantly, he is so distorted now, the brilliance of his career is almost the only straw to support him, will even this be torn to shreds now?

All the strength in his body was exhausted, he fell forward suddenly, his waist was hugged tightly, Zhou Yu leaned very close: "Damn, what's wrong? Teacher, hold on..."

Yu Yao looked back at He Jinping. He stood at the door and watched coldly. He was not moved at all until Zhou Yu reminded him. He was even a little impatient: "What do you care about him?"

Yu Yao just deeply felt his own failure.He pushed Zhou Yu, feeling deeply sorry, but without saying a word, he went back to his room, changed all his clothes and pants, washed his face carefully, opened the door and went downstairs with his things.Never do this kind of thing again, he told himself, enough is enough.Rushing all the way to the house like chasing after his life, his soul seemed to be drained, Yu Yao fell on the sofa, his eyes were full of white lights, and he fell asleep.

Waking up once in the middle, it was dark outside the window, Yu Yao's eyelids were heavy, his head was sticky and blocked, and he fell asleep again.He had a dream, in which he turned into a ghost, waiting for someone beside an old wall covered with silk tree leaves, but he never waited. With tears.When he woke up, it was cold to the bone, and Yu Yao got into the quilt and lay there for a long time, his hands and feet were still cold, as if he had been soaked in cold water.

The mind is clear, but the body is tired.

He had a minor illness, nothing more than a headache, cough and stuffy nose, probably a cold.He was alone on the bed, as if he was a completely isolated living entity, with no one to take care of and help him, he fell asleep in a daze and woke up with a headache.The tongue is burnt, the lips and teeth are sticky, full of bitter taste.Yu Yao lay in bed for a day or two, as if he had experienced a big life and death.

That evening, while he was coughing and boiling water, he heard the door rang, and looking back, it was his mother who had come.

Mother Yu is a middle-aged woman wearing glasses, her hair is tied into a bun, and her facial features are relatively sharp. When she was young, she was a famous ice beauty, and now she is a famous cold-faced teacher.She was wearing a long floral dress, carrying a lot of heavy bags in her hand, and her whole body was slightly bent to the right. She hesitated at the door and walked in slowly.Putting the keys and bag on the table, rubbing her fingertips against her waist slightly: "Yaoyao, mom is here to see you."

Yu Yao was still carrying the kettle, put it down and walked to the table, "Sit down."

Yu's mother looked up at him, took off her eyes and wiped them, then put them on again: "Why are you so thin?"

"Not thin, it's normal." Yu Yao pulled off the pajamas on his body, the underwear was empty, and he knew he had lost weight, "Not thin, this clothes look like this."

Mother Yu took a deep breath: "I heard they said that you are sick, otherwise they would not dare to come to see you." She turned around and opened the fruit bag on the table, and handed an apple to Yu Yao: "Do you want to eat it?"

Yu Yao shook his head.

Flicking her fingers, she opened another bag of supplements and snacks, took out two more bags and wanted to hand them to him, but put them down first.Turning to look at him: "How are you doing?"

Yu Yao's throat was hoarse, and he nodded, "Hello, I just caught a cold a few days ago."

She stood up and carried another bag full of meat and vegetables to the kitchen: "Mom will cook for you."

"Thank you mom." Yu Yao just wanted to say that he had eaten, although he hadn't.Shut up, walked slowly to the door of the kitchen, her head was still aching and painful, leaning against the door, watching mother wash vegetables and busy.A few times I wanted to help, but was gently pushed out: "Go to bed and lie down."

Yu Yao turned around and walked to the bedroom, lifted the quilt and sat on it.He closed his eyes and fell asleep for a while, then woke up soon after, unable to fall back to sleep, got up from the bed and stood at the door of the kitchen to watch his mother cooking.He often did this when he was a child. When his mother saw him, she would turn around and pinch his face, and sometimes stuff fried meat into her mouth.However, since the relationship with my parents deteriorated, I rarely go home several times a year.

The kitchen is steaming hot, the pork rib soup in the pot is boiling, and his mother's craftsmanship is also very good.Yu Yao has hardly touched a grain of rice in the past two days, and now he feels a little hungry.Mom was cutting tomatoes, talking while moving the knife: "Yaoyao, have you encountered any problems recently?"

The door frame was cold and hard, a bit harsh: "No problem."

She groaned, her voice hesitant: "Then have you fallen in love?"

Yu Yao froze for a moment.

She seemed to be talking to herself: "Anyway, your Aunt Zhou told me that her son came out of the closet some time ago - I didn't tell her about you. Anyway, if you are hard to find, just meet him, I You and your dad are also researching these things—we all know what 1 and 0 are, but it’s not easy to ask if it’s right, you can go and see it when the time comes, and we’ll see if it fits.”

Yu Yao was silent for a while.A few years ago, when he first came out of the closet, the family was in a tense situation. He also said that he severed the relationship between mother and child. His parents seemed to have a unified voice and absolutely refused to acknowledge his sexual orientation and feelings.He felt a little cold, so he tightened his clothes slightly, and at the same time touched his own bony bones: "What Aunt Zhou——"

She turned around in a hurry: "It's just—"

Yu Yao waved his hands: "Don't worry about my affairs."

He let out a rather disappointed "Oh".

It was at this moment that Yu Yao suddenly realized his cruelty, and softened his tone: "Only I know this kind of thing best. I just don't want you to get into troubled waters. I can't help you anyway. I know you are doing it for my own good." .”

She nodded slightly, and Yu Yao suddenly saw the white hair beside her ear.She said: "Your dad and I are old-fashioned. There are many things we don't understand. I didn't know much about your things before. I made a lot of mistakes and I need to correct them." It’s true, live and learn. Maybe you can’t keep up, but you still have to understand you.” Turning to chop the vegetables, the voice on the cutting board said, “Can you forgive mom and dad too?”

Yu Yao lowered his head, his lips were dry and unable to speak.

The voice above was a bit chattering, as long and deep as if it could not be finished for three days and three nights.Yu Yao felt that her mother didn't talk so much before.

"I don't know how you two fell in love. When I came here just now, there was a young man standing by the door. He was tall and handsome. He was still there when I went out to throw out the garbage bags. If you have any misunderstandings, please be careful. Say it."

Fingertips trembled suddenly, Yu Yao was cold all over, and suddenly raised his voice: "Just now?"

Yu's mother turned around and her face changed: "Is it really looking for you?"

Yu Yao turned around and ran towards the door, twisted the handle and pulled the door open, but there was no one outside.The mother behind chased after him: "He has been standing for a long time! Ask him and he won't talk."

The dark corridor was like a huge mouth. Yu Yao stepped out, the voice-activated lights turned on, and the cold and white floor tiles walked from the stairs to the elevator. No one was there.Yu Yao suddenly suspected that this was an illusion, turned around and slammed into his mother.Yu's mother was out of breath: "Let's go? It's only ten minutes since I threw the garbage bag here. He was there when I came, and he might have stood there for more than an hour. Why did he just leave? He didn't come in to see You, what's going on with this young man..."

Yu Yao's eyes turned pale, and his voice was very low: "What does it look like?"

Maybe it wasn't He Jinping, why would he come back to me?

My mother tried her best to describe behind her: "Tall, very handsome, with a high nose bridge and double eyelids, wearing a long windbreaker, like a god, and very young..."

The voice suddenly fell silent, Yu Yao squatted down and picked up a bag by the door, and looked at it against the weak light of the voice-activated light—a bunch of keys and a game mouse.

gone.

he's gone.

Throwing his fist hard at the wall, Yu Yao grabbed both ends of the paper bag and began to tear it. The paper bag was so tough that it didn't break even his fingernails.Yu Yao threw things on the corridor, rushed into the room, plunged into the bed, and tore the quilt with his fingers.The fingers were painfully pulled, and the muscles and bones were rattling.Yu Yao held his head and tore his hair desperately. His scalp seemed to be torn apart, and it fell densely on the white quilt.

He cried: "What am I doing alive! What is the use of my life?!"

Yu's mother hugged him from behind, Yuanyuan's crying came: "Yaoyao, what's wrong with you?"

Yu Yao rolled over on the bed, clutching his chest desperately, biting the quilt with pain in his teeth.After so many days of shame and humiliation, fear, regret and self-blame, and the sudden warmth he felt today suddenly stimulated his heart, he buried his head in the quilt and cried loudly, "Mom, what is the use of my life? Everything I do is wrong Yes! All these years, I was born wrong! Why do I have to like him? I hate myself to death!"

Mom cried indistinctly: "Yaoyao, you have suffered for so many years..."

There was a sudden silence in his mind, crying became the only outlet, endless negative emotions flowed away from the tears, his love, hatred and pain gradually became dull, and even the memory seemed to be a thing of the previous life.

He must have been crying for a long time, and finally, like a corpse, he was pulled up from the bed by his mother and leaned against the head of the bed.With a dull and calm expression, my mother fed the rice with a spoon one bite at a time, and coaxed the medicine to be fed after blowing it cold.When her mother went out to put the bowls, Yu Yao turned her head and looked out of the window. It was the thick night and the cold winter.

He didn't care what the cheerful song sounded, it was his mother who played it.She tidied up things for him in the house, and talked while tidying up: "It's no big deal, you were born to me and my father, and you are much more beautiful than other children since you were a child. There have always been many people who like you, right? You When I was young, I took you to fortune-telling. The grandpa said that if you were a girl, you would be destined to marry into a wealthy family and enjoy the glory and wealth in this life. But if you are a boy, your marriage will be bad in the future and your children will be thin. I don’t believe him. Even so, so what, you live with your parents, you can stay with us for the rest of your life."

Yu Yao blinked slightly, and his gloomy eyes suddenly shone with a little light.

My mother stood by the desk, opened the album of women's clothing, looked at it, and said, "Yaoyao, you look good in a skirt, better than your mother when you were young, but this one is too short to wear." She put down the booklet, Walking to the closet, I saw a row of skirts.She didn't know that Yu Yao wore those skirts over and over again, just to try out the best one.

She burst into tears, she couldn't understand these things, but she didn't want to think that her son was a pervert.She wiped her tears and said softly: "Some skirts are wrinkled, mom will wash them for you."

Yu Yao trembled slightly, opened his eyes wide, looked in her direction, and shouted, "Mom!"

All the memories came back to life again, Yu Yao's eyesight was clear, and he smiled with the corners of his mouth: "Mom, throw it all away."

Mom packed her things and opened the door to go out. Yu Yao got off the bed and walked to the window wearing slippers.The sky was thick and dark, with occasional lights flickering, and several passenger planes flew by.Whether He Jinping will be on these planes is unknown.Everything has become infinitely far away.

He took a breath of the damp and damp air, suppressed it and let it out slowly, as if he had ended a dull and stagnant first love.

The author has something to say:

This article must be revised

Gu Han and Piao Piao came out, let’s write another episode

This chapter... is too self-written